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479 , Shen Ce's Letter, Read Affectionately

Yun Shu, when you read this letter, you don't know what it was like. Maybe I have drifted in a small northern city, and I am still covered in cumin, or maybe you are still sitting under the flower trellis in the backyard, still bored.I don't know if you will miss the days when I was by your side, but for my departure, I think it is the best ending for us.

The days of protecting you can be said to be the most leisurely and comfortable time in most of my life. There is no need for desperation, no precarity, no need to face the dangers and guns lurking around, and no need to worry about how long the remaining dry food can last , just protect from bad guys hurting you.

The villa has always been very quiet, so my work couldn't be easier. It seems that time stands still and the clouds in the sky slow down.At first, I couldn't change my habit, and I always paid attention to the changes around the house every second, but later I found that the surroundings of the house were very safe, and there was no need for me to be on high alert.So my eyes gradually shifted from being vigilant about the surroundings to you who are always in a trance.

Many times I have seen you lying on the bench in the backyard, looking up at the blue and distant sky between the folded fingers of your hands, but it seems that your heart has drifted elsewhere. I don't understand what you are looking at.Later, you followed Qiao Ye to the company every day, and when I did the same while lying in that position, I realized that you were missing Qiao Ye at that time, and I was missing you.Looking up at the sky, it seems that the person's voice and smile are right in front of you, clear and bright.

I remember that dark morning.When I first saw you, you were like a wounded deer, with scars all over your body, facing cruelty and killing that you have never experienced before.It was my dereliction of duty that caused me to fail to protect you. That was the one I hated myself the most among countless missions I performed.

I decided to stay by your side to guard because you touched the most regrettable corner of my heart.During my military career, there was a lover who accompanied me for several years, but because of my mistake, she left forever.When you stubbornly resisted the approach of people around you with scars, I saw the tenacity in your bones, so I was determined to protect you and not let you get hurt a little bit, and I was determined to help you, no longer be so unarmed and let me take advantage of you .

I don't know when my feelings for you started, sometimes I would doubt, probably from the night when I held you through the mountains and forests to safety, some feelings had already sprouted in my heart.Later, I witnessed your dependence on Xiao Yichen, and found that the degree of compatibility between you and him is much higher than that between you and Qiao Ye.Probably because of destiny, you and Qiao Ye have a stronger fate, which makes you always unable to get rid of Qiao Ye.

I've been with you for a long time, and I really feel sorry for Qiao Ye. You are such a nice person, but he keeps you locked up in a yard and a house all day long. The time you meet each other is only a few hours a day, and you only know how to plunder and indulge when you sleep together at night. .You chasing butterflies and playing around, you lazily dozing on the bench, you strolling the garden with your baby, you feasting on desserts, you stubborn and angry... There are too many other aspects of you, Qiao Ye I don't know.

I'm just an outsider, I can't talk about your family affairs, I can't tell Qiao Ye to spend more time with you.I can only stay by your side silently, cover you with clothes when you fall asleep, find something interesting for you to do when you are bored, carry things for you when you go shopping, and comfort you when you complain.

After a long time, I am used to paying attention to your every word and deed, every frown and smile, and your emotions also affect my mood.When you were talking and joking with Qiao Ye, my heart was cold and cold, so I could only retreat quietly.You don't know, the night Qiao Ye was attacked, I saw you crying like that for him, and he insisted on protecting you first, so I fully understood my feelings.Too much jealousy, envy, longing, entanglement, depression...they wrapped me tightly like a python, and let go at the last moment, only because of Qiao Ye's trust in me.

When I took you to Haikou to hide, I told myself that Qiao Ye really loves you, even though he often neglects you because of his career, but this did not shake the fact that you are in love.He can't accompany you all the time and share your joy, but it doesn't mean that I, a hired person, can covet you and lure you, who is innocent and unintentional, out of love.

You are too simple, you always only regard me as a friend and brother, forgetting that I am also a normal man.Later, we had a lot of close contact, and your breath could easily lead to my distracting thoughts without knowing it.

It wasn't until I protected you from bullets and dangers that I suddenly realized that loving someone is not about getting the body, but the important thing is to connect your life with the other person, and be able to sacrifice for the other person regardless of everything, even if it is the only life.

Later, when I returned to Qinzhou, our relationship was much closer than before. You changed the boring loneliness into joking and joking with me, and your whole person has a soft and tender smile and a pure heart.I am very happy to be close to your heart and no longer just appear by your side as a bodyguard.

It's a pity that I couldn't control my emotions well and was discovered by Qiao Ye.He didn't make it difficult for me too much, but I felt sorry for him in my heart, so we reached some agreements. I asked him to accompany you more and care about you.

