bad love

Chapter 170

Wen Jichen hugged me tightly, I opened my mouth in pain and bit his shoulder hard.

Wen Jichen couldn't help taking a deep breath from the pain, but hugged me even tighter, with no intention of letting go at all, with complete heartache in his eyes.

I trembled violently in Wen Jichen's arms in pain, and squeezed Wen Jichen's wrist until it gradually became numb and cramped, a large amount of blood was discharged from my body, and after the pieces of flesh and blood came out completely , I almost collapsed...

Looking at the mushy red liquid in the spittoon, which was blood or flesh, I cried in Wen Jichen's arms.Wen Jichen didn't mean to blame me, there was only endless distress and pain in his eyes, and he kept saying: "Doudou." He stroked my hair, as if he wanted to soothe my heart.

"Brother..." I sobbed in his arms, my voice trembling.

After Andy showed the bloody spittoon to the doctor who prescribed the medicine before, the doctor confirmed that there is no need to clear the palace, and Andy's constant fear finally fell, and he breathed a deep sigh of relief.

Fortunately, Lin Haonan has been giving me blood-enriching food these days, otherwise I would bleed to death.Wen Jichen thanked Lin Haonan and Andy, and apologized for beating Andy before, and then took me back to the apartment.

At home, I lay haggard on the bed, stroking my lower abdomen with my hands intentionally or unintentionally.

After going through abortion, I suddenly thought of my mother.In fact, it is quite easy for a woman to kill a child, and she must have made a lot of determination to have a child...

I feel very sorry for her, it is not easy for her to live alone for so many years.Even though I was entrusted by her to the best nursery, she would go back to see me whenever she had the chance, and every time she would please me and make me happy, bringing me many toys and clothes that children of the same age could not get.

I still remember when she came back to see me in the fourth and fifth grades of elementary school, her eyes were sunken, and she took me to the playground, the park, and the mall to buy clothes.She always felt sorry for me and tried her best to make up for everything.

But many times, she and I don't look like mother and daughter.

She is so beautiful, and she is always in the right size when she talks to me.Rather than being a mother and daughter, it is better to say that she and I are more like friends for many years.

During the days when she was pregnant, she always took care of herself alone. Even if my father was alive at that time, he couldn't do anything for her or me.

I was thinking, she knew it would be like this a long time ago, and what kind of mentality she had when she gave birth to me...

She is stronger than me.

Also kinder than me.

If this happened to me, if she found out, she would probably die of heartache.

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Wen Jichen also knew that I wanted to hide the abortion from him, and I didn't want to tell him who that man was.Therefore, he just tried his best to take care of me without asking any more questions.

He is always so considerate that he won't let me go on the road. I have a bad appetite, so every day he always cooks some delicious and nourishing food for me to eat.

At night, he was still lying on the bed reading a book, and he was as gentle to me as ever, and even loved me even more.But my sense of guilt keeps increasing, the better he treats me, the more I feel sorry for him.

"Doudou, in fact, if you want this child, I can take care of him with you." Wen Jichen held me in his arms, wrapped his fingers around my hair, and said softly.

In the dark, I listened to his steady heartbeat, but I couldn't see anything, I couldn't see his expression, I could only listen to the voice to judge that his words came from the heart.

"I don't want it," I said.

"Promise me, no matter what happens in the future, don't hide it from me, okay?" Wen Jichen said.

I had a sore nose, and tears flowed out unsatisfactorily, dripping on his hot chest, and I nodded slightly.

Huddled in his wide and warm embrace, there was a blood-like warm feeling flowing in my body, and I fell asleep just like that, smelling the faint body fragrance from Wen Jichen's chest, and then I dreamed of many people.

I dreamed of Andy and Lin Haonan who were so kind to me, dreamed of Wang Yanxi who almost connected my pain and happiness with her emotions, dreamed of Gu Beicheng, dreamed of Xia Yan and Liu Xicheng, dreamed of stepfather and Mom, I dream of all the people who love me and treat me well, and finally Wen Jichen...

Man is obviously a greedy animal.Take love as an example. At first, I just wanted to see more, but gradually it turned into communication, sharing, and then possessiveness.Began to be dissatisfied, critical, want to change, want to live with it.But Wen Jichen always maintained a moderate level, he didn't want to stop me from doing everything I wanted to do, he wasn't irritable, anxious, or hysterical.

Although he was also angry because of my excess, he will eventually give in because he loves me, obey me, let me rely on him, and clean up the mess for me.

Compared with his kindness to me, I really don't deserve him.

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Under Wen Jichen's care, in less than a week, my ugly complexion also returned to color, and it became more and more rosy day by day.The sick leave I applied for is about to expire, and I am thinking about going to school again.

During the period of sick leave, Xia Yan sent me an extra copy of notes for me in class.I held the notebook with trembling hands in gratitude.

There is a kind of little friend who is so good, even if you are sick, you will not let you drop your studies.

During this time, I also thought a lot.

I've been decadent, I've cried, I've been in pain.After the child was aborted, Chu Peiran and I had no more than half a dime relationship. This incident gave me some comfort, let's face life again.

My personality gradually became as cheerful as before. After all, I always had a cold face, and Wen Jichen felt uncomfortable.

After returning to school, I also plan to join some clubs, in the words of Potato Chip Girl, to enrich my life.

In fact, from the beginning of the first semester, my roommates have been pestering me to join this club and that club.But I think it's too troublesome. Some evening dances in school are full of handsome men and beautiful women, and I don't attend them at all.Up to now, I don't know much about the popular star students in my grade.

Recently, I have become obsessed with reading novels, watched many movies and wrote many film reviews.In the end, I shot around the campus with a SLR, cut a film and won an award in school.

For this reason, Miejue Shitai and the counselor love me even more.

Seeing that I am so enthusiastic about life every day, Wen Jichen is also relieved to be busy with the affairs of the company.But occasionally...he would be frightened...

For example, I hid in bed in the middle of the night and suddenly cried...

When he was half asleep and half awake, he felt me ​​trembling and sobbing, his head was still tightly covered in the quilt, and he lifted the quilt nervously, thinking that I had encountered something that made me sad again.

It turned out that I just used my mobile phone to read novels and cried...

So he slapped my butt hard, "Damn girl sleep!" He said through gritted teeth, snatched my mobile phone and put it aside, and put his arms around me to sleep.