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Chapter 140 [I've suspected he's suspicious all along!] (6700)

Chapter 135 [I've suspected he has a problem all along!] (6700)

Even those who are not familiar with Chen Yan, but have only had a brief interaction with him, will have an impression of him as a young man who is easy to talk to and willing to be kind to others.

That's not wrong. From childhood to adulthood, Chen Yan has mostly been willing to get along with people, rarely initiated conflicts, and rarely argued with anyone.

But if we analyze it more deeply, under what circumstances would a person have a conflict with someone else?

In most cases, it's when you have a certain demand on someone—a demand that may or may not be justified—but the other person fails to meet your demand, which makes you angry.

Your roommate stays up very late and makes noise. You ask them to stop, but they don't listen—your legitimate request is not being met, leading to conflict.

You admire someone, but they don't like you and reject you, so you feel resentful. You borrow money from someone, but they refuse to lend it to you, so you feel angry—these are all examples of unreasonable demands not being met, leading to conflict.

very many.

In general, most conflicts arise from the pattern of "having expectations of others that others fail to meet."

Chen Yan rarely gets into conflicts with people. The underlying reason is not that he is easy to talk to or that he is kind to others.

Rather, he made no demands on others at all.

Deep down, he is indifferent to everyone.

I have no expectations of you, and therefore no demands.

Xiao Zhao's experience of being saved by Chen Yan was not because Chen Yan was particularly fond of doing good deeds.

The reason Chen Yan jumped into the water to save Xiao Zhao that time was simply to repay a favor.

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During that time, Chen Yan really wanted to buy the old lady a new winter coat, but as a poor student, he didn't have much money, and it was difficult to scrape together the money from his living expenses.

So he found Mr. Zhao, a popular figure on campus, and wanted to work odd jobs with him to earn some money.

Xiao Zhao is a kind-hearted person. He satisfied Chen Yan's needs and actually helped Chen Yan find a few jobs, allowing Chen Yan to earn some money.

To be precise, it was helping Chen Yan buy a new dress for the old lady.

Money isn't important, helping isn't important either, what's important is the old lady's new dress!
This favor was Chen Yan's doing for Xiao Zhao.

Because of this, when Xiao Zhao accidentally fell into the water, Chen Yan jumped in to save him without hesitation.

Essentially, it's a cold-hearted mindset: I owe you a favor, and I'll repay you.

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Chen Yan's indifference stems from his childhood.

The old lady was a respected figure in the realm, but when it came to her child's education, her status as a respected person was actually irrelevant.

The old lady could teach reasoning, and Chen Yan was willing to learn from her reasoning—but reasoning was cold and impersonal.

Out of extreme respect for the old lady and because she held the number one place in his heart, Chen Yan firmly remembered and earnestly implemented the principles she taught.

But the old woman couldn't solve a fundamental problem: she couldn't help a child without parents overcome his indifference towards the world.

Many people don't understand that children are the cruelest group in the world.

This cruelty is not evil, not bad, but simply "cruelty".

Because of their incomplete cognitive and moral development, children lack awareness of many cruel things.

Many people have seen this: children tirelessly catch an insect, a bird, or a frog, then stomp on it, cut it open...

I caught a dragonfly and broke off its wings...

These are not due to evil, but rather to a lack of concept of "life".

When a child catches a dragonfly and breaks its wings, he doesn't dislike or hate the dragonfly; he doesn't harbor the thought, "I just want to kill it."

Rather, he didn't understand what life was; he simply thought it was "fun".

That's just too much.

Lack of understanding and concept led to the child's "cruelty".

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Chen Yan experienced this kind of "cruelty" during his childhood.

When a group of children are together, and everyone else has parents but you don't, you'll be at the bottom of the social hierarchy. You'll naturally become the target of bullying.

You naturally become a target for everyone to make fun of.

The old lady made up a story about the origin of Chen Yan's biological mother.

Whether it's a white fox or something found...

These are all stories and lies told by elderly people out of kindness to children.

But what the children say is even crueler.

"Orphans without parents" - these are considered relatively good.

