Nirvana Top Laner, Reborn Tokyo Girl

Chapter 69, Section 67: What should you do if you have depression?
When she saw this message, Shimamura Yuna was stunned.

In fact, although she had said, "If there are any LCP-level teams, you can contact me," she didn't expect to get a reply from them at all.

To put it bluntly, if the other party can really contact an LCP team, why would they need to look for someone for an LJL team? Does that make sense?

She had originally planned to post her job advertisement online in a couple of days. She hoped to leverage her online influence to attract the attention of potential employers.

The result was completely unexpected.
'You actually made contact?'

So she quickly replied: "Could you tell me what exactly happened?"

The other party said: "[Just as you requested, I've connected you with an LCP-level team. And although it's not a Japanese team, there shouldn't be any language issues for you.]"

We'll discuss the specifics with you in person at L&V Internet Cafe. If you have time, please let us know here.

Akari Kujo, who was standing to the side, saw that Yuna Shimamura had originally wanted to show her something, but she suddenly stopped halfway through the demonstration.

She realized that something might have happened.

So he walked up and asked, "What's wrong?"

Shimamura Yuna frowned, somewhat confused, unsure how to explain.

After organizing her thoughts for a moment, she said, "Well... it's a long story, please listen to me slowly."

After that, Shimamura Yuna spent about half an hour explaining in detail to Kujo Akari what had happened during her recent live streams, and why she had taken the initiative to step out of her comfort zone and play many heroes other than vampires.

She told Akari Kujo about her desire to become a professional player, and how she had recently declined an invitation from a professional team because she felt the team wasn't good enough.

Hearing this, Akari Kujo had more or less figured out the sequence of events.

She stroked her chin and nodded thoughtfully: "So, you mean, this person really did get you the LCP team invitation as you requested, and then contacted you, right?"

Shimamura Yuna nodded, slightly excited.

"Yes!"

In her view, after doing live streams at home for so long, finally being able to truly get closer to her goal felt like taking another step closer to her dream.

And at this exciting moment, her best friend was there to witness it.

Is there a more beautiful moment in my life so far?
However, when she looked at Akari Kujo with these thoughts in mind, she found that she was not as happy for her as she had imagined.

Instead, he frowned with a serious expression and touched his chin.

Shimamura Yuna sensed that something was off, so she cautiously asked, "Um... do you think there was something wrong with what I did?"

"Or are you saying you don't want me to go pro?"

Akari Kujo shook her head: "It's not that I don't want you to go pro. In fact, I also think that pro matches are definitely more dazzling and more eye-catching than live streaming."

"Moreover, even if the purpose is to stream, playing the game first and then coming back to stream can bring you an extra layer of glamour."

"But I have a question."

"If you go pro, what will happen to your depression?"

She then provided a detailed explanation of this.

"To be honest, you're in a better situation now than before, that's a fact. You've tried to stabilize your emotions, and you've tried to become better than before."

"But..." "The premise is that, most of the time, the only people you interact with besides me are your sister. Your sister and I are both willing to be tolerant and kind to you without expecting anything in return."

"Then, what if we leave this environment?"

"You can't help but cry when your own jungler insults you during your live streams, and you want to mute yourself to control your emotions. So how can I trust that you can control your mental state after leaving this familiar environment? How can you expect me and your sister to stop worrying about you?"

"Not to mention, the general public opinion environment for these kinds of competitive events is quite frightening. I can't feel at ease."

These words suddenly silenced Shimamura Yuna.

For a moment, she didn't know how to refute it, or rather, she couldn't refute it.

In fact, she has been constantly adjusting her depression and trying to improve her condition during this period.

But if we had to say how many fundamental changes there were...
Actually not.

This isn't something that can be fixed overnight; it's a long-term tug-of-war.

When someone suddenly announces at this point that they want to go pro, their family sees it as irresponsible behavior towards their mental health.

But the problem is
'If I have to wait until my mental illness is cured before I can compete, how long will that be?'

How much longer can I wait? How much longer can I wait for League of Legends?

'LPL, World Championship—how ​​much longer until we can wait for these things that are so familiar to me?'

She wanted to say these words, but she felt powerless.

I feel that I may never be able to refute the nine principles in a reasonable and well-founded way.

In fact, Akari Kujo's opinion was not important to her, and she could not interfere with her own decisions.

The problem is, if he can't even articulate the nine principles, he certainly won't be able to convince his sister.

Unlike Akari Kujo, my older sister is my direct guardian. If she doesn't agree, there might not be a way to help me for the time being.

So, besides crying, making a scene, and threatening suicide, what other ways do I have to get her to allow me to leave home and pursue a professional career?
Thinking about this, she felt somewhat powerless and simply remained silent, not uttering a single word.

Akari Kujo watched Shimamura Yuna's expression from the side—an expression that seemed to want to say something but couldn't, filled with a certain obsession and resentment.
She realized that Shimamura Yuna might really want to play in this professional competition.

Perhaps, for Yuna Shimamura, this professional competition is really important.

Even if I tell her not to get the injection today, she'll probably still make the decision on her own when I'm not around.

With that in mind, she decided that rather than letting Shimamura Yuna make the decision on her own, she should accompany her to see for herself, so that at least she could keep the situation under her control to some extent.

So, although she was still worried, she could only reluctantly compromise and said to Shimamura Yuna, "How about this, didn't she say that you should go to a place to talk to her in person?"

"Please reply to her and say that we can meet. However, I'd like to ask if it's okay if I go with you?"

P.S.: There will be three updates today, so there will be an update at noon, but normally there will be one update in the afternoon and one in the evening.

As before, the plot gets stuck at a certain subtle point, and I feel there's a possibility of losing readers, so I'll update a little more to get through this part.

After all, readership is the most important metric before a book is published.

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