Pampering the sea

Responding to Chu Zhiling was the usual silence, this time she gave even a glance, turned away, and continued to read the book in her hand as the old monk sat still.

The pages are flowing in the hands, and the sound of flipping books in the room is rustling, light and faint.

Chu Zhiling was stunned for a moment, then smiled and said, "I see that this thing looks pretty, and it matches Madam very well."

He went around behind Xin Yue, and held the jade hairpin. Her long hair was flowing smoothly like silk through Chu Zhiling's fingertips. Pick up her tiny chin.The magnolia flower half-opened on the hairpin between Xin Yue's satin-black hair, the originally slightly pale face glistened with the light of the hosta, making it look very clean and beautiful.

Chu Zhiling smiled sincerely: "Bright eyes and bright teeth, looking bright, very beautiful."

Xin Yue's delicate eyebrows frowned, and her chin moved slightly to escape his grasp. She took off the hairpin from her head, put it on the table in a gentle manner, and continued to read the book in her hand.

Chu Zhiling's eyes darkened, but he still kept a slight smile: "Don't read it, it hurts your eyes." He pulled out the book in Xin Yue's hand.

"Are you finished?" Xin Yue looked at him, with a touch of alienation and impatience in his clear and tired eyes.

There is a pink crabapple plant in the porcelain vase by the window, the color is like jade and the stalks are half-opened. The wind blows over and shakes gently. The plum fragrance makes people feel cold unconsciously.

"I didn't ask anyone to track down Xiachuan Yizhi's whereabouts, and I won't send someone to kill him."

He paused, then continued, "I heard he's not dead yet."

Xin Yue gave a soft "hmm", bowed his head and stopped answering.

"No matter what, I won't touch him again."

Xin Yue lowered his eyes, looked at the low table legs, and never raised his head.

"I apologize to you, don't make me angry again, okay?"

Xin Yue raised his eyes and glanced at him, but remained silent.

Seeing her like this, he asked helplessly, "What do you want from me?" His voice was very gentle, "Say it."

Xin Yue moved his lips slightly tiredly: "There's nothing to say."

"So you must kill the child?" Chu Zhiling frowned.

Xin Yue shook his head: "Just now I wanted to get rid of the child, but now, I can't be cruel."

Her child will be a warm, cute little life, like Nana, full of vigor and vitality, who will pester her to tell stories, let her poke her blisters, or ask her to sew clothes, When the weather is good, I take her out to play, and when she is unhappy, I touch her cheek with my soft hands.

The child that was accidentally lost brought her infinite regrets. She once had great expectations for the child in her womb. Like any mother, she was content and joyful, hoping that the child would come to this place safely. In the world, grow up healthy and happy.

She really wants to have a blood relative, even if she won't be able to see him in the future, she will feel very warm just thinking of him in this world.

Listening to her words, Chu Zhiling's depression was swept away. He stretched his hand over her slender body, and pulled her into his arms, and found that she didn't refuse. He smiled, but his expression was still somewhat cautious. Not sure: "The lady is going to have the baby, isn't she?"

Xin Yue didn't push him away, and said flatly: "Yes, give birth."

"Well, let's stay in Japan this year. We won't get on the boat. The boat is bumpy and it's not good for the children."

Xin Yue let out a "huh" and let him hold her without moving.The incense burner by the window exudes a faint fragrance.

The wind got stronger, and the girl's voice sounded softly in the room: "There are still nine months before he is born."

Chu Zhiling, who was originally in high spirits, suddenly turned cold when he heard these words. He was keenly aware of her intentions in saying these words, and lowered his head and asked, "What are you going to do after giving birth to him?"

Xin Yue withdrew from his embrace, raised his head slightly and said tiredly: "Let's talk about it when the time comes."

Chu Zhiling narrowed his eyebrows slightly: "Are you going to run away again by then?"

Xin Yue plucked a few strands of hair hanging down, and his voice was tired: "I can only give you so much. You love me very much and treat me very well. Children are the last gift. I hope you will treat me well in the future. he."

Chu Zhiling felt his heart was stabbed hard, and the pain was severe.His voice was hoarse: "Since you know that I love you, why did you leave me?"

Xin Yue suddenly has a lot of things to say, want to say that your love is too heavy, I can't afford it, want to say that the biggest problem between us is that we will never be able to communicate, want to say that I want to chase what I want, want to Looking at more scenery, I want to say that I can no longer bear the suspicious and hurtful words you said when I was kind to others, I want to say that your love is too selfish and narrow, forcing me to breathe like a prison Come on, I want to say that you have never understood and respected me enough, and you don’t know what I really want. You think that loving someone is coaxing, pampering and occupying you. You never asked me about my past, and rarely shared your past. Tell me, and I am the same, we are close to each other, but separated by thousands of miles, you never really know me, and I never really know you, even though we have lived for so long and experienced so much .

Between us, we can stand the test of life and death. At the juncture of life and death, we will consider each other in advance, and we can die for each other. We can also stand the grind of ordinary life. If I cook for you, you will be very happy For dozens of days, you were in high spirits, and you also changed ways to make me happy. You were humorous and told interesting stories. You even wanted to learn embroidery from others and make clothes for children.

We can tolerate many things, but we cannot tolerate foreign invasions.You force me to accept only you, my heart must be full of you, you don't allow me to be nice to others, you try to occupy all my senses, destroy everything that might threaten you, even though it is for me It means extraordinary.

I don't want to live in such an environment forever. I have negotiated with you. On that night, I compromised and gave in. I took the initiative to hug you. I begged you to let Xia Chuan go. I begged you to believe me. There is no abnormal relationship with him, but this will only make you doubt me more and more, and not believe me.

Now you are asking softly, but you don't understand the crux of the problem at all. You take it for granted that it is right. You don't kill Xia Chuan because you are afraid that I will run away from you in a fit of anger. Believe me, considering my feelings, you still think I have an improper relationship with him.

Xin Yue had a lot to say, but in the end he only pursed the corners of his lips, and replied lightly to his question: "Just treat me as self-willed and arrogant, and don't know how to flatter me."