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Chapter 364 Did Not Disappoint Me

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【"Hehe~"】

The voice that resonated in my heart was gentle, overflowing with reassuring tenderness and ease.

"I thought I hid it well, but you still found out~"

That was the voice of the gods.

For ordinary believers, hearing the voice of God would be an immense blessing, and they would be so excited that they would shed tears.

However, compared to those pitiful believers who dedicate everything to a high and mighty god and receive little in return, Herbert was incredibly fortunate.

Herbert was not surprised by the god's words; he merely licked his lips slightly upon hearing them.

Because the god in his heart belongs only to him.

"My dear ally, you've caught me again~"

"So, you've been here all along?"

"Yes, I've always been here~"

This answer didn't surprise Herbert; he had a feeling that he had expected it.

Herbert always felt he was living in Nenasha's shadow.

However, compared to those malicious and chilling gazes, the shadow He cast was always very warm.

【"Hehe~"】

The god, who had no followers but only one ally, chuckled softly, his voice as gentle as water, as if whispering in the ear of a mortal.

Just by hearing that voice, one can conjure up a beautiful image in their mind, radiating maternal warmth and possessing a magnanimous heart.

Unfortunately, the seriousness in that voice didn't last long, and it quickly reverted to its usual unserious manner.

"Hey! Speaking of which, how exactly did you find out I was here?" the god asked, his voice full of curiosity.

Miss Harmony was clearly very confident in her ability to play hide-and-seek; there shouldn't have been any chance of her being discovered.

He had originally planned to step in and save the day when Herbert could no longer hold on, but unexpectedly, he was pulled out halfway through.

Wait a minute, this is my damsel in distress scenario!
"How did I figure it out? Just by feeling."

Herbert pursed his lips and thought to himself, "To be honest, I've had a feeling for a long time that you're hiding in the sidelines, watching me with malice."

I knew it! I always felt like someone was eyeing my beauty. I knew I was being targeted!
Boys really need to learn how to protect themselves when they're out and about.

Otherwise, you never know when you might be targeted by some strange guys.

"Hey! What do you mean by malice?"

Nenasha (the observer in the shadows) snorted and complained, "I admit I've been watching you, but it was a loving gaze!"

You ungrateful wretch!
"Huh!? This is a blessing from the gods, do you even understand what this means?"

Do you even know the true value of "being personally watched over by the gods around the clock"?

This is a level of favor that others would beg for!
I'm already being generous by not asking you for more contributions; you should be secretly happy about that, and yet you're complaining about me like this?

Are you even human?

Huh? Do you have any conscience at all?
say!

Answer me!!!
Faced with Miss Harmony's "grieved" complaints, Herbert's lips twitched, and he mentally resigned himself to his fate:
"Yes, yes, love is the gaze of love! Thank you for always watching over me, I am so touched!"

After saying that, Herbert secretly scoffed to himself, wanting to give Him a look that said, "What are you pretending for?"

Sister, what are you pretending for?!

Pretending, pretending again?

Go ahead and play the victim; who can outdo you?

It's just the two of us, so why are you pretending? We all know each other perfectly well.
As Herbert had expected, Nenasha reacted the very next second after he "apologized".

"Ha! Ha! You're welcome!"

Miss Harmony's previous "grievances" vanished in an instant, replaced by pure smugness, and she couldn't help but laugh with exaggerated intonation.

【"Hmph, hehe, ha! Ha↑ha↑ha↑ha↑"】

We won!

This time, it's my victory!
It's just a little trick, a little performance, and you can win big!

This little paladin is no match for this evil god; I can easily crush him.

Controlling him is a piece of cake, isn't it?
win!
When the gods unilaterally declared their victory and won big, the lucky ones who received the gods' favor almost rolled their eyes.

This guy really doesn't even bother to act.

"Alright, that's enough. Stop laughing like that."

The ordinary person, who "doesn't know how lucky he is," casually complained, "Now is not the time to discuss this; I haven't finished my business yet."

The conversation between the two seemed long, but it all happened in the blink of an eye, and very little time had passed in the outside world.

While conversing with Miss Harmony, Herbert's gaze remained fixed on his past life's reflection in the mirror.

