Ning Dao Covered with Snow

Chapter 95 Selfishness
Chao Yue looked at the Fang that he had drawn himself, and the scenes that had been buried deep in his memory emerged. Fang sewed clothes for him with her own hands, fed him one bite at a time, and hugged him intimately. When he was sick, she was so anxious that she couldn't eat, and she stayed by his side all the time...

As far as he could remember, the last thing Fang said to him was -

"Don't be afraid, Ah Yue. Come with me and leave here. I will protect you from now on."

In the end, Fang was unable to leave the Chao family, and she died in the cold well in the backyard.

When she was pushed into the well, she opened her eyes wide in shock and subconsciously turned her head to look in the direction of Chao Yue.

It was that glance that became Chao Yue's biggest nightmare in his life.

Every time he woke up in the middle of the night, he would often dream of those eyes filled with tears.

Chao Yue finally couldn't bear the guilt in his heart anymore, and his psychological defenses were completely crushed.

He knelt on his knees in front of the portrait, knocked his forehead heavily on the ground, tears rolled down his face, and he sobbed uncontrollably.

"Auntie, Auntie!"

Yan Ciwan saw him crying so hard, but she didn't feel any sympathy. She said coldly: "It's already come to this, and you still don't want to tell the truth?"

Chao Yue knelt on the ground, not daring to look up at the portrait. He cried bitterly, "I wanted to save my mother, but I couldn't. I was only three years old at the time, and I couldn't do anything. My father covered my mouth and wouldn't let me make a sound. He said that my mother had done something shameful, and if outsiders knew about it, it would not only bring shame to the family, but also make me laugh as well."

Yan Ciwan imagined that scene and clenched his fists involuntarily: "So you believed your father's words? In your heart, your mother's life is not as important as her reputation?"

"I was very scared at that time. My mind was in a mess and I couldn't think of anything. My father carried me out of the backyard. After that, I developed a high fever and was sick and confused. When I regained consciousness, my mother had been put into the coffin. Everyone said that my mother died of a sudden illness. Although I knew the truth, I didn't dare to say it because my father said that my mother was having an affair outside and that she had ruined the family tradition. This matter must not be spread, so I had to keep it a secret."

Yan Ciwan angrily scolded: "These are just your excuses. In the final analysis, you are selfish!"

At first, Chao Yue really believed what his father said. He couldn't let others know that he had an unfaithful mother. He followed his father's advice and never mentioned anything about his mother again.

But as he grew older, Chao Yue understood more and more. Thinking back on his time with his mother, although she had a hot temper and sometimes acted impulsively, she was never vague about major issues. She usually stayed at home to take care of the children and do housework. When she occasionally went out, she was always open and aboveboard, never sneaking around, and no one had ever said that she had an affair with anyone.

Chao Yue couldn't help but feel a little skeptical about what his father said.

But he didn't dare to ask his father what the truth was?
He had already lost his mother and could not lose his father again. He tried hard to convince himself to forget those doubts. He began to like drinking. As long as he was drunk, he could temporarily forget those troubles.

But people cannot stay drunk forever. Once they wake up, they have to face reality.

Whenever he saw his father, he would think of the scene where his mother was murdered.

He neither had the courage to find out the truth and avenge his mother, nor could he truly forgive his father for what he had done.

Every day at home was extremely painful for him.

Yan Ciwan's words at this moment revealed the scar he had hidden for many years, revealing a rotten and festering wound.

Chao Yue cried louder and louder, and in the end he even lay on the ground and laughed, as if he had gone completely crazy.

"Hahaha, you're right to scold me. I'm selfish and I deserve it! If you scold me a few more times, I'll love to hear it!" Yan Ciwan looked at him coldly as he went crazy, and asked again: "Why did Chao Yuanzhi kill Fang?"

"Didn't I tell you? They had a fight. Mother called father an ungrateful bastard. She wanted to take me away from the Chao family, but father refused to let us go. As they were arguing, they started fighting, and father accidentally pushed mother into the well. The well was very deep, and mother could never get out after falling in. Hahaha, she just left me alone like that, and I became a poor child without a mother, but Chaolu has a mother who loves her. It's not fair!"

Chao Yue suddenly stopped laughing.

He knelt on the ground, looked down at his dirty hands, and his expression became gloomy.

"Chaolu and I are the same. We both have dirty blood flowing in our bodies. Why can she be taken care of by her mother, while I can only live in endless pain? The heaven is unfair to me! I can't let Chaolu live so well. She must suffer as much as I do. I want to see her cry. The more miserable she cries, the better..."

Yan Ciwan couldn't bear it any longer and kicked him in the chest.

The force was so great that even an adult man like Chao Yue couldn't withstand it.

He was kicked and fell backwards, and his back hit the cell door with a loud bang.

This kick must have broken his ribs. He was in so much pain that he couldn't breathe. His body curled up involuntarily and his whole body was shaking.

Yan Ciwan looked down at him as if he was looking at a disgusting maggot.

She said: "You really deserve to die."

Chao Yue wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth and could still smile: "I obviously did nothing wrong, but God made me endure such heavy pain. Since God is unwilling to treat everyone fairly, then I will share my pain. I deserve to die, but I don't regret it. Even if I can do it again, I will still kill those women. You didn't see it with your own eyes. The way they were forced into desperation and begged desperately was really interesting."

Although he could not control his own destiny, he could control the life and death of those poor women.

Yan Ciwan really wanted to kick him again.

But she held back.

Because she knew that the guy in front of her was completely crazy. Even if she beat him to death, he would not show any remorse. He might even feel very happy.

Chao Yue sat on the ground like a puddle of mud, looking at Yan Ci Wan with a provocative look and grinning.

"You must want to kill me now, right? Go ahead, kill me now."

Yan Ciwan looked at him expressionlessly: "You have actually been waiting for this day for a long time."

The smile on Chao Yue's face froze slightly.

Yan Ciwan continued.

"Fang was your mother. You saw her murdered with your own eyes, but you were unable to avenge her because you still had deep feelings for your father. You couldn't bear to expose the crimes your father had committed, so you were forced to become Chao Yuanzhi's accomplice. You looked like you had accepted your fate, but in fact, you could never forget Fang's death. This portrait is the best proof of that."

(End of this chapter)