Rebirth 08: Equipment God

Chapter 62 Grandpa's Notes

"To put it in simple terms, people with alexithymia have problems with the 'expression' and 'recognition' of emotions. It is not a mental illness, but rather a negative personality trait."

Zhai Da stopped pushing his bicycle.

Shen Rui also stopped:

"Emotional expression disorder is only a minor problem. After all, there are many people who are not good at speaking or are introverted. However, a small number of people with particularly serious emotional disorders will also have disorders in 'emotional cognition', which will be more troublesome."

"They cannot correctly identify their own emotions, let alone understand other people's emotions. Their happiness, sadness, and anger are all suppressed by themselves, and they are also prone to misjudging other people's states. Just like when you are stabbed by a knife, you will feel pain and fight back, but they may just quietly watch the wound bleed and calmly ask the person who stabbed them what they are doing."

Zhai Da trusted Shen Rui's intelligence and his judgment. The key point was that everything was right.
He can't tell which is a joke and rarely expresses his emotions outwardly. Even when faced with something that would cause an ordinary person to collapse, he just sheds tears silently.

Even Zhai Da thought of a more distressing possibility.

After going through so much, he is still giving gambling money to Lu Benqing even if he goes hungry for a long time. Is it because he misjudged the promise of his beastly father?
Zhai Da exhaled a breath of foul air: "Is this situation a big deal?"

Shen Rui shook his head: "That depends on the specific situation. For mild cases, we can interpret it as being relatively 'bored'. For those with more serious cases, if they intend to interact with society, they can barely imitate normal behavior patterns through intelligence and experience, so they won't have big problems. But after all, this is not a good trait."

"Most importantly, their emotions have been ignored and suppressed for a long time, leading to a lack of happiness and being easily hurt in interpersonal relationships. Over time, this may lead to other mental problems."

Shen Rui patted Zhai Da's arm and said, "So I hope you can understand that when you are dating Lu Wei, she is not born like this. As for the reason, if you continue to be friends, you will gradually understand it."

Zhai Da asked: "How can we improve this situation? Medication?"

Shen Rui shook his head: "Although the degree of each person is different, but medicine is never the antidote for this kind of problem, people are."

People are
The two continued to move forward. Shen Rui did not bring up the topic again, giving Zhai Da some time to digest the conversation.

We arrived at Shen Rui's residential complex. The old man in the security room nodded and greeted him with a smile. It was obvious that Shen Rui maintained good interpersonal relationships with most people.

This community is even older than Sanmao, probably at the same level as "Da Mao", with bungalows and buildings interspersed. The garbage station is overflowing, and an unpleasant smell is emitted as the temperature gradually rises.

This is not surprising, as Shen Rui comes from a family of woolen mill workers, and teachers' salaries are not high.

Zhai Da suddenly felt a little sorry for Shen Rui. Such a smart and gentle person, a PhD from R University who graduated from a small town, is he just a "small town test-taker" in the eyes of some people?
Are there many people around him who laugh at him for not being successful? What's the point of studying?

While climbing the stairs, Zhai Da said, "Teacher Shen, I think Mr. Yu is a good person. It would be great if you could go to work in Xu City and join Mr. Yu's company."

"Even being a counselor is better than being a teacher."

Shen Rui didn't seem surprised, but did not answer Zhai Da. He probably felt that this topic was unnecessary to discuss with a student.

Zhai Da got himself into trouble.

Arriving at the home on the third floor, Shen Rui opened the door, revealing a tidy and cozy two-bedroom apartment. The smell inside reminded Zhai Da of a library, it was the smell produced by a large number of books piled up.

Just looking inside from the door, there are three bookcases of different types, and they are all packed full.

It can be seen that Teacher Shen Rui does not have a wife or girlfriend, so there is no room for a second person.

Considering his age, his family must be worried.

Oh, that’s not right. Teacher Shen doesn’t have a mother either, so maybe no one is urging him.

Since they were just picking up something and leaving, Zhai Da said he would not go in, so as to avoid taking off and changing shoes. Shen Rui walked into the innermost room and came out after about three to five minutes, holding a notebook in his hand.

The moment it came into view, a green broken line appeared in Zhai Da's field of vision.

My grandfather's relic is a special item.
Shen Rui brushed off the non-existent dust on the notebook and placed it in Zhai Da's hand:
"Since it wasn't a personal letter, I just flipped through a few pages."

