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Chapter 293 Anxiety Keeps Me Sleeping (4.5K)

After getting off work, Li Beixing went to the studio first, as usual.

Seeing that she didn't look well, Chen Jingle asked curiously and anxiously, "What's wrong? Are you feeling unwell?"

"No, it's just that I'm not in a good state today, and I made several mistakes in class."

After Li Beixing finished speaking, he couldn't help but sigh and subconsciously looked at Chen Jingle.

Chen Jingle took her hand and pinched her cheek.

"I'm a little anxious," Li Beixing said in a low voice.

Actually, it's more than just a little bit. For some reason, these past two days, the thought of the wedding next week has turned my initial anticipation into worry and anxiety, and I've been tossing and turning at night for a long time before I can fall asleep.

Chen Jingle didn't ask any unnecessary questions, but simply got up and hugged her tightly, saying softly, "Don't be afraid, I'm here!"

Li Beixing felt his strong heartbeat and silently rested her chin on the back of his neck so that the two of them could be closer together.

In the boundless universe, two lonely souls nestled together.

Chen Jingle has a certain understanding of sociology and psychology, so he knows that premarital anxiety is a very normal phenomenon.

This isn't a question of being overly sentimental or not; it's simply the natural emotional reaction people have when faced with a major turning point in life like marriage.

Just like when students face important exams such as the middle school entrance exam and the college entrance exam, even the most confident students will inevitably feel nervous.

There are mock exams, but there are no mock weddings.

Therefore, Chen Jingle could understand Li Beixing's feelings at this moment, feeling both amused and heartbroken.

"What a silly girl!"

It is almost impossible for a person to completely control their emotions; at most, they can make adjustments as soon as they realize that their emotions are not right.

As an observer, all he could do was try his best to ease the other person's tension.

Anxiety, simply put, is uncertainty about the future.

This uncertainty stems from several aspects.

One is the change in identity, from unmarried to married, from girlfriend to wife, from a single "I" to "we".

Originally, I could have lived a very free life, but the intervention of another person was far more thorough than dating.

Not everyone can adapt well to this change.

Li Beixing is currently unsure whether she can play the role of a wife well, whether she can shoulder the responsibilities of being a family partner, and even the responsibilities of being a parent and taking care of both sets of parents in the future.

It's uncertain whether their romantic daily life before marriage can continue after marriage, or whether it will become mundane due to changes in their relationship, eventually leading to arguments and nagging over mundane matters like groceries.

To be honest, she doesn't resist responsibility and obligation, but she just feels inexplicably anxious.

Because we haven't experienced it before, everything is unknown, and the unknown means uncertainty.

This immense pressure was unprecedented for her.

Another aspect is the restructuring of family relationships.

She has changed from living with her parents to living with her in-laws, and she is unsure whether she can get along well with them after marriage, or whether conflicts will arise when living under the same roof.

Although my parents-in-law are very good people, friction is inevitable after living together for a long time.

If a conflict arises, how will Chen Jingle handle it?

Will he side with his parents?
Even if he can treat everyone equally, can he guarantee that he will do so every time?
These questions popped into Li Beixing's mind, making him feel terrible. He hadn't thought about them before, so why did they suddenly come to mind?

It's a bit inexplicable.

There's also the uncertainty about the long-term future: will my life be interfered with after marriage? Will my career plans, family planning, and so on be affected?

As for other things, such as daily expenses, there's no need to worry.

Firstly, her own consumption is not high, and secondly, Chen Jingle's income is sufficient to support the family's expenses, so it would not lower their quality of life.

Most people's premarital anxiety is related to money, but not hers.

Fortunately, she was just anxious, not resistant.

If you resist it, you won't want to get married in the first place.

From beginning to end, she deeply loved Chen Jingle and desperately wanted to become his wife.

Trust his character, and trust your own judgment.

After calming down and thinking it over carefully, Li Beixing realized another reason: she had a bit of a perfectionist streak and high expectations for married life. She worried that she or Chen Jingle might not do enough in certain aspects after marriage, which could lead to various problems.

It's somewhat like worrying unnecessarily.

The best way to solve this problem is naturally to lower expectations and reduce psychological anticipation.

……

However, Chen Jingle believes that a moderate level of anxiety is not necessarily a bad thing.

At the very least, it allows people to examine, think, and prepare more seriously.

"Then do you think there's anything I haven't considered, or anything that needs to be added?" he asked Li Beixing.

Li Beixing thought carefully and said, "That's all. We've prepared almost everything we need to. All that's left is to arrange the new houses and the venue. That's all ready too. We just need to follow the steps. What else could there be?"

As she spoke, I could clearly feel her body suddenly tense up again.

Chen Jingle quickly patted her back gently, as if coaxing a child, and said softly, "Actually, life after marriage will probably be similar to what we are now. If you are willing, you can continue to live with your parents and come over whenever you want to stay at my place."

