Zongwang: Unspeakable fear!

Chapter 1048 Heart Tribulation
This trip to Salisbury was arguably the one in which Gao Yang killed the most legendary figures, comparable to the Primordial World.

Hundreds of legendary figures at the peak and above followed one after another, only to die at his hands. In particular, the divine metal bomb he detonated at the end razed the entire city of Paradise to the ground.

The hundreds of millions of ordinary residents living in the city of paradise, as well as a large number of extraordinary beings and dozens of legends, were all reduced to ashes in the explosion.

Unfortunately, those legends who died in the explosions were not plundered by his hunting priesthood, only receiving the most basic experience rewards.

Even so, his legendary experience increased dramatically.

The main characters, the incarnation of the goddess of wisdom and the god of the myriad golden gears, also died in the explosion, but because they fought Gao Yang for a long time before their deaths, they were still within the scope of the hunting gods' marks.

Therefore, in addition to the basic experience rewards, their deaths also included rewards plundered by the hunting priests, with nearly twenty Life Essence Crystals and more than ten attribute fragments in total.

Most importantly, the divine sparks were contributed by the God of the Cogs of Gold, who contributed two, while the incarnation of the Goddess of Wisdom contributed three.

Five divine sparks are enough for Eternal Radiance to be upgraded again.

Gao Yang paused for a moment, and Yongyao appeared in his hand.

Sensing the aura emanating from Yongyao, he had an idea.

If the explosive inside a metal bomb is ordinary gunpowder, then divine power is equivalent to TNT. Although the quantity is small, the quality is extremely high. It may not seem like much, but once it explodes, its power far exceeds that of black powder.

Metal bombs can incorporate divine power and detonate it as a high-explosive, thereby enhancing the power of the explosion.

Yongyao is also an anomalous god. The reason why it can be so deadly to gods is because the two are on the same level of power.

If he infuses the sword energy emanating from Yongyao into the metal bomb, it should have the same effect as divine power.

The thought flashed through his mind, but he quickly suppressed it.

While it should be able to work, the power of Eternal Radiance is different from divine power. This is just a conjecture for now, and we will try it out slowly later.

If he succeeds, he will have a trump card that can be used to take someone down with him forever.

He put Yongyao away, and the turbulent thoughts in his heart gradually calmed down.

He has quelled the turmoil caused by the Goblin and Dwarf Merchant Guild, and the collection of the Immortal Slaughtering Formation Diagram will be put on the agenda.

However, he now has something more important to do.

Milofina's voice rang in his ear: "Gao Yang, where are we going next, Eberon?"

Gao Yang nodded slightly. The previous matter had not been resolved, and although he wanted to see Lisa, he had to restrain himself.

Now that the problem has been solved, he naturally wants to go to Eberon to see Lisa and their child.

Although their offspring will need to be conceived for another three years, the fact that this offspring was born under the circumstances of both parents being legendary and having a slim chance of conceiving speaks volumes about its extraordinary nature.

In this situation, it's not impossible to possess some special abilities.

Thinking of this, Gao Yang's heart surged uncontrollably.

This is his offspring, his only offspring so far.

Once upon a time, his dream was simply to study hard, make money, and then give back to the orphanage. After struggling and settling down in society, he might find a girl he loved and got married.

Of course, if such a girl didn't exist, he wouldn't mind too much; he could just live alone like that.

For more than 20 years since childhood, he has been used to being alone. Unlike ordinary people, he does not have the concept of family or carrying on the family line after being influenced by his parents and friends.

After all, he didn't even have any ancestors, so how could he have any descendants to carry on the family line?

Now, he has entered the vast network, come into contact with the boundless star realm beyond Earth, and witnessed all kinds of life. Along the way, he has even had his own offspring.

All of this left him slightly dazed.

At the same time, various scenes of him becoming an orphan began to flash through his mind, making him doubt himself:
Can he be a good father?
The thought popped into his mind and wouldn't go away.

Even as sword intents continued to slash, this thought persisted like weeds that could not be extinguished, growing again and again.

Gradually, a sword aura shot out from Gao Yang's body and pierced into the ground beside him with a "whoosh".

"Ai?"

Milofina stared at the sword energy striking Gao Yang's side, momentarily stunned.

But then her doubts turned into astonishment, because sword energy burst forth from Gao Yang's body one after another, indiscriminately tearing apart everything around him.

snort~
A sword aura grazed Milofina's neck, tearing a tuft of golden cat fur apart. This sight caused her eyes to widen involuntarily, and she then began to jump backward repeatedly.

"Gao Yang! Gao Yang! What's wrong with you! Wake up! Meow~~~!"

No matter how she called out, Gao Yang remained seated cross-legged on the ground with his head down, and more and more sword energy burst forth from his body until it completely engulfed him.

Milofina stood a kilometer away, pacing back and forth helplessly, her face full of anxiety.

She couldn't understand why Gao Yang, who had been chatting with her normally just moments before, had suddenly become like this.

The surging sword energy, as vast as the ocean, indicated that Gao Yang had lost his independent consciousness at this moment.

In this situation, she couldn't even get close to Gao Yang, let alone know how she could help him.

"Can you, an orphan, be a good father?"

"Your parents abandoned you, which proves that you are a useless piece of trash, an unwanted burden. How can a burden like you expect to be a good father?"

"So what if I am an orphan? My child will not be an orphan. With my support, whether my child is a boy or a girl, he/she will grow up healthy and strong, enjoy endless resources, and step by step reach the peak."

