Am I really hallucinating?

Chapter 125 You're Lost Too

After the words fell, some timid people lowered their heads, but most of them laughed mockingly or glared at him unhappily.

"Just say it, that's all she can say!"

"She is just a tamed lamb! The leader planted among us by those nuns in human skins! She is not on our side! Nim, don't be fooled by her pretty appearance!" A girl came over and took the freckled boy's hand, trying to keep him away from Doris.

"Maybe she is already a monster in human skin." The older boy who laughed earlier whispered.

These children's attitudes are understandable.

Although he had no idea what had happened between them during the two weeks that he was away, Zheng Fan could roughly guess some of it. At this moment, he was just watching the show with amusement.

But Doris's expression, which remained unshaken, was quite boring.

Although both have no expression, Zheng Fan thinks there is a big difference between Doris and Lin Yilin.

The main reason why Binary Girl has no expression is that she feels that making expressions is tiring and a waste of energy, and she is too lazy to make expressions with most people because they don’t deserve it.

As for Xiaoyang, she really seemed to not know what expression to make, so she just stayed there stiffly.

"Don't say that about Doris. It was Doris who saved me during the blessing test!" Nim stood firmly on Doris' side.

"Still talking about this? Didn't she say that she was just hunting that guy? During the blessing test, she suddenly said that she wanted to 'select' in advance. It was because of people like her that we were inexplicably in danger at that time. Doris is the same as those people!" Some people also have their own reasons.

Nim paused, thinking about his words: "But Doris didn't report us after she knew what we did here!"

At this point, others didn't know how to refute it.

"But she comes here every night and repeats the words that ask us to disband..."

"Then she didn't report us or force us to do anything." Nim gained the upper hand in the argument.

The others were speechless.

"Okay, let's get along happily and have fun together!" Nim tried to liven up the atmosphere, but as long as Doris was around, it was difficult for them to relax and have fun.

Suddenly, Doris turned her head, looked back, and left the small room.

Everyone was a little confused, but they were all relieved as long as Doris was not there.

Nim wanted to keep Doris, but she left too quickly. She disappeared from his sight in a flash, and he could only see a blue skirt at the door.

"You noticed that there was someone outside just now, right?" Zheng Fan suddenly said to Doris at this time.

"Yes." Doris nodded, "It's a sheep."

The sheep Doris mentioned were the selected materials like them.

She came outside and quickly looked around the corridor, following the remaining traces with her sharp eyes.

But when she passed through the halls of the monastery, she found that the traces had been cleaned up.

"Old hand, very skilled." Doris observed and said softly.

"What will happen if someone finds out? Will that person tell on me in exchange for something?" Zheng Fan said upon seeing this.

Doris shook her head. "You can have your own secrets in the monastery, but most things cannot be hidden from the nun. She just observes secretly and selects seeds that she likes. Other than that, she doesn't care, so she gives us a lot of freedom during non-study time."

"So there's no point in snitching, so why are you rushing after the snoopers?"

"That person didn't want to tell on me. She came to get the seeds. This time she was just checking out the area. After confirming that I was there, she immediately chose to leave. She will come again. If I'm not there or I'm late, she will take action... Lambs that have just entered the sheepfold are young, but weak and very attractive."

Doris was not too upset about losing the person, but just calmly stated what might have happened.

"You've been protecting them?"

"..."

"I can't feel your emotions directly now, but there are other ways to play. Let's just do this, you just walk around here." Zheng Fan smiled and said meaningfully.

Doris glanced at Zheng Fan in confusion, but didn't pay much attention to what he said. She just went back to her room...

Ten minutes later, Doris fell silent as she looked at the corner of the corridor that she must have passed several times and the courtyard view outside the window that had not changed at all.

After a long while, she finally spoke: "What did you do?"

"It's a simple psychological suggestion. It's already very good to be able to play it out to this extent in the current state. Now it seems that the effect is quite good." Zheng Fan said with satisfaction.

He directly tried to use the newly acquired power of the mist.

Of course, since there is no entity, its performance is quite limited, but it is already quite good to be able to achieve this level of psychological suggestion even in a hallucination state.

At least the earthworm and red line abilities still cannot directly affect external objects here.

Zheng Fan himself guessed that the uncertainty of Lost's ability allowed him to take advantage of some loophole.

"...I'm going back to my room to sleep now. Why are you doing this to me?" Doris took a deep breath and continued walking forward.

"Because I also got myself lost before going to bed. It would be a shame if I didn't use this trick I just learned." Zheng Fan laughed.

Doris didn't really want to be deprived of the right to go back to her room to sleep for such a trivial reason.

She started running quickly, trying to see if she could get out of the lost way in this way.

