After rebirth, I became Tokyo Sentimental

Chapter 100 99. It hurts, it hurts so much.
The night after the wind and rain is as blue as water, with a faint silver glow in the sky, like flowing moon dew.

The dark clouds over Tokyo dissipated quietly.

On the balcony of the apartment, Kurosaki Orizuki, holding a slightly worn lacquered wooden square box in her arms, looked into the distance blankly. Her thoughts drifted away with the night breeze that still had a lot of coolness and humidity, and no one knew where they went.

She is thinking about a problem.

An important question.

That is, should we be grateful if someone who obviously hates us helps us? Or should we neutralize this relationship or separate them?

Kurosaki Oritsuki does not respect behaviorism.

That is, even if one has bad intentions, as long as one does good things in action, he should be praised and commended.

Because she thinks bad is bad.

Even if you have done countless good things, you are actually laying the groundwork for doing the last earth-shattering bad thing. If you don't do it, it only proves that the groundwork is not enough, or there are other reasons for your failure.

Just like herself.

Even when he helped Suzumiya Saka solve her problems when she was troubled, he was actually doing it to gain more benefits. After all, the purpose of giving is to get something in return.

But just as no matter how much he was touched, it could not be as shocking as breaking through the last layer of shackles, what Harano Tsukasa did today made it impossible for Kurosaki Oritsuki to impose his hypocritical and tasteless theories on him and deceive himself.

Because her mother is very important to her.

It is really important.

When she was younger and didn't understand much, she resented her mother for not being able to change the situation at the time and for cruelly sending her own daughter on a train that would most likely not return and that would most likely send her to her death.

But the older she gets, the more she understands.

Only mother loves me.

After all, reality is not a movie. There are not too many reversals due to coincidences, and there is no sudden beam of light shining in when someone's life falls into darkness.

That's what my mother could do at that time.

That's all there is.

After all, what can a country woman with little ability to work and no knowledge do?

So even though she had left Hokkaido for many years, the small village was still fresh in her memory. From time to time, she would still have nightmares about her father getting drunk and beating her at will when she was a child, and beating her until she had an asthma attack and couldn't breathe. She also still remembered the mother who always stood in front of her and took more punches.

Therefore, no matter how much I hate my father.

Even more disgusting are those two brothers who are only related by blood but have no feelings for each other and have no moral conduct at all.

She was still threatened.

I took out the money while enduring the discomfort of vomiting.

Until she was threatened and asked for exorbitant amounts of money time and time again, Kurosaki Orizuki finally stopped deceiving herself and admitted that this was a bottomless pit. So she hid herself away, suppressing the self-condemnation in her conscience, because she was certain that as long as her father and brother wanted to ask her for money, they would never do that to their mother's ashes.

But this is not a long-term solution after all.

People are patient.

Betting on whether a group of people who have no bottom line in doing things will get angry and embarrassed is simply stupid enough to be unable to take care of themselves.

However, after Harano Tsukasa not only helped him out but also got back what she wanted most, it stands to reason that Kurosaki Oritsuki should be grateful to him even if she didn't want to admit it. In fact, she was grateful, but this gratitude was soon covered by a new gloomy mood.

Especially when sitting in the hanging chair on the balcony, even if you don't turn your face, you can still see Harano Tsukasa and Suzumiya Sakae sitting close together from the reflection in the glass.

In Kurosaki Orizuki's mind, she repeatedly recalled the awkward walking posture of Suzumiya Saka that she saw in the hospital today, and her confused thoughts continued to extend, always imagining some bad scenes. For a moment, she even had the idea of why she was not a man.

pain.

it hurts.

It hurts so much!
Obviously she wanted to stop it, but she had no reason to do so. After all, strictly speaking, both of them should be grateful. This kind of frustration was different from the bullying in school days. It was more like a kind of bitterness that could not be expressed in words.

It was not until Suzumiya Saka seemed to have almost finished talking to Harano Tsukasa that the latter went to the bathroom and Suzumiya Saka walked towards her that Kurosaki Orizuki lowered her head.

Suzumiya Saka gently opened the sliding door and looked at Kurosaki Orizuki, who was holding the lacquered wooden box and bathing in the moonlight without saying a word. She thought that she was still immersed in grief after receiving the electrical energy conservation principle lesson from Harano Tsukasa two hours ago and taking her mother's ashes from the hotel room rented by Kurosaki Shoji and his friends. So she couldn't help but sighed slightly, pursed her light red lips and reminded, "It's time to rest."

