Throwing down my husband: reuniting in a forgotten time

She just cried, crying so much that she didn't want to speak.

Later, he didn't speak any more, just hugged her tightly and let her cry in his arms.

Heart, close to her heart, at this moment, he can understand the rhythm of every heartbeat of hers, no words are needed, and no words can describe his mood at this moment.It seems to go back to the beginning when Xiaonan left with her, and experience those minutes and seconds together, those pains that I have never talked to anyone...

His tears also fell down at this moment.

He is a soldier.

Soldiers bleed but not tears, knocked out teeth and swallowed blood, and bullets pierced through the body in the rain.

However, at this time, he believed that sentence: A man does not shed tears lightly, but it is not yet the time to be sad.

He didn't feel ashamed because of crying, on the contrary, at this moment, how grateful he was that he had such a chance to shed the same tears as her...

Tao Zi cried like a child. It should be said that every time he cried in front of him, he was embarrassed.

And she, it seemed, hadn't cried like this for a long time, and it was different from every time she cried.It's not just sad, not just pain, but also a kind of grievance that I have never had before, quietly sprouting in my heart, just like my six-year-old daughter, the grievance made me weak, longing for a kind of sharing, a kind of support.

Or, in fact, what she has always needed, but she has never even realized it...

For example, if she hadn't met that big boy named Ning Zhenqian when she was six years old, she would have lived her life as usual, maybe she would have been stronger and walked more smoothly, but such a person was missing. , such a pair of eyes, gave her such gaze on the road of her life;

It is the same today.Burying all the pain of the past deep in her heart, she can still live peacefully and vigorously, and the trajectory of life will draw another arc, but there will always be such a blind spot in her heart, she dare not touch it, dare not go to it. Think, dare not let it lightly evaporate in the sun...

This, seems to be a secret arrangement, there must be such a moment, a necessary moment, to burst out all the pain in my heart, and this moment can only be shared with him...

And this pain, which should have been shared a year ago, erupted like a volcano after being suppressed for a year, and it was out of control.

At first, Tao Zi still knew why he was crying, and also knew that his heart was in severe pain.

However, later on, crying became a way, an emotional way, it was no longer just for the little girl, it seemed to be for many things.For her unchanging love for 20 years, for the past and present that she and he have had, for the suppressed longing and torment of so many days...

One thing, she herself has always known that this person she has loved for 20 years, in her heart, is still the same as when she first met when she was six years old...

She walks away, she is indifferent, she weeps, she laughs, she is angry, she is angry...

All the different hers are just because there is another him in my heart...

Tired of crying, her voice became hoarse, and she lied weakly on his shoulder, weeping silently.

His shirt, already soaked with water, was sticking to his shoulders, slightly cool.

He lowered his head, stretched out his hand, and wiped the tears on her face. His rough fingers touched her face, which was greasy and moist...

It's just that he forgot that his hand was stained with charcoal when he was grilling, and when he touched her face, he felt a black mark, which was very obvious under the light of the flashlight.

Embarrassed, he looked at Tao Zi's clothes, the pure white top was also covered with his dark handprints...

"Hey..." He said awkwardly and honestly, and quickly let go of his embrace.

Tao Zi was still leaning on his arms and weeping bitterly, but suddenly lost his support and almost fell to the ground, he couldn't help staring at him with astonished eyes.

"Well... I'm sorry..." He pointed to her clothes and spread his dark hands.

Tao Zi looked down, suddenly became angry, and blurted out a sentence, "Are you still discolored!?"

"..." Ning Zhenqian was stunned, and it took him a long time to realize what Tao Zi's words meant, "It's not... this... this is carbon... carbon..." By the way, he is neither paint nor dye, why? Will it fade?

Tao Zi naturally knew that it wasn't his discoloration, it was just hurting him, but such a commotion dilutes the previous sad atmosphere a bit.

Maybe it's because I cried a lot.For some things, it is not the best way to bury them and not touch them. Sometimes, it should be taken out, magnified, exaggerated, and earth-shattering.

Tao Zi stared down at his white clothes, and complained angrily, "This... everyone will see it tomorrow, and think I've been touched by a ghost!"

Ning Zhenqian also felt that this was inappropriate, and asked hesitantly, "Why don't you wear mine... I'll be naked..." Wasn't it the same at the last dinner party?

"You're tall!" Tao Zi said fiercely, "Oh, after one night, I'm wearing your shirt, you are naked, we go out like this, what do you make others think? What will others think?"