"Hmph! I don't care, whatever the problem is, you'd better solve it yourself!"

Nenasha said – I'm angry! And I can't be appeased!

Don't worry about whether I'm really angry or not, and don't worry about whether I just cheered triumphantly.

I don’t care!
I'm currently angry and need to be coaxed!
"I believe you've always been there."

Herbert did not humbly coax Nenasa to stop being angry, but instead calmly spoke a few words in his heart.

“You have always been there for me and provided tremendous help whenever I have been in danger.”

Without any deliberate attempt to evoke emotion, he simply and quietly expressed the unadorned and sincere feelings in his heart.

"You... never let me down."

Herbert licked his lips slightly and said softly to himself, "Thank you for watching over me. I am very grateful."

After confronting the reflection of his past, Herbert was slightly moved.

He rarely expressed his inner feelings so frankly.

thank.

[Silence and Noise] This test is definitely not simple, especially since the potion has produced some special changes in him, with effects almost equivalent to the oldest divine elixirs.

Without Nenasha's presence, Herbert might have eventually been able to break free from the illusion, but the process would have been extremely difficult.

Like everyone else, he will probably try every means possible to escape and pass the test in a very embarrassing manner.

Why was Herbert able to remain conscious during the hallucination?

It was thanks to Nenasha's protection that Herbert was able to remain perfectly detached from the illusion.

He might be able to hold on for a while by his own willpower, but he probably won't be able to stay conscious forever. He'll likely be trapped in the illusion for a long time.

Thanks to the gifts of the gods, he was able to clearly realize that he was in an illusion, and even when he came into contact with their phantoms, he would not be pulled into a deeper dream.

Of course, simply staying awake in the illusion is meaningless; a way to break the illusion must be found.

Conquering the Phantom part mainly relies on Herbert's own efforts, which requires a lot of skill.

But it cannot be denied that Nenasha played a significant role and provided great assistance in this trial.

Especially when faced with reflections of his past life, Herbert once began to doubt himself.

Even someone as proud and confident as him would waver when faced with a huge shock.

A soul that shouldn't be here, a face that shouldn't be here, a conversation that shouldn't be here.

If faced with other dangers, even gods, Herbert would not feel much excitement.

legend?

Ordinary and unremarkable, I often crush legendary powerhouses to the ground and rub them repeatedly, making them kneel down and sing "Conquer".

epic?

They're a formidable opponent, about evenly matched. I often beat them; we've had some intense hand-to-hand combat.

Saint?
91... cough cough, let's avoid the limelight for now and be patient.

Old Deng is nothing but a skeleton in a tomb; he'll be captured sooner or later.
God?

Who are you trying to scare? It's like you've never seen a god before.

He can face other people with composure.

But Herbert was facing himself.

A person can deceive anyone else, but they cannot truly deceive their own heart.

For a moment, his heart was filled with doubt and insecurity.

Was everything I experienced just a bizarre, beautiful dream? Was I merely a persona within that dream? Is it time to wake up?

He was terrified and uneasy, not wanting to lose everything he had now.

Because he had lost something before, he cherishes everything he has now.

He felt Nenasha's presence when he was at his most vulnerable, and the sense of peace that rushed into his heart in that instant almost brought him to tears.

Therefore, Herbert is now clearly expressing his gratitude.

【“…”】

Nena was at a loss because of Herbert's honest and obedient attitude; she didn't know whether to continue smiling or not.

He didn't know what he encountered in the illusion, nor did he know what Herbert saw in the mirror...

But Nenasha knew that Herbert was probably feeling wronged.

She also realized more clearly that all she could do was stay by his side and not let him face things alone.

After a moment of silence, Miss Harmony also said softly, "Herbert, I want to thank you too."

"You really didn't disappoint me."

What is He expecting?
Like all children playing hide-and-seek, the purpose of hiding is to eventually be discovered.

Nenasha was also hoping that someone would discover her little secret, hoping that someone would understand her thoughts and find her while she was hiding.

Miss Harmony hadn't held out much hope, but Herbert, this mortal, did just as she wished.

Without any prompting, relying solely on what is called intuition, I noticed my own subtle actions.

