Nirvana Top Laner, Reborn Tokyo Girl

Chapter 29, Section 28: The Mental Illness Was Not Cured
No amount of exaggerated rhetoric can adequately describe Akari Kujo's feelings at this moment.

Imagine this: most people, as ordinary gamers, would probably rarely encounter anyone around them who is above the Master or even Grandmaster rank, right?

If that's true, then due to the skill gap, he probably rarely plays games with other players of lower skill levels. He has his own small circle, and he has his own groups that he hangs out with every day.

For him, you can be a friend in real life, but not in games.

Even if it's just this level of relationship, it's still something that lower-ranked players can brag about when playing with other friends, saying, "I have a friend who's a Grandmaster, he's awesome."

After all, Grandmaster and King ranks are among the top in the world, selected from millions of gamers, representing the very best of the best.

Therefore, it's surprising to see people around me reaching this level in the game.
In addition to this, Shimamura Yuna also has a series of other labels.

She's a friend I've known for a long time.

She had never used a computer before.

'She hasn't been playing games for very long.'

She suffers from depression.

But
She reached Grandmaster rank in League of Legends.

This is absolutely incredible.

Although Akari Kujo is not a hardcore gamer, she has basic common sense about games. The fact that a player who has only been playing for a short time can reach the Grandmaster rank in one or two weeks is obviously contrary to her common sense.

For a moment, she even had some doubts about it, wondering if the Shimamura Yuna account was not her own at all, but borrowed from somewhere else.

However, it's true that Shimamura Yuna won the game with this account just now.

Akari Kujo decides to find the answer with her own eyes.

She calmed herself down a bit, and then, in as calm a tone as possible, said to Shimamura Yuna, "Um... Yuna, could you just pretend I didn't come today and continue playing the game?"

"I want to watch you play."

Shimamura Yuna naturally did not refuse, but simply nodded.

"Ah."

Then, one of them sat on a chair and played, while the other moved a small stool over and sat down to watch.

Just as Akari Kujo had requested, Shimamura Yuna pretended that she didn't exist, and tried her best to remain calm, proceeding with her own ranking as usual.

This scene reminded Akari Kujo of the times when they used to play games together on an Apple tablet when they were kids. Back then, one of them would play while the other watched.

A long time has passed since then.

Some things seem to have changed, while others seem to have remained the same.
Ever since she reconciled with Shimamura Yuna, Kujo Akari has always felt that 'this girl's emotions are a little too stable now.'

She had come to see Shimamura Yuna with the mindset that "no matter how tantrum she throws or how neurotic she is, I must tolerate her."

But after getting to know her, she found that Shimamura Yuna's mental state was not as bad as she had thought. In fact, if she didn't know her, she would never have thought of mental illness.

So she might think, 'Has this guy's illness been cured?'

But today she realized she was wrong. In the next ranked game, Shimamura Yuna still performed well in her solo lane, but she was quickly overwhelmed by the enemy mid and jungle, who repeatedly ganked and dove under her tower.

Even under these circumstances, she managed to stabilize her lane and fulfill her role effectively.

But in the end, they still lost the game.

Although Akari Kujo didn't understand the game very well, she saw Shimamura Yuna constantly killing and dealing damage, and she probably understood that "Yuna did her best."

Just as she was about to say something to comfort Shimamura Yuna, she turned around and was shocked to find that Shimamura Yuna seemed to be crying.

Although she didn't make a sound or speak, the light from the monitor clearly showed the tear tracks on her face and her aggrieved expression as she tried her best to hold back her tears.

She asked cautiously, "Um...did you cry?"

Shimamura Yuna was trying hard to keep it a secret, but in the end she was exposed, so she simply stopped acting.

She raised her hand to wipe away her tears, then said as calmly as possible, "I'm sorry. I've been a little out of control lately."

Akari Kujo couldn't understand: "Can't control it...?"

Yuna Shimamura explained, "Well, because losing was so frustrating, I couldn't help but want to cry. I know there's really nothing to cry about, but I just couldn't control myself."

"My body is not obeying my commands and does not act according to my will."

At this point, she sniffled before continuing, "I'm sorry you saw the bad side of me."

That's right, Shimamura Yuna's control over her emotions has deteriorated to this extent.

As we all know, League of Legends is a game that can easily bring negative emotions, especially when you feel that you have tried your best but still lose the game because of your teammates, these negative emotions will multiply.

Teammate pressure, trolling, and trash-talking – a series of negative behaviors stemming from negative emotions can create a vicious cycle.

In her past life, Shimamura Yuna was actually very good at processing these negative emotions. She rarely put pressure on her teammates and never complained about them.

But now, due to the effects of Yu Yu syndrome, she really can't do as well as before.

Whenever she feels she has tried her best and done her best in the game, but still loses, and her teammates put pressure on her in the game, she feels extremely upset. She can't suppress the bitterness and grievances in her heart, and tears keep welling up uncontrollably.

Just like in this game, her teammate clearly made a mistake, but kept blaming her for being a useless vampire champion, and then naturally couldn't hold on and lost her pearls.

She usually stays alone in her room, so when she cries, she just lets it happen. She even uses crying as a way to release her negative emotions.

After crying, you can quickly adjust your mood and move on to the next game.

But it's still strange that someone would cry after losing a game.

To prevent Akari Kujo from taking it too seriously, she added, "I feel the same way when I'm alone. Don't worry about it."

Seeing Shimamura Yuna with a face full of grievance, red eyes, and a voice that sounded like she was about to cry, yet speaking in a calm tone as if nothing had happened.

He's like someone with a split personality.

Seeing this, Akari Kujo finally felt a sense of reality.
'Her mental illness hasn't improved at all.'

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