My cultivation is too warm

Xu Mo has always considered himself an exceptionally strong person who would never break down no matter what he encounters.

Just like when everything in the past was erased, I did not collapse. I was able to face it all with strength and composure, and then regain my confidence, believing that I could change everything and make all the erased past reappear.

He believed he had kept his promise to the Nine Peaks Master, and had persevered no matter what happened.

But it wasn't until Peak Master Jiu Miao and Elder Ouyang had all left that he realized he was wrong, terribly wrong.

The reason he was able to face everything calmly and have enough confidence was not because he was particularly strong or had a particularly firm will.

It was simply because the Nine Peaks Master, Elder Ouyang, and the others were still there at the time. Their presence meant that there were people to communicate with and face all of this together.

Even if they don't think so in their hearts, they subconsciously believe that they can rely on them because they are elders.

There was no one who truly and tangibly felt that the weight of all the hopes of countless worlds and endless time and space rested on their shoulders.

I always believe that no matter what happens, there are people who share the burden with me, and that I am not fighting alone.

Indeed, that was the case. When he proposed to create a brand-new health-preserving martial art based on his previous Qi and Blood Martial Arts, the Nine Wonders Peak Master and Elder Ouyang were always there to exchange ideas and discuss the Dao with him.

And because their experience and knowledge are far greater than ours, they are actually the main force in the research.

Just like the grafting back then, although the theoretical ideas and inspiration were proposed by myself, it was actually Elder Ouyang who perfected them and made grafting applicable to spiritual plants.

He mostly assisted and learned, and even in the later experimental research process, the role played by the old man of Wanmo, who joined later, was more significant than his own.

Only after Elder Ouyang and the others left did he truly feel the pressure he was carrying.

The hope of this era rests on themselves, and the future of all surviving humankind rests on their own shoulders—a heavy burden indeed.

He is now the oldest of all the surviving humans, even older than his senior brothers, Wang Er and the others.

He is the true helmsman of the new era, and his every word and action may influence the future trajectory.

When he truly realized these things, he suddenly felt incredibly heavy and had a feeling of being unable to breathe.

More importantly, there was a sense of loneliness, something he had never felt before.

It was only at this moment that Xu Mo realized that he had always been a flower that grew up in a greenhouse and had never experienced any hardship.

When I first transmigrated here, I met Xianqing, who took meticulous care of me.

Later, he accidentally entered a time warp and went to the distant past. There, he was protected by his mentor and friend, Ancestor Tianxuan, so that he didn't have to worry about anything.

As for what happened next, it went even more smoothly. They met Deacon Fang, Senior Brother Yi An, Elder Ouyang, Daoist Ye, Peak Master of Nine Wonders Peak, Daoist Zi Xiao, and the senior brothers and sisters of Ling Miao Peak.

Everyone has been taking care of him and making him feel warm.

Now, all of that is gone, and he has to bear it all alone, which makes him feel helpless, confused, and unsure of what to do next.

Then he panicked and became anxious.

He desperately wanted to connect to the new path and bring everything back to normal.

He locked himself in his room and didn't go anywhere, immersing himself entirely in his research.

He believed that as long as he devoted himself wholeheartedly to his research, he would always reap the rewards.

The more he studied it, the more panicked, anxious, confused, and helpless he became.

Because you can't find your direction!

This is the most painful and agonizing thing for researchers.

All traces of the "Dao" have been erased, unlike when he was researching the Fullness Fruit. At that time, only the rules were altered, but the foundation of the Dao of Spiritual Plants remained, as did the other Daos.

All he needs to do is create another rule next to the one that has been altered.

Now, he has no foundation; everything is starting from scratch.

What he is doing now is like enabling primitive people from ancient tribal times to unify the four great forces of the universe, or like enabling an ordinary mortal to truly touch dark matter energy with his naked eyes and hands without any tools.

This has exceeded his understanding and his imagination.

Furthermore, he has no one around him with whom he can communicate and exchange ideas.

This research, which lasted less than six months, was already too much for him to handle, and he felt like he was about to collapse.

However, he couldn't break down; he could only grit his teeth and persevere, aimlessly and directionlessly conducting futile research.

A year later, he became unkempt, his hair was messy, and his eyes were sunken.

Two years later, he became like a madman, talking to himself all day long and often going into fits of rage and irritability.

Three years have passed... and he's become even more like a madman...

Liang Huanhuan, who takes care of his daily life, has been watching his changes closely.

Liang Huanhuan has changed a lot in the past three years, but her appearance hasn't changed much, it's just similar to before.

Back on Wuyou Peak, she and all the other disciples of Wuyou Peak had their physical ages reversed by Ye Laodao's clone, turning them back into eighteen-year-old girls. Before the Great Dao was erased, her body remained at the age of eighteen.

So, now that we've entered the new era, her physical age is already in her twenties. Despite this, her appearance hasn't changed much.

She was still that adorable girl with big eyes, fair skin, a light body, and long legs, just like the girl next door.

However, her demeanor is completely different from before, giving the impression of a completely different person.

