Miss Heir wasn't very kind to me.

Chapter 124 Epilogue: "Rinne Kamishiro's Diary"

November 17st

This was the first time I met the man that Mr. Jing Jian had mentioned.

Contrary to my expectations of a frivolous person, she appears very gentle and is someone who makes a good first impression.

He was a very skilled coffee maker, and he didn't get angry when I criticized him, which made him hard to dislike.

However, when I think about what Mr. Jing Jian once told me, I can't feel any goodwill towards him.

Even so, my reaction was perhaps too harsh.

For the sake of Starry Night Cafe, we can't let things get too tense. Should we find an opportunity to apologize to him?

……

Forget it, I don't want to bow down to such a frivolous person who shirks responsibility.

For dinner, I'll make him a larger portion of omelet rice.

……

He saw me looking embarrassed.

Fortunately, he looked away immediately, but he kept staring at my feet.

I heard Asami mention that these kinds of people are called...foot fetishists? (Cross out the whole paragraph in the diary)

Although the vulgar tone was very indecent, it didn't seem to be malicious—that's my feeling.

Is she trying to ease the tension? But I'm not the kind of girl who makes a fuss over nothing, this is such a hassle.
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November 19st

That person actually had the audacity to make a renovation plan for the coffee shop. He's only been back for two days and he's already giving orders. He's really frivolous.

However, seeing the tired yet serious look on his face, the words I wanted to say were swallowed back.

Effort may not always be worthwhile, but it should never be denied.

……

I visited Mr. Jing Jian in the hospital and told him about the store's renovation plan. He still trusts me as always.

I will never betray this trust.

I hope he recovers soon.

……

That person, just like Mr. Kenjiro Ike, "acts on a whim," which, in other words, means he has a strong drive to act.

However, despite making meticulous plans, that person seemed somewhat hesitant to take responsibility, which was strange, since bearing the potential consequences of the plan was also part of the responsibility.

Was this the reason his band in Tokyo broke up?
……

I bought the wrong light novel for Hinata. I bought "The Heartwarming Incident Record of the Yokai Cafe" instead of "The Heartwarming Incident of the Yokai Cafe". I also left some money for my mother-in-law. It would be great if we could hire another caregiver.

I still have money left... but the consumption tax and prices are rising, and the price of designated garbage bags has tripled. They probably want to raise garbage disposal fees, which is a real headache. I can't save any money at all.

……

He's quite good at teasing cats.
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November 20st

Sannomiya's maid café is quite impressive; if only Fanxing could order two sets of maid uniforms too...

Forget it.

I can't always put on a professional smile; I'm afraid it would backfire.

He looks very handsome in his butler's uniform. If he wore that outfit while making coffee, he might attract female repeat customers.

……

That foreigner who asked for directions was such a hassle.

……

That person started jogging in the morning, but that has nothing to do with me.
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November 21st

Qian'ai volunteered to help make the uniforms, but if I paid her, I felt it would be beneath her kindness. I'll find another opportunity to thank her.

I need to fill in my body measurements, but the previous ones are no longer valid, and my most recent bust measurement is... sigh.

Aside from having to climb a hill to get to school, there aren't many opportunities for exercise, so leave some room in the data and fill it in larger.

……

It's been so long since I've had sukiyaki like this.

Beef prices have gone up again recently, and treating this group of guests would be very expensive. I'll pay him for the meal when I get paid, because I don't want to owe him anything. That's how I'll do it.
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November 22st

Ms. Shionji is truly an excellent and mature senior colleague; she must be highly valued at the wagashi (Japanese sweets) shop where she works.

In order to become a capable and outstanding successor, I must work even harder.
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November 24st

Nothing noteworthy happened that day. (Cross out the entire paragraph)

……

My relationship with Xiaoyu has improved recently, and she's gradually starting to let me touch her paws.

But every time I come here, it always looks behind me, as if it's looking for someone... Is it just my imagination?
Wait a minute, could it be that they're looking for him?
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November 1st

That person has been back in the store for over a week.

