My girlfriend died in the past

Chapter 220 I am such a selfish woman
[After hundreds of tests, I roughly figured out the necessary conditions for him to go back to the past.]

[1. He can only go back to one time point in the past each time.]

【2. Every time he returns to the past, the time and date are fixed.】

[3. If he wants to go back to the distant past, he needs to change the time node in the future first.]

[Conclusion: The conditions for him to return to the past seem to trigger a complete cycle, and if he stands at the 'end point', he can return to the 'starting point'. The 'starting point' and the 'end point' are both fixed time nodes.]

【Conclusion 2: He can change what is destined to happen at a certain time point! 】

[The specific method is to go back to the 'starting point' through the 'end point', and then change what will happen at the time node of the 'starting point'. Because of the cause and effect relationship, what is destined to happen at the time node of the 'end point' will also be changed! ]

[And it seems that he can also jump timelines by going back to the past. ]

【I have a new plan.】

【This time, I tried to go back to the earliest timeline to see if he came back. 】

【观测第1次：2008年，他没有回来。2024年12月31日，他死于车祸。】

【观测第2次：2008年，他没有回来。2024年12月31日，他死于高空坠物。】

【观测第1644次：2008年，他没有回来。2024年12月31日，他死于心脏骤停。】

[Observation 1645: In 2008, he did not come back. I decided to try to continue killing Gu Shiyue and others to see if their death is also a necessary condition for his return.]

[Plan: In the future, temporarily freeze the young body, transfer the thinking consciousness into the mechanical body, and develop a machine that can travel through time with the physical body. It is conservatively estimated that it will take 300 to 500 years. Then thaw the body and transfer the consciousness back, and then return to 2008 to attack and kill Gu Shiyue and others.]

[Gu Shiyue did not appear in Dongfang No. 1 Middle School. The plan should have been successful, but I have not met her yet. ]

[Shu Die, Dong Weirui, and Dong Zeyu all died. The plan was very successful. But he still died on December 2024, 12. ]

[Sent his consciousness back to 2008 again. Things have changed. He is back.]

[The real plan begins, code name: Paradox]

[Plan content: After millions of tests, no matter who is around him is killed, the time of his death cannot be changed. Even if everyone around him is killed, the result will not be any different.]

【But there is still one person who is not dead. 】

[If I die at the beginning, then, as long as my 'starting point' ends before it even begins, will the 'end point' time node event of his death change? ]

[Planning process: My future self will kill the people around him, but he will find out when he comes back, so my future self will die in his hands. And because of the death of Gu Shiyue and others, he will return to 2008 for the second time.]

[Due to the change in the timeline, I will lose his memory of the first time he returned to 2008. As long as it can be confirmed that he has returned, it must be his second time. ]

[In this way, I can go on my journey with peace of mind, and sincerely look forward to the change in the timing of his death. ]

[At the same time, in order to avoid the subsequent impact of him killing me, I should choose to commit suicide after knowing that he came back for the second time. Only in this way will it not affect his future, and his future will not have any information entanglement with me. In this way, the time node event of his death can be truly avoided. ]

[He took me to the park at noon, the Peony Park. I really miss it. When we were dating and had no money, we liked to go to the Peony Park for a walk. It feels like it has been a long, long time since I went there.]

[But this made me more certain that he was back for the second time, because his goal was very clear, he came to kill me. If it was his first time back, according to his personality, he would have observed and tested me first, instead of being so crude and rough at the beginning and alerting the enemy.]

[But. He is still too kind. I have done so many things, but he still wants to persuade me to stop, because Gu Shiyue and the others are still alive, so he is willing to let me go as long as I don't do those things again. ] [Soft-hearted fool]

[But I just like this kind of idiot. ]

[But no, you will suffer in the future with this kind of personality. ]

[I still remember a long time ago. We were watching TV together on the sofa in the rental house. It was too cold, so I curled up in your arms. To be honest, with my height, it was quite uncomfortable to do that, but I was very happy.]

[I remember when we were watching TV, the heroine died and I cried my eyes out. Then I asked you, if I died, would you come out and embrace a new life like the hero in the TV series?]

You told me you wouldn't.

【fraud.】

[I know that you look gentle, but you are actually a very strong person. You will be sad at first, but sooner or later you will get over it. And if I am not there, you will have Gu Shiyue, Shu Die, and Dong Weirui by your side.]

[You're just trying to make me happy, but I just like you saying that. ]

【Later you also asked me if I would be strong enough to continue living if I died.】

[I said, of course I will live on bravely, because people should look forward.]

[I am deliberately mad at you because you never get mad at me. I am being too pretentious and I just want to see you get mad at me.]

【But. I’m sorry.】

[I am a bad woman who will lie to you. ]

[If you are gone, I will go with you. Don't even think about leaving me alone. ]

[In fact, the best approach is for me to keep everything secret and mislead you to kill me. ]

[But I am a selfish bad woman after all. I always want to leave something behind, even if it makes you feel guilty about me, even if you will always remember me even after being with them. After all, the living cannot defeat the dead.]

[So I left you too many clues. I don’t want you to think of me as a bad person. I want too much.]

[So, keep feeling guilty about me in your heart and live your life well. ]

[Remember we talked about having a second child in the future? I said I wanted a boy and a girl, but you said you only wanted two girls.]

[I promised you that I would give birth to two lovely and well-behaved daughters in the future, but I can no longer be their mother.]

[This notebook will definitely fall into your hands. You must remember me in the future. Remember me, the bad woman who will make you feel bad. ]

【Zhuang Xiao, goodbye.】

【Goodbye.】

In the snow and wind, Zhuang Xiao stood motionless in front of the tombstone.

And the girl with the chubby smiling face on the tombstone will never come back.

(End of this chapter)