Rebirth: At the beginning, the cool school beauty was caught stealing in the supermarket

Chapter 519 Taking the Initiative to Confess My Feelings
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On October 17, 2011, Lu Yuanqiu and I were rehearsing a stage play in the band's practice room. I played the role of the waterweed mother, and he played the role of the waterweed father. Lu Yuanqiu and Liu Wangchun had a slight disagreement about the performance, because Liu Wangchun wanted to play the role of the waterweed father. I felt that Lu Yuanqiu was more suitable, but I didn't dare to say so.

The photo shows Lu Yuanqiu frowning as he discusses something with Liu Wangchun with a serious expression, while he is wearing layers of green cardstock.

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On December 4, 2011, Lu Yuanqiu kissed me on the corner of my mouth. I was so nervous. This maple leaf also kissed him on the corner of his mouth at that time. Does a maple leaf get nervous?

The photo shows a slender hand holding a red maple leaf.

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On December 31, 2011, we were about to go on stage. I was worried that we wouldn't be able to coordinate well, but Lu Yuanqiu seemed very relaxed. He's really carefree.

The photo shows Lu Yuanqiu hiding behind the stage, peeking at the stage through the curtain, looking like a thief.

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Lu Yuanqiu flipped through the pages one by one, blinking and shaking his head slightly as he looked at the contents of each photo. At first, he had a smile on his face, but the more he looked, the more his eyes stung, and his eyes gradually reddened.

Lu Yuanqiu had never been so moved.

I have never been cared for in this way before, not even by my parents.

The dormitory room was dimly lit, except for a lamp on his desk, which illuminated the photo album on the desk and Lu Yuanqiu's face, which was filled with complex emotions.

Little swan, little swan, no... little angel.

After flipping through the photo album, Lu Yuanqiu suddenly discovered that there was a long passage of text written on the inside of the last cover.

[Lu Yuanqiu, I hope these words at the end won't spoil your enjoyment of flipping through the photo album from the beginning.]

Actually, your 19th birthday present was something else entirely. This photo album was originally a gift I planned to give you later, perhaps when you graduate, or when you turn 20? I didn't originally intend to give it to you now, since there are only a few photos so far, and it took a whole semester to take them.

How should I put it? This gift is incomplete right now, just like my feelings for you. Giving it to you prematurely out of panic before I was fully prepared leaves me feeling lost and unsure what to do. This isn't what I wanted.

[You'll probably like this gift... but I feel a secret awkwardness about handing it over willingly.]

I have a small request!

Can we not talk tomorrow? Just for one day.

"What's with not saying anything tomorrow?"

"panic?"

Was it because you heard that Long Lian Dong was going to give a gift that you sent this gift, which was supposed to take a long time to prepare, ahead of schedule?

Lu Yuanqiu couldn't help but laugh. The other person just used a basic attack and tricked you into using your ultimate move before you were even ready... No, Lu Yuanqiu thought of how Long Liandong sang the birthday song that afternoon. Long Liandong seemed to have a hard time too.

He glanced at the thickness of the photo album; it was actually quite thick. Although not every day was recorded, there were still dozens of photos inside. The gift was indeed thoughtful, but Lu Yuanqiu's gaze lingered on the line "The sentiment is still in the period of preparation and not yet fully complete" for a long time.

Just then, the door to room 401 was slowly pushed open. Zheng Yifeng took the toothbrush out of his mouth and asked curiously, "Aren't you going to sleep yet? Didn't you drink some alcohol?"

"Come on, come on."

Lu Yuanqiu beckoned to him furtively. Zheng Yifeng, seeing this, walked in with some confusion. He glanced at the other three sleeping on the bed and lowered his voice, asking, "What's wrong?"

"Look, this is a birthday present Bai Qingxia gave me." Lu Yuanqiu proudly held his head high and showed him the photo album.

Zheng Yifeng casually flipped through a few photos, and an envious look immediately appeared on his face. If Su Miaomiao could give him such a gift... well, Su Miaomiao would never give him one.

He looked up at Lu Yuanqiu and said, "You've already expressed your feelings to this extent, so it seems like it doesn't matter whether you two confess or not."

Lu Yuanqiu took the photo album back and sighed, "Not confessing means that the relationship cannot be confirmed. She is quite traditional. If the relationship is not confirmed, she will instinctively resist overly intimate physical contact, even if the other person is me."

"Aren't you two close enough?" Zheng Yifeng retorted in his mind.

After Lu Yuanqiu finished speaking, he turned to the last page of the photo album and handed it to Zheng Yifeng: "Take a look at these words. Her panic is because she heard that Long Liandong was going to give me a birthday present."

Zheng Yifeng nodded: "I know."

"You seem to know quite a lot..." Lu Yuanqiu thought to himself, then slightly raised his chin and said, "Help me analyze this?"

After reading it, Zheng Yifeng looked up and said, "Actually, I've always wondered why Bai Qingxia, who likes you so much and cares so much about Long Liandong getting close to you, still hasn't confessed her feelings to you. It seems that she's just not ready."

"However, I can roughly tell... she meant that she planned to confess to you after she was fully prepared. Maybe this photo album was her confession gift. But because of Long Lian Dong, she got anxious and was forced to give it out early. Now it's a bit difficult to handle. The root cause is that she wasn't prepared."

Upon hearing this, Lu Yuanqiu turned his head to look at that passage again, and it seemed to indeed have that meaning. He immediately chuckled: "Aren't you supposed to be bad at reading comprehension?"

Zheng Yifeng chuckled and replied with the words he had spoken on New Year's Eve: "It's true that those involved are often confused, while bystanders see things clearly. As someone involved, your judgment will be affected."

After he finished speaking, he took a moment to brush his teeth a few times.

Lu Yuanqiu pursed his lips, but after understanding Bai Qingxia's thoughts, he still smiled happily.

He confessed his feelings to me first, and I'm looking forward to it... But here's the problem, when?
Zheng Yifeng put down his toothbrush and said, "But we need to see why she wasn't ready. Once we find the reason and solve it, she should be able to take that step bravely."

Lu Yuanqiu nodded. He knew that Bai Qingxia was still somewhat insecure. Her family background and the comparison with her "enemy" Long Liandong were like a vicious cycle that kept her trapped in the internal struggle of feeling "unworthy".

But what Lu Yuanqiu really wanted to say was, "I'm not good enough for you, little swan," but even if he said that, Bai Qingxia would take it as a consolation.

She has to see certain outcomes happen herself... like Uncle Bai returning to normal?
Uncle Bai was always a heavy burden in her heart, as if she couldn't regain her freedom and do something reckless until she saw Uncle Bai get better.

Logically speaking, whether Bai Songzhe recovers or not shouldn't affect Bai Qingxia's ability to date in college. However, Lu Yuanqiu knows that no one can truly empathize with Bai Qingxia's inner situation because no one has ever walked the same path as her, and no one can truly understand all the shadows she has experienced.

(End of this chapter)