I could sense that he was trying to shorten the distance between us. After all, we lived under the same roof and spent a lot of time together at work, so a tense relationship would definitely not be good.

So let's start with a simple greeting.

……

When he said he was giving up the guitar, his eyes looked like they were dead—that's how I felt.

Being forced to give up something you've always believed in must be really tough. I can… (cross out the whole paragraph)
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November 2st

Chiai's uniform is finished, but... how come the chest fits perfectly? No wonder her shoulders have been feeling so heavy lately.

……

He taught me how to make coffee. He was very gentle and considerate, but also very serious. If possible, I wish he were a little stricter and less lenient.

Although I don't dislike it. (Cross out the entire paragraph)

It would be better if you were more distant and stricter with me.

……

It's so good that my mother-in-law is safe and sound.

If something really happens to my mother-in-law... it's unimaginable.

It's unbelievable that after all this time, I'm still just as weak.

……

That person happened to be by my side when I was at my weakest, and I hate that.

To my dismay, I went along with the atmosphere and said a lot of things I would never normally say, especially to a guy I'd only known for less than two weeks—it was unbelievable.

However, after saying it out loud, I felt much lighter, and there was an indescribable emotion about it, which was incredible.

That's dangerous. For a moment, I wanted to rely on him.

◇

"There are indeed many unfortunate people in the world, but even so, I don't think it's a trivial matter."

"Everyone experiences joy and sorrow in their own lives, so suffering trauma is equally severe for everyone. There's no saying that one person is more miserable than another. Everyone has the right to feel pain."

◇

What a cunning remark.

I have always used the idea that "there are always people in the world who are more unfortunate than me, and my pain is insignificant" to numb myself. Only in this way can I give up the idea of ​​relying on others.

So please don't be so gentle with me.

……

I apologized to him properly.

However, he refused my request to return the property to the heir, and even used the absurd excuse of a profit of 600,000 yen to fob me off. What kind of person is that?

But it's okay, I'll show him. This is also to repay this coffee shop.

……

Wait a minute, did he mention a deadline for this 600,000 yen?

……

Green tea is so bitter.

……

Supplement for Day 2:
I have some insomnia at night. Is it because of tea polyphenols and caffeine?
I tried to play some quiet music on my phone to help me sleep, but for some reason, I searched for that person's band's live performance. Turns out, this is their style. It's so noisy. Are they singing a bit too hard?

However, that person was like that when he played in a band, completely different from how he is now.
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November 10st

The business of Fanxing gradually began to improve.

This is all thanks to that person's renovation plan, Chiai's uniform, and Asami's request for Ms. Shionji to provide guidance on Japanese sweets.
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November 20st

That person has been back in the shop for a month.

"Good morning." "Try the snacks I made." "What would you like to eat tonight?" "I've already prepared the bath water." Occasionally, we would exchange such polite and casual greetings.

This is how our relationship has changed over the past month.

At first, he looked a little surprised, but he didn't say anything.

I treat Asami-nee the same way I always do, so it's okay to treat him the same way, right?

……

By the way, he's hardly a picky eater.
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November 24st

After the rainy season, the business that had finally started to improve will have to go back to the way it was before.

However, sitting at the bar chatting with Asami and that other person was a completely new experience that made me feel very peaceful.

……

Hanekawa Kaigetsu seems like a very troublesome person.
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November 28st

According to Asami, that guy had an ex-girlfriend in Tokyo before, and he dumped her with some pretty scumbag behavior. That's awful.

However, we cannot draw conclusions based on just one side's account, after all, we have already learned our lesson from the past.

After spending more than a month with him, I feel that he is not the kind of person who would hurt others... I hope he is.

……

Fanxing's revenue has improved a lot, but it has gradually become a bit short-staffed. So, we have hired new part-time staff, and we have also reported this to Mr. He Jingjian.
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November 2st

She's actually forming a band in the future. Although I'd noticed she played instruments, I never imagined it would be this formal.

I subconsciously observed his reaction, never expecting we would talk for so long.

Is it true that I've never had any expectations for myself?

And that senior... I am as old as the ancients, a very special surname.

