Am I really hallucinating?

Chapter 534 The Dance Never Stops

The car drove for a long time, gradually returning to Jiang Hui's plot of land, but not to the Ginger Building. Jiang Si drove to the seaside.

After their conversation in the car, the two fell silent again.

Yua seemed to have fallen asleep until the sudden braking caused the seatbelt to tighten around her waist again, at which point she looked up and peered outside.

"arrive."

Jiang Si got out of the car and came to the cold seaside. In the rain, she suddenly did a gorgeous spin, her dance steps were exquisite and her movements were beautiful. Then she froze in one position and turned around: "It's still raining. Are you feeling uncomfortable?"

Yusai also got out of the car, symbolically shielding her head from the rain with one hand: "I'm not a real two-dimensional person."

"really?"

"...Okay, maybe it really is. I've never seen my true form either. I was already Yuuiro when my memories were formed." Yuuiro sighed.

She also looked at the sea in front of her: "This is a place I used to come to often when I was a child."

"When you asked us for help before, you said you had something to ask of us." Jiang Si looked at the sea and asked knowingly.

Yuzai looked at her, then turned her gaze to the ocean: "Acknowledge that I am Yuzai, and help me stabilize my current human state."

"I refuse." Jiang Si refused without even thinking.

“…Just as I expected.” This was exactly what Yuzai had anticipated.

“Just like I said before, I can’t treat you like Xi Cai. In my eyes, you are far inferior to her. Although we only played together for a while when we were young, and people do undergo many unexpected changes as they grow up, I still stick to my own opinion,” Jiang Si said.

"Then why did you bring me here?"

"Let me prove to you that I dance really well now. And let's reminisce a bit, at least there's one thing I'm grateful for: I'm grateful that you let me see what Xi Cai will look like now that she's grown up." Jiang Si turned her back to the sea and smiled at Xi Cai.

Xi Cai stared blankly at Jiang Si's cheerful smile and asked, "Do you... know what love is?"

"I don't know. Even my dad would stammer and not be able to give a clear answer to this kind of thing, but he's probably the most loving person in this violent world. I only just realized that myself."

“But you’re no longer letting past troubles hold you back,” Yuzai said.

“Because I’ve discovered that what I need to understand and accept isn’t love.” Jiang Si reached out her hand, seemingly inviting Xi Cai to join her.

Yusai hesitated and did not respond.

"I met Luo Ye, the strongest person who, in the eyes of others, was immune to love but had a passionate first love. And her extraordinary cousin, a memory that could drive her to fight to the death for her cousin who disliked her. Jin Cuilong, that little henchman, would go and touch the boss's tank for a donut. The three brothers of the Long family fought to the death and then suddenly piloted mecha together... This world is often violent enough to leave you battered and bruised, absurd enough to make you laugh, but most of the time it's just packaged better... But love is one of the fundamental logics of humanity."

Jiang Si recounted everything she had seen and heard in those few days in great detail.

Yusai slightly opened her mouth.

“What we have to accept is not love, but violence,” Jiang Si stated. “Love is actually a very ordinary thing, not something dramatic. It is hidden in people’s every move and flows through society. It’s just that it is too fragile, so it needs to be dressed up in all sorts of cloaks. In a violent world, violence hides it too well.”

As she spoke, a bright red light flowed from Jiang Si's hands.

In a violent world, red is often a symbol of blood red, a concrete representation of blood-red factors, representing ferocity and sharpness.

However, what Xi Cai sensed from the red in Jiang Si's hand was not that kind of thing.

It is gentle yet resilient, capable of integrating into any kind of power and expanding into infinite power through any medium.

This is……

"Ah, love... It seems what I've been looking for was clear all along. Nameless anthropomorphic illusion, I'm showing this to the memories of Yuzai within you, showing you my insignificant growth and the wrong paths I've taken over the years. Have you ever cast aside your distractions to seek a relationship that truly belongs to you, instead of following Yuzai's memories and chasing after the illusory shadow of love?"

