Seven years after my death, the male protagonist of the substitute novel was criticized

Chapter 104 The Past - Say You Don't Love Me

Lin Lu slept uneasily that night.

With the help of the small light that was always on in the bathroom, she got up several times at night and tiptoed to the window to look out.

Pei Yizhou was still standing outside, not leaving, but also not seeming to intend to come closer.

He didn't even call or message her to let her know he was coming, he just stood there motionless.

Lin Lu couldn't explain what he felt. He lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling with his eyes open, his mind in a mess.

At daybreak, she stood at the window again.

Pei Yizhou is gone.

"Why did you get up so early? What are you staring at outside?" Ding Zitong turned over in bed and asked in a daze.

She seemed to be shocked by the static electricity on the curtains and pulled them over to block them.

"……nothing."

The trip to Yunnan lasted only three days, and Pei Yizhou also stayed there at night for three days.

Without contact or meeting, she couldn't understand what Pei Yizhou was doing or what he wanted to do.

She had to devote more than half of her attention to speculating about Pei Yizhou, and never responded further to Lin Shuwen's pursuit.

On the way back, Lin Shuwen sent a message directly asking: [Can you be my girlfriend? ]

How should I respond?

Can’t reply?
Why not? They had been classmates for three years. Lin Shuwen was handsome and good-tempered. He knew what she liked and didn't like to eat, when her menstrual period came, and what brand of sanitary napkins she used...

His liking for her can be seen almost at a glance.

If she doesn't accept this kind of person, then what kind of person does she like?

Can you answer?
But Lin Shuwen didn't know that she had a caring brother at home. They had kissed each other countless times in the past two months, and their lips were so sore that they couldn't even eat.

If Lin Shuwen knew about what happened between her and Pei Yizhou, would he feel disgusted and unable to accept it?
If Pei Yizhou knew that she and Lin Shuwen were in love, would he cause trouble for Lin Shuwen and reveal the fact that he liked her?
Comparing the two options, the answer cannot seem to have the lower risk.

So she replied "no".

Then Lin Shuwen never contacted her again.

When I got home, Pei Yizhou was not there. There was a note left in the living room saying that he had returned to school early to work on a project with his classmates and teachers.

This is a good thing, she thought, since she didn't want to spend every day with Pei Yizhou anyway.

The days passed quickly as the clouds rolled in and out.

University has started.

Pei Yizhou took a day off and took her to report to school. When they applied for admission, they were still in a brother-like relationship. She applied for schools that were close to home and Pei Yizhou.

Of the other five people in the dormitory, three brought their parents to make their beds, one had classmates from the same school to help him, and one was a teacher's child and had already moved in.

Only she came with her brother.

Pei Yizhou played the role of a parent, carrying most of the luggage, making the bed and hanging curtains, buying locks and computers, greeting other classmates and asking everyone to take care of her.

Before leaving, he filled a kettle of hot water for her and gave her enough pocket money.

He didn't seem to intend to use his pocket money to force her to contact him more often - he was always like this, sometimes sick and sometimes normal.

The university is not far from home, but Lin Lu doesn’t plan to go home often.

She lived a life of going from one place to another, moving between the dormitory, classroom, and cafeteria. Occasionally, when she came across something delicious, she would hold back and not take photos and send them to Pei Yizhou to share as she did before.

They seemed to have lost touch.

She didn't go back until the third day of the National Day holiday.

Pei Yizhou also came back late, so they met in the living room and returned to their respective rooms in silence. After Lin Lu returned to the room, he suddenly noticed that Pei Yizhou seemed to have lost weight.

The next day when I was having breakfast, Pei Yizhou's computer was placed in the living room, and the video courses were all taught in English.

Mixed with the sizzling sound of his frying eggs, there was a strange sense of harmony.

“It’s a very annoying sound,” she said.

"It will be over in a few minutes, just bear with it."

She sat at the dining table, frowned and asked, "I seem to have heard the IELTS test."

"Well," Pei Yizhou brought breakfast to her and said calmly, "I applied for an exchange student position at a foreign university and need a high score to pass the IELTS."

Lin Lu looked at him in surprise.

He put the most beautifully fried egg into her bowl and continued, "I developed a software with my teacher before and made some money by selling the patent. My teacher said I should go abroad for further study. It just so happens that there is a one-year exchange opportunity now, so let me try it."

She was a little stunned; she had never expected this direction.

But she did leave...

"You should be happier when I leave here." Pei Yizhou expressed her thoughts.

He lowered his head to drink the warm water, and while stirring the noodles he said, "I always thought I could find a way to make you accept it, but I obviously overestimated myself."

"I know you saw me outside the B&B that day. Do you know what I was thinking?"

The English video on the computer ended and the living room fell silent, making his next words clearer.

"I was thinking, forget it, why not let you go."

"But as long as I see you, I will never be willing to give up. So this is a good opportunity for you to get rid of me. Go abroad for an exchange for a year, stay abroad to work after graduation, and never see each other again in your life."

"I will regularly transfer your living expenses to you. Just study hard at school. When you have holidays, go home. If you feel bored living alone, just call your classmates to live with you. You can have a relationship, work after graduation, get married... If you have important matters, you can call me. If you need money or anything else, I will give you everything I can."

“This is the best way.”

After saying that, he did not eat the mixed noodles, but just took another sip of warm water, as if to wash away the blockage in his throat.

Lin Lu stared at the fried eggs and was distracted.

After a while she said, "If this decision is good for your future development, I support it."

Pei Yizhou put the cup down with a heavy "thump".

"Really?" He tightened his jaw. "Actually, I was wrong. There will be no phone calls or help. I'm out of the country. I will never contact you again. You can only pretend that you have never lived with me and never called me brother. I won't introduce you to others, and you don't have to talk to others when they talk about me."

"I worked, lived, fell in love, got married, and had a child abroad. You also got married and had a child in China. When people asked about your family at the wedding, you just had to say that they all died in a car accident that year."

"You don't want to be with me, and I don't want to continue to be a deaf and dumb brother. Why don't we just be strangers? I can't see you, hear your voice, or know your life. Naturally, I will forget you one day."

Lin Lu opened his mouth but no words came out.

Pei Yizhou, however, forced her to speak and said something that would lead to their breakup.

"As long as you say that you don't want me as your brother anymore, that you disgust me, that you don't want to see me again, and that you wish I would die out there, I will immediately buy a plane ticket and leave, and never come back again."

"Speak, Lin Lu! Say you don't want me anymore!"

"..."

"say!"

"... Pei Yizhou, you're a psychopath! A psychopath!" Lin Lu cried out loudly and threw the chopsticks at him.

She fell into a daze about the world, not understanding why feelings could not be like the two sides of a coin, either black or white, but instead suffered in neutrality.

(End of this chapter)