Raising a wife? The mistress of the Hou family divorced and remarried her younger uncle

Chapter 178 Birthday
"Am I so unreliable in the princess' heart?" There was a hint of grievance in Lu Jing's voice, as if Su Qingwan's suspicion had caused him great injustice.

Su Qingwan just thought it was ridiculous. He was a member of the Imperial Guards, and she was the daughter of a traitor. How could there be any trust between them? How could there be any trust? Lu Jing once said that he would do anything for her, but she didn't dare to believe it completely. Isn't this a kind of sadness - she can't trust him wholeheartedly.

"Since you are reliable, why didn't you tell me the news about my father? Do you want me to go out and inquire? If you don't tell me, I can only come to Nanfeng Tower. They will leave the news here, but you have booked the place and they can't get in. I will naturally suspect that you are trying to trap them and use me as bait." Su Qingwan said coldly.

"I'm telling you that the prince is in imminent danger. What are you going to do? Go into the palace to save him? That's a dead end. You'll only die in vain." Lu Jing's voice was very light. Snowflakes were fluttering outside the window, and the coldness in the room was as biting as midwinter. "Princess, listen to my advice. The prince is already in a dead end. Don't struggle anymore."

Su Qingwan knew that this was a dead end. No matter what choice she made, her father would not survive. If she went into the palace to save them, she would die with them. If her brothers rebelled, Xilin had surrendered, and Xilin and the royalist army were attacking them, unless God protected the southwest, her brothers would be in danger.

Dayuan and Xilin have been fighting for so many years, costing the people money and hardship, and the people are all looking forward to peace talks and truce. Border wars are fought for silver and food. Now that peace talks are possible, the soldiers are looking forward to a stable life of farming and studying. If they rebel at this time and provoke war, they will only be infamous for thousands of years.

Because they are the culprits of the war, because they have no justification.

The crime of my father is to murder the heir to the throne, and everyone in the world knows it. This is a serious crime that will implicate all nine generations of the family, but the King of the Southwest is a royal family, so there is no such thing as nine generations of the family. Now the emperor wants the sons of the King of the Southwest to go to the capital to plead their case, which is clearly a Hongmen Banquet, and he wants their lives.

To rebel is to have no justification; to obey is to die.

No matter what, it's a dead end.

She didn't know how to break the deadlock.

"It's okay. I will be reunited with my father and brothers in the underworld anyway." Su Qingwan chuckled, with a bit of relief in her tone. She should have been reunited with her father and brothers twelve years ago. "I've lived for so many years by chance, but I have accomplished nothing. I'm really disappointed in myself."

Really, very disappointed!

Lu Jing frowned slightly and suppressed the anger in his heart, "You are not the real daughter of the King of Southwest. His real daughter was raised in Southwest and lived a life of luxury. Why would you sacrifice your life for Southwest?"

Su Qingwan looked at Lu Jing deeply, feeling a sharp pain in her heart.

"You respect Lu Shaoqing like a father, don't you? If anything happens to him, you will risk your life to save him, right?"

"Can that be the same?"

"What's the difference?" Su Qingwan asked back, "I was raised by my father since I was young. He hired famous teachers to teach me poetry, calligraphy and martial arts, and also taught me how to make a living and protect myself. He gave me power and let me make my own choices. He did everything a father should do. In my heart, he is my second father."

Southwest’s siblings were given to her by God.

Lu Jing frowned, "Princess, once the Southwest rebels, you will be a hostage and a pawn abandoned by the Southwest."

"I hope my brothers can rebel, break through this imperial city, massacre the Li family, and avenge me and my father." Su Qingwan's voice was sharp, and a bloody hatred burned in her eyes. "I was wrong back then, I deserve to die! I shouldn't have adhered to the way of a gentleman, loyalty to the emperor, and righteousness, and shouldn't have just thought about overturning the case in Huainan... Since I'm here for revenge, killing people is the most satisfying. Don't care about reputation. As long as I win, the historians will judge for me. Why should I be obsessed with overturning the case? I'm so stupid, I should have killed them! Revenge requires blood, only then it's satisfying!"

She should have done this and thought this way earlier.

Why should we abide by the Huainan family rules and ancestral teachings and never betray the Li royal family? That was the agreement made by the first Huainan King and the founding princess. What does it have to do with future generations?
The flourishing Huainan lineage was gone overnight. Why did she keep her bloodline and remember the ancestral teachings? The ancestral tablets were burned, so what was the use of the ancestral teachings? If the ancestors were still alive, how could Huainan end up like this?

"Princess, be careful with your words!" Lu Jing said sternly, "The emperor has his eyes and ears everywhere in the capital. If you speak so loudly, it will soon reach his ears."

“Hahahaha, am I scared?” Su Qingwan laughed with tears in her eyes, “I’ve only got a miserable life, so I’ll just fight it out! You want me to become a proton or a chess piece? Never!”

The wind and snow outside the window howled, as if blowing across Su Qingwan's angry chest. She suddenly calmed down, and although her emotions had not yet calmed down, she said lightly: "I'm hungry."

A quarter of an hour later, the shopkeeper and his waiter came with the dishes.

Shopkeeper Hua did not talk to Su Qingwan, but only looked at her worriedly. Su Qingwan did not say anything either, and her expression remained calm. The table was filled with southwestern home-cooked dishes, which were not the usual signature dishes of Nanfeng Tower.

Shopkeeper Hua said softly, "Princess, today is the tenth day of the lunar month, your birthday, please eat a little."

Lu Jing was startled, and his heart suddenly tightened. It turned out that today was her birthday. He and she were still arguing about the life and death of the King of Southwest, which hurt her heart. If it weren't for this incident, the palace would have prepared a grand birthday banquet for her, and she would have received blessings from all officials and rewards from concubines. He would also carefully prepare a surprise for her.

Instead of being trapped alone in the courtyard like now, like a peony about to wither.

He felt distressed and sad. Why didn't she mention it?
In previous years in Huainan, her birthday must have been very lively. There were her father, mother, brothers, and sisters... The more Lu Jing thought about it, the more uncomfortable he felt.

"What's the point of celebrating a birthday if no one congratulates me?" Su Qingwan said lightly, with a hint of sadness in her tone.

Lu Jing's heart twisted slightly, feeling extremely sad, and he poured her a glass of wine, "I'll be with you, Princess, happy birthday."

He raised the wine glass and looked at Su Qingwan steadily, as if she was the only one in his eyes. His overly focused gaze always gave people the illusion of deep affection. Su Qingwan chuckled and clinked glasses with him.

Li An has checked this wine, so there is naturally nothing wrong with it.

Lu Jing was upset. He hadn't prepared a birthday gift. This was the first birthday he had spent with Su Qingwan. He couldn't help but feel regretful that there was no birthday gift. "What does the princess want?"

"Will you give me whatever I want?" Su Qingwan asked.

"As long as I have it!"

"I want the emperor's life." Su Qingwan smiled, which could even be said to be playful, very smart, like a mischievous girl.

Lu Jing was silent. This was a gift he could not afford, and it was also a gift he did not have.

"Oh, what a pity, I scared you." Su Qingwan smiled brightly and drank another glass of wine. "It would be nice for me to get a gift like this myself, so I won't bother Lord Lu."