Jiang Si's eyes were also a little red, and tears were welling up in them.

The memories of laughing and playing around with Zheng Fan are far more important than the struggles of the past.

Yu Cai shook her head repeatedly, even taking a step back: "You are a human, I am an illusion, I can't do it."

"If I give up all of this, what will become of my existence? What will become of love after losing my physical form? Yuzai's family loves the real me, but the real me can't accept that. I don't know... why did I become human, and why did the illusion become human...?"

She was caught in a vortex, her mind in chaos, unable to find a way out. The tragedy of anthropomorphic hallucinations is fully contained within it.

She was so much like a human yet not quite human, which is why she suffered so much self-torture.

She seemed to be venting her frustration by despising her own existence, while Jiang Si simply waited quietly, watching her.

After a long while, Xi Cai's heavy breathing finally subsided. She raised her head and took a step back.

At first, I hesitated, but my actions gradually became more resolute.

He placed his hand on Jiang Si's hand.

This means that he accepted Jiang Si's invitation.

"In this dance, I will shatter everything you have now." Jiang Si said these somewhat terrifying words gently, spreading her arms slightly.

"...Come on, let's have this dance, and I'll be completely convinced."

The rain was drizzling down. On the desolate and cold beach, on the muddy sand, a red thread pierced through the cold air. White papers scattered and flew about, changing into various shapes, but the colors were monotonous and ordinary.

These papers are filled with memories called "Evening Colors," and only these empty memories. An unknown anthropomorphic hallucination reveals everything.

After that, I no longer care what happens to it.

But it also harbored dreams. Perhaps one day, it could return to the home that truly belonged to Yuuka, and no matter how Yuuka's family ultimately treated it, it could try to truly...

……

Zheng Fan strolled along the beach, stepping on the waves. Rainwater fell on the sea, creating countless ripples in the waves.

The deal with the three-headed dragon has been settled. Long Yu probably considered Jiang Si's family background, so he sent the mecha as a gesture of goodwill. Although she hit him hard with her car, without her collision, he and his two brothers probably wouldn't have been able to resolve the situation so easily.

Moreover, when their father died, Jiang Qiang did offer some assistance. Although Jiang Qiang did not approve of his father's philandering, the two had become acquainted through a misunderstanding in their youth and could be considered to have some friendship.

Besides, even if the mecha is gone, the dragon jade man is still here, so of course it can be rebuilt. Consider this a learning experience.

Zheng Fan simply used his shadow to pack up and take away the three-headed dragon mech.

Then he sensed something and followed to find Jiang Si.

He walked along the shore for a long time before finally finding a messy spot.

The scraps of paper fluttered down in the rain, the white paper on the ground like snowflakes spread on sand.

The red silk thread, seemingly different from usual, was gently retracted.

Zheng Fan saw Jiang Si's independent figure from behind.

"Jiang Si." Zheng Fan stepped forward and called out.

Hearing the sound, Jiang Si snapped out of her daze and turned around with a bright smile.

She lightly raised her finger, covering her mouth with a rough paper butterfly, but it couldn't hide her smile. Though it was just a few white embellishments, in Zheng Fan's eyes, Jiang Si now displayed a unique and captivating beauty.

"Ah~, Mr. Devil, I feel very happy right now."

Zheng Fan couldn't help but laugh out loud: "Heh, I can feel it. So now you want to strike while the iron is hot and try something new?"

"I want to see if I can kiss you again. Ideally, I'd like to hold your head in my hands."

"You're rushing to the next show right after finishing one? That's greedy." Zheng Fan walked up leisurely with his hands in his pockets, showing no intention of refusing.

Regardless of what kind of emotions Jiang Si projects onto him, up to this point, Jiang Si has been able to continuously bring Zheng Fan a unique kind of impulse.

Sometimes, watching these little hosts being so active...

Zheng Fan would feel as if he could be a human being a little longer.

(End of this chapter)