"I heard that Chen Yan's father was a convict who was executed!"

"Chen Yan's mother doesn't want him anymore; she ran off with someone else!"

Chen Yan heard countless similar remarks and all sorts of ridiculous "teasing" during his youth.

In this respect, there is no difference between children in the countryside and children in the city.

In their view, the intention was not to harm Chen Yan through such rumors, but simply for... "fun".

I just made up a lie for fun.

I was just teasing Chen Yan for fun.

Then, it all went wrong.

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Humans are social animals, and most people will unconsciously gravitate towards groups and communities.

Children playing in the countryside will always want to join a group of children and play together.

Chen Yan had also thought about it.

He did indeed do it, and then he became the lowest stratum of contempt in the circle.

As he grew older, he realized he didn't have to put up with it, and he began to fight back in the simplest and most brutal way: strength and fists.

And then, he became the one who was all alone.

Throughout his primary school years, Chen Yan lived with the rumor that "his father was a murderer who was executed."

Chen Yan didn't know where the rumor came from.

But one thing is certain: the child who first created this rumor certainly didn't have the intention of "I hate you, so I'm making up this rumor to get back at you." It was probably just for "fun."

The children who spread this rumor were just doing it for "fun".

Chen Yan resisted, using his fists.

But fists can subdue one or two people, but they can't shut up a group of people.

If you beat someone up, more people will talk behind your back, and they'll escalate the situation.

Later, Chen Yan became indifferent.

If you guys don't want to play with me, then I won't play with you anymore.

It's not that he doesn't want to be friends with others anymore.

He... no longer wants to be friends with this world.

If I have no expectations of you and no demands of you, there will be no conflict.

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Logically speaking, Chen Yan's experience could easily lead him to develop a dark, antisocial personality during his growth.

Fortunately, he has an elderly woman at home.

When Chen Yan, his eyes red with anger from the rumors, ran home to ask the old lady, "Where did my mother go?"

The old woman sat in front of the stove, took a puff of her cigarette, and told the story of the "white fox".

This story particularly excited Chen Yan, who had been reading supernatural tales all summer!
My mom isn't a bad woman who abandoned me! My mom is a white fox! A beautiful, magical white fox!

But the indifference towards this world, the coldness of not wanting to befriend it, is something that can never be reversed.

The old lady could only teach Chen Yan the principle: you are not allowed to bully others, but if others bully you, you can fight back, and use as much strength as you can!
Not bullying others is a way of hoping that Chen Yan will at least be a person who adheres to the most basic principles of kindness.

If someone bullies you, you should fight back; this shows that Chen Yan is a brave person.

The old lady also taught Chen Yan many principles.

For example, knowing how to be grateful, and repaying favors owed to others...

But in the end, reason is just cold, hard reason.

Chen Yan, who no longer wants to make friends with the world, simply treats these principles as dogma.

He was willing to follow these principles because of the old lady.

Not because he genuinely believes the world is a good place.

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Sixteen-year-old Chen Yan almost made friends with the world again.

When he was sixteen, he fell in love with a girl—or rather, it wasn't a particularly wonderful kind of love.

Generally speaking, it mostly involves young boys who meet a seemingly beautiful girl and are instinctively attracted to the opposite sex.

The girl's name is Linlin.

Looking back now, it doesn't have to be Linlin; it could be Fangfang, Huahua, Feifei, or anything else. It's just the natural attraction of teenage boys to the opposite sex.

How can you talk about true love if you don't even understand someone's personality?
It's just hormones.

That girl, like many teenage girls, had a young and beautiful body, a youthful and naive understanding, and an innocent and somewhat foolish personality.

The girl may have been initially attracted to Chen Yan's appearance—a sixteen-year-old boy and girl already knows how to judge a book by its cover. The girl sent some signals to Chen Yan, and Chen Yan received them.

Then, like many boys in the world who fall into immature emotions during adolescence, Chen Yan got carried away.

Then, once again, he exhibited that state of "making demands on others".

His request was simple: he wanted to be friends with the girl named Linlin.

I didn't think too much about it; I just wanted to be ordinary friends.