Moreover, this is not the first time.

He had hidden in this way many times before, but each time Herbert would find him easily, whether intentionally or unintentionally.

Everything was as He wished.

Herbert did even better than Nenasha had hoped!

"Uh, you're welcome?"

"Yes, you too. No, you're welcome."

"..."

【“…”】 After the two thanked each other politely, the conversation ended, leaving an awkward silence.

There's a type of person who writes a long essay late at night to confess their feelings, and then feels shy and embarrassed when they see the other person the next day.

"cough!"

After waiting a while, Herbert changed the subject, saying, "Speaking of which, you really enjoy pretending to be asleep after waking up. Do you really enjoy observing from the shadows?"

His tone returned to normal, with a hint of teasing and joking in his words.

Nenasha then followed suit, chuckling lightly, "Oh, I just wanted to see how far you could go without me~"

That's right, I'm doing this to help you develop your independence!
"hehe."

Herbert chuckled softly and looked back at "himself" in the mirror. Only a few breaths had passed since Nenasha first spoke.

The reflection of her past life in the mirror still frowned, staring at Herbert outside the mirror, and asked in a deep voice, "What did you just say? Who were you talking to?"

Oh?
Herbert raised an eyebrow upon hearing this and asked with amusement, "So, you can't see it?"

Just as Herbert thought, the reflection in the mirror was unaware of Nenasha's existence; in his account, she was nowhere to be found.

In the final test, Herbert's ability to achieve everything was attributed to his own talent, rather than divine assistance.

But to Herbert's surprise, his question was asked of all three people present at the same time.

The reflection in the mirror said, "I can't see anything. What are you talking about? What am I supposed to see?"

Nenasha: [“I can’t see it~”]

Lucaria: Huh? What did I just see?

All three of them thought they were being spoken to.

One person asked a question, and three people were puzzled.

???

This final test, which is connected to "fate," can only be witnessed by Herbert.

Even Nenasha couldn't see the reflection in the mirror; she only knew that Herbert seemed to be talking to his own shadow.

The reflection in the mirror was unaware of Nenasha's existence and completely unable to comprehend the meaning of Herbert's words.

As for Lucaria, the mirror fairy who had been watching the one-woman show for a long time, she could see nothing else but her own reflection in the mirror.

She is the most confused person right now.

He was talking to the phantom in the mirror before, so he must be talking to me now, right?

There's no third person right now, so it must be myself, right?
Am I...?

Should I be there? Or should I not be there?

No, I'm right here beside you! Why are you asking me?
Also, what should I see?
Miss Mirror Demon had never been so confused.

Herbert paid no attention to Luccalia's reaction. He focused all his attention on her reflection in the mirror and said softly, "Although you can't see her, it doesn't matter. I can tell you about her."

“You should have seen someone who is very important to me.”

Herbert turned his head slightly, trying to look at Nenasha, who was hiding somewhere behind him, but instead saw a shocked Lucaria standing to the side.

Ok?
Why do you have that expression?
A strange thought flashed through Herbert's mind, but he didn't have the energy to think about these small details and continued talking to the reflection.

"You don't see Him, but I can't live without Him."

“It is through Him that I am able to stand before you and that I have been able to get here.”

"Without Him, I might have collapsed long ago."

If Nenasha hadn't appeared at the beginning of fate, Herbert would most likely still be a mid-level, or even a beginner, paladin honing his skills in a monastery.

The reflection of the past life pondered for a long time before finally speaking: "You mean that you met someone very important in this world, so important that you were willing to give up real reality and completely succumb to dreams?"

"Ah."

Herbert smiled and nodded, then winked at him and said, "Besides, I already know very well that what you said isn't true, so there's no need to keep pretending."

"And even if everything is a lie as you say... I would still be willing to give up that world for Him."

Herbert finished speaking with unwavering determination and utmost seriousness, then... silently added in his heart: "Also for her, her, her, her, yes, for them."

Herbert doesn't think his statement was anything like a scumbag's.

I simply love everyone equally; I am a saint with great love!
I'm just a little more compassionate than others.

For Herbert himself, what he wanted to give up was the boring world of his past life that he could no longer return to and did not want to return to.

