Throwing down my husband: reuniting in a forgotten time

next child?

Tao Zi felt bitter in his heart, and lowered his eyes, tears filled his eyes hotly.

And Ning Zhenqian, with acid on the tip of his nose, turned his head away, with blurred vision, unable to see the color of the sky outside the window clearly.Next?There will never be another...

"Come on, daughter-in-law, come to have a drink, do you want grandma to feed you?" Grandma Ning asked lovingly with a smile.

How dare Tao Zi be that?He shook his head again and again, but tears fell straight down while shaking, dripping into the soup bowl.

"Oh, silly child!" Grandma Ning sighed, "Don't cry! Crying too much is bad for your eyes, and you will suffer when you get old! Xiao Zhen! Why don't you come and wipe away your daughter-in-law's tears!" The last sentence , said to Ning Zhenqian, with a slightly harsh tone.

Ning Zhenqian's eyes were red, and he walked over obediently, rubbing his rough fingers gently on her cheeks, the familiar roughness and breath, not only did not wipe away her tears, but made her tears flow uncontrollably The more, the irrepressible...

Tears moistened his fingers, but it was his heart that hurt. He stretched out his long arms, ignoring that grandma and the two aunts were by his side, and hugged her into his arms. If possible, how he wished, at this time, They can hug each other to keep warm, how I hope that his embrace can give her even a little bit of comfort, but, does she still need it?I'm afraid that what she wants to do the most is to push him away, far away...

It's just that she is too weak and powerless now to let him hug her and cry in his arms?

Tao Zi leaned against his chest, not wanting to move.

For a long time, Xiaonan has been the center of gravity and motivation in her life.In this situation of constant cutting and chaos, she can't see her own heart clearly, and can't discern other people's intentions. The only thing she knows is that she still has Xiaonan, who really belongs to her. For Xiaonan, She must be strong, she must eat hard, sleep well, she must face her life positively, but Xiaonan suddenly disappeared, where is her center of gravity, her direction, and her support?

she does not know……

As if the world suddenly collapsed, with that bang, she also turned into pieces and scattered all over the place...

Without power, I would pick up the fragments of my soul one by one, and without power, I would put my soul together and stand up, leaving only this empty body, with the only support in his chest, like floating in the endless sea, ups and downs , the dark cloud is oppressive, and the shore cannot be seen, and only under this support can she survive and prevent her from sinking and drowning forever...

"Hey, this young couple..." Grandma Ning cried with emotion as the two hugged their heads, and sighed, these two little guys... However, life is like this, and Grandma Ning, who has seen through the joys, sorrows and sorrows of the world, knows that no matter whether it is sad or happy, only The two people who stick closest to each other can comfort each other, because both of them love each other's love and hurt each other's pain. They didn't want to disturb the hug of this young couple at this time, but if we wait any longer, the soup will be cold , The taste will be bad when the pot is returned, so I said, "Xiao Zhen, the nutrition of a wife is important, so feed it to your wife."

In addition to grief, Ning Zhenqian was even more worried about her body, so he wanted to help her up from his arms.

But she didn't want to move.Whether it's eating, drinking soup, or even a doctor's examination, she doesn't want to bother. The only thing she wants to do is to lean quietly on a certain point that she can rely on, and listen to the sound of sadness turning into tears, quietly Yes, just rely on it...

So, the moment she was lifted up, she felt a little dizzy, and she couldn't help stretching out her hand, trying to hug the support she had just supported, but in the end, she was helped to sit upright.

A mouthful of hot soup was fed to his mouth by him, accompanied by his slightly hoarse voice, "Come, drink."

She burst into tears again, she doesn't want soup, no!Why does no one know?

However, the lukewarm soup was still fed into her mouth, but the fragrant soup was mixed with tears, but it tasted so bitter...

Watching her eat, Ning Zhenqian's hanging heart finally fell down. Taking advantage of her being obedient in front of grandma, he fed her a small bowl of porridge, as well as custard made by grandma, and The usual difference was his favorite food when he was young.

Taozi's mind was in chaos, he just ate what Ning Zhenqian fed him dumbly, he couldn't tell what taste it was in his mouth, he ate it mouthful, filling up the missing piece in his body, as if he had found Another new method of consolation, even without hunger or fullness, as long as Ning Zhenqian feeds, she will follow all of them, completely unconsciously and mechanically, as if the more she eats, the hole that Xiaonan left will be filled. As for grandma What she said to the two aunts, she didn't know at all...

She didn't wake up from the trance until grandma was about to leave, she nodded numbly at what grandma said, in fact, she still didn't know what grandma said...

Ning Zhenqian sent grandma and aunt to the door, with wet eyes, begging hoarsely, "Grandma, don't go back, come every day..."

Grandma Ning naturally agreed to her grandson's request, and when she was sad, she also persuaded her grandson not to be sad, promising that she would visit her grandson-in-law every day.