It went quite smoothly at first.

Chen Yan and the girl used to walk home from school together and exchange novels.

We used to go shopping and sightseeing together during our holidays.

later……

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"And then?" Lu Sisi leaned against the headboard, her legs under the blanket draped over Chen Yan's legs, rubbing gently against each other.

"Later, it's quite simple. Apparently, some boy who had a crush on her was unhappy and started spreading rumors that my father was a criminal executed by firing squad, that my mother was a bad woman who remarried and abandoned me, and they even made up more stories, saying that my father was a fugitive and that my mother was in jail..."

Chen Yan pursed his lips and said with a nonchalant tone, "Anyway, that's all."

Lu Sisi frowned: "She..."

"She just distanced herself from me." Chen Yan smiled and said, "We never really made it clear. We were just classmates and ordinary friends who got along well. But because of my scary past, she gradually distanced herself from me. I noticed it, so I decided not to bother her anymore."

"Will you blame her?" Lu Sisi asked.

"No." Chen Yan still smiled. "I didn't really like that girl that much. To be honest, it was just teenage hormones. Even if it wasn't her, I would have been attracted to other girls at that stage."

There were no real feelings involved, and she never truly entered my heart, so I won't be sad.

Lu Sisi was silent for a while, then sighed: "If you have no expectations, you won't be disappointed—is that what you mean?"

"I guess so," Chen Yan nodded.

“But I’m angry!” Lu Sisi suddenly puffed out her cheeks.

"what?"

"You're so great, why does she look down on you because of some rumors?" Lu Sisi gritted her teeth.

"She might not believe those rumors, but she's probably afraid of getting into trouble. If she continues to be friends with me, people will gossip about her," Chen said nonchalantly.

"That won't do either." Lu Sisi took a deep breath. "If I had been by your side back then, I would have stood in front of anyone who spread such rumors and scolded them to their face!"

Chen Yan smiled, gently pulled the girl into his arms, and whispered, "You think that way because you have feelings for me. But back then, she didn't have any feelings for me, so she had no obligation to me."

The two started talking at one o'clock in the morning, and it's almost three o'clock now.

Chen Yan didn't mind telling Lu Sisi about his childhood experiences... In fact, he quite liked it. Being with someone you like makes chatting feel effortless.

“You must have suffered a lot when you were a child.” Lu Sisi hugged Chen Yan’s arm, wishing she could squeeze her body into his.

"Actually... not really." Chen Yan laughed. "I was pretty good at fighting when I was a kid. I didn't suffer much, but those guys took a lot of my punches."

After a pause, Chen Yan's tone became more serious, and he slowly said, "However, I've come to understand that there are too many ignorant people in this world, and these people make up the vast majority of this world."

Since that's the case, then let's just ignore it.

In this life, many people are actually not important at all.

Upon closer reflection, most people in this world are dispensable to an individual; their well-being, whether they live or die, has nothing to do with me.

Lu Sisi seemed to only half understand what she was hearing.

Chen Yan thought for a moment and then smiled, "For example, you have a neighbor next door who is geographically close to you, right?"

"correct."

"If your neighbor speaks ill of you, would you be angry?"

"Probably? Most people would be unhappy," Lu Sisi replied.

"So, that's because they didn't understand."

Chen Yan laughed and said, "In this life, nothing is more important than death! Death is one of the biggest things, isn't it? So let me ask you... if the neighbor who speaks ill of you suddenly dies, whether it's a natural disaster, a man-made calamity, cancer, or a car accident, he's just gone."

Think about it, will this have any impact on you? Will it have any impact on your life?

Lu Sisi was taken aback, and subconsciously replied, "I don't think so."

“Yes, not at all.” Chen Yan said calmly, “Anyone who has any importance, value, or meaning to your life will definitely have some impact on you if they die, even if it is a very small impact.”

If his life or death has no impact on you, it means that this person is nothing to you... he's nothing at all!

Then think about it again.

"Someone who's nobody to you says something bad about you... Why should you get angry and let such a trivial remark affect you?"

