Hidden moth

Chapter 64: The sky is not different
Huang Xiaopang didn't say much about how to become a real hidden moth, because he himself couldn't explain it clearly.

According to Huang Xiaopang, there doesn't seem to be anything special about it. It's just a natural process. Knowing where the portal to the hidden moth space is and having the hidden moth object of your choice is like planting a seed.

It is impossible not to think about it. As long as you have it in your mind, you will always feel as if there is such a portal somewhere. Through the hidden moth item you carry with you, you can create an unspeakable connection and send out some kind of mysterious call.

Xiaopang also has a personal experience, which is to walk back and forth at the portal when he has nothing to do. He always feels as if he will accidentally enter another space...

Then one day, you suddenly really "see" it!
I can't see it with my ordinary eyes, but I can definitely feel its existence. It exists like other things in the world.

It is there, really there! It is no longer a concept of existence, but a tangible entity.

Huang Xiaopang thought he couldn't explain it clearly and that He Kao needed to slowly understand it himself. However, he didn't realize that as soon as he said it, He Kao understood it and even felt a sense of déjà vu.

This was the state he was in after entering the state of meditation through practice, except that what appeared in the state of concentration were the surrounding objects, not a portal that did not exist.

So He Kao wanted to try his own method, that is, to practice the state of observation to see if the portal would naturally appear. But tonight, his state was disturbed by something, and this interference came from Gao Xue'e.

Gao Xue'e didn't dare to go back to her home. She felt subconsciously safe only when she stayed at He Kao's house and slept on the bed where she had been rescued last night. However, she still couldn't fall asleep after lying down.

During the day, she seemed to have returned to normal, but she needed to keep doing various things to try not to recall last night and stay calm, so she collected and sorted out the mailing addresses of 200 "relevant departments".

When time returned to night again, she couldn't fall asleep no matter what. As soon as she closed her eyes, she would have a strange tinnitus in her ears, as if the sound of broken gunshots came from far and near.

The feeling of having her hair pulled up, being soaked all over, and having her hands and feet bound came back inexplicably. She felt cold all over, curled up and couldn't help trembling... She didn't dare close her eyes or turn off the lights.

He Kao sat in another bedroom, practicing the Yin E Guan.

He has already realized the magic of this method of observation. Everything around him appears inexplicably, as if it just exists, but he doesn't know "who" is perceiving it.

When he was able to enter this state while sitting in meditation, and then "awaken" this state in normal times, it was as if he had possessed that extraordinary perception ability.

If not, he would not have been able to cooperate with Xiaopang to fight back against the kidnappers last night. If He Kao had not suddenly counterattacked, Xiaopang would have been in danger, and He Kao himself and Gao Xue'e would not have been able to escape.

After going through all this, he had a kind of sublimated self-confidence, just like the enlightenment after great joy and sorrow, just like a sparrow that had been baptized by the wind and waves of Yunmeng Lake.

In that situation, He Kao was still able to remain calm and "awaken" his extraordinary perception ability. Then after returning to normal, he became much more calm and composed when facing many things. They were all small scenes.

So after resting today, he started practicing meditation in his bedroom. The process of entering the state was smooth at first. His body turned into nothingness, his mind disappeared, and all things appeared... However, at this point, he could not maintain the state of concentration.

Because Gao Xue'e also appeared in the perception, her state was very wrong... Once He Kao started thinking, his consciousness returned and he could no longer keep his mind clear, so he retreated from the cultivation state to the perception state.

His perception was locked on Gao Xue'e.

Different people experience the same thing, but the consequences are different. For example, He Kao became a sparrow on Yunmeng Lake, while Gao Xue'e became a frightened bird... She is clearly suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder.

He Kao felt deeply guilty towards Gao Xue'e. She was really dragged into this for no reason, and she was frightened and almost lost her life.

Although she was in another bedroom with the main hall between them, He Kao could still "see" her very clearly, and could even feel her curled up body, legs clamped together and trembling.

This made people want to hold her in their arms and comfort her. He Kao didn't have any bad intentions of taking advantage of her misfortune, it was just a thought... He thought about it, and simply got out of bed and went to the kitchen.

Gao Xue'e heard the noise and got out of bed. Seeing He Kao, she seemed to be relieved. She felt much more at ease in an instant. She stood at the kitchen door and asked, "What's wrong? Can't you sleep either?"

He Kao smiled and said, "I felt like you couldn't sleep, so I made you a cup of tea. It's the one that Senior Lin gave me today. It's called Chongheyin. It should be of some help to you... Come on, drink it."

Gao Xue'e took the cup and asked, "Why is there only one cup? How about you?"

He Kao: "One cup each morning and evening. I've already had one tonight, so this one is for you."

Chongheyin is not tea. It tastes slightly spicy at first, and a warm current seems to spread throughout the body. As you continue to sip it, you will gradually feel a slight sweetness, and finally there will be a faint fragrance between your lips and teeth.

When He Kao was drinking with Lin Qingshuang, he was thinking about other things. He didn't feel anything after taking two sips, which was basically like a cow chewing a peony.

Gao Xue'e drank very slowly at this time, taking small sips and savoring the drink carefully. She felt relieved. But even if she drank slowly, she would eventually finish it. He Kao took the cup away, but she still stood by the door with no intention of leaving.

The longer she could stay, the better. Gao Xue'e didn't want to go to bed now, at least not alone.