"I won't answer your question just now, but maybe you can find the answer from this notebook."

“From ancient times to the present, the answer to the word ‘pursuit’ should not be just money.”

"Of course it's a bit too early for you to think about this now."

Zhai Da looked at the notebook in his hand. The crimson plastic cover was somewhat degraded and had a few spots of age. Apart from the giant's head in the center, there was no other decoration.

It is very thick, and it is not an exaggeration to even call it a "book". The spine is two fingers wide.

On the back, there are two short lines of printed words.

“The working people are intellectualized, and the intellectuals are labored.”

"Congratulations to the host for discovering the green special equipment [Yu Lihua's Metalworking Notes (Incomplete) (1/4)]: This is the training material that Lihua put so much effort into, but not many people have read it."

"Ownership: Acquired, Activated."

"Equipment Effect 1: Carrying it can slightly increase your metalworking learning ability, and double the bonus when studying the contents of the notebook itself." "Equipment Effect 2: Focus on the notebook itself, there is a very small chance of [temporarily] resonating with the owner of the notebook, greatly increasing the chance of becoming a 'bond' in terms of blood, spirit, and emotion, and providing special feedback."

"Special effect 'Residual Wisdom': Those who have successfully triggered resonance have a chance of experiencing a flash of inspiration when studying, working, or doing 'manufacturing'-related studies."

"Unlocking mission: independently manufacture ten items."

"Special effect 'Standing Heart':??? (Equipment incomplete)."

"Unblocking mission:???"

"Note: My hand, which was able to control the accuracy within two threads, could no longer stop shaking when I wrote down the notes."

Zhai Da opened the cover of the notebook, which was full of notes on handwork or metalworking, including the production, specifications, and key points of some basic parts.

It seems that all types of lathes, milling machines, planers and grinding pliers are available.

In addition to the text content, there are also many hand-drawn pictures.

The paper is yellowed and old, but because no one has flipped through it, it looks brand new and smooth.

Shen Rui said, "It seems to contain the training manual that your grandfather wrote for new factory workers. Later, the reference room was cleared out, but my third uncle picked it out and didn't throw it away. Now I'm giving it back to you."

"Originally it was supposed to be given to your mother, but it was fate."

Zhai Da, inexplicably, stroked the words on the paper with his index finger.

His grandfather, who passed away when he was one year old and whom he could not find any memory of, now left his mark on his fingertips.

Even the tiny indentations left by the tip of a pen are fed back to the brain through fingerprints.

Zhai Da was stunned for a moment.

The next moment, the vision became blurred.

He seemed to be pulled away quickly, tied to the rear of the high-speed train and moving backwards.

After a loud "buzz!", I appeared in a familiar yet strange room.
His room
Or rather, his room 20 years ago.

A figure in a dark blue coat was writing something at the desk.

The same position was the desk where he usually studied, facing the window.

Yes, he remembered. His mother once said that after she got married, his grandfather moved into the small room and gave the master bedroom to his daughter and son-in-law.

It turns out that I have always been in the same place with my grandfather.
This scene at this moment seems like a dislocated time and space.

Zhai Da wanted to walk forward and pat the man on the shoulder, but unfortunately he seemed to be just a "perspective".

The figure in the coat coughed a few times and seemed to be in some pain.

But his spine was straight, not bent at all because of the pain.

Then, he wrote a few words.

On the last page of the notebook.

"Zhai Da. Zhai Da?"

Zhai Da came back to his senses and looked at Shen Rui in front of him.

Shen Rui asked in confusion: "What's wrong with you? Where do you feel uncomfortable?"

Zhai Da shook his head: "Sorry, I was distracted and a little too shocked. What I have in my hand is actually written by my grandfather himself."

Shen Rui smiled and said, "Go back and have a look. Of course, this will not affect your studies."

Zhai Da walked out of Shen Rui's house, and the other party then had to pack his luggage, after all, he was going to Xu City tomorrow.

He stood in the unfamiliar corridor, dazed for a long time. Was the strange "memory" just now the so-called "resonance"?

Finally, he took out his notebook and turned to the last page.

He was curious about what his grandfather wrote at the end.
The end of the notebook.

"The wheat ripens thousands of times, but long live the people for the first time."

Zhai Da read it softly
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