Tokyo Sick Girlfriend

Chapter 151 Questioning
Shiratori Seiya rarely spoke sweet words, which is why Hojo Shione remembered his confession-like words so clearly.

When she's alone, she often reminisces about the tone of his voice when he said sweet words, and the way he looked at her...

Thinking about it over and over again, I unconsciously used memories as a knife to carve his words into my heart.

'Just kidding, I only write songs for you.'

Of course, although she was touched that he said that, Hojo Shione didn't take it seriously.

Although he seems to be working really hard, writing songs and composing music is not that easy. Let alone ordinary people, even people who have been in the music industry for many years may not be able to write a decent song. Moreover, Shiratori Seiya is tone-deaf, which greatly increases the difficulty of composing songs.

Hojo Shione wasn't that stupid, nor did she want to make things difficult for her boyfriend, so after accepting his confession, she didn't plan to bring it up again.

However, the situation was far beyond her expectations.

On the second day of their relationship, Shiratori Seiya presented her with two songs. The lyrics and music were clearly written on A4 paper, six pages in total. They were handwritten, and the ink smudged as he rubbed his fingers across them.

Without looking at the contents, Hojo Shione looked up at Shiratori Seiya with a puzzled expression, having some vague guesses in her mind, but still not daring to believe it.

"Written for you."

Upon hearing this, Hojo Shione could no longer sit still. She asked incredulously, "Really?" and then widened her eyes to carefully examine the contents of the stamp.

She hummed a few lines softly, without any awkwardness. Both the melody and the lyrics were refreshing. She looked up again, her face tense, and asked, "Really?"

It's normal for her to question you, Shiratori Seiya said with a smile, completely unconcerned:
"real."

As he spoke, he took out his phone, typed the lyrics into the internet, and then turned the phone screen to Hojo Shione, saying:

"Xiyin, try searching for it."

Looking at the screen in front of her, Hojo Shione glanced at Shiratori Seiya again, making sure he wasn't angry, before taking the phone and scrolling through it.

Indeed, as he said, no identical lyrics or music could be found on the entire internet.

Hojo Shione finally felt relieved, but then she was filled with disbelief. However, after the initial shock, she suddenly realized that Shiratori Seiya was completely different from what she had imagined.

To be precise, his habits and methods of doing things are completely different from his inner self.

Having spent so much time together, I've grown accustomed to his decisive style, but at this moment I also find him to be incredibly thoughtful.

He knew he didn't believe it, but before he could even ask, he immediately dismissed his disbelief.

This made Hojo Shione feel ashamed of having doubted him.

Just as she expected, in the days that followed, Shiratori Seiya seemed to have figured her out completely, and would present her with results almost without her having to say anything.

He gave himself enough security.

No, to be precise, it wasn't just a sense of security that led her step by step into the abyss of love, until she fell head over heels in love with Shiratori Seiya; it was a sense of happiness.

When Ono Yuuki later showed these two songs, Ono asked him if he could sing one of them, saying that it might be even better if he performed it on the main stage.

Shiratori Seiya refused without any hesitation.

"If we're considering the effect, why not let Xiyin perform directly on the main stage?"

"I joined the club because of Xiyin, and I also learned music theory because of her. The songs I write now are naturally for her to sing, and I will only write songs for her from now on."

He said this in front of everyone in the vocal department, seemingly not caring what others thought of him at all; he practically had the word 'favoritism' written all over his face.

Hojo Shione was deeply moved, biting her lip hard to barely suppress her laughter. She quickly and shyly tugged at Shiratori Seiya's arm, saying bashfully:
"Kiyoshi, it wouldn't be so bad to sing for the minister just once, would it..."

She spoke casually, but stared intently at Shiratori Seiya, her foot under the table hooking around his calf.

'If you really agree, I'll cry for you!'

"No, if you're not going to sing it, then I'll pretend I never wrote it."

As Shiratori Seiya spoke, he reached out and grabbed the song from Ono Yuuki's hand, raising his hand as if to tear it apart.

"Alright, alright, I didn't really have to sing..."

Yuuki Ono looked at him with a helpless smile, then looked at Shione Hojo with envy and said:
"In that case, we have two new songs. However, what Shiratori-kun said is also true; these two songs are very good. Shione, why don't you go to the main stage?"

"..."

Under the envious gazes of everyone, Hojo Shione felt completely filled with happiness.

