Durin's Diary

Chapter 96 Chapter 59.5: Higgins Utari I

"Isn't this the young man from the Utari family? How come he has time to come to the Past Life Bar today?"

As soon as Higgins walked in, he heard the women in the bar making fun of him. This made Higgins very sad. They were obviously the women in the bar, so why didn't these women try to respect the owner's eldest son?

It was Ms. Aisha who was sitting at the front desk who drove away these flesh and bones, and Higgins followed her into the service corridor of the bar. At the corner, she pushed on the light on the wall, and a secret door opened.

Ms. Aisha has served her father for many years, and she has been the one who manages the Past Life Bar.

"The lady is already here, remember to be respectful."

"I know, I know. She is the mistress of that big shot."

Higgins waved his hand nonchalantly. After receiving the lady's death stare, he calmed down a bit, but still shook his head at the new corridor in front of him. This bar was the secret meeting place of the Eastern Elf Territory. Many grassland elves who left the East as exiles would eventually gather here.

Higgins had been listening to his father telling stories about his childhood since he was a child. Even Higgins's mother...the mother who was far away in the eastern elf territory, said that she wanted Higgins to understand his father.

But the question is, how can he understand the man who puts his career, ideals and responsibilities before his family?

When Higgins was young, she lived with her mother. Her marriage to her father was the result of childhood innocence, but also a necessity of mission. A wanderer needs a place to return to, so in the end one lived in Lublin and the other in Copenhagen, and they only saw each other a few times a year.

But the feelings between the two have never changed.

Later, Higgins came to Copenhagen and was adopted by his father as a street child.

Although he is his biological son, he is adopted as his adopted son. His father said that this is to prevent people from knowing their true relationship and to protect Higgins.

Neither he nor she had thought that from that day on, Higgins had never wanted to live for his and her child - who wants to be a lonely ghost with no home to return to, no relatives to recognize, and no friends to gather with?

"Go, don't keep the noble man waiting for too long." Ms. Aisha urged in a low voice.

So Higgins took a step forward.

Higgins went astray when he was young. It was an absurd dream that he didn't want to recall. In the dream, he learned to smoke the same cigarettes as his peers - cigarettes with smiley mushrooms, which are everywhere in the human world and are loved by young people who have no self-control and like to dream.

Unfortunately, dreams will end. I still remember the girl who traveled all the way to Copenhagen from the capital. When she saw me lying among a group of women, her helpless face ran away crying and she never wrote to Higgins again.

The wandering child lost contact, and the Elders Council even sent a letter to his father, which was delivered personally by His Excellency the Duke of Lublin.

That day, my father cried for the first time. He said he regretted taking on such a sacred mission. For the sake of the Elf Territory, he had a home he couldn't return to, a son he couldn't recognize, relatives he couldn't raise, and loved ones he couldn't see.

The Duke is kind-hearted and willing to let his father take Higgins back to his hometown.

For the first time, Higgins understood the relationship between his parents, understood his father's unspeakable pain, and realized how big a mistake he had made.

So, he stood up.

The wanderer's connection was severed, but his heart was changed. From then on, Higgins Utari would still serve the sacred mission, even if he could never return to his hometown in his lifetime.

After a long night of dreaming, you will eventually wake up. No matter how good the past was, it will never come back. That girl will never appear in front of you again.

This is my retribution. After all, it was my own stupidity that harmed me.

Although he had given the letter to Mr. Dulin, he had only promised to deliver it to her—after all, she was the only one who could forgive Higgins's foolish past. So, when Higgins opened the door, the decadence and carelessness on his face disappeared, and a humble young man appeared at the door.

Looking at the elf girl standing by the window, surveying the human city, he smiled shyly, "Mrs. Elsh, hello."

The elf girl turned around, her face expressionless, as if she was sizing up the little guy in front of her: "Higgins, young wanderer, sit down."

Higgins was a little reserved. Without sitting down, he took out the document his father had asked him to pass on from his bag. It was in a cowhide bag and sealed with a wax seal left at home by the gentleman from Elsh.

"Thank you for your hard work." The elf girl came over. She didn't even glance at the documents on the coffee table. Instead, she reached out and patted Higgins on the head: "Do you still miss her?"

Higgins has a hard time answering this question.

He did think about it, and he thought about it for a long, long time, until he couldn't help himself, but he disappointed her, and it was his problem that he ended up in this situation.

So, Higgins nodded, respecting his own desires: "But we have no future. Madam, you should have heard my story."

The story is long, but the content is short. It is just a heartbreaking story about a wanderer who has lost his way.

The elf girl smiled. She raised her hand, and suddenly a letter appeared in her empty palm.

A lead-colored paper bag with a wax seal of a crossed sword and flag, signed Betty, her nickname.

Higgins took the letter tremblingly. He did not rush to open it, but choked with sobs - Higgins had seen it countless times in his dreams, and for a long time, he had always taken it for granted. But after losing it all, he found that this small envelope carried too much of his past and hope. When he was confused, at a loss, when he could not see the future, when he needed to redeem himself, it appeared before him like a ray of light.

"Is it really her letter..." He asked cautiously, afraid of missing something.

"Why don't you read it yourself, silly child? I heard that it was Du Lin who forwarded your letter to you. That little girl was so happy for a long time." The elf girl said with a smile, then picked up the file bag. "I can see the human city here. Let me be alone for a while."

"Yes, ma'am." Higgins suppressed his excitement. After leaving the room, he closed the door. Then the young man leaning on the corridor looked at the paper envelope in front of him and kissed it excitedly.

Carefully opening the wax seal, Higgins found only one page of letter. He opened the folded letter, which was filled with the words he had been thinking about day and night.

I heard that you have changed your mind and stopped fooling around... I don't know if you have become a better person.

Higgins, can you please not do that in the future?

You didn't keep your oath, but I did.

I still hope that one day, in that hall, you will come and hold my hand.

There were only a few lines of words, but tears rolled down Higgins' eyes. He did not keep his oath, but she did... Her family must have arranged a marriage for her, or she must have met other boys.

You didn't keep your oath, but I did. In just one line of words, she expressed her grievances, her unwillingness, her anger, her disappointment and her experience.

Of course, there is also the hope that is always expressed but not spoken.

Higgins wiped his face and went to his office to calm down.

The goddess has mercy.

　It's on the shelves, come on, gentlemen (lie flat
　　
　
(End of this chapter)