rose ashes

There was silence for a long time until Luo Yang started coughing. Ye Gu walked to the bedside with some water.
While patting her back gently.

Slowly calming down, Luo Yang looked at him and just asked: "So...what do you think? If you have any concerns, I will withdraw--"

Before he finished speaking, Ye Gu laughed, "Great minds think alike. I also wrote a letter."
After that, he took out a blue envelope from behind and handed it to Luo Yang, "So, as for quitting, don't even think about it."

Luo Yang felt it was a little unreal, her expression was dazed, her eyes were instantly covered by a palm, her eyelashes lightly brushed over the warmth of the palm.
A kiss fell on his lips, and a happy smile was heard in his ears: "See you tonight, Ah He."

!!!
Luo Yang covered her face. The series of operations did not give her time to react. It was so unfair!
Looking at the envelope in her hand, Luo Yang pursed her lips and slowly pulled it out.
Because the paper has been folded for a long time, the writing on the creases has long been worn out, but it does not hinder normal browsing.

His handwriting is as vigorous and powerful as he is, but also bold and unrestrained.
-
Seeing you in person
To be honest, I still can't understand such a pretentious thing as writing a letter, but the funny thing is that I am sitting at my desk, racking my brains to write a letter to you.
Ah He, we have known each other since childhood. I don’t know when it started, but I felt it was natural for you to be by my side, so I also took it for granted that you would never leave. However, with the death of Aunt Yang Yue and your changes, I found that nothing is permanent, and I have been very naive all along.
I'm sorry to bring up your sad story. Ah He, I want to say that I will change and become better. I know you like mature and responsible people, so I will become such a person. It may be slow, but can you wait for me?
Okay, I admit that I am still not good at writing letters, and my words are a bit incoherent. It's just that on the day when we finished taking graduation photos, you stood at the school gate waiting for the rain to stop, and I was thinking, the rain always falls when it wants to, for no reason. It would be great if someone could hold an umbrella for you, but what if that person is me? That day, before I had time to give you an umbrella, you were taken away by someone.
I want to say that I can give you my jar of candy, my umbrella, and everything.
I mean, I like you, Ah He, how about you? Do you like me? If not, can you try to like me?
叶故
2009.6.15
Luo Yang read it bit by bit, his fingertips brushing over the time under the signature, his vision slightly blurred.

She didn't know that Ye Gu at that time was thinking about how to enter her world, but at that time she was planning how to leave him and leave everyone's world.

The moment Luo Yang's fingertips relaxed, the letter fell to the ground and turned over, but several years, months and dates were visible.
2010.3.12
2011.3.12
2012.3.12
2013.3.12
……
2018.3.12
It covers every birthday of Luo Yang during the nine years he lived and studied abroad.

/ / /
Consulting Office——
Today was the day that Mr. Fil came to see the patient. Luo Yang waited downstairs for a while before seeing him. He was still sitting in a wheelchair, but he looked much more refreshed than when he first met him.

"Mr. Shen looks good." Luo Yang said standing in front of the elevator.

Shen Mo responded slightly, "Doctor Luo seems to be trapped in love."

Luo Yang was slightly surprised. Shen Mo didn't look like someone who had experienced love affairs for a long time, which was a little beyond her expectations.

Shen Mo pushed the wheelchair into the elevator and Luo Yang pressed the floor button.

"I just feel very sorry for someone." Luo Yang said cryptically.

Shen Mo raised his eyes slightly to look at her, then slowly retracted his gaze, "If it's about feelings, then I can only say that it can't be repaid, and it doesn't need to be repaid. This is all voluntary for everyone, such as waiting, and also like giving up."

From the day she met Shen Mo, Luo Yang felt that he was an extremely mysterious person. After getting to know him, she found that her feeling was indeed not wrong.

"So is Mr. Shen waiting or has he given up?" Luo Yang smiled and slowly followed Shen Mo's wheelchair out of the elevator.

The corridor was silent, with simple and soft paintings hanging on the pure white walls.
Shen Mo did not stop, and whispered for a long time: "Waiting to give up."

The consultation went smoothly, and at the end, Luo Yang gave Shen Mo a ticket to a photography exhibition.
"This is a photography exhibition that will be held nearby soon. It's about youth. Our next consultation will be about this. You can go and take a look first. Of course, if you don't want to go, that's fine too."

Shen Mo lowered his eyes with a hint of gloom under his eyelashes, and reached out to take it.

After seeing Shen Mo off, Luo Yang returned to the office. Thinking back to the letter he had received that morning, he didn't know how to respond for a moment. It was strange. He felt as if he had gotten what he wanted, but at the same time, he felt very guilty.

She did not go on the graduation trip that day. She didn't even dare to think about how Ye Gu waited alone at the station from dawn to dusk, and how he called her over and over again without getting tired of it.

She pulled out her phone card on the plane, thinking that everything would have nothing to do with her from then on, but she didn't know that there would be people who were unwilling to give up and insisted that there was a reason for her leaving.
Waiting for her with such a vague thought.

"Doctor Luo, someone ordered a lot of desserts."
The receptionist pushed the door open and Luo Yang regained his composure and raised his eyes, "Who is it?"
The receptionist didn't know, so he just smiled and shook his head, "Why don't you go down and take a look? There are quite a lot anyway, enough for everyone in the consultation office."

Luo Yang had a vague idea of ​​the name in his mind, so he took out his cell phone and typed while walking.
Luo Yang: Did you buy it?
Ye Gu: It’s me.
Luo Yang: Why did you suddenly order these?
Ye Gu: It’s not sudden. I’ve wanted to do this for a long time. I’ll come to pick you up later. Don’t go with others.

Luo Yang chuckled, thinking she was a three-year-old child and shouldn’t go with strangers.

