Lord, your mask fell off

Chapter 247 You Are Not Really Happy

"Twinkling and twinkling, the sky is full of small stars, hanging in the sky to shine brightly, like thousands of little eyes..."

Once the summer is over, thousands of stars have disappeared, and at this time there is a cloudless moon.

The breeze was blowing slightly, and the flowers and plants on the ground were blooming in the wind. Although the night on the mountain was very deserted, but for some reason, when he heard the singing of the little guy, he seemed to feel that small eyes really appeared in the sky. All of a sudden it was empty.

"What song is this?" Xiao Xu lowered his voice and asked after she finished singing.

"It's called Little Star." Chu Qingyan suddenly thought of something, and took out something shining white from her skirt, then held it up, smiled and said to the people beside her, "Although there are no stars tonight, but Now I have a star in my hand, which was given to me by you, then I invite you to watch the stars together."

Xiao Xu shifted his gaze to the fluorite in her hand, it was his birthday gift to the little guy, at this moment, there was a soft light blooming in her palm, as if she held it in her palm like a real star .

"You call borrowing flowers to offer Buddha." Xiao Xu looked away, feeling a little heavy on his eyelids, but still opened them reluctantly, trying to wake up his drowsy head.

Chu Qingyan grinned at him, "Anyway, you have given me this flower, so the ownership is mine. I have the right to possess, use, profit from, and dispose of it? And you want to be What Buddha? Maitreya Buddha? Fighting and Conquering Buddha? Purifying the Altar Messenger?"

For someone's poor talk, he has always let it go.

But after she said a series of words, his head felt heavier and his eyelids were about to close.

But the person next to the ear suddenly fell into a soliloquy, "But Maitreya Buddha is always smiling, and you always have a straight face, which doesn't match you at all. The envoy of the altar is just a foodie. Almost, Fighting and Conquering Buddha is a bit similar to you, punishing evil and promoting good, not being soft-hearted to bad people, loving the people like a child, and you are strong in martial arts, wise and clear about right and wrong, but it's a pity, people are lively and active, but you He is always dull-tempered, is he a good young man who is only 20 years old?"

As he talked, he started complaining, Xiao Xu felt that this little guy was getting bolder and bolder, and wanted to raise his hand to give her a chestnut, but his whole body was already weak, and even his thoughts gradually became slack, and finally fell into the endless darkness middle.

And the little guy's rambling thoughts were still in his ears, but it was like a lullaby, making him close his eyes peacefully.

"Forget it, let's not talk about you, or you will say that I am not big or young," Chu Qingyan heard that there was no sound in her ear, and she wanted to come to the big ice cube to ignore her, so she had to give up, but soon She cheered up, "Big Ice Cube, I'll sing you another song, you..."

As soon as she turned her head, the smile stopped on her lips, Chu Qingyan heaved a sigh of relief, and the big ice cube finally fell asleep.

Tonight, she went to Kong Ling to get a pack of Anshensan. She wanted to add all of it to the medicine soup, but she was worried that the big ice cube would be suspicious, so she added a little to the medicine, added some to the food, and her own clothes superior.

Kong Ling said that the medicine has a long-lasting effect, but the effect is not fast, so in order to avoid the suspicion of the big ice cube, she abducted him to enjoy the night sky.

She helped him straighten his clothes, then sat up, put her hands on her knees, and leaned against his side, her expression was not as happy as before, "Big Ice Cube, although you fell asleep, there is a song that I have always wanted If I want to sing it to you, it’s fine if you’re asleep.”

With a smile on the corner of her mouth, Chu Qingyan's eyes fell on the person beside her, the silver mask exuded a soft silver light under the moonlight.

The clever singing sounded again in the mountains.

"The crowd cried,

You just want to be a transparent color,
you will never again,
Dream or pain or heartbeat,
you have decided,

you have decided-

you bear it quietly,

Hold yesterday tightly in your fist.

And the sweeter the memory,

It just hurts more.

The more you keep in the palm of your hand,
Dense deep and shallow knife cuts. "

Ever since you were young, you have never experienced what family affection is. Maybe before Xiao Ran was born, Emperor Xixuan still cared about you, but with the birth of Xiao Ran, your position was replaced, or in other words, Xiao Ran got The love of a father you never had.

"you are not really happy

your smile is just,
The protective colors you wear,

You decided not to hate,

I also decided not to love,

take your soul,
Shut in a body locked forever,
The world laughed,
So you laughed together,
When survival is the rule,

not your choice,

So with tears in your eyes,

Walking staggeringly. "

But for so many years, you have never given up your desire for family affection, and you have been submissive. You strive for opportunities and let everyone see your efforts. You are not a prince who has a noble status but is useless!

But what is the result?

Empress Liang pressed you every step of the way, and Emperor Xixuan took advantage of you ruthlessly.

Every misunderstanding, every wronged, you bear silently and alone.

Consistently for 20 years.

But no matter how strong a person is, no matter how tolerant they are, one day they will have no strength to move forward.

When it rained all night and was punished to kneel down, what was waiting was not the truth, but Ling Dang's imprisonment.

When he walked out of the prison and entered the palace, there was no appeasement but a new task came.

When saying goodbye before leaving, it turned out to be behind closed doors.

The mountain that always stood tall as if no one could easily push it down was finally crushed by the last straw.

"you are not really happy,
Your wound never refuses,

complete healing,
I stand on your left,

But like across the Milky Way,

Do you really hold regrets,

Until old age? "

If it were someone else, you would have already been tortured and collapsed, but you just chose to swallow the bitterness alone, and then carried on with the mission to move on.

Big ice cube, how can you do this?Are you always thinking about others, but not caring about yourself?

Obviously your heart is so warm and tender, but others slander you as hard-hearted, cold-blooded, cruel and ruthless!
Obviously you deserve more praise and praise, but what you get is abuse and slander.

This road, you have already walked so hard, why do those people push you to a dead end, and drain your last bit of energy?
"You deserve true happiness,
you should take it off
The protective colors you wear,

why lost,

still be punished,

Can you just let the sadness,
It all ends at this moment,
Start living again! "

Big Ice Cube, I hope that one day, you can live for yourself, truly live without incident, and not be bound by those so-called responsibilities, so-called things you should do, and things you so-called must do.

A string of tears overflowed from Lingdong's big eyes.

Big ice cube, how do you not make people feel bad?

Chu Qingyan couldn't help stretching out her arms to hug him, crying uncontrollably, "Big Ice Cube, I know, I understand, I want, you are happy!"

　(Ten years old: I know, I understand, I want, you guys are happy—to ten years old readers~
　　Counting Wood Spirits: Fourth update~)

　　
　
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