Needless to say, the final performance at the school festival was a huge success, making her a minor celebrity at school. From her first year to her third, her name was occasionally mentioned during those two weeks. But the happiness that Shiratori Seiya brought her went far beyond that. Later, when the president of the choir asked him to write a song, he flatly refused, even after asking the instructor to persuade him.

I only write songs for Xiyin.

His attitude remained unwavering in front of everyone.

The news spread throughout the school, and everyone knew that Hojo Shione had a boyfriend who loved her very much and was also very talented, writing songs only for her.

Later, Shiratori Seiya spent a lot of money and time on her so that she could stand on a bigger stage, enrolling her in training courses, writing songs for her, selecting competitions for her, and planning for her future...

Seemingly in order to draw more attention to her, Shiratori Seiya later used the pseudonym "Friend A" when she competed.

Hojo Shione felt that the term "friend A" was not good and that "lover A" was obviously more appropriate, but Shiratori Seiya still refused, saying that it would affect her popularity.

This was something that Hojo Shione had always been somewhat concerned about.

But apart from that, he devoted almost all his time, energy, and money to her.

When I practiced singing in the training room, he stayed by my side for several hours each time. He never left, watching me and noting down the areas where I could improve.

When he was nervous during his first competition, he cheered himself up and gently comforted himself. After the competition, he helped himself to fill in the gaps in his knowledge. He didn't even know when he had studied psychology, but he constantly helped himself adjust his mindset when he doubted himself.

After winning a competition and signing a contract with the company, he was worried about the agent assigned by the company, so he volunteered to be his own agent. He didn't know anything at first, but he became very proficient in less than a month.

Speaking of this, Hojo Shione still feels very sorry for him. He has to attend classes at school, write songs, and learn to be a manager all at the same time...

During that year, he stayed up all night every day, learning all sorts of things, and his dark circles never disappeared. Hojo Shione cried many times because of this, wanting him not to make things so hard for himself, but Shiratori Seiya didn't agree.

I don't trust others.

As he said this, Hojo Shione was deeply moved and decided that he was the only one for her in this life.

Later, his songs became famous, and the record company and other music companies wanted him to write songs, but he refused them all.

Even when his management company tried to force him to write songs for others by reducing their own resources, he refused to compromise and broke off relations with them.

He had a huge argument with the company, ready to fight to the death, and posted about it on his social media accounts.

"Friend A" only writes songs for Hojo Shione.

……

Seiya Shiratori rarely said "I love you," but everything he did exemplified that phrase.

This is the first time in sixteen years that I've been in love. Although I've watched love stories in TV dramas and heard gossip about relationships among my classmates, those stories seem insignificant compared to Shiratori Seiya's love for me.

At the age of sixteen, Hojo Shione experienced a passionate love from Shiratori Seiya—the kind of love that is all-consuming, all-out, without any unnecessary words, and unwavering in its devotion.

Hojo Shione felt that being loved by Shiratori Seiya was the happiest thing in the world.

That afternoon, my decision to agree to be his girlfriend was probably the best thing I've ever done in my life.

I must have saved the world in my past life to meet him and have him fall in love with me...

but……

While completely enveloped by immense happiness, Hojo Shione became increasingly afraid of losing it, fearing that one day the dream bubble would burst and she would fall from the sky...

Seeing Shiratori Seiya, who had worked so hard for her and given everything for her, she couldn't help but think:
Am I really that good?
Is it really worth it for him to do this?
He's so capable, so talented, and has so many women to choose from. Will he fall in love with another woman in the future?

Am I being too selfish?
Have I ever given him anything?

At seventeen, she didn't know how to love someone.

Hojo Shione couldn't help but worry about whether she could reciprocate Shiratori Seiya's feelings for her. The love they gave each other was so disproportionate, what right did she have?
……

"You don't really think you're that good, do you? Don't get too cocky. If my brother-in-law were willing to write songs for me, I'd definitely be better than you."

In the piano room, as the last note faded, the younger sister, Hojo Suzune, stopped playing, turned to look at her, her eyes filled with jealousy and contempt, and sneered:

"You're so selfish, keeping him tied down like that, and only writing songs for you. Doesn't he have his own career? Are you really doing this for his own good?"

"You don't like him at all. What have you ever given him? You only care about yourself. You selfish person."

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(End of this chapter)