bad youth

Zou Yang still didn’t get out—oh no, he still didn’t leave, he followed me with a stern face, as if he had figured out me, knew that I was swearing harshly, but he wouldn’t hit him. —after all, he has just done me a great favor, and treated me with respect all the way.

"Wang Hao, you have to go, you have to go." Zou Yang circled to my left for a while, and for a while to my right.

"Why do I have to go?" I squinted at him.

"Because..." Zou Yang said with a smile all over his face, "Li Shanman will go too..."

My head froze for a moment, like a sudden break.Immediately afterwards, his hands and feet were also numb, and he remained motionless.

Li Shanman, the girl I had a crush on in junior high school.She is the most popular girl in our class, many boys including me like her, including Sun Dafei, Zhang Weining, Jiang Zirui and others.When she was in junior high school, Li Shanman was always surrounded by boys, and she was treated the same as Xia Xue when she was in Chenggao, and they were all recognized quasi-class flowers.In every class there is a particularly popular girl and a particularly popular boy. —Like, every class has a particularly bullied student.

Li Shanman is a very cute girl, she speaks softly, smiles sweetly and treats others politely. She likes to wear pink clothes, wears shiny hairpins on her hair, and her shoes are always clean.She is the goddess in the hearts of the boys in the class, and also in my heart.

It's just that because I'm the most bullied boy in the class, Li Shanman has always been very indifferent to me, and even kept a certain distance from me deliberately, just like I was a stinking mess left by a drunk on the side of the street. The vomit of a man—everyone avoids it.

Once in a Chinese class, the teacher asked the students to recite each other's texts, so everyone took the opportunity to rush to their seats.That was the first time I was so close to Li Shanman. I carefully sat one seat away from her, pretending to concentrate on memorizing the text, but kept looking at her from time to time.What a beautiful girl!I sighed in my heart, her eyes were shining like fireflies, her eyelashes were as soft and slender as bird feathers, her face was as white and smooth as a doll...

Such a beautiful girl, I never expected to have her, even if it is like now, I feel very happy to be able to look at her up close.As I saw her more and more times, Li Shanman finally discovered my existence and evil intentions.She frowned slightly, showing a bored expression, stood up holding the Chinese book, and walked to another place - at least ten seats away.

There are ten seats between us, but the distance of more than ten meters makes me feel as far away as ten galaxies.

I don't know how many boys had the same experience as me when they were young, watching the girl they liked flirt with other boys wantonly, but I didn't even have a chance to say a word to her.It hurts to think about it.In that class, I, who was ten positions away from Li Shanman, and ten galaxies away from Li Shanman, shed tears for four or ten minutes.Later, the Chinese teacher pulled me up to recite the text, but I couldn't recite a single word because of my stuttering, and mocking laughter was everywhere in the classroom.But what is this, compared to Li Shanman's indifference and alienation towards me, what is it?

Even so, I am still obsessed with Li Shanman, just like a humble beggar is obsessed with a noble princess. I put all my feelings for her in the first three years of junior high school on her alone.The plot of wearing a famous brand and driving a BMW in front of Li Shanman will only exist in my fantasy forever.I know, I know all this...

I poured out my love in the diary and described everything about her in the most beautiful words.Until Lu Xiang turned out my diary and read it aloud in a lewd tone on the podium, which made the classmates laugh so much that Li Shanman blushed and pointed at me and said, "You are not allowed to read my diary." Write me again, you disgusting person!"

My self-esteem was severely trampled on the ground, like a fish thrown on the beach, dying and waiting to die.

That was the last sentence Li Shanman said to me. She had a gentle tone and a sweet smile to everyone, but she was cruel and cold to me.Li Shanman never bullied me, but her indifference also tortured me.But I didn't lose my way because of this, I was still obsessed with her, and I felt extremely happy to see her.Even though there will be an expression of disgust on her face in the next second, I still peek at her again and again like drinking poison to quench my thirst.

Until I met Xia Xue in Chenggao, the girl who had the same treatment as Li Shanman in class, did not stay away from me because I was bullied and excluded, but encouraged me and supported me again and again, not only letting me go out The haze of being bullied for three years also allowed me to get out of the pain that Li Shanman brought me.I thought I had forgotten about Li Shanman, but when Zou Yang uttered the name in my ear, it still brought back memories that I seemed to have long forgotten.Do I still love Li Shanman?The answer is of course no.I love Xia Xue, I love Tao Zi, I have two such good girls, and even...

How can I still love Li Shanman?

