bad love

My red and swollen eyes and pale face made me look like a zombie in an American TV series.When I yelled that sentence, there was no sound outside the door... the silence was terrifying.

Everyone understands what this means.

I smashed almost everything in the bathroom, and no one outside tried to dissuade me. All I could hear was my cries and destruction.

Finally... I'm tired.

I'm tired of crying too...

I stood in front of the mirror in the bathroom, the hickeys all over my neck were so shocking, and my eyes were so stinging... Looking at the dense red and purple marks, I felt as if I was being bitten by thousands of ants As if biting, I frowned suddenly, and scratched the snow-white neck with my fingers...

All gone...don't stay on it...all gone!

I stared at myself in the mirror with resentment and humiliation, my eyes turned blood red with anger, and my bloodshot eyes made me look hideous... I couldn’t help but grin my teeth in pain, but my fingers were still moving tirelessly Scratching his own neck one by one...

Dazzling blood flowed down my fingertips...

"Let's all disappear...it's so dirty..." I whispered, tears fell from my eyes again.Suddenly, there was a loud noise outside the door...

Wen Jichen kicked the door open.

I stood in front of the mirror, and my hands were still scratching my body... There was blood dripping everywhere on the ground, but I didn't notice it at all...

"Liu Xiangsi! You are fucking crazy!" As Wen Jichen shouted loudly, someone grabbed my wrist tightly.

Wang Yanxi and Xia Yan looked at my unrecognizable neck...the glaring wounds from my grasp even looked a bit disgusting...

Wang Yanxi covered her mouth and frowned tightly.Gu Beicheng next to her had the same expression, noticing that Wang Yanxi was trembling slightly, and hugged her tightly in his arms...

I looked at everyone's eyes, worried, concerned, pity, distressed, unbelievable...

I looked into everyone's eyes in a panic, and I violently shook off Wen Jichen's hand that was clamping my wrist.Even if their eyes were kind, it seemed to me that they were going to take me alive... Chu Peiran's face last night, the happy smile when he insulted me, kept flashing in my mind...

It was as if I was stripped naked and thrown on the street in broad daylight. I really wanted to avoid everyone's eyes, and I desperately wanted to block those hickey marks on my neck that were not affected by the wound...

Looking at Wen Jichen again.

There was pain and anger in his eyes.

……

I have always believed that love requires the loyalty of two people to maintain.Not long ago, I found out about Wen Jichen's betrayal... I felt disgusted by him, hated him, and even wanted him to disappear!

But now, even if it wasn't my intention, the fact that my body has been ruined by men other than him is actually more painful than when he betrayed me.

I looked at everyone who cared about me, and suddenly felt dizzy...

I fell without warning...

……

Maybe, I shouldn't come back...

Perhaps, I should die directly after Chu Peiran let me go.

Maybe, I should give up on him...

What can I use to maintain this fragmented relationship?

Wen Jichen, I used to think that I was your person, and I accepted your protection and love with peace of mind.Now, what kind of identity do I have to face you?What qualifications do I have to stand in front of you again?

During the period of my drowsiness, I suddenly felt that many things in the world were not that important.For example, I am always obsessed with An Ruoyi, and I even thought about killing her.

Here, I remembered that there is a very joyful truth in life, life is too short, there is no time left for us to wake up with regrets every day.So love those who treat you well and forget those who don't value you and hurt you.

Don't let yesterday's pain spread to tomorrow's happiness.

I always thought I was doing well enough, at least I could forget about Chu Peiran and An Ruoyi in a short time.

However, I overestimated my psychological quality.

Pain often comes from love.

Love often comes from persistence.

And attachment is the root cause of suffering.

……

When I woke up, the bed was full of people.Xia Yan, Wang Yanxi, Gu Beicheng, Andy, Lin Haonan... Of course, there is also Wen Jichen.I found that my neck was tightly wrapped with a circle of gauze, which looked very funny.

"Wake up, wake up!" As soon as I opened my eyes, Wang Yanxi grabbed Gu Beicheng and shouted excitedly.

Lin Haonan frowned and looked at me, and said in a worried tone, "Is your head still hurting? You passed out in the bathroom just now, which scared us a lot. How do you feel now?"

I lowered my eyes and shook my head slightly.

This sense of belonging is really good.

"Xingsi Xiangsi, do you want to eat something? Are you hungry?" Andy also asked from the side.

Others also rushed to ask me some irrelevant questions.But... do they think I'm a fool?I could tell they were trying to change the subject, not a word about where I was last night.

"Xiangsi, let me cook porridge for you."

"Xiangsi, I'll get you some water."

"Xiangsi, does your neck still hurt?"

"Acacia..."

"..."

I listened quietly to the voices of the people around me, and finally interrupted coldly: "Enough."

The surroundings fell silent in an instant.

"Since everyone is here, let's be a witness. From today on, Wen Jichen and I are only brothers and sisters. If it's because of the ridiculous relationship before, it should be broken today. Wen Jichen, let's break up." I raised my head, looked straight at Wen Jichen's face, and said coldly.

Wen Jichen's originally expressionless face finally showed a gap.

"Liu Xiangsi...you are really cruel..." His lips were pale, his face was extremely cold, and he spit out these words from his mouth.

"Last night, who was it?" Before I could answer, he asked again.

As soon as he finished speaking, everyone gasped.

Chu Peiran's smiling face flashed across my mind again... The water mist swirls, the woman's cry, the splash of water, traces of blood... These fragments once again put me together and broke me His heart broke open again.

I didn't even realize that my body was trembling slightly, but I stubbornly raised my head and stared at his dark eyes: "It has nothing to do with you."

Wang Yanxi frowned a little, Xia Yan also said beside him: "Xiangsi, if you have something to say, Ah Chen also cares about you...don't blame him."

"Xia Yan, shut up!" Wen Jichen interrupted Xia Yan viciously.

After Wen Jichen finished speaking, just as I was about to speak, he instantly grabbed my wrist and quickly pushed away my sleeve.He raised my wrist in front of me with red eyes, and said coldly: "What is this? Don't think that I will believe you when you say that you like someone else and that you slept with someone else!"

I froze, how could he know that I was going to say that...

"I know yourself better than you. Who the hell... did that to you?" Wen Jichen's cold and irreversible voice rang in my ears.