I'm being held captive by a monster

Chapter 105: My dear, this time you finally didn't get tricked by your mother again~
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"An An, are you...are you in there?"

"An An, stop making trouble, sister is scared..."

"Sister, can I take you home? Sister, can I take you home..."

Xu Can's voice trembled in the abandoned building.

The dim moonlight was faintly visible through the building frame.

Lin Xing'an saw himself standing on a low stool in a room with a hanging corpse, holding matches and a lighter in his mouth.

He was holding a brazier in his hand, which was full of gasoline.

And a very novel feeling made Lin Xing'an's breathing tremble.

I……

Why do I feel that Sister Chan is a monster...

He could now feel what he felt at that moment, but he was also looking at what he was about to do from a third-person God's perspective.

It's like watching a fully immersive movie.

"An An, sister...sister is a little scared..."

Xu Can came to the door and pushed it open tremblingly.

Don't……

do not!
Lin Xing'an's heart began to pound.

He wanted to stop it, but he still saw himself pouring a basin of gasoline on Xu Can!

The pungent liquid soaked Xu Can all over.

And a cluster of flames ignited from Lin Xing'an's hands.

Sparks floated onto Xu Can.

"call……"

Beneath the flames was Xu Can's painful voice and desperate tears.

"What am I doing..."

Lin Xing'an's eyes were full of confusion.

He saw that even in this situation, Xu Can still kept telling him to stay away from the fire.

But he kept chattering about monsters and animals, with madness in his eyes.

It's like a mentally ill person who is completely immersed in his own world.

He saw that Xu Can was still stumbling around trying to avoid him, trying to keep the merciless fire away from him.

But he jumped directly from the seventh floor to the protruding platform on the fifth floor as if he was avoiding some man-eating monster.

And in his memory, Sister Can, who had always cared for him, was forever blocked in the fire by the hanging corpse...

"What the hell did I do..."

"What's wrong with me..."

Lin Xing'an covered his head.

He could feel that in his mind and in his heart, he viewed Xu Can as a terrifying monster.

He could feel his own panic, his own fear, and his own determination!

But in front of him, Xu Can was clearly the sister next door that he was most familiar with!
The neighbor sister who saw him running away from home and wanted to take him home!

"I……"

The absolutely real emotions in his heart and the absolutely real scenes in front of his eyes were like two giant hands, constantly tearing Lin Xing'an apart!
Countless memories flashed through his mind one by one.

station……

Zizizi!
He saw the extremely friendly and patient steward who helped him when he arrived at the train station.

Blood Rain...

Zizizi!
He saw Teacher Orange, who happened to be coming to the train station to see someone off.

Gluttonous ghost...

Zizizi!
He saw Yu Yu, who hadn't slept all night because she was worried about him and looked extremely haggard...

"Ah...hh..."

There were waves of severe pain in my head...

It's like countless distorted memories are being straightened out...

Lin Xing'an felt that he had finally woken up...

I finally woke up from the fantasy that I was surrounded by monsters...

……

"Good boy?"

"My dear..."

Yu Yu's voice came softly.

Lin Xing'an slowly opened his eyes.

He was lying in bed.

In front of him was Yu Yu's somewhat weak and pale face, with some dark circles under his eyes, swollen eyes, and red eye sockets.

But when he woke up, Yu Yu still smiled gently.

But... besides expectation, there was also a bit of timidity in his eyes...

The sunlight gently caressed her hair and fell on the two shallow dimples on her face.

"mom……"

Lin Xing'an looked at Yu Yu.

An extremely real feeling, as if he had finally woken up from a nightmare, made his eyes blurry.

"My dear, you..."

Hearing his voice, Yu Yu was stunned for a moment.

Then an extremely complicated expression of joy appeared on his face, and his eyes turned red at a speed visible to the naked eye.

Feeling Yu Yu's love for him, Lin Xing'an also felt a pang of heartache.

Why did I think of Yu Yu as a monster before...

She is the mother...

"Mom, I'm sorry, I don't know why, I..."

"It's okay, it's okay, it's all mom's fault, it's all mom's fault..."

