Am I being simulated by their love affair.

Chapter 28 The Girl Sinks into Darkness
Haruka Mochizuki first met Jun Matsueda at the opening ceremony of Uegaoka High School.

Jun Matsueda spoke as a representative of the freshmen. The bright spring sunshine gilded his ordinary black and white school uniform.

After the freshman representative left the stage, a girl in a white dress came up to speak. Mochizuki Haruka didn't listen to her, but was recalling the name of the boy just now.

Song, Zhi, Chun, she savored every pronunciation in her heart.

Mochizuki Haruka didn't believe in love at first sight, but she had to admit that Matsueda Jun was completely in her strike zone from his face, figure to voice.

However, Mochizuki Haruka is a reserved young lady. Her aunt always tells her that girls from the Mochizuki family will not act rashly just because of a first impression, so she just kept this name in her heart.

The next time she saw Jun Matsueda was not by chance in the corridor, but in her dream.

Haruka Mochizuki was in the library, and Jun Matsueda was sitting next to her, their seats were right next to each other.

There was nothing in front of the boy. He did nothing but hold his face with one hand and look at the girl who was reading a book with her head down.

"Does it look good?" Mochizuki Yao looked at him.

“Before I met you, my favorite thing was the wheat fields glowing in the summer. When the wind blew, the green waves undulated. When I got close to them, I could smell the breath of life.”

"What happened after you met me?"

“Looking at you is looking at my whole life.”

The two in the dream had known each other for a semester. From the moment they first met, Jun Matsueda had been passionately pursuing the girl. Every day, she heard all sorts of sweet nothings from him. Finally, at the start of summer vacation, the girl, having forgotten her aunt's warning, fell for him.

Jun Matsueda did not disappoint her. He almost satisfied all her fantasies about love, except for one thing.

This young man, who seemed to have grown out of her dream, was unwilling to have close contact with her.

"Why don't you want to do it with me?" Mochizuki Haruka nestled in Matsueda Jun's arms as they watched a movie together. She had completely forgotten the reserve she had at the beginning of their relationship.

In the picture, a little girl with freckles knocks on the door of the boy's house and gives him a box of eggs.

"Because I think we're moving a little too fast." Jun Matsueda stroked the girl's face. She closed her eyes and purred comfortably like a kitten.

Although Mochizuki Haruka was somewhat dissatisfied when she heard his answer, she was still relieved. His statement was the same as her aunt's, which at least showed that Matsueda Jun was sincere to her.

The girl fell asleep on his shoulder. Jun Matsueda turned down the volume of the movie and looked through the translucent system panel in front of him, watching the love story from childhood to adolescence.

The turning point of the story is after the summer vacation. The day before school starts, Mochizuki Haruka tells Matsueda Jun that her aunt has suddenly been diagnosed with a very rare disease.

"My aunt said that maybe this disease will be named after her."

Mochizuki Haruka's parents died in an accident when she was very young, and her aunt is her only relative.

"If my aunt died, I don't know what would become of me." Mochizuki Haruka murmured to herself.

The girl was right in front of him, but Jun Matsueda felt that he could not see her soul, only her body.

Three months later, Mochizuki Haruka's aunt passed away.

When Matsueda Jun rushed to the ward, Mochizuki Haruka had been kneeling by the bed for an hour. He leaned over and hugged her.

"I am coming."

"Kiss me." The girl looked up at him, her eyes swollen from crying.

Jun Matsueda and Haruka Mochizuki were kissing, and the girl stretched her neck as far as she could and put her tongue into Jun Matsueda's mouth.

It was like a kiss that was sucking all the air out of Jun Matsueda's lungs.

A nurse passing through the corridor outside the window saw the two kissing, one with his head lowered, a look of compassion, the other with his head raised, a face full of despair. She felt like she was witnessing a believer trapped in hell being redeemed by God.

"Give it to me." Mochizuki Haruka said breathlessly, her lips parted.

"Here?" Jun Matsueda looked at the woman's body on the hospital bed. It was still not cold.

"It's right here, give it to me quickly, otherwise I can't feel that I'm still alive." Mochizuki Yao looked at him with empty eyes.

“Wait.” Jun Matsueda tried to stop her. “No one will ever love me like she did!” Haruka Mochizuki screamed hoarsely in his ear.

"I love you." Jun Matsueda felt like his ears were going deaf and hugged her tightly.

"If you love me, why don't you give it to me?" Wang Yueyao's voice suddenly became almost inaudible, weak and powerless.

"Does it have to be here?" Matsueda Jun felt embarrassed.

"It's right here. It has to be here. I want to tell my aunt that she doesn't have to worry anymore. I have found someone who loves me."

Mochizuki Haruka had no strength left in her body. If it weren't for Matsueda Jun holding her, she would have fallen to her knees again.

Please love me.

Jun Matsueda locked the door and drew the curtains.

Since then, Mochizuki Haruka has never come to school again. After school every day, Matsueda Jun would go to see her. The part-time job had been cancelled long ago.

Jun Matsueda opened the door of Mochizuki Haruka's bedroom. It was pitch black inside and he could only hear the girl's breathing.

"Haruka, is it really okay to stay like this forever?" After arriving at the hospital, Jun Matsueda changed the way he addressed Mochizuki Haruka.

Every night, they would sink into this soft big bed. Only then did the girl feel like a living person.

Apart from this, Mochizuki Haruka never left the room except to maintain the physiological activities necessary for life.

There was only breathing in the room, no answer.

"Not tonight," said Jun Matsueda.

The girl's voice rang out, "You don't love me anymore?"

"No."

"Then why not?"

"I'm not going to school anymore. Pack up your things tonight and we'll go traveling tomorrow."

Mochizuki Haruka opened her eyes and said, "I don't want to go. It's troublesome."

"That's not up to you." Matsueda Jun smiled at her.

The next day, Jun Matsueda dragged Mochizuki Haruka out of the room.

The first part of their trip was within Japan, where they saw the snow in Hokkaido, soaked in the hot springs of Mount Fuji, and watched the crater about to erupt from a helicopter.

"How do you feel?" Jun Matsue opened the helicopter door and presented the entire crater to Haruka Mochizuki.

"I wonder what it would feel like to jump in." Mochizuki Haruka's eyes darted around as she gazed at the flowing, dark red lava.

"That won't do." Matsueda Jun held her hand. "Even if you really want to jump, you must hold my hand tightly."

Six months later, they left Japan and went to the South African grasslands to watch the migration of wild horses, to Antarctica to see the broken glaciers and swaying penguins, and to the English town of Bedeley to see the sea of ​​poppies.

Wang Yueyao looked at the endless and enchanting red sea and felt his blood flowing with it.

The red was so thick that it could not be dissolved, and a tear slid down the corner of her eye.

"Fuck your sea of ​​flowers." Mochizuki Haruka said viciously.

Jun Matsueda smiled obsessively, looking at the girl standing in the blood.

"That's so cool of you to say that."

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