The person who guided him onto the path of a band must have been a gentle, considerate, and reliable senior.

*** (This line is messily crossed out and is no longer legible.)
……

For some reason, I asked that question on a whim, and I didn't think about what I was saying at all.

"A mistake is a mistake. The reasons for making a mistake may garner sympathy, pity, and understanding, but they cannot be used to gain forgiveness."

“Forgiveness is the right of those who have been hurt.”

"But...if I tell you..."

“…Maybe someone else will understand.”

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I was absolutely terrible for saying those things.

What am I supposed to understand? Does he need the understanding of an outsider like me? It's just wishful thinking on my part.

*** (The following line is completely crossed out and is difficult to read.)
Supplement for Day 2:
I'm having trouble sleeping again.
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November 5st

Let's go to a LiveHouse to see a future performance.

I never imagined that performing would be such a cruel thing.

Indeed, one can only rely on oneself.

……

I made the decision to go to Tajima without my consent.
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November 6st

When he saw Mami smiling and saying to him, "I'll share half of my destiny with you," his heart was suddenly gripped by an indescribable emotion for a moment, and so he subconsciously did that.

When did I become so emotional?
That said, Asami seems to have a strange fondness for him. It's been like that since day one, but I can't remember exactly when I first noticed it.

……

Without making any wishes, I went down the mountain along the same route.

……

Seeing him and Asami lying on the ground in that situation, even though I knew things weren't as I thought, I still felt a sense of unease and discomfort.

When I realized this, I felt completely bewildered.

If I were to give a name to my current mood, which word would best describe it?
Perhaps it's because I care that I have so many emotions.

But what exactly am I concerned about?
Answering a question that is not asked is an answer, and so is turning a blind eye.

Just do your best to handle what you can do.

If you take other people's problems to heart, you'll lose sight of what you should really be doing.

There's so much to do: the coffee shop's accounts for the month, taxes, supplies, new desserts and customer feedback, university courses, group projects and exams, and so on... Just thinking about it makes it seem like an endless amount.

There are countless things that one holds onto in one's heart, like the stars in the night sky of Koike Town. If one keeps holding onto these things, one will never be able to move forward.

So, focus, Rinne Kamishiro.
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November 8st

I visited Mr. Jing Jian in the hospital. He was in good spirits today. I told him about the recent business situation of Fanxing, but I didn't expect him to say those things to me.

◇

"But I always thought about 'right', never 'suitable', and never considered whether he really liked this job, this kind of life."

"...If you can, please look after him for me."

◇

Mr. Jing Jian said this.
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November 9st

(The entire page of the diary was torn out)
……

Mio Kurokawa is a very dangerous girl.

Supplement for Day 2:
Since I promised Mr. Jing Jian, I will protect him.
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November 10st

If "Sea House" is helpful to the operation of this coffee shop, I will prepare accordingly.
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November 13st

We went to the aquarium and the amusement park.

That senior figure, whom I admire, must hold a very important place in his heart.

Just thinking about this makes me realize I'm about to face those inexplicable emotions.

I originally thought it was a feeling of being bothered, depressed, or other uncomfortable, but now I realize it's actually a much uglier shape.

It's jealousy.

Jealousy of his closeness with that senior colleague? No, I'm not that shallow.

I'm jealous. He has memories while I don't, and that makes me feel ugly.

……

Roller coasters are really fun; I wish I could ride one with my mom.

But, the first time was with him, and it wasn't bad either.

I instinctively grabbed his hand, feeling a little embarrassed.

……

They came to my room late at night to deliver a catshark plush toy.

I like cats, but I'm not that extreme.

But... feelings are far more sincere than words.

I'm a little confused about myself.

Supplement for Day 2:
The sleep-aid aromatherapy I bought didn't work.
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November 19st

It's great that the competition passed the review smoothly.

That Ms. Sento is a serious and responsible person, and she doesn't seem to be very good at dealing with people, though she smiled.
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November 25st

I impulsively bought this swimsuit, and I have absolutely no idea how to wear it out. I feel like it will show if I move even slightly. It's a bit too mature for me, which is really bad.
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November 1st

Running Hai Zhi Jia is indeed hard work, but it's all worth it as long as there's a return.
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November 13st

That person was being way too gentle today. It was as if whatever I did could be praised in his eyes.