Yu Yu hugged Lin Xing'an in his arms.

Her body was trembling slightly.

Lin Xing'an could still hear Yu Yu's suppressed sobs.

"I'm sorry, Ms. Yu, I want to talk to An An alone for a while to confirm An An's current situation."

"If that's all right..."

The doctor in a white coat and carrying a bag nodded at the door.

Yu Yu also quickly blinked and wiped away the tears on his face.

"My dear, mommy is waiting for you outside."

She smiled gently and rubbed Lin Xing'an's face lovingly.

Only the doctor and Lin Xing'an were left in the ward.

"An An, I want to know how you feel right now."

"Can you tell me briefly about it?"

The doctor moved a stool, sat beside Lin Xing'an's bed, and asked seriously.

"I……"

"I don't know why I used to...ah..."

Lin Xing'an took a deep breath, a complex and self-blaming look on his face.

But the doctor pushed his glasses up to show his understanding.

"An An, this is not your problem. You are also a 'victim'."

"During the full moon, you had a high fever. Although you were rushed to the hospital promptly, it still caused some problems with the nerves in your brain."

"It makes you imagine that you are in a world full of 'monsters'."

"You mistook your mother's concern for you as a test from a monster, which put you under tremendous pressure and made you want to escape from this home."

"Until last week..."

The doctor sighed softly.

"Sister Can..."

Lin Xing'an grabbed the corner of the quilt.

He looked out the window, feeling an unspeakable pain in his heart.

"Don't, don't blame yourself, don't have any psychological burden."

"Because at that time you were completely dominated by your own mental problems."

"You can understand that you didn't do anything wrong at the time because your mind just built a world full of monsters for you."

"Everything you see and think is real, but it is only real to you personally."

"But it's all over. How do you feel now? Speak boldly. It's okay."

The doctor asked with concern.

"I feel like... I'm finally awake..."

"It's like I've been living this whole time in a nightmare, and I feel like I'm finally back in the real world."

"I still remember those crazy ideas I had before, but... I have completely believed that they were fake. I will not indulge in them anymore..."

"I've completely left that world... full of monsters."

A hint of bitterness appeared at the corner of Lin Xing'an's mouth.

It’s like when you were a child, you firmly believed that Ultraman existed, and when you grow up, you look back on that “firm belief” at that time.

This is how Lin Xing'an feels now when he thinks about how he once believed the world was full of monsters.

only……

Lin Xing'an pursed his lips slightly, a flicker of confusion in his eyes. Could it be...

Are those really all fake?
"very good."

The doctor took off his glasses with relief.

"An An, your mother has really sacrificed so much for you."

"Your life has just begun, and the road ahead is very long."

"Next, I want to run a little test on you."

"If there's nothing wrong, you can be discharged from the hospital."

He then pulled out a file bag from his bag. "I'll show you a few pictures with patterns. Tell me honestly what the first thing that comes to mind when you see the patterns in the pictures is, okay?"

"it is good."

Lin Xing'an was stunned for a moment and nodded.

What am I doubting?
Those monsters and weird things are of course all fake...

"Very good, An An, let's start. What does this remind you of first?"

The doctor held up a picture.

It looked as if ink had been randomly splashed on it.

Gloomy...

Lin Xing'an opened his mouth.

This word flashed through my mind for the first time.

But he immediately rejected the idea in his mind.

I finally escaped from that nightmare...

I just want to live a good life now...

He looked outside the room and saw Yu Yu looking at him with concern through the window on the door.

"What's wrong, An An? Does this picture... make you uncomfortable?"

There was a gleam in the doctor's eyes behind his glasses.

"...crow, like a crow."

Lin Xing'an said with a blink of his eyes.

"Raven, very good, next."

The doctor looked at Lin Xing'an deeply and took out the second picture.

Brother Xizi...

The symmetrical ink on it looks like a majestic lion that seems to be about to pounce out of the picture.

"……lion."

Lin Xing said after settling down.

"...The villa is on fire."

"Taoyuan... peach trees, peach trees in full bloom..."

"Jellyfish."

"...Oranges, moldy oranges."

