Odd Containment Specialist.

Chapter 683 Lin Tiandong's Confession (Part )

Su Yue frowned, a drop of cold sweat slid down her forehead, across her jaw and dripped onto her chin.

She couldn't keep up with Lin Tiandong's thinking, and she didn't understand why Lin Tiandong hated her.

In Su Yue's memory, she had never provoked Lin Tiandong. Not to mention provoking him, she had the impression that they had only met a few times and had never spoken to each other. The only impression she had was that he had once carried out a mission with Brother Xia Shou.

She and Lin Tiandong can be said to be complete strangers, so why would the other party hate her?
"You are just a vase, without any power or use. You will only hinder the people around you. How could someone like you enter the third division? That was what I thought at the time." Lin Tiandong said, "I have never told anyone about this thought."

"I think we should exchange hostages." Su Yue said, directly avoiding Lin Tiandong's topic.

She did feel that she was just a vase in the past, and was a complete burden to follow Brother Xia Shou. Not only could she not help at all, but she also had to trouble him to distract himself to protect her and her parents. But now she knows that as long as she works hard, she can still help Brother Xia Shou.

Su Yue didn't agree with Lin Tiandong's words from the bottom of her heart, but she didn't dare to refute him at this critical juncture.

Lin Tiandong raised his hand and made a soothing gesture: "Don't worry, I haven't finished yet. Besides, I don't hate you because I want to. I don't actually hate you. This is what I just realized a few hours ago."

Lin Tiandong stretched out his hand and stroked the empty air, as if trying to grab a transparent and thin gauze. Under the moonlight, his fingertips were as transparent as silver fish, and the fine scales on the back of his hand sparkled like diamond dust.

"The cursed energy is really chaotic tonight, but... it just happened to remind me of the past that I had long forgotten.

My father used to be a fourth-level finisher in the Control Bureau, a [Fisherman].

When a disaster of cursed energy leaked, he absorbed all the leaked cursed energy by himself and prevented the disaster from happening. These things happened before my brother and I were born, and he married my mother after that.

That memory has always been vague in my mind. All I remember is my father being stabbed to death by a harpoon and my brother having his arms almost torn off. I have no answer in my mind as to why this happened. Everything is blank.

But I could vaguely guess that this was related to my mother who was missing at the time.

I asked my brother why we killed Dad. My brother said he didn't understand and he had forgotten many things, but he knew he had to kill him.

My father was a very strange man, but I can't say he was a bad father. He was very good to my brother and me. If it weren't for everything that happened later, I would never have guessed that my father had such a bizarre past.

When I was a child, the thing that curious me the most was my mother's obsession with her nails.

She always collected her fingernails and toenails and put them in bottles.

Every once in a while, my father would take a bottle to the lake to wash fish. On that day, he would always catch a lot of fish, and the fish soup was always unusually delicious. When he enjoyed the fish soup, he would always take out a bottle of seasoning powder and sprinkle it into his soup to flavor it.

I have said many times that I want to try it, but my mother always said that it is a seasoning for adults only. If children drink it, they will not grow tall and will have diarrhea and get sick. Then she would not let my brother and I eat the seasoning powder.

Several times, I saw my father grinding my mother's nails with a medicine grinder and then grinding them into powder with a mortar. He said that fish like to eat human nails, and putting nail powder into the bait will make the fish more likely to take the bait.

I have always remembered these bits and pieces of details, but until I knew that my mother had become bait, I did not understand the meaning behind them. It must be the power of division that separated my path to finding the truth.

And now, I finally know why my father died.

The reason why my brother and I were able to kill our father, who was a Level 4 Finisher, was because we were children of monsters and were not normal humans from the beginning. And the one who killed my father was not my brother, but me alone.

My brother's arm was not torn off by my father, but by me.

I know that my father used my mother as bait, and I attacked him just to find out where my mother was, but not to save her, but to eat her... Yes, that's right, I wanted to eat my mother.

The reason why I became like that might be because I secretly ate that seasoning powder.

My dad always carries that small bottle of seasoning powder with him.

But one day he went out fishing and forgot to bring the bottle. My brother and I saw it, so I suggested that we try it secretly.

