I made the entire cultivation world cry

Chapter 116: Questioning the Heart (asking for monthly tickets)

Jiang Yi answered for her, "You said my mother always said it was for my own good, but she forced me to do things I didn't want to do. And the elders in the sect still don't understand me. Those elders said my mother has sacrificed a lot for me. If it weren't for me, my mother would have been promoted to the Yuan Empress long ago. If it weren't for me, my mother would have gone to Dongzhou long ago and seized the swordsmanship leader of the entire Shanhai Realm. If it weren't for me, my mother..."

Jiang Yi sighed heavily to relieve the heavy depression in his heart.

"Why do I always feel like I owe my mother so much? It's because she has indeed sacrificed so much for me. Giving birth to me, she fell from the middle stage of the Nascent Soul to the early stage, severely damaging her vitality. She sacrificed her own time for cultivation to take care of me personally, enlightening me on the way of the sword, and teaching me swordsmanship step by step."

"When I was forming my elixir, she kept saying that I couldn't form a top-grade elixir, but she still risked her life to retrieve the elixir for me and help me suppress my inner demons. Although I don't know why my mother has become increasingly paranoid and demanding of me to the point of being abnormal, but Yaoyao, I, Jiang Yi, am not a heartless person. I can feel the love my mother has for me, so I feel guilty!"

"The elders in the sect all think that my mother has been so kind to me, so I must accept this kindness and repay her. If I rebel against her in the slightest, I would be unfilial. But Yaoyao, besides you, has anyone ever cared about my burdens and my thoughts? And everything you are doing now makes me bear the same guilt."

Liu Taozhi's eyes gradually widened, and her lips trembled, not knowing what to say.

"My mother is asking for my strength in return, while you are asking for my emotional return. Others have seen how good you are to me, how you dug three feet into the ground outside the Xuanying Sword Sect's mountain gate for me, how you were blinded by the demonic energy for me, and how you endured for me at the foot of Liuyue Peak."

"Everyone has seen your dedication. If I were still alive and didn't repay your kindness, I would be an ungrateful person, I would be heartless. Because you are suffering, even smiling would be a sin! Do you understand, Yaoyao? Why did I rarely smile during those years in the Xuanying Sword Sect? I always looked bitter and resentful, and I kept strangers away. It was because my mother was suffering for me. I couldn't laugh. I didn't have the right to be free and easy!"

"So, Yaoyao, if I were still alive, you've done so much for me, and you'll have to do even more for me in the future. Do you think I could be free while bearing the burden of all the kindness you've sacrificed for me? Do I have to ignore my own heart just because you said it was for me? If I don't obey, I'll be condemned by thousands of people. It might be cruel, but it really makes me tired. I can't repay your kindness to me."

Liu Taozhi covered her mouth and shook her head, tears silently falling.

Jiang Yi suppressed the tears in his eyes. "Do you remember, you once said something angry to me? You said I might as well fake my death to escape, leave the Xuanying Sword Sect, and live freely. Then let me ask you, if I did fake my death this time to escape, would you still find me and put me back in the cage like this?"

"No, Senior Sister, I just want to make sure you are still alive. As long as you are alive, that's all that matters." Liu Taozhi burst into tears.

"Then what?" Jiang Yi asked, "You haven't thought about it? Then think about it now, then what?"

Liu Taozhi began to think, and the more she thought about it, the more scared and panicked she became. She understood herself and knew that she could not deceive her master Jiang Yurong. She was already desperately looking for her senior sister. Even if she found her and didn't tell her, how could she change naturally so that her master would not be suspicious?
She couldn't do it in front of the master. The master would only need one look to expose her true identity. Then the master would definitely find the eldest sister and take her back.

Liu Taozhi was trembling in panic. "Big Sister, let's escape. Let's find a way to get to Dongzhou and leave Beixuan. It's just the two of us. I... I promise not to add any burden to you. I promise."

Jiang Yi smiled bitterly. She knew that this would be the result in the end.

Jiang Yi asked, "Yaoyao, you have grown up. Now you are the eldest sister of Xuanying Sword Sect. You should have your own responsibilities and your own path to pursue."

"But how can I live without you?"

Jiang Yi sighed, "Is your Dao Heart just chasing after me? Your swordsmanship talent could be unique, and your spiritual root cultivation alone could also make rapid progress, but because you are obsessed with the shadow of me, your senior sister, you try to imitate me in everything, which makes your progress slow."

"My existence has long been an obstacle to you. Why not take this opportunity to break it down and then rebuild it? Yaoyao, do you remember those ten years when I was traveling? You were alone in the sect, practicing, visiting friends, and having fun. Weren't you living a good life too?"

"But I knew you were still alive then, and I knew that as long as I kept waiting, you would always come back!" "Don't you still firmly believe that I'm not dead? What's the difference? Why can't you keep a thought in your mind and move on like you did back then?"

The wind blows the bamboo leaves dancing, I wonder if it is the wind that is moving, or my heart that is in turmoil?

Liu Taozhi's pupils trembled as she stared at Jiang Yi in front of her.

"You're not my senior sister, you're just my inner demon, right?"

Jiang Yi smiled brightly, tears welling up in his eyes.

"Wake up, Yaoyao. In this life, you have to accept that people around you will leave, sooner or later. No one can accompany you for your whole life. In the end, the only one you can rely on is yourself. Only when you become strong can you turn the tide."

"To achieve the highest realm of swordsmanship requires severing external constraints. Your sword has become stagnant because of me, and your sword heart has been tarnished. I only ask you: will you continue to chase this decaying phantom of mine, or will you become a frosty moon on the sky?"

Jiang Yi's figure began to dissipate like a phantom, and Liu Taozhi reached out to grab him in panic.

"Master Sister, don't go, don't go—"

Liu Taozhi woke up again and sat up from the bed.

There was a sharp tinnitus in her ears and a heartache. Liu Taozhi suddenly couldn't remember where she was and her mind went blank.

His vision suddenly became clear, and his sea of ​​consciousness became lucid. Liu Taozhi raised his hands in astonishment and looked around. He turned his head and glanced around. He saw Dan Xi Zhenjun sitting by the window in red clothes.

"I've cleared the demonic energy from your sea of ​​consciousness with Moon Soul Jadeite. You should be able to see clearly now... Why are you still sweating? Did you just get caught in a demonic illusion?"

Liu Taozhi pressed his aching temple. Was it his inner demon? Not his senior sister?

Dan Xi walked to the bedside and raised her hand to touch Liu Taozhi's forehead. "Yes, you have indeed been attacked by an inner demon. It is obvious that your inner demon is Jiang Yi. She had a hard life in the Xuanying Sword Sect. Death is also a relief. Why do you always think about her?"

"Look at you, you gave up a bright future and insisted on chasing after a dead person all day long. If she were really alive, she would be so heartbroken to see you like this. You are not young anymore, don't always make others worry about you. You won't be able to rest in peace even after you die."

Liu Taozhi's pupils suddenly shrank, trying to grasp some memory, but nothing was there. She only remembered that she was guarding the Yaoling Sword, which was about to be repaired, in the fire pool, and then received...

"Are you looking for this?"

Dan Xi held a specially made flying sword between his fingers, which contained a secret letter from the Xuanying Sword Sect.

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