She is in the fog

He Xi's elementary school deskmate was called Sun Tingyu. He always enjoyed bullying his classmates but didn't dare to cause trouble for He Xi.
Because He Xi was sunny and lively at that time, never afraid of anything, and most importantly, she was very strong and her hits hurt. No one could get away with anything at her hands, and the boys in the class didn't bother to mess with her.

Unfortunately, during the summer vacation of 2004, He Yanyan died in a car accident.

After Sun Tingyu learned about this, he clapped his hands and laughed: "He Xi's mother is dead, He Xi is a wild child without a mother!"

In a rage, she swung her fist and hit him in the nose, causing blood to flow immediately.
But she felt that this was not enough, so she fought with the other party, beating him so badly that he was beaten to a pulp and went to complain to the teacher crying.

Of course, the other party's parents were called in. Since some classmates testified that He Xi was the first to attack, the other party's parents never gave He Sicheng a good look.
It was not until He Sicheng agreed to pay the medical expenses that the other parent dropped his arrogant tone.

It happened that the head teacher had important matters to deal with at that time. Seeing that the attitudes of both parents had calmed down a little, he asked them to wait in the office for a while and went to the principal's office.

After the head teacher left, Sun Tingyu's mother looked at the bruised Sun Tingyu, and complained with both heartache and dissatisfaction: "Well, you let this child apologize to my Xiaoyu, and this matter will be over. This child is really cruel, the little girl is not well-behaved, and she learned to hit people! Such a heavy hand!"

He Sicheng glanced at He Xi and motioned for her to apologize.

Unexpectedly, He Xi, contrary to her usual obedient self, refused to apologize and argued, "I did nothing wrong! Why should I apologize? It's Sun Tingyu who should apologize!"
Then she stared at Sun Tingyu, her eyes full of hatred.

Sun Tingyu's mother was unhappy, and she pulled Sun Tingyu up again, pretending to be puzzled and asked: "What did you just say? You want my Xiaoyu to apologize to you?"

"Ask him what he said! Let him decide for himself whether he should apologize or not." He Xi stared at Sun Tingyu and said viciously.

As soon as she finished speaking, a heavy slap hit her in the face. He Xi looked at He Sicheng in disbelief, with tears flashing in her eyes.

"Apologize." He Sicheng's tone was cold, and it was impossible to tell whether he was happy or angry.

He Xi raised her head and tried to put the tears back into her eyes. Then she explained: "He...he said I was an orphan and a wild child without a mother."

"You are." He Sicheng said expressionlessly.

He Xi stood there in a daze for a long while before he reluctantly squeezed out the three words "I'm sorry" from between his teeth.

After the matter was settled, He Sicheng took He Xi home and warned him, "This is the first time, and I hope it will be the last time. If you cause trouble again, I will never care about you again."

Although He Xi was young and inexperienced at that time, he understood the meaning of this sentence.
It seemed that no one supported her anymore.

Later, Sun Tingyu was so angry that he secretly gathered a small gang and teamed up to bully He Xi. He Xi wanted to fight back at first, but when she thought of what He Sicheng said, she was afraid that her father would really ignore her for the rest of her life, so she endured it. Even though she was covered in bruises, she refused to complain to her teachers and parents.

Long-term patience did not win Sun Tingyu's mercy. Jackals are always greedy and insatiable. Instead of stopping, they became even more aggressive.

When He Xi was ten years old, she picked up a stray tabby cat that was on the verge of starvation next to a trash can. She knew that He Sicheng and Chen Quxin would never allow her to take the small animal home, so she built a nest for the tabby cat in the flower bed downstairs in the community and fed and cared for the cat with great care. The cat finally survived the difficult times.

As time passed, He Xi and the kitten developed a deep relationship.
She treated the kitten as her own family and would tell it quietly whatever was on her mind. The kitten would respond enthusiastically, licking her palms gently or rubbing its little head against her calves.

During that time, He Xi regained the joy and hope in life.
She knew that there was another little kitten in this world who needed her.

But this matter was known by Sun Tingyu.

The residential complex where He Xi lived was relatively high-end, and outsiders were not allowed in without an invitation. Since Sun Tingyu and his friends couldn't get in, they teamed up to deceive Li Xingyu, who lived in the same community as He Xi, and asked her to take the kitten out.

When He Xi returned to the community, he found that the kitten was missing. He ran around the community in a hurry, looking for it everywhere. Li Xingyu saw him and asked, "Are you looking for the kitten?"

She nodded.

Li Xingyu said: "The kitten is with Sun Tingyu, you put it..."

He Xi was anxious, and before Li Xingyu could finish, he interrupted and asked, "Where is he?"

"By the creek."

When she heard the news, she immediately started running like crazy.

When Li Xingyu saw her reaction, he secretly said that something was wrong and immediately followed her.