Ning Zhenqian remained silent, but after a while he thought of a more serious problem, and immediately shouted, "Who are you afraid of thinking about it? Who are you afraid of looking at it? Is that white cream?"

"What's wrong with the white cream? It's better than a pile of black charcoal that fades!" Tao Zi was speechless at his clothes.

"Who? Who faded? I said it was carbon!"

"What's the difference between you and carbon? If you fall into the carbon pile, you won't be able to find it!"

Ning Zhenqian didn't know how to answer, quarreling is not something he is good at, not to mention that the opponent is still a sharp-tongued anchor, but in the past, my daughter never talked back to him...

This feeling is not depressing, on the contrary, it is very novel. After thinking about it several times, I found it interesting again, especially, the way she frowned and pouted reminded him of Goubuli Baozi...

He suddenly laughed, and simply stretched out his dark hand and wiped her face.

Only then did Tao Zi realize that it was not only his clothes that suffered, but also her face...

He hurriedly climbed out of his sleeping bag, took out the mirror in his bag, held the flashlight close, and looked at the mirror, only to see that there was a black palm print on each side of his face, and because of his own tears, the palm prints were blurred, and his whole face was pitch black.

"Ning Zhenqian! You bastard!" She took out a tissue to wipe her face, but how could she wipe it off easily?Dark, wider and wider...

"Let me come..." He stretched out his hand, trying not to let his black hand touch her again.However, I just felt that her dark appearance was very funny, and she actually laughed out loud while wiping.

"Laughing? You're still laughing!" Tao Zi frowned, his hand was a little stronger, and it hurt a little when he rubbed it on his face.

yes……

He's laughing...

Just now I was holding her and crying, but now I can laugh...

In fact, it's not that it doesn't hurt anymore, but that she is his good medicine for healing... always has been...

When he thought he would never love again, when he had frozen himself with a cold and hard shell, it was she who appeared beside him and melted him with her tenderness, tenderness, love and persistence. , allowing him to break through the ice;

When he was struggling on the verge of life and death, unable to wake up in the dark, she was also persistently by his side, waking him up with her oath:

Listen, you are the leader, you are a role model, you must not be a deserter!You have to come out of the operating room alive!Even if you are disabled, paralyzed and stupid, as long as you come out alive!If you are disabled, your baby will be your hands and feet; if you are paralyzed, your baby will stay with you; if you are stupid, your baby will sing and dance for you.Even as it is now, Nannan will talk with you and read to you.As long as you are alive, my daughter will be with you until the end of the world, because we promised to be together forever...

These words were spoken before he woke up. Every word and every word, he could hear them clearly and remember them word for word. Does she still remember?She said to be together forever, until the end of the world...

However, how could he bear to drag her who loved him so much?How can I bear to watch her suffer more and more every day?

So, he pushed her away with his own hands, letting himself sink into the abyss alone...

In that bottomless darkness, he had given up saving himself, but it turned out that she was always his savior...

In this world, only she can make him smile like this. Even in the dark night, it is as if the sun is shining into his heart bit by bit, entangled and surrounded those painful fruits, and the warm temperature slowly melts away. Seep into the fruit of pain, holding, rubbing, feeling...

He was in a daze, with a smile on the corner of his lips, but he forgot to move, and his hands froze on her face and did not move. 13acv.

She raised her eyes and saw his smiling face, she was annoyed for a moment, must she be laughing at her ghostly look?

Suddenly, he had the idea of ​​revenge, quickly took out the lipstick from the bag, and smeared a few dots on his face.

He was in a trance, he didn't expect her to do this, he realized it after being tricked by her tricks, and quickly wiped it with paper, there was a red patch on the paper.

"Is there any more?" He asked her sideways.

She ignored it, and just looked at her face in the mirror. The color faded a bit, but there was still a layer of black...

"Ning Zhenqian! I said I have a grudge against you?" Do you want to embarrass her like this?Embarrass her every time!He hasn't settled the blame for tearing her clothes last time!

He looked at her fixedly, and smiled slightly, "Isn't there? You paint me white, and I'll paint you black..."

Tao Zi also remembered those past events, whitening mask, whitening foundation, and those moments of witnessing miracles, as well as his helpless expression in front of his colleagues...

Can't help but burst out laughing.

After crying, it turns out that she can also laugh...

She was surprised by her own laughter, touched her heart, and remembered that Xiaonan still hurts, and it hurts, but she can really laugh...

"What's wrong? Are you uncomfortable?" He immediately noticed her expression and asked worriedly.

She didn't hide anything, sat upright, and sighed softly, "Yeah, it's uncomfortable."