However, he has always been like this, and he is definitely not just gentle.

He usually looks serious and earnest, but he always tries to touch others gently and get into their hearts. He is that kind of person, who can understand others and have empathy for their affairs.

……

How come my diary is filled with entries about him? Oh well, since I've already written it, I'll leave it at that for now.
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November 15st

Because of the typhoon, Hai Zhi Jia and today's business are ruined, it's terrible.

……

Being able to stay family forever... isn't that nice...?
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November 2st

I was asked by Asami how I felt about my close relationship with them.

I would never have said it like that before, but it felt really good to say it out loud.

I have a slight feeling that maybe I could live like that too.
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November 12st

It was the first time I wore a swimsuit to the beach.

I always thought I hated summer and fireworks.

But it was only at this moment that I realized that perhaps I didn't hate fireworks, or summer itself.

It's just that picking it up reminds me of the reality that I can only have memories of the past, and I can't create new ones.

Because fireworks have a season, it makes me feel anxious and uncertain. I like things that last forever, but no one or nothing lasts forever.

Today on the beach, for some reason, I suddenly had this inexplicable thought that I could spend these moments with these five people forever.

Then he looked at me and said these words.

……

Shall we create new memories together?

That person always has the audacity to say things that make others feel ashamed.
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November 13st

This was my first time in Osaka, and I thought Amagi was already crowded enough, but the number of visitors at Universal Studios was simply astounding.

While experiencing the Forbidden Journey of Harry Potter, I felt both thrilled and subtly uneasy.

But when I instinctively grabbed that hand again, it became a completely different experience. It turns out that heartbeats don't only come from roller coasters.

I realized that I enjoy the thrill of roller coasters because it's like experiencing another life.

However, deep down, I hoped that he would be in that life too.
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November 14st

Going to Kyoto today

I visited several temples and shrines, but I didn't make a wish even once.

As I left, my footsteps echoed in the summer heat, and my heart pounded wildly in my ribs.

I tried desperately to think: it shouldn't be like this, there was that kind of expectation, a clear surge of emotion in my heart.

But I didn't have the courage to say it out loud.

So that night, I had that dream.
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November 15st

The Uji River Fireworks Festival is indeed much larger than the prefectural festival in Gunma Prefecture.

Since my mother fell ill and was hospitalized, I've only seen this scene in my dreams, and I saw it just last night.

The indigo blue of the night blossomed into flowers, only to vanish in an instant.

Yet this ethereal thing possesses incredible power, stirring people's emotions.

I have never felt so happy since my mother passed away.

……

Faced with my own excessive happiness, I often fear the end of that happiness. Since I am constantly worried about that day coming, I might as well end it myself.

So I exhausted all my ugliness, my cowardice, and my pathetic behavior as I fled the festival.

—Until he scooped me out like a goldfish.

……

Before leaving Ujikami Shrine, I finally mustered up the courage to make a wish to the gods—

……

"I wish for two hearts that cherish each other."
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A letter sent to Jindai Shrine
To my father:
This letter is very strange.

The Jinshiro Shrine is now under the jurisdiction of the Shrine Headquarters, but the number of priests in the Headquarters has always been tight, and there are probably even fewer assigned to Gunma. This kind of rural shrine probably doesn't have a resident priest.

I guess it's being cared for by the elderly in the village; it's really too much trouble for them.

So I enclosed some money with the letter, just as a token of my appreciation.

I don't know if you've returned to the shrine in these nine years, but I really can't find an address to send letters anymore.

Where are you now? However, if we met in person, I'm afraid I wouldn't have the courage to speak, so I've written everything I want to say in this letter—

"Father."

"I have decided that I want to be happy."

"We may never meet again in this lifetime, but I will tell you, in every second of my future, from a place you cannot see, that I am happy."

—Rinne Kamishiro

(End of this chapter)