Am I being simulated by their love affair.

Chapter 362 What if we were lovers

Matsueda Jun looked at the surprised girl in front of him. "Why did you stop? Do you want to continue your walk?"

"Let me catch my breath." Yosei Kurusu returned to the boy's side, and the two left the post office in 2-chome behind.

It wasn't until they passed the cemetery behind a nearby temple that the girl came to her senses. "You want to be in a relationship? With whom?"

"With whom?" Jun Matsueda had already thought about how to answer. "It's hard to say. Tomatsu, Mochizuki, or Imokawa are all possibilities."

"Huh?" Kurusu Yosei asked again, sounding puzzled.

"Matsue, I've just been a bit busy with performances lately, how did you become like this?" The girl was a little confused.

"Have you forgotten the 'maybe' I kept emphasizing?" The boy's tone was very natural.

"It's just the stirrings of adolescence, wanting someone to be with you. That feeling is probably closer to 'wanting to be in a relationship'."

Kurushi Yosei suddenly realized, "You're in heat?"

"Does it really have to be this strange way of saying it?"

"Isn't it just being in heat?"

"So be it if you're in heat," Jun Matsueda said with a hint of helplessness.

"At my age, what I crave most is companionship, understanding, and a partner. You've been through this before, so you should understand, right?"

The boy's words were not a lie. Perhaps from the moment he began to have rosy hopes for the new semester, the stirrings of adolescence had never ceased.

"I can't understand it." The girl shook her head. "Back then, I was still dreaming of becoming an idol."

Jun Matsue almost forgot that the guy next to him named Yosei Kurusu wasn't a normal person either.

"So what does pine branch mean by 'anything is possible'? You can get aroused by anyone?"

"Could you please stop using that word?" Jun Matsueda noticed the surprised look in the eyes of the woman in the suit who passed by him.

"Simply put, whether I'm with you or with Tomatsu and Mochizuki, I always feel a flutter in my heart, but this feeling is very impulsive—it's just the hormones of puberty at work, you know?"

Yosuke Kurusu blinked. "If it were a guy, I might believe it, but the way you're calmly telling me this makes me a little suspicious."

"I'm just being rational."

"Then why wasn't I among the potential romantic partners you mentioned?" the girl pressed on relentlessly.

"You?" Jun Matsue glanced at her. The girl was even wearing a mask for her after-dinner walks now. "Putting everything else aside, you're at the peak of your career, is it appropriate for you to be dating?"

"You can be my little boyfriend~" Yosei Kurusu winked charmingly.

The two turned left again at the intersection and onto the main road, where both the car lights and the streetlights became brighter and denser.

"Kurasu," the boy's tone became a little more serious, "what are your thoughts on love?"

The streetlights in the distance formed a line, and the girl thought for a moment, "It's just two people who like each other being together."

"Then what does it mean to like someone?" Jun Matsue asked again.

"You feel happy when you're with them, you care about them, and you want to chat with them. Is that what it feels like?"

Yosei Kurusu's tone was not firm. Her judgment was based on the romance works she had read and her experiences with Jun Matsueda, such as that time at the beach in Shizuoka.

"But friends are like that too, you know?" Jun Matsueda's tone was very gentle, but it made the girl feel inexplicably uncomfortable.

"Of course I can tell the difference between lovers and friends."

"Kurasu, those feelings you mentioned before might actually disappear once you become lovers, you know?"

“But how will you know the outcome if you don’t try to become lovers?” Yosei Kurusu retorted decisively.

The two continued walking, still pretending to be chatting, but they both knew very well that what they were talking about was not so casual.

“Well then.” Jun Matsue stopped at the red light at the intersection and looked at the girl beside him.

"Let's assume we're a couple now." "I don't want to just be your secret boyfriend."

"Everyone else can hold hands, kiss, and maintain intimate distance in the street, so why can I only say 'welcome back' at home?"

“I know you really enjoy being an idol, and I want to support your dream, but I really can’t control my feelings.”

"If I had to choose between my career and me, what would you do?"

Yosuke Kurusu looked at the flashing red light with a hesitant expression.

"Actually, I don't want you to make this choice," the boy continued.

"Because no matter what we choose, we will suffer the same pain—"

The girl interrupted him, "Okay, okay, I know. I'll seriously consider things about liking someone and being in love later."

Yosei Kurusu is not the type of person who thinks things through carefully; otherwise, she wouldn't have dropped out of school and left home to embark on the path of becoming an idol without hesitation.

But the girl was not a rash person either. Although she claimed that Matsueda Jun was her chosen marriage partner, she never told him that she liked him.

Her intuition told her that now was not the right time for either her career or her love life. If she made a wrong move, not only would her idol career fall into an abyss, but her current roommate relationship with Jun Matsueda might also be ruined.

Because she didn't want the kind of fast-paced relationship her mother had, Yosei Kurusu and Jun Matsueda lived together for a year and are still just roommates.

With the final turn, the coffee shop downstairs from the apartment building appeared at the end of the road, but the girl's mood was even worse than when she left home.

She turned to face Jun Matsueda and pulled the mask down to her chin.

"You've changed, you're not the same pine branch you used to be, so why are you acting like it's my fault?"

The girl's words were tinged with anger and grievance. Matsueda Jun, of course, knew that he was in the wrong, and he readily admitted his mistake.

"It was my fault, my attitude was wrong. Miss Kurusu, how can I make you feel better?"

"That attitude towards me when you forbade me from having dinner!"

"it is good."

"Don't ask me those kinds of questions that were deliberately difficult for me!"

"I'll try."

"Be my number one fan!"

"no problem."

"I want to eat egg pancakes for breakfast tomorrow." The girl's anger had subsided considerably.

"I'll make you the deluxe version."

"Don't forget to eat those two chicken drumsticks in the fridge tomorrow during the day, they won't taste good if they're left out for too long."

Jun Matsue laughed, and the girl angrily punched him, "What are you laughing at?"

"The thought of being able to eat chicken drumsticks made by a big star like Lai Qiyang tomorrow makes me feel so happy."

"That's pretty much it."

As the two crossed the last intersection, Jun Matsueda looked at the figure appearing in the distance and asked, "Wouldn't you like to put your mask back on?"

Kurusu Yosei glanced at him sideways, "Now you know fear?"

"I'm afraid. I'm afraid."

The girl snorted again, then put on a mask, leaving only her eyes visible.

A pair of eyes that are always bright, radiant and captivating.

(End of this chapter)