"What are you talking about?"

To everyone's surprise, Li Beixing reacted strongly and resolutely refused: "We're not even married yet, and you're already looking down on me?"

"No way!"

Chen Jingle was both amused and exasperated: "It's just a suggestion, another option. If you don't want it, then forget it."

Li Beixing hesitated: "We can go back and forth between the two places, but it's better not to stay at your parents' house for a long time. It would be too disrespectful to you."

If Chen Jingle is not at home and works away from home for a long time, then it's not a big deal for her to go back to her parents' home for a while.

The problem is that Chen Jingle is at home, but she doesn't live with him and instead goes to her parents' house, which is a bit unreasonable.

The two didn't argue or have any conflicts.

Li Beixing whispered, "If I go back to my parents' place, you'll probably be the one who feels uncomfortable. But the villa next door, number 16, is all set up and ready to move in anytime. If you don't want to live in Niujiaoling and don't want to live with my parents, we can stay there."

"Okay."

Chen Jingle nodded.

I have no other thoughts besides feeling a little sentimental about the villa that my parents-in-law gave me as part of their dowry.

Even if he owns thousands of houses, he only needs three feet of space to sleep. He doesn't have many requirements for living conditions; he's content as long as they're above average.

After thinking for a moment, he said, "Marriage is not the end of life, but the beginning of a new and happier life. Anxiety is just a sign of inner longing. No matter what, I will stand by you."

Upon hearing this, Li Beixing instinctively hugged him tightly.

Only in this way can she feel a little bit of security.

If she could, she really wanted to hold him like that forever, sticking together 24 hours a day.

That's why they call them koala spirits!
They hugged each other quietly for who knows how many minutes before Chen Jingle slowly pushed her away and instead pulled her towards the work area.

"What are you going to do?" Li Beixing asked curiously.

Chen Jingle smiled without saying a word. He had thought of this before, and now was the perfect time to bring it up.

Prepare the brush, ink, paper, and inkstone, and immediately dip the brush in ink and write: "Two hearts are in harmony, meeting with sincere hearts; two trees are intertwined, growing stronger through the cold and heat."

Today, the pear blossoms are just beginning to bloom, reflecting the spring colors between our brows; in future years, orchids and osmanthus will bloom in abundance, bathed in the gentle breeze under the moon.

The fragrance of ink accompanies soup, as we cultivate the years amidst the smoke and fire; poems accompany our journeys, as we paint a picture of clear skies and seas.

With the Milky Way as my betrothal gift, I write this letter on plain paper; and with truth as my vessel, we will cross the mortal world together.

This certificate,

Chen Jingle, Li Beixing.

The 27th day of the fourth month of the year Yi Si.

This is a marriage certificate.

Marriage certificates originated in the Tang Dynasty and have undergone various changes over the past thousand years. Today, they have been restored to some of their ancient form, but are now more symbolic.

However, girls fall for this.

Look at Li Beixing, her eyes filled with surprise as she gazed at the small regular script artwork in front of her, her eyes brimming with tears, and her expression sweet.

Chen Jingle rummaged through the drawer and found the inkpad and the two people's seals.

He had previously carved a small jade seal for Li Beixing when he had nothing else to do. Although it wasn't a masterpiece, it was presentable, but he rarely had the chance to use it.

This is the perfect time to use it.

"Come and get your seal stamped and sign the contract!" he said to Li Beixing with a smile.

A marriage certificate is a contract or agreement, and of course it needs to be signed and stamped to be valid.

He first pressed a red mark on the lower right of his name with his own seal, then looked at Li Beixing.

Li Beixing smiled and, mimicking his gesture, rubbed the stamp on the inkpad before pressing it next to his name.

Although it was just a simple marriage certificate, the moment the seal was stamped on it, she clearly felt much more at ease.

Chen Jingle first put away the seal and inkpad, and only after the writing on the marriage certificate had completely dried did he roll it up with a smile and put it in the cabinet: "I have to keep it safe later, I can't lose it."

This thing is on the same level as the previous engagement letter and the marriage certificate we'll be getting soon.

Li Beixing could no longer hold back and pounced on him.

This time, she acted wilder than ever before, as if venting emotions that had been suppressed in her heart for a long time.

"I want a child!"

"Uh, there's no rush. We're both healthy, we can have a baby whenever we want."

"No, I want it now!"

“…Okay, okay.”

There's really nothing you can do against her.

Li Beixing is very smart.

She knew that the best way to keep a man was through family, responsibility, and children.

They certainly love each other deeply, but why not make their relationship even stronger?

I've never heard of someone choosing to have their partner get sterilized or have an IUD inserted because they love them too much. Shouldn't they normally have more children?
……

Time flies by like a white horse.