But for some reason, I just wanted to see her again.In the third year of junior high school, I was like a humble beggar secretly looking at the noble princess, as long as she found out, I would get vicious white eyes in exchange.This time, I must look at her openly; this time, I must look at her with a smile on my face; this time, I must look at her calmly...

This time, after seeing her, I must turn around and leave gracefully, saying goodbye to a painful memory!

&&&&&&

Seeing me in a daze, Zou Yang seemed to have an answer in his heart.He said softly beside him: "Wang Hao, this class reunion, everyone has to pay 100 yuan, but I have already paid it for you..."

I ignored him, still sinking into the memory.Zou Yang patted me on the shoulder, stuffed an envelope into my pocket furtively, and said in a low voice, "Wang Hao, I apologize to you on behalf of Sun Dafei and the others. Take this little money and treat it as a The compensation they will give you. Don’t sweep the streets these days, it’s so hard and tiring. I’m leaving, Wang Hao, on the fifth day of the Lunar New Year, don’t forget that it’s at the VIP Hotel in Beiyuan City.”

I didn't notice the details of Zou Yang stuffing the envelope into my pocket, but I clearly heard the words "VIP Building".It was a high-end hotel located on the busiest section of Jiefang Street in Beiyuan City. There had never been a car under 50 yuan parked at the door.I heard Zou Yang laughing at the side and said: "The group of mountain cannons have to go to the VIP Hotel. In fact, each person can only eat the cheapest food for 100 yuan. But let them do it. If they want to learn more, they will go with Let's go together."

I still ignored him, my mind was full of Li Shanman's appearance, and I probably won't be able to get out for a while.

"Wang Hao, then I'll go first. Don't forget on the fifth day of the Lunar New Year. Dinner will be served on time at twelve noon. Don't worry, whoever dares to say a word to those grandchildren, I will scold him ten times. Until I apologize to you!" Then he patted me on the shoulder, turned and left.

I understood what Zou Yang meant, and he just wanted me to accept his affection so that the relationship with me could be improved.But I don't have time to worry about these, I still just stay where I am and think about Li Shanman.The girl who made me secretly love for three years, and the girl who brought me three years of pain with indifference.What do you look like now?

I didn't know how long I stood there, when a gust of cold wind blew and made me shiver.I picked up the broom on the ground and numbly swept the street.Finally, the work was about to be finished. Just as I was about to pack up my tools and go home, I suddenly heard a heroic voice from afar.

"Son~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`"

There was a burst of ecstasy in my heart, and I looked up, only to see two middle-aged men striding towards me in the distance of the road.One of them is naturally my father, and the other is Yu Chengfei's father.The pace of the two was very fast, and they rushed to me in a short while.Both of them were wearing the green military overcoats that construction workers often used in winter. They were tall and straight in general, with messy stubble on their chins, and their hair was disheveled like a bird's nest. A strong masculine breath.

"Haha, good son, are you cleaning for your mother?" My dad said happily.

"Yes." I nodded and said to Yu Chengfei's father, "Hello Uncle! Happy New Year Uncle!"

Father Yu laughed: "This is asking for New Year's money from me. I won't give it to you now, but I will give it to you on New Year's Day!"

"Okay." I touched my head and said with a smirk, "Dad, uncle, do you two work together?"

My dad said: "Yeah, didn't I tell you last time? Lao Yu and I were laid off together, and then went to the construction site together..."

"What nonsense!" Father Yu interrupted my dad before he could finish speaking, and said angrily, "It was the factory director who made you laid off. I took pictures of the table for him, and in the end he laid me off too." Yes! Then we went to the construction site together!"

My dad was also in a hurry: "Old Yu, do you speak with conscience? You were the one who was laid off first, and then I went to pat the factory manager's table and called him a bastard, so he laid me off too." !"

"Nonsense!" Father Yu yelled, "It's pure fart!"

"Nonsense!" My dad yelled, "Go to hell!"

Two middle-aged people quarreled on the street like this. It was not the first time that they quarreled like this. After the quarrel, they still went to drink with their arms around their shoulders, so I was not worried at all.It's just that I really want to find out who was laid off first, and who slapped the factory manager's desk, and I don't know which of them is telling the truth and which is lying.But from my standpoint, I must have believed my dad, right...

How can there be a reason why a son does not help Lao Tzu?So I chimed in and said, "Uncle, don't be so loud. You are not good at business. You must have been laid off first. My dad is usually mild-tempered, but he gets angry when something urgent happens. He must have slapped the factory director on the table." .”