He Xi rushed to the river without stopping. After seeing the dying kitten in Sun Tingyu's hand, her eyes almost turned red. She gritted her teeth and said fiercely: "Give it back to me!" "Okay, I'll give it back to you right away." Sun Tingyu said with a smile, and then threw the kitten into the river in front of He Xi.

He Xi's face turned pale instantly, and she rushed to the river to watch. Seeing that the kitten was still struggling slightly, she was extremely anxious but helpless.

The ancients believed that human nature is inherently good, but some people are born bad. Sun Tingyu is the same age as He Xi, but he is no different from the devil.
He saw He Xi squatting by the river, so he kicked her into the river, saying shamelessly: "If you want to save it, you have to go into the river. How can you save it on the shore?"

Li Xingyu was shocked to see Sun Tingyu kicking He Xi into the water. He immediately wanted to shout for help, but Sun Tingyu and his group covered his mouth and dragged him away.

At that time, He Xi couldn't swim, and Sun Tingyu kicking her into the river was tantamount to murder. Fortunately, two fishermen passing by found He Xi and rescued her and the kitten, so she was saved from death.

But the kitten first suffered inhuman torture and then was choked by the river water. Even if Hua Tuo were alive, he would be powerless to save it.

Li Xingyu finally broke free from them and ran quickly to the river. On the way, he met He Xi who was returning.

Li Xingyu will always remember the scene of that day, and how the ten-year-old He Xi, soaking wet and distracted, walked slowly and aimlessly while holding the kitten's body.

At that moment, she seemed to understand the true meaning of "the walking dead".
……

Seeing that He Xi said nothing, Li Xingyu felt even more guilty.
Even if she scolded her, beat her, or hit her on the head with a beer bottle, she would never complain.

Although she was deceived by Sun Tingyu at the beginning, "I didn't kill Boren, Boren died because of me", if she hadn't taken it out, it would not have died.
So, she can be considered as one of the executioners.

That's a life!

Fortunately, He Xi did not drown, otherwise she might have been even more resentful.

But she still regretted the tragic death of the kitten. She was always thinking about it, and she dreamed about it at night, so she often dreamed of the kitten chasing her soul and demanding her life.

Later, she finally couldn't bear it anymore, so she posted on Tieba asking for help.
A friend who claimed to be an "expert" sent her a private message and said a long and confusing speech, saying things like "animals are spiritual", "the master is stained with its scent", "the master is its bridge across the world of the living and the world of the dead", "the sins you owe can be redeemed by the master", and so on, which really scared her.

So she followed the guidance of the "expert" and wrote a love letter to He Xi.

Then she sent a private message to the "expert" in the forum: [Master, I have already handed her a love letter, what if she doesn't agree? Can I still continue to atone for my sins? ]

The "expert" replied: [Fool, I am Sun Tingyu. ]

These eleven simple words broke down Li Xingyu's psychological defenses, and from then on, her temper became extremely strange.

After listening to Li Xingyu's narration, He Xi finally understood why she burned paper money on her desk in her second year of high school. The two words "He Xi" on the paper money should be incomplete. Perhaps the complete text should be "He Xi's kitten".

At this moment, the first thing that came to her mind was a long paragraph: "It trusted you, so you could hold it. You betrayed its trust and caused it to die innocently. And because of your own selfishness, you wrote me a love letter, causing me to be bullied by Ning Xiaoduo for almost five years. Can a simple "I'm sorry" make up for it?"

However, she did not say this out loud.
Because she knew that the person who actually killed the kitten was Sun Tingyu, not Li Xingyu.
The person who actually bullied her was Ning Xiaoduo, not Li Xingyu.

Just like He Sicheng at the beginning, the culprit was obviously the driver who drove under the influence of drugs and fled the scene of the accident, but he insisted that it was He Xi who killed He Yanyan, causing He Xi to suffer tremendous psychological pressure at a young age.

Because she had been caught in the rain herself, she knew the power of these words.
Only those who still have a conscience will be condemned by their conscience, while those who have committed many evil things will not take it to heart at all and will not even feel a trace of guilt.

Finally, she sighed and said, "Although I don't have the power to forgive you on its behalf, you didn't want to hurt it subjectively, and you paid the price for it. It's been so long, there's no need to blame yourself anymore."

"Then..." Li Xingyu raised his head, "You really don't blame me? I only found out later that Sun Tingyu knew that Ning Xiaoduo liked me, so he deliberately asked me to write a love letter to you, and then he informed Ning Xiaoduo... In fact, after she caused trouble for you, I went to find her, but she said that unless I agreed..."

"Stop talking."
He Xi didn't want to talk about that tragic experience anymore. She stood up and planned to move to another secluded corner. When she passed by Li Xingyu, she suddenly stopped, turned her head, and said calmly: "It's all in the past. Don't mention it anymore. I forgive you. Get up."

Can all the suffering and humiliation we have endured really be written off so easily?
It's hard.

But the college entrance examination is over.
It's time for her to start a new life.

(End of this chapter)