Her health is the most important thing for him. Hearing this, he immediately proposed to go down the mountain, "Go, go to the hospital!"

She stared at the man, this is the first time he asked her to go to the hospital tonight?Yes, she is not feeling well, but some illnesses cannot be cured by the hospital...

She shook her head, "I'm terminally ill..."

"What nonsense are you talking! Come down the mountain with me!" One sentence annoyed him, and he yelled again.

She sat on the spot, looked at him quietly, pressed her chest and sighed again, "No, it hurts here... It hurts when I think of my little girl, you don't know, I don't even dare to think about it..."

When she is with him, she has a uniqueness that is different from other couples. From the front desk, there are also young couples who did not keep their children and lost their children. Although they are sad, they will not be in such pain as the two of them, and they will even comfort each other. We are still young, we have a long future...

Only them, Xiaonan is not only an embryo, but also the hope of their relationship and marriage. She and he have more urgent and fierce expectations for Xiaonan than anyone else, especially in the chaotic and complicated environment at that time. In their relationship with each other, this departure magnified all the conflicts and pains countless times, and at the same time, it also announced the end of their marriage...

He was slightly startled, and lowered his head slumped, why not? "right……"

"Don't say I'm sorry..." She knew exactly what he was going to say, "I said before, I didn't hate anyone, I don't blame Mo Wang, let alone you, if you think about it, it's God's will, we, after all, have nothing to do with Xiaonan , I...have nothing to do with you..."

Well, I have nothing to do with you...

Like a sharp knife piercing directly into his heart, he couldn't find the words to refute, but he didn't like hearing this sentence very much.

She smiled sadly, that's all, it's all over, holding on to this matter deeply is like holding on to the past, holding on to her and his past, if you want to let go, let's really let go, little girl, little girl, I hope you reincarnate to a better mother...

"But I still feel that I'm wrong..." He didn't know what to say to comfort her like this, is it okay to admit his mistake?Although, admitting your mistakes won't bring Xiaonan back.

"Stop talking about that!" She interrupted him, "You guys must be very busy during this period, so you still have time to go camping?"

"Well, I'm very busy." He didn't explain the reason for coming to the camp. If the third child hadn't told him that there was a surprise, would he have come?It's just that I was surprised, but not happy.

"Do you want to go out?" It was heard that some leaders wanted to go down to the grassroots to condolences to the officers and soldiers.

"No, my dad wants to go down."

Mentioning Ning Jinping, Tao Zi thought of the black-faced chief she had called Papa once, and felt an unspeakable feeling in her heart, "...is he alright, chief?" This brief hesitation was because he was not used to the new address, except for "" Dad", she is still not used to calling Ning Jinping by other names.

"It's okay! I was hospitalized once in the first half of the year, but it's just an old problem." Soldiers have more or less old injuries on their bodies, and Ning Jinping is no exception.It's just that I'm not used to Tao Zi calling Ning Jinping like that, and I didn't understand who the word "shouchang" was for a while...

"Aunt Yan's old problem, do you still make it?"

"Well, it's a bit more serious. Maybe... I'm too tired to carry Mo Wang." Thinking of his mother, he felt very guilty. The mistakes he made when he was young had caused his parents to suffer.I want to take care of myself in my spare time, but my mother always pushes him away...

"Mo Wang looks pretty good now!" She recalled the last time she met Mo Wang, and she didn't seem to panic when she was carrying her schoolbag.But he got up later.

He nodded, and didn't want to say how difficult the process was, but when he thought about it, his head became a little hot, and seeing that she didn't seem to be disgusted with this topic, he finally summoned up his courage and said, "Yes, it has made great progress compared to before. But it was really hard work.”

He began to talk about how difficult it was, knowing bit by bit what he wanted, how to teach a simple behavior for ordinary people such as turning on the faucet a thousand times or hundreds of times, how he discovered that he was interested in pictures and drawing Especially sensitive, how to accompany him to train in the institution, how the three of them went to the school for parents of autistic children to study, and how to train him at home when they came back.

"Don't forget about training and understanding. It's almost all of our life except work. But until now, we still can't fully understand him." His tone was full of helplessness.

Tao Zi also knows a little bit about the situation of autistic children. She has heard about the hard work of parents of autistic children. It is said that some parents go crazy and commit suicide under the double pressure of mental and financial pressure, because children need A lifetime of companionship and care.Don't forget, maybe he is one of the luckier ones among the autistic children, after all, the financial conditions of the Ning family are not a problem.

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See you tomorrow, hope to see you in the early morning, auspicious as much as possible...