She used to be full of energy, innocent and active, always dancing and jumping around.

Now she is quiet and gentle, her words and actions revealing her gentleness and virtue.

Because she had to take care of her junior brother.

She had witnessed the changes in her junior brother over the years.

From her initial distress and exhaustion to her current breakdown, rage, and irritability, it's heartbreaking to see her like this.

She really wanted to help her junior brother, but she didn't know where to start.

Therefore, she could only work hard to learn cooking skills. She thought that if her junior brother could eat the delicious food Huanhuan made, he would feel better.

She studied with utmost seriousness and dedication to achieve this goal.

Her cooking skills are indeed getting better and better.

Even Ou Fenjin, the former leader of Wuyou Peak, and his disciple Xu Yaoyao have praised her.

She was really happy when she received praise from Ou Fenjin and Xu Yaoyao, and jumped up excitedly.

Then she couldn't wait to make another copy of the dish that had been praised for her junior brother.

In her imagination, her junior brother would be happy as long as he could smell the food Huanhuan cooked.

To her disappointment, her junior brother did not perform in that way.

When she brought the prepared dishes into her junior brother's room, he was sitting on the sofa with his head in his hands. As usual, he simply hummed in agreement and then politely said, "Thank you for your hard work, senior sister."

This made her very disappointed; her junior brother had become increasingly polite and distant lately.

However, she quickly cheered herself up and thought to herself, "It's okay, my junior brother just hasn't eaten yet. Once he tastes Huanhuan's cooking, he'll definitely feel better, cheer up, and get back on track."

Then she stared wide-eyed at her junior brother, watching him eat the dishes she had made, bite by bite.

However, to her disappointment, her junior brother's expression did not change at all.

He was as if he had lost his sense of taste, unable to feel anything.

She felt terrible; her heart felt like it was being pricked by needles, a dull, stabbing pain.

It wasn't because my junior apprentice didn't praise my cooking.

It was because his junior brother had trapped himself.

The junior brother completely shut himself off in his own world, unable to feel anything outside.

Even after she finished cleaning up the dishes and left the room, her junior brother remained the same, completely absorbed in his own world.

She knew her junior brother was doing research, and she also thought about the pressure he was under at that moment.

However, she felt that this was wrong.

As a former genius and beautiful young woman who was also a researcher, she had done research and knew what research was all about.

My junior brother is in a very bad state right now. If this continues, he will drive himself crazy sooner or later.

Sure enough, just as she had predicted, her junior brother's condition became increasingly strange as time went on.

Seeing the changes in her junior brother, she thought every day about how to help him cheer up and step out of his own world.

She tried her best to tell her junior brother jokes she found online, as well as the latest news and gossip happening outside every day.

At first, her junior brother would agree with her and say a few words, but later, he would just sit there blankly, sometimes even forgetting to nod or blink.

Like a walking corpse, he had lost his soul, and his eyes had lost their luster and become empty.

This made her feel incredibly guilty. She was supposed to be taking care of her junior brother, but he ended up like this.

Huanhuan is really useless.

At first, when she was feeling down, she would make a video call to Senior Sister Ye Qingyue to confide in her. However, when she saw that Senior Sister Ye was so busy that she didn't even have time to eat, she dared not bother Senior Sister Ye anymore.

If Senior Sister Ye is so busy right now, it would be too inconsiderate of Huanhuan to ask her to comfort her.

Huanhuan is an adult now, and she has to rely on herself for everything; she can't depend on others anymore.

However, she still sends messages to Senior Sister Ye every day. About an hour after mealtime, she sends a message to Senior Sister Ye to ask if she has eaten and to remind her to eat well.

They are not practitioners now, so they cannot go without food.

She didn't send the message right when it was time to eat because she knew that her senior sister definitely wouldn't be able to eat at that time, so even if she sent it, it wouldn't make a difference.

She could only text her senior sister an hour after mealtime so that her senior sister couldn't say she'd eat later. If her senior sister said that, she would throw a tantrum and insist that her senior sister eat.

Now, Senior Sister Ye and Second Senior Brother Wang are both busy with their own things, but she can't do anything. She's responsible for taking care of her junior brother, but she hasn't been able to take good care of him either.

Her junior brother's condition was getting worse and worse, and he was becoming more and more like a madman. She wanted to help him, but she didn't know how.

I can only take care of him very carefully every day.

The longer time passed, the more hollow his junior brother's appearance became.

She felt really lost and confused. How could she cheer herself up?

She pondered for more than half a month, but had no answer.

These past few days, my junior brother has often had a pained expression on his face, scratching his hair vigorously.

She could see that her junior brother's tense nerves were becoming increasingly fragile, like a kite that had been released into the air, with the string possibly breaking at any moment.

Liang Huanhuan was very anxious. She felt extremely guilty. Why was Huanhuan so stupid? She couldn't think of a way to help her junior brother.

She knew things couldn't go on like this; she had to find a way to cheer her junior brother up.

So he decided to go out and see how everyone lived, hoping that he could find a way to help his junior.

(End of this chapter)