Tomorrow is the day the Li family will hold their wedding banquet.

Although the wedding banquet is held at a hotel, the wedding procession will definitely take place at home, so the home should be decorated appropriately to make it look more festive.

The walls and windows of the villa are already covered with double happiness characters and various red decorations.

In Li Beixing's room, all the dowry items except for the bed were already arranged. She would just need to put the four-piece bedding on the bed after she woke up at dawn.

Tonight, Jiang Zhiqin and her daughter will sleep together, and the two plan to have a private conversation.

Jiang Zhiqin looked at her daughter.

It seemed like it had been a long time since she had observed her daughter so closely and attentively.

At this moment, I feel both gratified and conflicted.

This is her daughter, whom she raised with great care, starting from a weight of 5.2 pounds. She is excellent in every way, which makes her feel proud.

However, she was about to marry into another family and become someone else's wife and daughter-in-law.

I feel a little disappointed.

However, she quickly put those feelings behind her.

She should be happy that her daughter married well. She knows her son-in-law very well; he is a top choice in terms of both talent and character.

You can rest assured to entrust your daughter to the other party.

She's getting married soon, and as someone who's been through it all, there are some things that outsiders can't say, so she needs to say them herself.

At this moment, the mother and daughter were lying on the bed, their heads together and their hands clasped.

Jiang Zhiqin said in a low voice, "Let me reiterate, from the moment you decided to marry him, you were destined to follow him wherever he went. This is your own choice, and your parents respect it, but you also have to be responsible for your choice, understand?"

"Uh-huh!"

Li Beixing nodded repeatedly.

Jiang Zhiqin: "Once you marry him, it means you not only have to accept him as a person, but also his parents, his family, and everything about him. You can't say that they are his parents and have nothing to do with you. Because you are our only daughter, if you two continue to be together, your father and I will have to rely on your husband to take care of us when we get old. How you treat his parents is how he will treat your parents."

"Everyone has a heart, and Jing Le is obviously not the kind of person who would turn his back on you. As long as you treat him well and take care of him in everything you do, he will naturally do the same for you. Love is mutual, understand? You can tell from your parents that it's okay to have a little temper in private, but when there are outsiders present, remember to give your man enough face."

"Although I know that with your intelligence, my dear daughter, you can understand such a simple problem, I'm just afraid that at some unintentional moment, your in-laws might do something that makes you uncomfortable, and you might hold a grudge. But I have to say, there's no need for that. As long as it doesn't cross any red lines, just let it go."

"If you really have a problem with it, talk to your husband and discuss how to handle it together. It's okay to be emotional, but don't lose your temper. Men are sometimes very simple-minded. If you coax them a little, they'll obediently solve the problem. Women who know how to be charming are the luckiest. On the contrary, those who are sharp-tongued but soft-hearted are destined to have an unhappy life."

Li Beixing recalled how he would act coquettishly in front of Chen Jingle and make even the most unreasonable little requests, which he couldn't help but smile at and had to agree to.

That's true.

Jiang Zhiqin added, "Many people nowadays can't manage their marital relationships and families well because they shirk their responsibilities too much. They always think about enjoying the benefits of marriage, but don't want to accept the responsibilities and obligations that come with it. Is there really such a good thing in the world?"

"Always remember that you and your husband are the true community of shared interests. As long as you face and think about problems from the perspective of your common interests, your relationship will not easily change. Don't let other people's opinions affect your relationship."

"Besides, our family is better off than Jingle's, but that doesn't mean we can bully others just because we're better off. I didn't teach you any of that. Remember, apart from sons-in-law who live with their wives, not many men can tolerate their wives riding on their heads and acting arrogantly. Even if they can tolerate it for a while, they can't tolerate it forever."

"With his talent, success is only a matter of time. His future is bound to be limitless. His income may not be as high as his family's, but if he pursues the path of calligraphy and painting, his fame will definitely be greater. Just support his work and career."

"Of course, if he dares to change his mind and bully you, don't be afraid. Your parents will always be your strongest support. If he can't solve a problem, your parents will solve it for you!"

"..."

Jiang Zhiqin talked and talked, she hadn't been so talkative in a long time, as if she wanted to say everything she had to say for the rest of her life before she would stop.

Li Beixing listened attentively from beginning to end, nodding continuously.

She knew, of course, that this was a sign of her parents' love and doting on her, and it was no wonder that her eyes welled up with tears.

"Silly girl, what's there to be sad about? You've married a wonderful man, you should be happy. Besides, it's only a short walk, it's not like you're marrying far away and won't see each other often. You can move into the villa next door at number 16 later, and come over to stay occasionally."

Jiang Zhiqin smiled as she wiped away the tears from her daughter's eyes, sighing softly.

In truth, she was also saddened.

(End of this chapter)