"Grandma, you cook here every day, and my daughter likes to eat your cooking." Since being admitted to the hospital, Tao Zi only ate something today, and Ning Zhenqian mistakenly thought that it was grandma's cooking that suited Tao Zi's appetite.

"Okay, okay!" Grandma nodded frequently, "As long as you two are good, grandma will be happy in whatever she does!"

After grandma left, Yan Zhuang came.

With his mother here, Ning Zhenqian left the ward so that his daughter wouldn't be troubled by seeing him, but he couldn't leave without worry, and still sat on the chair outside the ward.

Tao Zi has always been depressed, and Yan Zhuang can't read Tao Zi's mind, and he doesn't know whether his own existence is exciting to Tao Zi. Perhaps the last thing Tao Zi wants to see now is the people of the Ning family, but it's inconvenient to make decisions at will, so , try to ask, "Taotao, do you want to call your mother?"

Although she knew that there was a estrangement between Tao Zi and Lin Zhi, Lin Zhi was sincere to her, and after all, there was a deep blood relationship between mother and daughter. At this time, perhaps the comfort of relatives was more important.

Tao Zi lay there, just shaking his head slightly.

Yan Zhuang had no choice but to give up this idea and take care of Tao Zi by herself, although facing Tao Zi made her feel extremely uncomfortable.

Tao Zi is very afraid of falling asleep now, because when he falls asleep, he will have dreams, and he will dream of his little girl.

Originally, it was only a small embryo, but Tao Zi gave so much imagination and sustenance to Xiaonan on weekdays, so that, as long as he closed his eyes, all the phantoms of Xiaonan appeared in front of him...

However, lying so still and weak, how could it be possible to hold on to sleep?

Gradually, I still fell into a dream.

As she expected, Xiaonan appeared in the dream again on time, crying and calling her mother in a sea of ​​blood, "Mom, come and save me... Mom, don't leave me..."

Tao Zi ran desperately into the vast ocean, crying, saying, Mom didn't abandon you, so Mom came to save you...

But why did she drown in the dream?She can clearly swim!However, falling into the turbulent sea of ​​blood, she sank completely like a landlubber. The water, with the smell of blood, kept pouring into her nose. This feeling is very familiar and uncomfortable. , just like the first time I went swimming with Brother Tangtang in the river when I was six years old, Gududu sank into the water, the river water filled her nose and ears, suffocating her to the point of dying...

Just like the six-year-old her, she pedaled hard and shouted, "Help me...Brother Tangtang...help me...Brother Tangtang...Brother Tangtang..."

I just remember that moment in that summer, he was her god, her savior, her reliance, everything she had, and the only warmth she remembered in every difficult and lonely moment...

For some reason, she and Xiaonan suddenly became the same person, and her voice calling Brother Tangtang also became Xiaonan's milky voice, floating in the blood-like water, crying delicately and heartbreakingly, " Dad... save me... dad... save me... dad... dad..."

Yan Zhuang stood by Tao Zi's side, and suddenly found that Tao Zi's complexion was strange, his breathing was heavy, his body was sweating profusely, and he was still muttering something in his mouth, but he couldn't hear clearly. It was guessed that she was having a nightmare. Shaking her and shouting, "Peach? Peach? Wake up! Wake up!"

After calling twice, but to no avail, he called Ning Zhenqian outside the door, "Xiaozhen, Xiaozhen! Come and see! Taotao is having a nightmare!"

Ning Zhenqian ran into the room as soon as he could, and seeing her in great pain, he immediately sat on the edge of the bed, pulled her up and hugged her, stroked her sweaty hair, kissed her forehead, and murmured softly , "Ninny, don't be afraid, don't be afraid..." Yihai's eyes widened.

Hearing her talking in her sleep, she listened attentively, but she was calling "Dad..."

His heart was sour, he was no longer the person she needed most in her heart... She in the dream must be afraid, that's why she wanted to seek protection, that's why she wanted to find daddy, the word daddy, so For a child, she is a guardian god and a mountain-like support, but she has no father...

Her lonely life experience, her trembling and terrified appearance in his arms deeply hurt his heart and hurt his eyes. He tightened his arms and pressed her closer to him, with a painful expression between his brows Wrinkled tightly, her mouth was still calling her name repeatedly, "Ninny, nannie, nannie..."

When she was drowning in the dream, she suddenly felt light all over her body, as if being lifted out of the water, and then fell into a generous embrace, as if she was lying on solid land. In short, there was no more ups and downs, no more suffocation , the fresh air and familiar breath coming from your back make the whole heart and lungs very comfortable...