"Feeling better? Then let's go back to sleep!" He Kao walked to the door and reached out to turn off the light, but Gao Xue'e suddenly hugged him and then she snuggled into his arms.

He Kao was caught off guard and took half a step back. There was a sound of the door hitting the wall behind him, and he felt like he was pressed against the kitchen door.

He Kao's brain was a little out of sorts. Her arms were hugging her tightly, but her body was so soft and her breath was so pleasant. He almost subconsciously hugged her and patted her on the back, saying, "What's wrong? It's okay, don't be afraid!"

Gao Xue'e buried her nose in the side of his neck and said softly, "Stay with me."

It felt a bit like sitting in an exam room without properly studying. He Kao said in a panic, "Ms. E..." He only said half a sentence, and then he didn't know what to say. Gao Xue'e might not have meant it, but it was as if her brain had just lost power and she reacted instinctively, as if some emotion had been suppressed to the limit and suddenly lost control.

She really wanted to do it with him...even something more exciting or even crazier, as if this would prevent her from being tortured by another feeling.

Seeing that He Kao was silent, Gao Xue'e said weakly, "I don't have any other intentions. I just want to be with you... Are you afraid of me, or do you look down on me?"

How do you answer this?

To say that you look down on someone is at least not kind enough. For He Kao, it is also not honest enough.

If she was willing, wouldn't he be willing too? He remembered watching Japanese action movies several times, and in a half-awake state, he would put himself in the role of the male protagonist in the movie, and the female protagonist would look like Gao Xue'e...

After all, he is a hot-blooded young man, so it is understandable.

In reality, he was a little afraid to enter General Gao's office, because Gao Xue'e was a leader with a bad temper, but in the eyes of his colleagues, she was so optimistic about him and valued him, and was willing to train and cultivate him and assign him various tasks.

But this fear has disappeared after last night.

Just like soaking in a hot spring and suddenly touching something, He Kao finally lowered his head and said, "I forgot to tell you just now that you are required to abstain from sex on the day and the next day after taking Chongheyin.

Also, I took a nourishing essence pill the day before yesterday... It's also a special elixir made by the sect... It requires abstinence for seven days."

He stuttered, and Gao Xue'e didn't quite understand him, but at least she understood the general meaning. She asked in a vague voice, "The day before yesterday?"

He Kao, who was having trouble breathing, finally breathed a sigh of relief: "Yes, it was the day before yesterday."

Gao Xue'e had regained some consciousness. She hadn't expected herself to suddenly lose control, and now she was too embarrassed to look up. She didn't think He Kao was looking for an excuse to refuse, because she was pressed against his body and could feel his reaction.

Gao Xue'e whispered, "But I still can't sleep... I don't dare to close my eyes and sleep."

He Kao: "Then how did you fall asleep yesterday?"

Gao Xue'e: "Yesterday? Yesterday was different."

He Kao: "Is it like yesterday?"

Gao Xue'e finally let go of her hand, but she blushed and still didn't dare to look up: "Well, thank you! Am I too..."

He Kao: "No, don't think too much."

In that small bedroom, He Kao sat by the bed, watching Gao Xue'e finally fall asleep, as if the scene from yesterday was replayed, but her complexion was much better than yesterday... He gently put her hand, which had been holding him, back on the quilt, got up and walked out.

As Gao Xue'e's breathing gradually became steady and she finally fell asleep, He Kao's mood also calmed down, but his body's natural reaction became even stronger.

It was not until this time that he truly realized the effectiveness of the Yangjing Pill.

In fact, he was not entirely clear that no matter what kind of technique he practiced, he had to go through a process, which was to awaken the instinct of life, to experience the feeling of what made life life, and the ability that came from the source.

During this process, sensory stimulation is amplified, and various desires follow. Under normal circumstances, people must control their desires, and the result is the amplification of various emotions.

Therefore, it is very important to stay calm in daily life and not be disturbed during practice. This requires both the ability to stabilize the mind and the ability to clearly experience desires and enter a natural state.

This stage is also called the lust calamity by some people. The so-called lust is not only the desire between men and women, it includes the instinctive desire for everything in this world. Generally speaking, the desire related to sex is the most obvious.

This is not necessarily a bad thing, it is just a test, a prerequisite for learning magic.

The calamity of lust is an internal test, but it is often triggered by external experiences, becoming certain events encountered in reality. It is best to overcome it naturally without any deliberate effort, as that is the best way to cultivate.

So although Lin Qingshuang gave some suggestions, she did not say it clearly. She just asked someone to send the Yangjing Pill to He Kao and told him the details of taking it.

In fact, the most iconic experience of He Kao's sexual misfortune wasn't tonight, but last night. Last night, he had an unprecedented desire to survive, but he remained calm and composed, which for an ordinary worker was perfect.

People often say, "I am a practitioner, I have no desires or requests." This statement reveals a flaw. What is the point of practicing without desires? Doesn't the desire to practice still mean desire? The desire to restrain desire is also a desire.

The only difference is how people use it and what kind of physical and mental state they can control.

After returning to his bedroom, He Kao sat with his gun at hand. The Yin Moth Contemplation was ideal for clearing away distracting thoughts in such situations. In his visualization, his body gradually faded into nothingness, his self-existence seemingly vanishing, yet simultaneously becoming omnipresent, as if it were the world itself.

Everything around him appeared naturally, and the door appeared.

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(End of this chapter)