Kurosaki Orizuki nodded first, then suddenly asked, "Are you feeling unwell?"

"Body... why are you suddenly asking this?" Suzumiya Saka's heart skipped a beat, and she instantly felt that she might have seen something, but subconsciously she didn't want to admit it.

"I'm a doctor. I have observed every change in your body clearly. When you and Harano-kun came to the hospital today, I noticed that your walking posture was a little strange." Kurosaki Orizuki didn't point it out, but just slowly raised his head while holding the lacquered wooden square box in his arms, and met those evasive gazes.

They were almost inseparable when they were in school.

Later, I went to different universities, but since we were all in Bunkyo Ward, we saw each other almost every day.

Later, after studying medicine, Kurosaki Orizuki was able to not only provide spiritual comfort to the introverted and cold-hearted Suzumiya Saka, but also provide physical help.

Perhaps it was to make up for the guilt in her heart for taking advantage of her, or perhaps it was to invest more energy in order to gain more benefits. After a series of recent changes, even Kurosaki Oritsuki couldn't be sure, but what she could be sure of was that since she studied medicine, she had to some extent served as Suzumiya Saka's 24-hour personal doctor.

So as long as Suzumiya Saka is feeling any discomfort, she can detect it more sensitively than anyone else.

Suzumiya Saka also understands this.

Therefore, she did not deny it, but it was impossible for her to explain the reason for her discomfort. Instead, she said in an ambiguous tone: "I think I twisted my hip the day before yesterday."

the day before yesterday.

The timing has been determined.

"Does it hurt?" Although Kurosaki Orizuki's face was calm when she asked this question, she really felt a little distressed.

Although she had no such experience.

But she is well aware of pain levels.

For my friend who doesn't like sports and should be very conservative, the moment she completely transformed into a woman should have been accompanied by severe pain.

It was only two days.

No matter how excellent the body's healing system is, at least at this time, there will still be occasional tearing pain.

Moreover, apart from the physical pain, she was very familiar with the physiological structure of the human body and what the body would secrete when it was extremely excited. She could almost imagine all kinds of scenes that she was observing carefully with a magnifying glass.

After thinking about this.

Kurosaki Orizuki was so heartbroken that she couldn't breathe.

Listening to this obviously targeted question, Suzumiya Saka had already vaguely understood that she had guessed the reason, but she still did not intend to admit it and decided to keep it secret: "It hurts a little, it must be coming soon." She was referring to her menstrual period.

Of course Kurosaki Orizuki also understood.

However, the more Suzumiya Saka said this, the more it sounded like certainty to Kurosaki Orizuki. The moment she figured it out, she suddenly felt a heartache, but in order not to be discovered, she forced herself to remain calm and not show any strange expression, and reminded him: "Remember to rest these few days, and don't do strenuous exercise."

"I know." Suzumiya Saka nodded.

She wanted to end the topic after giving her a reminder, but Kurosaki Orizuki couldn't help but ask her one more question: "How are you and Harano-kun...?"

"We... are dating." Suzumiya Saka's answer to this normal topic ensured the authenticity of the answer.

"Bless you." Kurosaki Orizuki drooped his eyelids.

"Needless to say, I received it."

Suzumiya Saka forced a smile on her face.

"By the way, I remember when I sent you a message the day before yesterday, you said you went on a trip to Osaka with him?"

"I went there the day before yesterday."

"I'm sorry, not only for causing you trouble, but also for delaying your trip. Please also say sorry to Yuanye-kun for me. I will remember this favor."

Listening to these polite yet distant words, Suzumiya Saka felt a little sad for no reason. She felt that there was a pitifully thick barrier between her and this friend who she had always thought was willing to be deceived and could bring her emotional comfort. However, her emotions came and went quickly. After taking a deep breath to calm down, she changed the topic of the conversation:

"Your mother's things have been obtained now. As for the other three people, what are you going to do with them?"

In addition to Kurosaki Shoji and Kurosaki Sota, there is another person that Kurosaki Orizuki is destined to be unable to avoid, and that is her biological father who is far away in Hokkaido and whom she has not seen for many years.