"Pah! You think you can be a burden like me? Dream on!"

"That's right, that's right. You only get 7,000 yuan a month, and you have to sponsor the welfare home. You don't even have 3,000 yuan left. How can you have the nerve to say that you want your child to enjoy endless resources?"

"If your child is intelligent, the best way is to strangle himself with the umbilical cord, so he won't suffer after you bring him into this world!" "I"

Gao Yang frowned, listening to the various sounds of contempt and disgust echoing in his mind. He opened his mouth, but suddenly felt a splitting headache.

Call ~
He suddenly opened his eyes, sat up in bed, and immediately felt a surge of heat rising from his heart.

It's so hot!

As he thought this, he glanced at the air conditioner hanging in the corner of the wall under the bedside lamp.

The air conditioner, which had been set to turn off automatically, quickly turned off. In the sweltering summer night, the temperature in the cramped rented room rose rapidly, making it unbearably hot and causing sweat to pour down uncontrollably.

Gao Yang looked at the familiar rented room, his head still foggy from being woken up by the heat.

He simply got up, opened the door, went to the bathroom, turned on the tap, and splashed water on his face.

da~
The faucet was turned off, the water flow was cut off, and Gao Yang looked up at the mirror in front of him.

In the mirror was a young but tired face. The once black hair was thinning due to years of working overtime and staying up late, and the hairline was receding noticeably. Two bags hung under the eyelids, and stubble was irregularly distributed around the lips, making the whole face look dejected.

Looking at the dejected middle-aged man in the mirror, Gao Yang's eyes dimmed.

He has been working for seven years since graduating from university.

But to this day, he still can't afford even the simplest two-bedroom apartment. No matter how hard he works or how much overtime he puts in, the prices of goods and housing in this city seem to be rising at a rocket speed that he can't keep up with.

Looking at himself in the mirror, he silently walked to the balcony. With a "snap," a spark lit up, and wisps of smoke drifted out of the open window.

After a long while, when the cigarette burned out, Gao Yang took out his phone, opened the cartoon girl's profile picture pinned to the top of his WeChat chat, and remained silent for a long time before starting to edit.

"Baby, I think it's best to postpone having this child for now."

Gao Yang's fingers paused, pressing on the virtual keyboard as if it were a mountain, unable to move for a long time.

Click the delete button to delete everything you just edited, and then Gao Yang locks his phone again.

The background of the phone screen shows two smiling faces radiating happiness. On the left is Gao Yang, and on the right is a quiet girl with curved eyebrows. Although she is not stunningly beautiful, she is very pleasing to the eye.

Above their heads, the time was displayed.

【04: 28】

Stare at your phone screen until it goes dark.

Immediately afterwards, Gao Yang pressed the power button, and the screen lit up again.

Then turn it off.

It lights up again.

The light kept going off and on again, and by then it was already 5:30.

Gao Yang unlocked his phone again and looked at the pinned chat box on WeChat, where the conversation had stopped at 8:30 yesterday.

[20:17: Now that we have brought him into this world, how shall we feed him?]

[20:29: Gao Yang, it's your decision. Do you want to keep this baby or not? Give me your answer before you go to work tomorrow. If you don't reply, I'm going to have an abortion.]

Looking at the message from his girlfriend, each word was so small, but in Gao Yang's heart, it felt like a mountain pressing down on him, making it almost impossible for him to breathe.

Do you want it or not?
He wanted it very much, but the harsh reality made him back down.

Both of them were orphans. They met by chance at work, and because of their similar experiences, their young hearts quickly came together and became a couple. They have been dating for two and a half years now.

Both were orphans and lovers, so what was going to happen naturally followed.

But what was supposed to be a moment of indulgence resulted in this unexpected successful bid.

Gao Yang knew that she had always wanted a child, a child that would become the fruit of their love.

But looking at this one-bedroom apartment with a rent of only 1200 yuan, Gao Yang couldn't imagine what kind of difficulties the child would face after being born.

Neither of them had parents. As two orphans, they were already huddled together for warmth. If they had a child, she would have to stay at home to take care of the child, leaving him to shoulder the burden of earning money to support the family.

His salary is not bad, and the two of them together earn more than 10,000 yuan. However, if his girlfriend is unable to work, his take-home pay of 7,000 yuan is barely enough to cover rent, utilities, daily expenses, social obligations, and even baby formula and diapers.

They have some savings, but only 110,000 yuan. In this second-tier city, that amount of money is barely enough to buy a toilet.

What happens when all the savings are gone?

Are we going to abandon him at the gate of an orphanage if we can't afford to raise him or if he can't survive?

Gao Yang closed his eyes in pain. He and she were both orphans, and they had suffered like this since they were young. They knew how much such harm could hurt a child.

That's why he hesitated.

He wanted to have a child with her, but their current circumstances meant they couldn't afford to raise a child and were unable to take responsibility for this unborn life.

Rather than bringing him into the world now, it would be better to wait until they have truly settled down in this city before having another child.

As his thoughts raced, Gao Yang stared at the chat box and began typing, word by word:
"Baby, I think we should wait a little longer before having one."

After finishing editing, Gao Yang pressed his finger on the send button, staring at the recessed send button, and hesitated to let go.

He knew that, given her temper, if he let go, their child would really be aborted.

But what can we do if we don't let go?

(End of this chapter)