Am I being simulated by their love affair.

Chapter 16 Jun Matsueda's First Love
"are we still friends?"

Jun Matsueda looked at the message sent by Haruka Mochizuki on his phone and felt a little confused.

"Of course."

The cat avatar immediately replied to him: "You didn't lie to me?"

Of course, Jun Matsueda knew who was good to him. No matter what Mochizuki said, he had not discovered that the girl had done anything bad to him.

"Mr. Mochizuki, you told me not to fake smile or say anything hypocritical in front of you. I still remember that."

Wangyue Yao put down her phone and stopped sending messages. She touched her chest and still felt a dull pain.

"It's so uncomfortable to have your joys and sorrows tied to other people's."

Jun Matsueda and Tomoka Tomatsu did not return to the classroom, but went to the rooftop.

Jun Matsueda likes to go to the rooftop to tell stories. The rooftop is lonely and all you can see when you look up is the sky. It makes people feel free and happy and they can say anything.

He put down his phone. Tomatsu Tomoka looked at him dimly. The girl asked, "Are you comforting her?"

Matsueda Jun asked back: "Are you jealous?"

The girl nodded, and Matsueda Jun immediately retorted: "You're not even my girlfriend, what right do you have to be jealous?"

The light in Tomatsu Tomoka's eyes went out. She lowered her head and spoke in a voice so low that it seemed as if she was talking to herself: "Did I do something wrong?"

Even if I'm wrong, I won't regret it, she thought to herself. Because it really worked, she drove away all the threatening women.

Apart from Haruka Mochizuki, Tomatsu Touka gritted her teeth when she thought of her.

Matsueda Jun stood by the guardrail again, the place where he and the girl almost committed suicide last time, "You are not wrong this time."

Tomatsu Tomoka raised her head.

"They say that boys rely on thick skin to pursue girls. There's no reason why girls can't use this method. I didn't say that I was troubled."

"But if you do this, not only will you fail to catch up with me, you will also lose your own life."

Let me get you used to my presence first. When I am the only one left by your side, you will have no choice but to accept me, and then you will become my life, Tomatsu Tomoka retorted him in her heart.

Jun Matsueda remained indifferent to her advances and even advised her to focus more on the club. The girl had her own pride and naturally felt a little resentful towards him.

"Let me tell you a story, a story about my first love." Without turning around, Jun Matsueda waved his right hand behind him, motioning her to come over.

"Wait a minute." Tomatsu Tomoka interrupted him with pretended calmness.

First love, when she heard this word, Tomatsu Tomoka's heart almost stopped.

He has been in love, he has had someone he likes, but his first hand-holding, first hug, and first kiss may all be gone.

Tomatsu Tomoka took a deep breath and calmed herself down.

His first sexual experience was probably also lost.

Thinking of this, Tomatsu Tomoka wanted to squat down and cry her heart out.

After preparing herself mentally, she asked, "How many times have you been in love?"

"Just once, two years ago."

"To what extent?"

"Why should I tell you?" Matsueda Jun frowned, feeling a little disgusted.

"Please, you must tell me."

If she doesn't figure it out, she'll go crazy.

"Kiss." Jun Matsueda didn't want to say more.

"Did you stick out your tongue?" Tomatsu Tomoka moved closer to Matsueda Jun and observed his expression closely.

"You really look a bit abnormal now." Matsueda Jun felt down.

"Did you stretch it out? Did you stretch it out?" Tomatsu Yuka moved closer and closer. "No!" Matsueda Jun pressed against her shoulder.

"That's great!" She didn't stick out her tongue, and the first time was still there. Tomatsu Tomoka's happiness is so simple.

"Disgusting." Jun Matsueda said mercilessly.

Tomatsu Tomoka giggled.

Jun Matsueda finally told his story.

Once upon a time, a girl in the next class fell in love with him almost fanatically.

"So she was the one chasing you?"

The rhythm of his story was interrupted, and Matsueda Jun nodded impatiently. Tomatsu Tomoka was even happier.

The girl soon transferred to his class and confessed her love to him on the first day she became his deskmate, but of course he rejected her.

But the girl did not give up. Wherever there was Jun Matsueda, there she could be seen.

Girls would bring him water during physical education class, bring him lunch, do duty together after school, and throw away all the love letters in his locker.

Jun Matsueda rejected all of these, but the girl still persisted.

The girl even asked her parents to buy a house and move near the orphanage just so that she could be in touch with him when she was not at school.

When Jun Matsueda discovered that the girl appeared around the orphanage, his first reaction was anger, because the girl was secretly investigating him and might even disrupt the peaceful life of the orphanage.

The girl just stood outside the gate of the orphanage, looking at Jun Matsueda from afar. She said she would not disturb his life, and it was enough to just be able to watch him from afar.

Tomatsu Tomoka thought it was no big deal, she could have done the same if nothing had happened to her family.

The girls kept pestering him. Jun Matsueda could see the girls every day when he walked out of the orphanage. Then he would go to school, attend classes, get off classes, have lunch, go to clubs, and go back to the orphanage after school. The girls would stay by his side and no matter how he refused, it was useless. This went on for a month.

"And you agreed to her?"

"No, I told her that I have a girl I like."

Even though she knew that Matsueda Jun was not talking to her, Tomatsu Tomoka's heart still ached.

"and then?"

"At that time, the school organized a hike along the Tama River, next to which was Lake Okutama. She turned around and jumped into the lake."

Jun Matsueda's first love had to begin like this.

Tomatsu Tomoka glanced outside the railing and was noticed by Matsueda Jun.

"Don't even think about replicating her behavior. If you jump from here, you'll be dead. I won't fall for that kind of trick now."

If it happened again, Jun Matsueda would rather rescue the girl from the lake again and again than accept her love.

Matsueda Jun glanced at his phone and said, "Class is almost over. I can't finish today."

"Why is this? I want to continue listening!" Tomatsu Tomoka expressed her anger at his interruption.

"Let me tell you in advance that this story is a tragedy. I'm telling you this story not so you can learn from it, but to tell you that if you continue like this, there will be no good results."

Jun Matsueda asked the girl to concentrate on the after-school training of the wind band first. He would confirm with Yamami Maki, and would only continue telling the story if the band leader thought her performance was satisfactory.

Tomatsu Tomoka had no choice but to accept it.

Jun Matsueda said one last thing to the girl.

"Love is also a kind of desire."

It is just like appetite and sexual desire, there is no distinction between high and low.

Nothing good will ever happen if you let your desires take over.

Therefore, Jun Matsueda hates impulse and passion, and all boiling emotions will settle into clear air.

(End of this chapter)