Ha, they say that if there are two children in a family, one will be well-behaved and the other will be naughty. I am the naughty one. My brother said that this is not allowed, but I still tasted it secretly by myself and took a big sip.

Those seasoning powders are very small solid particles that will not melt in your mouth at all, but just holding them in your mouth, they have a very delicious taste. That day, I lay on the bed with a mouthful of seasoning in my mouth, savoring it, and I didn't even have lunch.

The incident was not discovered until the evening.

Then, I got sick, just like my mother said.

But it's not diarrhea, it's headache and thirst.

I drank a lot of water every hour. My skin was dry but soft. If I rubbed it gently, it would fall off like dirt. If I rubbed it repeatedly, it would bleed soon. I still don't remember what happened at that time because I was unconscious. I only remember that I was put into the water and then slept for a long time. When I woke up, my whole body was soaked in the bathtub, even my head was under the water.

From then on, I became the special child in the family. I could eat that seasoning powder with every meal, and then…then I saw that something was wrong with my mother. "

At this point, Lin Tiandong, whose face was already expressionless, suddenly lowered his voice and revealed an expression of extreme pain.

He clenched his teeth and covered his face with one hand, his fingers digging into his skin as if trying to dig into his skin. Transparent liquid kept flowing out from between his fingers in front of his eyes.

Su Yue stared at the other person in a daze, then looked down at the sealed box she was holding, and seemed to understand something.

So, Lin Tiandong wanted to exchange his mother who had turned into bait, not to turn her back to her original appearance, but to... eat her?

Su Yue felt a chill and looked at Lin Tiandong with extremely complicated eyes.

How should she view this person?

He has become a complete monster and can no longer be called a human being.

But Su Yue couldn't look at this former cleaner with the same eyes as she looked at those abnormal bodies. She just felt pity for him.

Xiao Zuo and Xiao You, who were standing behind Lin Tiandong, lowered their heads and looked at the captain's back with sympathy, both of them remained silent.

Lin Tiandong put down his hands that were covering his face, revealing his tear-stained cheeks, and the corners of his mouth raised sadly, as if he was mocking himself.

He looked at Su Yue and said:
"You know what? Now I feel like I just woke up, as if the years in the Control Bureau and the past ten years were all just a dream.

A monster who briefly dreams of becoming a human being.

But the fact is that monsters cannot be human. If monsters do not follow their instinctive desires, they can only suffer in the gap between desires and emotions.

Su Yue, your eyes are very good... Yes, I am beyond help. The fact that you pity me proves that I was once a human being.

But now you must listen carefully to every word I say. You may find it difficult to hear these words from others in the future. I said, we will understand each other.

I heard about you from Yi Lei, and you and I are not much different.

Now I finally understand that I have always been guided by the power in my blood, like a cow being led by the nose, and have never been qualified to claim to have free will.

I just said that I considered Xia Shou a friend, but it was not until a few hours ago that I truly saw my true feelings.

Actually, no, I never considered Xia Shou as a friend, I just envied him.

I envy him for being used by Shangguan Yan, and I envy him for being valued so much by Shangguan Yan.

I want to be Xia Shou, to work for Shangguan Yan, to do anything she wants to accomplish for her, even if it means death.

From the beginning to the end, I didn't care about Xia Shou. In my eyes, there was only Shangguan Yan.

Ah, I know, you must think I'm talking nonsense...

Hahaha, let alone you, even I feel like I'm talking nonsense!
I have never dealt with Shangguan Yan before. Even before Yuezhuo Village, I was very disgusted with this witch because of her bad relationship with our minister.

Now even I don’t know what’s wrong with me. It feels like everything is wrong and I can’t understand anything.

And you... I said before that I hated you because you were a vase.

But actually it’s not like that at all, that’s just an excuse I made for myself. Even though you are very strong now, I still hate you.

This is just like why I want to work under Shangguan Yan. There is no reason. Maybe everything is because of that shitty bloodline!
Su Yue...

Born as monsters, you and I are destined to be manipulated by the desires of our ancestors."

After saying that, Lin Tiandong's expression relaxed, and he looked at Su Yue with a sad, empty look: "I have told you everything I thought, now it's your turn to tell me, am I Lin Tiandong, or a nameplate collector?"

(End of this chapter)