Fighting Soul Clan Demoness

Chapter 269 Unleashed Emotions

What does it feel like to like someone?
At first, in Hun Ruoruo's opinion, this was hardly a problem. After all, this word was always on people's lips, and she was no exception.

Hun Ruoruo had seen countless people's "love" for her, some mixed with greed, some mixed with desire, and even with undisguised cruelty. Without exception, all of these people had become souls under her blade.

Because of this, she has always used desire as the standard to measure whether she likes something or not, saving time and effort.

But now, when Hun Ruoruo really started to think about the meaning of it, she felt her head was so empty that even her consciousness became confused.

She found that she couldn't understand.

Attachment, love, longing, concern. These words that can be spoken casually seem to have no core at all in Hun Ruoruo's eyes. They are just a series of monotonous and empty characters.

It seems that you can touch it, but no matter what, you can't experience it personally.

Therefore, Xiao Yan's actions caused the girl's always firm belief to be shaken violently, and she began to become a little unsure -

She could still understand a little about Yao Lao's elder-like care because of her mother, but Xiao Yan's feelings were really hard for her to understand.

It is friendship, but it seems to have something else in it. It is love, but it is not mixed with any desire.
Does he like me?
But if you like a woman, it’s impossible not to have desire, right?
Having lived two lives, Hun Ruoruo was sure that she must have experienced this kind of emotion. However, even if she used her soul power to search her entire memory, she could not find any emotion that matched it.

"Is there really something wrong with my soul?"

She stared at the pond in front of her with somewhat empty eyes, and waves of panic came over her heart, making Hun Ruoruo's breathing become a little rapid.

With 'Soul Sea Soul Saving' as a tool to purify the soul, Hun Ruoruo has no burden at all when it comes to devouring souls. She basically does whatever she wants. Apart from adhering to the bottom line of the transaction, she has no restraint at all.

But now, she completely discovered the abnormality.

Whether it was the covetousness that the snake man had for Yao Lao after swallowing the Flame Thorn soul, or his current confusion about positive emotions, it made her feel extremely strange and frightened.

She seems to have lost her sense of what it means to like someone.
"no no"

Hun Ruoruo shook her head, then gradually increased her strength, and finally even grabbed her beautiful long hair tightly, and a hysterical voice came out of her mouth.

"I haven't lost my feelings. I won't turn into a machine-like monster. No!!"

"Why, why is it that even after using the power of purification, my soul is still corroded? Isn't Soul Sea Soul Rescue a heavenly-grade technique? Why is there a problem that even a heavenly-grade technique can't solve?"

The girl's voice gradually became weaker and weaker, and finally became as faint as the buzzing of a mosquito.

The voice was full of complaints and resentment, but he tried hard not to sound aggrieved, just like a little animal licking its wounds alone.

Even though she knew that there was a dark abyss ahead and she was very likely to be smashed to pieces, she was still like a burning chariot out of control, being pulled forward and never looking back at the way she came.

In order to become stronger, she had no choice.

"Ugh"

Suddenly, a complex sigh from an old man seemed to be heard in front of her, causing the girl, who had been silent, to tremble suddenly, and her eyes were instantly replaced by ruthlessness and coldness.

"Who?!"

Fighting spirit surged out of his body crazily, Hun Ruoruo suddenly raised his head, and the killing move was about to be condensed and released as soon as he raised his hand.

However, when the water blade was about to reach the old man's illusory body, it seemed to stop in an instant and stagnated in place. The girl's movements also became stiff, and the murderous intent on her face turned into a confused and helpless look.

"you"

Suddenly, Yao Lao was standing quietly before her. Without any intention of defending himself, he raised his hand and gently pushed the water blade away from him. He then rubbed the girl's head, brushing away the messy hair that blocked her view, making her look less lonely and embarrassed.

"Silly girl, even Heaven-level fighting skills are not omnipotent."

Yao Lao's words were gentle and soft, carrying the comfort of an elder, but not offering mercy.

"There are no real shortcuts in the path of cultivation. If you want to improve your cultivation through sinister methods, you are destined to pay a corresponding price. This is fair, isn't it?"

Staring blankly at the kind old man in front of her, Hun Ruoruo's eyes seemed to ripple with a barely perceptible light of water, which disappeared in an instant with the sound of a light sniff.

She lowered her head, bit her lips tightly, and remained silent for an unknown amount of time before finally responding in a low voice:
"I know."

The girl's voice was muffled, and upon closer listening, there was a hint of imperceptible embarrassment, as if she felt her previous behavior was somewhat embarrassing. She then added another sentence.

".Why are you here?"

"Haha, don't worry, little girl. I didn't intend to pry into your privacy. It's just that the state you displayed during the battle with the guardian Wu earlier really made me a little worried, so I decided to rush over to check on you."

Yao Lao saw the other party's embarrassment and immediately explained with a faint smile:
"After all, you know the boy's current condition. He can't even get out of bed. If I don't hide my body and escape, I'm afraid others will notice me."

After hearing Yao Lao's explanation, Hun Ruoruo's expression looked much better. The sharp blade in her hand fell to the ground like dewdrops, turning into sparkling water droplets, emitting a very faint light.

"I'm sorry, Senior Yao, I was a little emotional earlier and made you laugh."

She took a deep breath, her eyes flickering as she spoke, "As for the situation you mentioned, you should be well aware of the methods used by the Soul Palace. If we had let him go, you and I would have been hunted endlessly. The situation was critical at the time, and I had activated the beast soul to bless me, so common sense wouldn't work."

Hearing this, Yao Lao shook his head and said, "No, girl, this disease didn't appear at that time. If my predictions are correct, you should have noticed it back in the desert, right?"

"How did you learn this?"

When the other party mentioned this, Hun Ruoruo was stunned for a moment, and then asked in disbelief.

"When that kid was fighting the snake leader, he borrowed my power. Although his consciousness was almost asleep, he was still able to sense changes in the outside world. The sudden disappearance of the snake man's soul naturally did not escape my sight."

After saying this, Yao Lao paused and said meaningfully, "I guess you took the opportunity to take that soul away? I wanted to discuss this matter with you at the beginning, but unfortunately, the subsequent events happened too hastily, so naturally, it was left unresolved."

"Girl, if the soul-devouring has indeed affected your personality, and even if the degree of erosion far exceeds your own expectations, are you afraid?"

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Yao Lao's words seemed to strike directly at the fear in Hun Ruoruo's heart, causing her to fall into a long silence.

Having been in isolation for a long time and keeping everything hidden in her heart, she had already become accustomed to it and numb. So when she received the care from Xiao Yan and his apprentice, the first thing that came to her mind was not joy, but doubt and confusion.

But
Maybe she was really too tired and exhausted. She really wanted to have an elder to vent her emotions to, and she also really wanted to have a friend to talk to about her troubles.

It was as if she had been so fed up with Nalan Yanran's whining and so envious of Xiao Yan's brotherhood that she had given up her own interests for the first time and tried to give for those who cared about her.

Even if Hun Ruoruo couldn't distinguish the emotions, she was definitely not an ungrateful person who would repay kindness with enmity.

On the contrary, it is precisely because she is extremely sensitive to negative emotions that she can see at a glance who is good to her and who is not.

"Fear."

As if mustering up her courage, the girl looked at the other person with sparkling eyes, her voice gentle but firm.
"But I don't regret it."

(End of this chapter)