bad love

For such things as amnesia, I personally feel that it is quite unreliable.For example, Wang Yanxi and Xia Yan always look at me with a mixture of resentment and pity.

What makes me most uncomfortable is Wen Jichen, his eyes always have complexities that I can't understand, like love, heartache, and sometimes hatred.

Until I was discharged from the hospital and I was able to go to college normally, I still had that lingering memory in my mind.

At night in Beijing, there are always lights and neon lights, and colorful people weaving.The hospital is probably the only one that is incompatible with such a lively atmosphere.This is the place where the disease and people's pain are intertwined. I haven't gone out for activities for a long time, and lying on the hospital bed every day is like mold.

That night, Wen Jichen still slept with his arms around me.Compared with the first time, I seemed much more relaxed this time, less nervous and flustered, and more stable.

I don't know if it was caused by the previous amnesia or the car accident, but I always sleep very lightly, and I can be awakened by the slightest movement.

This time is no exception.

I nestled quietly in Wen Jichen's arms, sniffing his nice body fragrance.I am obsessed with this smell, with the light fragrance lingering around me, I can always fall asleep as soon as possible.

Wen Jichen looked at me with downcast eyes gently, and gently stroked my hair with his delicate and slender hands.

This feeling is very comfortable, and I am half asleep and half awake.

Just when I was about to fall asleep, I heard Wen Jichen's low, velvety voice.

"Liu Xiangsi... how could you just forget me like this?" I slept with my head down and couldn't see his expression, but I guessed that his eyes must be mixed with the same hatred as before when he looked at me.

I didn't move and continued to pretend to be asleep.

"You did something so excessive...do you want to get rid of me by forgetting me now?" His voice was visibly trembling.

At this time, I couldn't bear it anymore, I raised my head and glared at him: "What exaggerated thing have I done to make you so angry?" I frowned and looked into Wen Jichen's deep eyes.

Wen Jichen was startled for a moment, then his eyes gradually dimmed.

"It's nothing... I woke you up, go back to sleep." His deep voice always fascinated me, and when I looked at his handsome face, I suddenly felt a little bit of pain in my heart.

I want to hug him.

even wanted to kiss him...

I was intimidated by the bold idea that popped into my head.

I rubbed against his arms without closing my eyes.What was the relationship between me and Wen Jichen before?Are they really lovers?

Aren't he and I brother and sister? How could there be such an intimate move...

I thought about it for a long time, and I almost fell asleep thinking about it.

The only way is to get back the memory of the past...

But how do I get my memory back...

Suddenly, many fragments flashed in my mind, like lightning, and quickly disappeared.On a cold rainy night, Wen Jichen pulled me into his arms...

In my room, he's kissing my neck...

These clips remained in my mind, and I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my head, as if some blood-sucking monster was trying to suck out my brain... I frowned, trembling from the pain, stretched out my hand tightly Hold your head down.

"Brother... I can't remember... My head hurts..." I pursed my white lips and murmured.

Wen Jichen was frightened by me, panic and worry appeared on his usually calm face: "Doudou, do you have a headache? What are you thinking about?"

"You kiss me...you're kissing me..." My headache got worse, even Wen Jichen's call seemed so far away in my ears, I bit out these words with difficulty.

Suddenly, I was forced to raise my head.

My face was pale from the headache, before I could open my eyes, a soft lip covered my lips.The hot feeling made my brain go blank, and the severe headache stopped abruptly at that moment.

I couldn't help but widen my eyes, and Wen Jichen didn't close them either, but just looked at me tenderly with half-opened eyes, with distressed and loving eyes.

My heart suddenly missed a beat.

This feeling of deja vu...

I found that all the previous memories were gone, even those small fragments that finally flashed through my mind, but all disappeared.

After a long time, Wen Jichen let me go gently.

"Brother...you..." I opened my mouth and stared blankly at Wen Jichen.

"Doudou... I hoped that you could remember everything before. But not now... It would be best for you to forget all those bad memories. It is the crack in our relationship. I decided to re- I love you and pursue you again." He stroked my face, frowning slightly.

This naked confession gave me a familiar feeling, but I still felt my heart throbbing.

I shook my head: "No...you are my brother..."

After only a few days of getting along, I also have some affection for Wen Jichen, but it will never develop to the level of love, besides, he is my rightful brother.

I thought Wen Jichen would be very frustrated, but the corners of his mouth curled up slightly, and he gently scratched my nose: "You said the same thing before."

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Since I got out of the hospital and went to school normally, I don't live in the dormitory either.I always thought that my brain was the most injured, but I didn't expect it to be my legs!I suffered a comminuted fracture of the calf and needed to be fixed with a steel plate. During the operation, even though I was given anesthesia, the sound of my screaming in pain resounded throughout the building.

Wen still remembers when Wen Jichen sent me all the way downstairs in the dormitory, the scene was the same as when Andy came, all the women in the building were endocrine disorders caused by him.

Wen Jichen said that it will take about half a year for me to recover. Liu Xicheng is a senior orthopedic surgeon who came back from the United States, and his medical skills are naturally nothing to say.Therefore, Wen Jichen insisted on taking me back to the apartment every day when I didn't have classes. In fact, I didn't think it was necessary at all. The Potato Chip Girls would take care of me. When they saw me, tears filled their eyes with excitement, and they even went to buy it for me. Many supplements.

Of course, as a price, I will treat them to a big meal after I recover.

I had to use crutches to walk in school, so Miejue Shitai was rarely kind, and never asked me to answer questions every time in class.The boys always looked at me with a kind of extremely sympathetic and distressed eyes.

Although I don't know what they are hurting, it seems to hurt them.

Lin Haonan is also very enthusiastic. After I rejected him so many times, he still treats me as well as before.So, lately I've been hearing girls at school whispering words like "crime" "monster" "handicapped" "whore with a broken leg"...

If I had done it before, I would have put my hands on my hips and cursed back loudly.However, I have only one thought right now.

It is to retrieve the memory.

Xia Yan and Wang Yanxi didn't dare to say a word to me about my car accident and the reason. I guess it was Wen Jichen's coercion and lure that made them shut up.

Wen Jichen's news was well blocked, and neither his stepfather nor mother knew about it.I also don't want them to worry, and soon, Wen Jichen and I will go to see them together.

However, the woman standing in front of me today, I feel very familiar with her, but I can't remember it at all.

"Hi Liu Xiangsi, I'm Baiman, don't you remember?" The pure and kind face in front of me showed a sweet smile, and extended his hand friendly to me.