You don't know these things, I feel a little relieved about this, otherwise such feelings will definitely trouble you.Since it's my own feeling, it's fine for me to keep it alone.

It’s just that things didn’t go as planned, I couldn’t be coerced by him, I listened to him robbing you all day long, and I was afraid of embarrassing the three of us when I confessed to you, so I finished preparing the notes and weapons for you, and left here.

Yun Shu, every place we have traveled with you, and every little and big event we have experienced is vividly before your eyes. You are probably used to having me as a friend and brother who has special abilities and can always protect you. After more than half a year, Saying goodbye really seems rushed.

I never thought that I would be tortured by emotions, so when I fell into emotional difficulties, I seemed at a loss.Accustomed to the life of licking blood from the knife edge of a horse leather shroud, my feelings have long been buried, like a frozen deep pool.But the dusty love was quietly ignited by you, and it can no longer be extinguished.

I have never been afraid of any enemies, but I am afraid that I will be defeated by endless feelings. Not getting love is the greatest torture. I can no longer pretend to be nothing and wait for you all the time.So I choose to leave, to give you and Qiao Ye a piece of peace, I believe that without me, he will treat you better, and he will understand some things.

Yun Shu, let me call you that for the last time.Thank you for the laughter and joy you brought me, thank you for giving me the opportunity to protect you and redeem you, thank you for your dependence and trust in me.I love you, I swear on my life.

At this moment, I kissed the letter paper as lightly as that day, and the military stabs and weapons I left for you, with the scars on my shoulders, are out of your sight from now on.You don't need to miss and be sad, life is like a banquet, there is always a time to end, since I am just a passerby, you have to take care of your own resident guest.

You still have a long way to go in the future. I hope you will protect yourself and learn from the tenacity and sharpness of the Butterfly Army Thorn. The heart of a child is not suitable for everyone. For people with malicious intentions, you still have to show momentum.

Qiao Ye wants to protect you, but he can't protect you every moment, and his family is destined to be full of complexity and danger. If you don't take root and grow yourself, you will be knocked down by the wind and waves if you are not careful.And Qiao Ye, he has some flaws in his personality, sometimes he is too paranoid and assertive, and he may not know when he will hurt you as well.

I also prepared some money for you in the envelope. I don’t know when you will use it, but I hope you will never use it. You can always grow up with the two babies under Qiao Ye’s protection and be a good mother , life is not so much twists and turns.

Well, having said so much, it's time to stop.In the past, I was too serious and not good at expressing. This should be the most words I have told you, and it can also be said to be the last words.Qinzhou is not my hometown, but people like me can go anywhere, so I will go to places I have never been to, and maybe one day I will be able to let go of my deep affection for you.

My beloved Yun Shu, the cute and innocent Yun Shu, the pure and beautiful Yun Shu, goodbye.

Signed by: Shen Ce

Outside the window, the mountains and forests are secluded, as black as ink, with only a slight change in shade.Xie Yunshu looked out, avoiding the light of the letter paper and the desk lamp, his long-sighted eyes were stabbed, and two lines of tears ran across his cheeks before he knew it.

She hurriedly raised her head, blinked and stared at the ceiling, but the tears still flowed down uncontrollably.Whoever said that tears will stop flowing when you look up, is lying.

There was a dull pain in the head, and the headache caused by crying had happened again.But what does it matter? Shen Ce was originally a free wolf. He wanted to let go of his feelings for her and go far away, but accidentally kissed her and made a big mistake. He was exiled to desolate Africa by Qiao Ye, and could never return. Come.

Compared to the pain he endured, she was the real fool and coward.

She had never hated herself or Qiao Ye more than at this moment.Everything has a cause and effect, and the repeated harm among the three was all caused by Qiao Ye, and all because of himself.

Shen Ce was the biggest victim. After he was tricked by Qiao Ye into drinking the drugged coffee, he didn't think about his own safety at all. He still wanted to protect her and insisted on confronting Qiao Ye. Unfortunately, he really He was powerless to resist the attack on Qiao Ye.

But Qiao Ye, he was more bloodthirsty and ruthless than Shen Ce who was on the battlefield, he didn't give Shen Ce any leeway, and exiled him regardless.As everyone knows, while cutting off the possibility between her and Shen Ce, it also cut off her trust and tenderness towards him.

You can't hurt your heart casually, but Qiao Ye doesn't seem to understand this truth, he always said that she does things regardless of the consequences, but as for himself, while hurting Shen Ce, he didn't consider her feelings at all.

Qiao Ye, I will not take revenge on you, nor will I forgive you.I gave up on you, it turned out to be the best way to let go of myself.