Anyway.

Blood ties cannot be changed.

As an outsider, and having been involved in the matter since Kurosaki Oritsuki's family contacted her, she knew that something that sucked blood like a leech would never stop being greedy. If she showed even a little weakness and gave in, her blood would only be sucked more excessively.

However, what happened next was Kurosaki Orizuki's reaction.

But she felt that she was overthinking it.

"Without this concern, there is nothing more to say to them. I have already made an appointment with my lawyer to meet tomorrow. I will do my best to use various channels to let them stay in prison for a while. As for the one in Hokkaido, I will visit him in person."

Kurosaki Orizuki's voice was calm, but she emphasized the last sentence, and it was obvious that this visit was not the kind of condolence to an elderly person as imagined.

"Do you need me to go with you?" Suzumiya Saka hesitated for a moment, and finally asked.

What do you mean you need me to go with you?
If placed before.

Shouldn’t I say I’ll go with you?
Even though she knew very well the reason why Suzumiya Saka changed her response to similar questions, Kurosaki Orizuki was still extremely jealous, as if there was a fire burning in her chest, making her want to tear a cow apart with her bare hands.

"Let's talk about it later." She tried her best to suppress her emotions.

"Okay." Suzumiya Sasaka also felt it was not appropriate to continue chatting: "It's getting late, go to bed early."

"You go and rest first."

"Well."

After Suzumiya Saka left the balcony, Kurosaki Orizuki's eyes were fixed on her back.

Suzumiya Saka is very well off.

So the apartment she rented in Bunkyo Ward was also a large flat, similar to the ones in the Toranomon Hills residential building, with a total of three rooms, so if it was divided between her and Harano Tsukasa, each of them would have enough room to sleep in.

Although she already knew that the two of them had done negative distance exercise, Kurosaki Orizuki was still willing to use the excuse that she didn't see it with her own eyes to continue to numb herself.

Therefore, when Suzumiya Saka walked into the master bedroom and closed the door, and when Kurosaki Orizuki was talking to her just now, she diverted some of her attention, and then used the corner of her eye to see Harano Tsukasa walking out of the bathroom and entering another room that was previously used to store sundries, she couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.

But she was still worried.

Especially when the living room fell into silence, she placed her mother's urn, returned to the room where she used to stay, and lay on the bed.

Even though there is only a wall between us, we can still hear any movement, but we cannot feel at peace.

Even as long as she closed her eyes, all kinds of disgusting images of a man and a woman would begin to churn through Kurosaki Orizuki's mind, and in her subconscious mind she would perfectly fit the faces of Harano Tsukasa and Suzumiya Saka onto the bodies of this man and woman.

Mental activity is also an activity.

So thinking too much will make you tired.

However, several times when Kurosaki Orizuki was about to fall asleep in this tormenting state, he would suddenly wake up and subconsciously feel that the two of them were lying together again.

After a long time.

She felt that this couldn't go on any longer.

So after struggling for a while, Kurosaki Orizuki still groped for the clothes he had taken off in the dark and put them on. After that, he got out of bed silently, and then lightly grasped the door handle of his room.

before leaving the room.

Kurosaki Orizuki looked back at the bedside table again.

The lacquered wooden square box containing the mother's ashes lay quietly on it, bathed in the moonlight leaking through the gaps in the window screen, giving a feeling of quiet and peace.

For Yuanyesi.

She was indeed grateful now.

But it was also this man who made her realize that time can erase things that we don't pay attention to in normal times.

So it’s because of Suzumiya Saka.

She also hated Yuanye Si.

In fact, in order to eliminate the inner demons that could not be eliminated in a short period of time, Kurosaki Orizuki should have gone to Suzumiya Saka's room and slept on the same bed with her this time. Even if the other party was very strange, he could deal with it by just saying that he was in a bad mood.

In addition to eliminating the suspicion that the two of them did not do anything under her nose, she also had a question in her heart that already had an answer and wanted to ask Yuanye Si to get a personal answer.

After all, she had to admit it now.

She has feelings too.

So after walking a few steps barefoot on the floor and standing still, Kurosaki Orizuki knocked on Harano Tsukasa's door with a complicated feeling of hatred and gratitude.

(End of this chapter)