But for Nenasha, his words had a considerable impact.

【“!!!”】

He couldn't hear the words of the past life's reflection, but could deduce the entire conversation from Herbert's one-sided fragments—he was willing to give up the entire world for himself!

Nenasha never imagined that anyone other than a believer would say such things for her.

Would you be willing to give up the whole world for yourself?
Even fanatics rarely have such awareness.

Herbert showed no signs of being corrupted by His faith, which meant that all his words came from the bottom of his heart.

!!!

How could this guy say such embarrassing things so calmly?!?

【"hiss!"】

Although Herbert has always been very important to Nenasa, a very special person, and she is willing to give a lot for him.

But at this moment, Nenasha felt ashamed, realizing that her own understanding was not as high as Herbert's.

He began to reflect on whether he had done enough, or whether there was anything he was lacking.
Miss Evil God was successfully sunk, and for a moment she became a little awkward, not knowing how to bring it up with Herbert.

Meanwhile, another woman present was also shocked.

Meanwhile, the Mirror Demon behind Herbert looked utterly shocked!
! ! ?

Is this...is this about me?

Lucaria was utterly shocked!
She didn't know why Herbert suddenly gave her such a high evaluation.

She couldn't understand it at all!
What "important person"? What "giving up the world"... Ah!!?

Is this right?
What did I do?

How come I didn't know I was so important to you?!
Moreover, Herbert was so respectful to me in front of others; he even called me "He"!

Saints are almost equivalent to gods, and epic warriors are equivalent to angels or even divine messengers in terms of strength, and are qualified to be called "He" by mortals.

Judging from Herbert's previous attitude, Lucaria thought that he didn't respect her at all and had no sense of awe.

I never expected him to be so frank in front of others, showing such respect for me.

"So, he actually respects me deep down? He's just using his playboy attitude to get my attention?"

Luccalia pondered for a moment and came to a conclusion—he likes me!?
what!
You said I had a crush on you, but you're the one who has a crush on me!
You little rascal, you were just crying wolf, trying to ease your embarrassment in that way.

After figuring out this crucial point, Luccaria became utterly smug.

Little guy, still trying to hide?
I've found out!

hum~
Miss Mirror looked at Herbert's profile and chuckled to herself, "Considering how shy he is, I'll be a little nicer to him in the future."

He does not mean that.

Once words are spoken, how they are ultimately interpreted is up to the listener.

The reflection in the mirror was silent, its brows furrowed, staring intently into Herbert's eyes.

"……call!"

After a long while, the black-haired youth finally slumped his shoulders as if exhausted, let out a long breath, and sighed, "Truly, I am myself; I can't fool myself."

"Let's go."

He stretched vigorously, rubbed his stiff shoulders and lower back, and then turned to leave without saying a word.

Now that Herbert has fully awakened, it's time for this phantom to leave.

Behind them, a boy asked, "It's all over now, aren't you going to say goodbye properly?"

"bid farewell?"

The reflection of her past life paused, turned around, raised an eyebrow, and asked, "What farewell? You've just let go, not completely forgotten."

Letting go doesn't mean abandoning.

Life is never about cutting ties with your past self, but about remembering all the pain after each fall, understanding everything, and moving forward.

The past life continues onward, gradually fading into the distance.

Just as the phantom was about to dissipate, the boy's question came from behind again: "Have I disappointed you now?"

Disappointed? Are you kidding me?

The young man stopped again, raised an eyebrow, and then said proudly, "I never let anyone down."

"Including myself!"

The boy nodded slightly, indicating his agreement.

"That's true."

Separated by a mirror called fate, the two people, representing the past and the present, looked at each other and then burst into laughter at the same time.

"Haha."

"Hahaha!!!"

After laughing for a while, the black-haired youth shouted to his future self: "Herbert."

Now that you've let go, it's time to move on.

go ahead?

"What did you say... huh?"

Herbert was wondering about what his past life had said when he suddenly felt a lightness in his body.

thump.

With a soft, ethereal sound, he felt something fall from his ankle and into the shadows beneath his feet.

what is that?
No, he knows.

That was my past.

At this moment, the past that had been binding him finally let him go.