Lu Sisi was stunned. After a while, she said in a low voice, "That seems to make sense, but... aren't you thinking too clearly? Many people can't actually do it. They still get angry and are controlled by their emotions."

"So don't let irrelevant people affect your emotions," Chen Yan said calmly. "Emotions are your own; wouldn't it be foolish to let something so trivial affect you?"

"But don't you ever really get angry?"

"Yes, I have."

"Then what will you do?"

"Kill that guy," Chen Yan laughed.

Chen Yan has only felt murderous intent and hatred towards others three times in the past, when his emotions were controlled and he wanted to kill them.

One instance was the guy in the port city who stole Lu Sisi's fate—out of concern for Lu Sisi.

One instance was during a trial in Japan, when he witnessed the master of the secret realm slaughtering and skinning humans like pigs and dogs—this stemmed from his own empathy as a human being.

The last time was just a few days ago, at the ski resort, when I killed that Russian girl and that man.

However, Chen Yan didn't actually want to kill anyone that time.

Killing those two people was simply to avoid trouble for myself, to prevent myself from getting involved in meaningless dangers and disputes.

Lu Sisi nestled in Chen Yan's arms and said softly, "If only I could have met you when you were little, I would have treated you so, so well."

"No, if you had met me when you were a child, with your jinxed bad luck, neither of us would have survived to adulthood," Chen Yan laughed.

Lu Sisi wasn't angry—the bad luck had already been lifted anyway. She gently bit Chen Yan's arm, then felt a pang of heartache and reached out to touch it, whispering, "No way, I'm very resilient, that's why I was able to stubbornly live to be eighteen and finally meet you."

As the girl spoke, her eyes were clearly filled with emotion as she looked at Chen Yan with her eyes brimming with tears.

Chen Yan's heart stirred, and he flipped over, pinning Lu Sisi beneath him and kissing her.

Soon, the breathing in the room became heavy again.

can only say……

The young bodies of twenty-two and eighteen years old truly possess boundless energy.

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When Lu Sisi woke up, it was already noon.

Actually, Chen Yan tried to wake her up for breakfast in the morning, but Lu Sisi firmly refused—if you don't sleep well, you'll age faster!
Chen Yan was also puzzled: "You're only eighteen, what are you worried about aging quickly?"

Lu Sisi didn't answer the question, but sighed inwardly.

Growing old one day later means leaving Chen Yan one day later...

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When Lu Sisi woke up in the afternoon, Chen Yan had already done a lot of things.

He washed Lu Sisi's clothes and then dried them in the dryer.

After all, the clothes I wore yesterday still smelled of the hot pot restaurant.

After getting up at noon, Lu Sisi reluctantly left Chen Yan's house—she refused Chen Yan's offer to drive her to school and instead called a ride-hailing service and left.

Actually, she didn't want to leave. For Lu Sisi, who was so passionate about love, the most important thing in the world at that moment was being with Chen Yan.

As for going to school, which school, classmates, and future prospects, none of that matters.

Hmm... In this respect, Lu Sisi and Chen Yan are somewhat similar.

He was constantly tormented and oppressed by this world until he was eighteen, plagued by bad luck, and suffered neglect since childhood...

Lu Sisi was actually somewhat indifferent, but not to the same extent as Chen Yan.

Chen Yan felt a little strange, thinking that his girlfriend's dependence on him was a bit higher than normal.

We're both still young; I'm twenty-two, and she's only eighteen.

There's still so much life and wonderful time ahead.

She seemed to be in a great hurry.

Hmm... But being love-struck can actually be quite enjoyable.

As long as you're not the one with a love-struck mind.

Think about it carefully, if your girlfriend is completely devoted to you, many men would secretly feel smug, right?
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After seeing Lu Sisi off, Chen Yan returned to the living room. Looking at the quiet living room now, he still felt a little uneasy.

Gone is the woman who used to lounge on the sofa, clutching a pile of snacks while watching TV…

The house no longer feels like "home".

If that doesn't work... then just agree to Lu Sisi's idea of ​​dropping out of school and let her move in?