But obviously, it can't.

She returned to the fork in the road again. The road ahead seemed to extend infinitely. Although she was not tired, she couldn't help feeling despair in the face of this situation.

What a powerful illusion. Is it finally going to torture me to death because it is dissatisfied with my attitude? What a little psychological suggestion. It must be a joke. It is so scary.

She could only think so.

She was trapped in this situation without a sound or a trace. She had never experienced this in her life, and she had no idea how to break the situation. All she could face was despair. The only ending she could think of was that she would run out of ammunition and food and die somewhere on this endless road...

So Doris stopped and stood there without moving any further.

After waiting for a while, Zheng Fan reappeared: "Why don't you leave?"

"I give up," Doris said bluntly.

"You didn't even try for long, and you gave up so easily?" Zheng Fan raised his eyebrows.

"Since you have already made a plan, there is no point in my struggling," said Doris.

Zheng Fan rubbed his chin, feeling that she had misunderstood something. At the same time, his mouth kept moving as if he was making a face, and finally he reached out and scratched his head helplessly: "It's really a pity to throw away something that is tasteless. I can feel that you may have an interesting side to me, but if I can't crack open this tightly guarded shell of yours, then all that's left is boredom. How strange, how strange."

Doris: “…”

"Little Lamb, you have many interests and hobbies." Zheng Fan said slowly.

There are a wide variety of books in the room, phonographs and records, violins, and incense...

Doris's jaw moved slightly, almost invisible if you didn't pay close attention.

"People with strong interests are often very 'lively'. This doesn't mean lively in character, but lively in self-support. I have a lot of interests, but I don't care about any of them in particular. You are different."

"What do you want to say?"

"Nothing, I just wanted to ask, is there anything you want to do? Not now, but in the future, after graduating from this monastery."

"…It's meaningless. I will become a lamplighter, go to that big city, accept a stricter system, and stick to others for the rest of my life."

Zheng Fan reached out his hand to stop her from talking irrelevantly: "Ah, that doesn't matter, please don't change the subject, I'm just asking what you think."

Doris heard this, thought about it, and then her smooth brows couldn't help but frowned.

"I don't dare to think about it."

The image of suffocation resurfaced, warning her in her mind.

"If I don't do it, everyone will die."

"If you don't think about it, I'll let you die here."

Doris stared blankly at Zheng Fan, who was floating in front of her, tilting his head and smiling at her. Why could that handsome face, who she thought was not much inferior to hers, have such a gentle expression, but speak such cruel words.

Trembling blue eyes met playful grey eyes.

Unconsciously, a flash of black like rain appeared in the blue eyes.

Doris's thoughts raced through her mind, so fast that she didn't even have time to look at the images.

She developed a fear, not only of the illusion before her eyes, but also of the possibility of coming into contact with her deeper self.

"Caught it." Suddenly, Zheng Fan kept smiling and said in a low voice.

I didn't react to what happened.

Doris blinked her eyes and saw a cold light passing through Zheng Fan in front of her and attacking her neck.

Her well-trained instinct enabled her to react at the critical moment. She quickly leaned back to avoid the knife, then quickly straightened her body, raised her hand and used her arm to block the opponent's arm that continued to swing the blade.

Looking closely, she saw that it was another girl in white, or more precisely, the peeping Tom she was just chasing.

Why is she here?

"Doris! What did you do to me?" the other party cursed angrily, "You bitch, I have been avoiding you like this! You actually let me hang around here!"

Doris: ?

"Oh, you really have plenty of time. It's almost the day you'll be picked to leave, yet you still have time to play house with the new lambs! Or did their gathering there remind you of something? The nun thought you had given up long ago, but it seems that the 'perfect Doris' is still far from being perfect!"

Bang!
Doris suddenly exerted force, and after a few exchanges, she easily knocked the opponent's weapon out of his hand, and slammed her knee into the opponent's lower abdomen. The opponent felt pain and before he could cover his stomach, Doris raised her hand and strangled his neck.

Then he lifted it up with one hand.

"You..." The girl suddenly realized that there was something wrong with Doris in front of her.

Although there is still no expression, but...

"I see. It's indeed a little psychological suggestion..." Doris said to herself.

"Let me go!" The girl struggled. Doris raised her hand and slammed her against the wall. She immediately lost the strength to resist.

"At least for a moment just now... when I blamed you for the reason why I fell into this situation and had the intention to kill you, you did appear in front of me."

Doris stepped on the knife on the ground and held it with her other hand.

Then, without any delay, he stabbed into the opponent's chest.

Zheng Fan was watching from the side with a strange expression: "I should only be able to make a small impact in my hallucination state."

(End of this chapter)