Luo Yang: Okay, thank you Mr. Ye.
Ye Gu: No thanks, my wife, you’re welcome.

"Doctor Luo, come and try this dessert, it tastes really good! It seems to be the new Michelin dessert!"
Luo Yang looked at the box left for her on the table, reached out and picked it up. The plain-looking Kululi, which exuded the aroma of rum, smiled knowingly.

A little girl nearby saw this and whispered, "Doctor Luo, try mine, it looks more delicious!" But Luo Yang declined, as she knew that this was the one Ye Gu gave her alone. Soon, a message came on her phone, it was from Ye Gu.

Ye Gu: How is it? Is it better than wine?
Luo Yang blushed and replied: Well, it's OK
Ye Gu: Remove “still OK”.

Luo Yang was about to go back when a little girl came over with a smile on her face, "Who is it that makes our doctor Luo smile so gently~"
His eyes moved teasingly over Luo Yang, and suddenly fell in the direction of her left hand, his pupils filled with shock.
“Is this the yellow diamond that was sold at a sky-high price at the Sotheby’s auction?”

Before Luo Yang could respond, the little girl's exclamation attracted the attention of others, and they all looked over here. Luo Yang didn't like to show off, so he just slowly put his hand away.
"No, I just bought it from a street stall. It looks a bit like it. You can buy a pack for ten yuan."

The little girl was skeptical, "Really? Then I'll go see it when the time comes. It's really beautiful!"

Luo Yang smiled and didn't explain further.

At 5:20, Ye Gu arrived at the door of the consultation center on time. When he came down, Luo Yang was coming downstairs. In the setting sun, the man stood at the door with his back to her. His black windbreaker showed his youthfulness. He was very tall, and the ankles of his pants were clearly visible. The white sneakers did not look out of place with that outfit.

Luo Yang's eyes were blank for a second, and then he quickly walked towards the door.
She suddenly remembered that when they were in school, Ye Gu always liked to pat her shoulder unexpectedly to scare her. Luo Yang pursed her lips and tiptoed over. Just when she was about to touch his shoulder, Ye Gu suddenly turned around for some reason. Luo Yang was startled and her high heels went astray.

Ye Gu was quick-witted and quick-handed. He reached out and pulled her, and she fell into his arms. The breeze lifted the corner of her windbreaker, slowly and gently.
The two pairs of eyes stared at each other for a long time. Luo Yang's eyelashes trembled slightly, and her red lips moved slightly. Ye Gu turned his face away, asked her to stand still, and reached out to touch the back of her neck to ease the atmosphere.
"You are testing my determination by looking at me like this."

Luo Yang was slightly startled, looking at the back of his head, and suddenly remembered that he had teased her very arrogantly in the morning. She suddenly smiled, rolled her eyes, walked in front of him with her hands behind her back, tilted her head and smiled: "Brother, you are shy~"

Ye Gu was slightly startled, staring at me with a stubborn face: "I, I didn't! It's only been three months, you are not allowed to call me brother!"

As he spoke, he quickened his pace and walked towards the car. Seeing his back seemed to be fleeing in panic, Luo Yang found it interesting, so he followed him on purpose and reminded him of his past: "Who told me before that he was the younger brother? Who said that the younger brother in the family knows everything?"

Ye Gu's ears turned red, and he argued: "Stop talking, don't talk anymore, I'm not your brother!"

Luo Yang found Ye Gu's embarrassed look so adorable that she laughed heartily without any concealment. The clear laughter made Ye Gu unable to help but turn around to look at her.
Facing the last rays of sunlight, Luo Yang's hair fluttered as if it was inlaid with gold. Everything around her was out of focus, but she was the only one shining, which lasted for a long time in his eyes.

The route became more and more familiar, Luo Yang looked at Ye Gu.
"What are you doing at school?"

As Ye Gu gently turned his wrist, the car stopped and he took out a pair of sneakers of the same style as the ones on his feet from the back of the car.
"I'll take you to see my old self."

While Luo Yang hesitated for a moment, Ye Gu had already taken off her shoes familiarly and put on her sneakers with great patience.

After that, he didn't allow Luo Yang to hesitate. He held her hand and got out of the car. Uncle Liu saw him snap his fingers, and the car sped away. Luo Yang opened her lips slightly, as if she wanted to say something but stopped herself.

Ye Gu: "Don't refuse."
Luo Yang held his forehead helplessly, "But I didn't bring my phone with me, what should I do if I want to buy something?"
Ye Gu waved his phone, "It's okay, I brought it."
Before he could finish his words, a low-battery reminder popped up on his phone and the screen turned black.

Luo Yang: “…” She shouldn’t have believed him.

Ye Gu was stunned for a second, then calmly put away his phone. "It's okay. We didn't use phones much at that time."
Luo Yang sneered, "That's right, I wonder who got caught with a cell phone every day at Guangmingding."

Guangmingding was their grade director. He was quite old and had no hair. The students spontaneously gave him a nickname that suited the situation, "Guangmingding".
Over time, naturally, people stopped calling each other by their names.

Ye Gu did not argue, and leisurely walked with Luo Yang along the tree-lined avenue, with lush greenery spreading across the ground.

A No. 14 bus was passing by and stopped at Xia Lei Road ahead. Ye Gu pulled her over.
He introduced: "Let me introduce you, this is the bus my wife used to take after school."

Luo Yang looked at his serious expression and didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "I know."

Ye Gu seemed to have heard nothing, and continued to talk as he pleased. At the end, he seemed to realize something.
He added very seriously, "Oh, by the way, my wife likes to sit in the first row on the steps, near the door and window, because she can see the cat's nest opposite."

(End of this chapter)