Oh well, never mind. You can't be so selfish. That little girl is just in love, and I can't be so heartless as to ruin her studies and future.

That's too fucked up.

After thinking it over, it seems that I don't have anything important to do right now.

The biggest issue before, the ghost marriage, has also been resolved.

but……

Chen Yan suddenly noticed the car keys on the table.

I might consider buying a car.

The money in his bank account now is a fortune he never dared to dream of before he began cultivating.

Even if I start doing nothing right now and just lie at home, I'll have enough to eat and drink for the rest of my life—as long as I don't live too extravagantly.

This long trip made me quite addicted to driving – all new drivers go through this phase, getting addicted to driving in the first few months.

Chen Yan pondered, "Should I buy a car?"

The G-Class is pretty good, but it consumes too much gas.

If you're looking for something trendy, buying a new energy vehicle is a good option, either from Lei Jun's company or Aigo's.

Wait, that's not right!

Chen Yan slapped his forehead.

Only children make choices. I'm rich, I can have it all!

Chen Yan made up his mind: he would first go to Chu Keqing's place to return the car, and then go buy a new one!
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I picked up my keys, got up to change my coat, and before I could even change my shoes, the door to my house suddenly opened.

Chen Yan was stunned for a moment.

Then the door opened, and Gui Geng slowly walked in from outside. He peeked into the room and sighed, "Young Master, your female guest has left? I could have stayed outside without daring to come in and disturb her."

Chen Yan: "…………"

"Where is the mistress? Has she not returned yet?" Gui Geng asked curiously.

Chen Yan suddenly realized what was happening.

"Holy crap! What are you still doing here?!"

Gui Geng was dumbfounded, staring wide-eyed at Chen Yan.

"Why...why am I not here?"

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Gu Xiaoniang left.

But they forgot about the old tortoise at home!
After staring at each other for a while, Chen Yan and Gui Geng didn't know how to start the conversation with the old tortoise.

I'm afraid it will break their heart if I tell them.

Chen Yan knew that Gui Geng had always been proud to be a disciple of Gu Qingyi, a master of the Celestial Realm, and had always looked forward to bringing it back with him when Gu Qingyi returned to the Domain.

It seems Gu Qingyi made a promise to it as well?

So, what's the result now?

Have they forgotten about you?

"Well, Miss Gu went to the realm on business and won't be back for a few days."

"Uh……"

"You can stay with me for now, and everything... will remain the same for now."

"Am I to be the key figure in this battle?"

"OK."

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Gui Geng didn't actually mind being the array's core, as it would greatly benefit his cultivation. However, the news that the mistress had gone to the realm made the old tortoise somewhat uneasy.

But then I thought again, maybe not?
They're a dignified Celestial Realm cultivator! They wouldn't try to fool a little turtle cultivator like me, would they?

No, no, no!

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Chen Yan went to the garage, started the car, and then drove out of the garage.

He had just driven his car out of the gate and turned onto the internal road of the residential area when he suddenly slammed on the brakes, his eyes widening in surprise as he stared in one direction…

Right in front of Lin Qingquan's old house next door!
A figure stood at the door of Lin Qingquan's house.

He was of medium build, with a short buzz cut, and looked quite energetic. His suit looked expensive and fit him well, making him look presentable, but something about it just seemed off.

The man looked to be in his early thirties, and his appearance was quite decent.

But Chen Yan's gaze towards this person held a strange glint.

"Teacher, don't bother sending it. I promise I'll do a perfect job! I won't let you down! Don't you trust me?"

The man with the buzz cut spoke loudly.

Lin Qingquan stood at the door and waved.

The man with the buzz cut chuckled, turned around, and strode away.

Chen Yan sat in the car, waiting for the man with the buzz cut to walk past his car. He pretended to turn his head to get something, and then, after the man walked ahead, he squinted at the man's back.

This man with the buzz cut is none other than...

It's... Ouyang!
(Intern) Assistant Inspector!
"I've suspected this old man for a long time!" Chen Yan glanced back at Lin Qingquan's villa and muttered through gritted teeth.

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(End of this chapter)