I don't like the world, I only like you

Chapter 8 Three Little Things
001
In the middle of the night, I suddenly remembered a few things.

When I was a sophomore, a high school classmate came to Changsha to visit me.

During the chat, she said, "I always thought you got a C major because of an F."

I said no, and asked her why she thought so.

She said: "Don't you know, C University and F's school have exchange students every year."

I know, I've heard of it since I first came to school, but I never paid much attention to it.

"At that time, we were filling out the application form. F suddenly came to me and asked my brother if he studied at C University and is now an exchange student in the UK. I said yes, C University has quotas every year. He asked me for my brother's MSN At that time, I thought it was he who wanted to apply for C University, but later I realized that he asked for you."

I was stunned: "But he never told me this."

"Maybe I don't want to put pressure on you."

My mind went blank at the time.

My volunteers are very tangled. Unlike Guanchao and F, I just fill in the best ones. My grades are not high or low, but it is the most difficult to choose.Looking back now, all the schools in my volunteers were found out for me by flipping through the book.

It wasn't until that moment that I realized that in fact, a long time ago, when I was still cowering and avoiding pushing him away, he had planned me into his future without saying a word.

The most regrettable part of growing up is that we always meet the best people in the most ignorant years, but we don't know it.

002
Second thing.

I am a person with a long reflex arc. After he left, I didn’t think about him in particular. In fact, I lived a very fulfilling and happy college life without him. I made a bunch of cheerful and interesting friends. I miss that time very much. .

One day, I was reading in the library. At four or five o’clock in the afternoon, I was sitting by the window. The sun shone on my book through the blinds. Under the transparent beam, I saw a sentence:

"It's just that the spring is like this, but I can't see you."

On the way back, that sentence kept lingering in my mind.It usually takes only 10 minutes to go back to the dormitory from the library. I walked a long way that day and walked around the school by myself.

As the sun goes down, I head back.

The last afterglow remained on the ground, and the sycamore trees on both sides were rustling by the wind. Everything was normal and everything was fine, but at that moment, I suddenly realized what it means to be "you are not lonely if you can talk to others."

That sentence kept echoing in my mind, it's just that the spring is like this, but I can't see you.

At that time, the school radio played Zhang Xinzhe's "White Moonlight" especially for the occasion.

The white moon shines on both ends of the horizon

in my heart but not by my side
I can't wipe away your tears

The road is too long, I can't find forgiveness
The white moon shines on both ends of the horizon

The more perfect the more lonely I feel
I can't wipe away the tears in my memories

How to compensate for the long road
I listened to the lyrics and suddenly started crying on the side of the road.

That was the first time I cried because of this incident after he left.I'm very good at restraining my emotions and being patient, but at that moment I really felt that I couldn't restrain myself any longer.I found that I have so many things I want to say to him, I want to tell him that I am very happy now, I don’t feel particularly inferior, my life is relaxed and happy, and I try to make myself better every day. I am full of expectations for the future.I am the best me right now, if only you were by my side.

It's just that spring is like this, but I can't see you.

003
The above two paragraphs made me feel uncomfortable, so I closed my laptop and looked back at him.

He's asleep and I just shaved his chin open with a new razor and I put a SpongeBob Band-Aid on him as a joke.

I climbed onto the bed and whispered in his ear: "We will never be separated again, okay?"

"What's going on at night?" He hummed sleepily.

"Answer me first."

He closed his eyes and covered me with the quilt.

"From the day I met you, I never thought about breaking up."

This is the third little thing.

(End of this chapter)