A grand feast for the Chinese entertainment industry

Chapter 78 Confession
The Rolling Stone Building is usually brightly lit after nightfall.

This is the norm for record companies.

Lin Jianlu took Chen Shuhua's hand and walked out of the practice room. They walked past Lin Xilei as if no one else was there, then through the office area where many people were still working overtime, until they went downstairs.

I didn't see Su Huilun, so she might have already gone home early, or she might be hiding in the recording studio.

do not know.

Lin Jianlu guessed that they must have talked a lot last night. But she didn't ask what they talked about, pretending not to know. Anyway, Su Huilun had given way to her today, and Chen Shuhua seemed to have nodded in agreement.

that's enough.

Lin Xilei followed behind helplessly, her face full of struggle, seemingly considering whether she should take a taxi and go alone.

However, she was overthinking it. The two people in front of her went downstairs to the underground parking garage and completely ignored her. They got into Chen Shuhua's car, started the engine, and drove away.

Lin Xilei stood there, shrugging her shoulders.

…………

From Brigitte Lin to Su Huilun, and then to Chen Shuhua, each time she became more gentle.

I don't dare to indulge myself too much; I'll just have my fill.

However, the process was quite wonderful—her eyes were almost constantly on him, and those eyes seemed to be filled with all the passion and love in the world, so clear that it was intoxicating. Her occasional biting of her lips and the dreamy look in her eyes gave him such a sense of accomplishment that he felt extremely satisfied.

Afterwards, she snuggled into Lin Jianlu's arms, her hands tightly wrapped around his waist, refusing to let go for a moment.

"I suddenly realized that having a cigarette at this moment wouldn't be a bad thing."

"Then I'll prepare it for you from now on."

"Hmm. Never mind, I used to smoke before..." He was referring to his past life, when he started smoking in his senior year of high school. The entrance exams were tough, and he was one of the more hardworking students, but not particularly talented. The pressure was immense, and without realizing it, he picked up the habit from his classmates. Especially during the time he was away for art exams, he was incredibly nervous and smoked heavily at one point. But in this life, the original owner of this body didn't have this addiction. Lin Jianlu struggled for two or three months, overcoming that mental addiction, and gradually recovered. He wasn't too willing to pick it up again. "I've completely quit. I only think about it a little sometimes."

She said "hmm".

The room fell silent again.

Suddenly, she spoke again, and what she said was quite explosive: "Actually... I've thought about it countless times, and I'm afraid I'll never be able to get married in my entire life."

Lin Jianlu stiffened her neck in surprise and looked down at her.

I couldn't see anything except the waterfall of hair that covered my chest.

She said slowly, "I'm thirty-eight years old. Even if no one says it, I know I'm an old maid. I want to get married, and my parents support me in getting married. But I'm thirty-eight. Many of my childhood playmates and peers already have children who are about to start junior high school."

"What kind of person can I marry? The best outcome would be a middle-aged man from a wealthy family. But such a man is unlikely to be unmarried. So ideally, he would be widowed, with no children left for me, or divorced and childless. But most likely, he would have children, and I would be a stepmother." "I long for a beautiful relationship! Even if it's not love. I also long for a beautiful marriage. I fantasize that my husband would cherish me, love me, protect me, and support me. He would help me manage my relationship with my mother, so I wouldn't be caught in the middle, feeling helpless."

"But it's too difficult, too difficult. I really don't know what to do."

She paused for a long time, then repeated the same sentence again, "I really... have thought countless times that I might... never get married again in my life."

“I’m thirty-eight years old. Although I’m not very bright, I know that I can’t be as naive as a young girl anymore. I… am not so easily fooled! I know what the men who pursue me are thinking, and I also know that if I agree to be with one of them, I probably won’t be cherished.”

"What else can I do? I missed my twenties, and I also missed the twenties of my imagined husband. I didn't meet him when we were both unknown, nor did I fall in love with him when we were young and innocent."

“I’m not young anymore, and I can only marry someone who isn’t young either. But at our age, we’ve become too calculating. Life may be unpredictable, but everyone is living authentically. If someone in middle age still demands pure love, they’re considered irrational. Even though everyone still says ‘I love you,’ it’s just talk.”

A philosopher once said that true love in life comes only once. Every time before that is just practice, and every time after that is just longing.

"But I haven't experienced it yet, and I want to."

"Really, really, it's so good... I want to do it just once!"

"But I truly know that it's all an illusion. The best ending for me in this life is to grow old alone. At least I won't let the rest of my life be plunged into a miserable hell!"

"I know I've become cunning now. I've said it before, I'm not a real little girl anymore, and I'm ashamed to say I'm still innocent. I... like you, Ah Lu, I really like you."

"You have no idea, ever since you came to Taiwan... I don't know how to say it, I suddenly feel that being with you is really interesting, more interesting than all the interesting people and things I've encountered in the past combined. Since meeting you, I've suddenly become so happy, as if all the bad things have disappeared all at once. I even... I haven't even argued with my mother for several months."

"My dissatisfaction with her gradually weakened. Many times, even when I knew I was about to get angry, I was able to control myself. In the end, I didn't lose my temper at all!"

“You are exactly the kind of husband I’ve always imagined. Tall, handsome, dashing, talented, witty, and always telling me jokes. You’re always smarter than me, wisely considering everything for me, and always able to make me obediently follow you.”

"Do you remember that night? The time we finished recording in Hong Kong, that was the first time I saw you drunk... That night, I lay next to you, watching you sleep, just looking and looking, and I thought, this boy is so handsome! It's like he was born for me, appeared just for me."

Suddenly, she raised her head, flicked her hair, and it brushed against Lin Jianlu's eye.

Lin Jianlu had to squint her eyes.

She smiled, a sudden allure she had never shown before. Then she reached out and gently wiped Lin Jianlu's eyes, saying with a smile, "If you could date Huilun, I think it would be great! We're very close, she's a really nice person, and she's been very good to me. If I were your lover, she probably wouldn't be too angry!"

“Even if she’s a little angry…” she smiled, a smile so bright and gentle that Lin Jianlu felt she was even a little mischievous and playful. “You’re so good at coaxing girls, you can definitely coax her too, right?”

Lin Jianlu raised her hand, stroked her little face with her palm, smiled, and leaned closer.

She smiled and nudged forward, leaning closer.

Boo!
(End of this chapter)