She didn't know what her role was, was she a daughter, or a little girl?The images overlapped and overlapped in her consciousness, and she only felt that the solid body on which her body rested was reassuring and intoxicating. She subconsciously stretched out her arms to embrace the peaceful support, murmured two times indistinctly. "Brother Tangtang... Daddy...", and then, deeply and peacefully, fell asleep...

Since being admitted to the hospital, Tao Zi has always been waking up, disturbed by nightmares, and this is the most peaceful sleep since he was admitted to the hospital, and he has been hugged by Ning Zhenqian all the time.

Ning Zhenqian also saw that it was rare for her to sleep so soundly, fearing to disturb her, he remained motionless from beginning to end.

Yan Zhuang looked at these two people, and only sighed that fate made people...

After waking up, it was already afternoon, the first thing Tao Zi saw was the familiar army green color, his heart shivered, and he suddenly woke up completely, not knowing why he was in his arms, he instinctively let go of his hand, and looked at him in horror .

Ning Zhenqian saw such eyes and movements, and his heart felt as if he had been splashed with bitter water. When he was sleeping, he was as cute and clingy as a baby, but when he woke up, he avoided it like this, as if he was a snake...

He also let go of her in pain, and said to Yan Zhuang in a hoarse voice, "My daughter's clothes are all wet with sweat, wash her and change her clothes."

After finishing speaking, she walked out of the ward wisely, if she no longer needed him, if his existence was a pain to her, then he would just disappear...

Tao Zi stared blankly at him walking out of the ward, feeling an unspeakable pain in his heart, but he couldn't tell why...

"Taotao, come here." Yan Zhuang wanted to scrub her.

She reacted and got out of bed, "Mom, I'll go by myself, I'm not so delicate."

Walking into the bathroom, she took off her sweaty clothes, and her eyes fell on her lower abdomen. Although it has never bulged up here, it has always been full of content. She is cautious in every step, lest she frighten her abdomen. The most precious pearl in the heart, however, in the end...

Sorrowful from the heart, let the water flow on the skin, in a daze...

Until Yan Zhuang knocked on the door and called her name loudly, "Taotao! Taotao, are you okay?"

Tao Zi suddenly woke up, he didn't know how long he had been in the bathroom, but his mind was blank, he didn't know what he was thinking at all...

"Mom, I'm fine..." He agreed in a choked voice, rushed forward, put on clean clothes and came out.

At the door of the bathroom, Yan Zhuang was waiting anxiously. He was relieved to see her come out, but at the door of the ward, there was a figure shrinking away. Suddenly, he seemed to see his haggard and panicked face...

My heart felt like a stone was blocked, and it became more and more choked...

As soon as she came out, Yan Zhuang ordered her to lie on the bed, followed by hot soup.

Seeing Yan Zhuang's persistent look, she sighed secretly, took the bowl and drank it herself, she was alive no matter what, there was nothing she couldn't accept...

While drinking the soup, he saw Yan Zhuang take out a bowl of rice, but brought it back with a sad face.

This scene gave her a little pause. Has he not eaten all this time?This thought lingered in her heart, like a bee buzzing around her all the time, making her restless...

Just like that, he was recuperating in the hospital for a week.

During this week, grandma came to see her every day by making dishes. The nanny came back and took turns taking care of her in the hospital with Yan Zhuang. Even when Yan Zhuang was in the hospital, he was very busy. Modesty, hardly stepping into the ward.

But she knew that when she fell asleep, a figure would always come to the bed, stop silently, stare at her sleeping face silently, and sometimes, there would be dry and rough hands stroking her face...

Yes, she knew, she always knew...

It's just that she didn't know how to face such a face. Relatively, there were only unbearable memories, which were torture and pain.

It is said that a pain shared by two people will become half of the pain, but it is not the case for them, the pain will be doubled, multiplied by ten, and will expand without limit...

It's better to escape, escape in your own world, let yourself swallow the tears silently, and bear the pain that belongs to you alone...

On the day she was discharged from the hospital, she finally saw him clearly, standing at the door of the ward.

In just seven days, he lost a lot of weight. The military uniform that was originally fit and where the outline of the muscles can be seen when he exerted himself was already loose and loose. Because of his thinness, he looked even darker, and his complexion was so haggard that it was unsightly. The red bloodshot eyes, swollen under-eye circles, and dense beard under the chin are enough to witness how bad he has been this week...

Is he punishing himself?

Why bother...

Just that one glance, she couldn't bear to look any longer, as if a thorn had been planted in her heart, she felt a dull pain when she flicked it.Turning his face away, with tears in his eyes, he said hoarsely, "Let's go."

He came over to help her.

She is not that weak, she can walk on her own, subconsciously avoiding it.Out of the corner of his eye, he saw his outstretched hand trembling slightly, staying in the air for a short time, and then hanging down feebly... 13acv.

She strode out, unable to face such a situation any longer, tears fell all the way, dripping on the floor in front of her.

The person who once loved with life, why did we become like this?

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