The pictures passed by one by one, and Lin Xing'an answered them one by one.

Until the last one, he seemed to see the ink splashing freely on the paper, as if it came alive and turned into a terrifying ghost before his eyes...

It seemed as if it was going to devour him...

"Butterfly, like a butterfly with its wings spread out..."

Lin Xing'an closed his eyes and spoke softly.

The doctor nodded, a hint of amusement on his face.

"It's okay, An An. Your mental state is still a little unstable, but this is normal. Don't worry."

"it is good."

"You can be discharged now, but you need to come for checkups every week. Take your medicine on time, listen to your mother, live a good life, and see more of the world."

"Ah."

Feeling the sunlight shining on him, Lin Xing'an felt a hint of excitement in his heart.

yes……

My life has just begun...

"My dear, what do you want to eat for lunch? Mommy will take you to eat something delicious!"

Yu Yu held Lin Xing'an's hand, turned his head and asked with a smile.

"It's okay, my dear. Let the past be the past."

"Let's live a good life from now on and trust mom, okay?"

She rubbed Lin Xing'an's head.

"..."

"Trust Mom, okay?"

Seeing that Lin Xing'an just opened his mouth, Yu Yu blinked and asked softly.

"..."

Lin Xing'an looked at Yu Yu's gentle and concerned face, and his breathing became slightly rapid.

He wanted to answer yes, but... he just couldn't say it no matter what.

It was as if... it was as if... his spirit, his instinct, his soul, were preventing him from believing in Yu Yu...

An extremely strange feeling kept pulling at Lin Xing'an, causing his head to ache again.

Before my eyes, waves of trance appeared.

The whole world seemed to be turning upside down.

"……Um?"

The doctor who was sorting something outside the door seemed to have noticed something and paused.

"An'an? An'an?"

He rushed into the ward in one step!
He stretched out his hand and waved it in front of the stunned Lin Xing'an.

"What did you say to him?"

The doctor looked at Yu Yu seriously.

"I asked An An if he believed me."

Yu Yu said calmly.

But the doctor's expression began to change little by little.

“…I didn’t ask you to say that…”

He stared at Yu Yu, but Yu Yu looked at him calmly.

"you……"

The doctor put his hand on Yu Yu's shoulder.

Then the whole person took two steps back suddenly as if he had touched something extremely terrifying!
"I...this...you...you are not..."

"How can this be……"

His eyes widened in disbelief.

"My dear, do you believe in your mother?"

Yu Yu ignored him, held Lin Xing'an's hand again, and asked softly.

But this time, Lin Xing'an was silent for a long time, then slowly shook his head.

“…I don’t believe it…I don’t believe it, I don’t believe it.”

He looked at Yu Yu's face, hesitated at first, and then repeated it with certainty.

"Why, sweetheart? Don't you want to live here with your mother?"

Yu Yu asked softly.

It was clearly a closed room and the windows were clearly not open.

But her long hair seemed to be blown by the wind, fluttering gently.

"because……"

Lin Xing'an closed his eyes, his eyelashes trembling slightly.

"Because you are a glutton. A glutton is absolutely not to be trusted."

"That's what you told me..."

He opened his eyes and his voice trembled.

However, a relieved smile appeared on Yu Yu's face.

She nodded and said nothing.

He just kept rubbing Lin Xing'an's face lovingly and tidying his hair.

His eyes were red, and seemed to be sparkling with tears.

Looking at Lin Xing'an, it seemed like he could never see enough, and could never touch enough.

"call……"

And everything around, the bed, the door, the nurse in the corridor...

Waves of black energy appeared on all people and things.

Only Yu Yu is still shining in the sun.

But it is becoming transparent little by little, like bubbles in the sun, and seems likely to disappear at any time.

"Good boy~"

"This time, you finally didn't get fooled by your mother again~"

Yu Yu's hand suddenly passed through Lin Xing'an's body.

But she was not surprised. Instead, she smiled brightly and said with relief and reluctance.

Then, before Lin Xing'an's eyes, she gradually disappeared into the sunlight...

"boom!"

And everything around seemed to turn into billowing black air and dissipate!
(End of this chapter)