Lord, your mask fell off

Chapter 294 Analysis of the Heart Traces in 20 Years

Xiao Xu felt that at that moment, there was a hole in his heart, and what poured in was not cold wind, but warm light.

He suddenly found that what he had been looking for for nearly 20 years had been found in her.

He thought that he was too far away from warmth.

But I don't want to see a warmth that I have never experienced before in this little guy.

"Little guy, if you don't want me to go, then wake up quickly!" Xiao Xu held her hand tightly, suppressing the bitterness and worry in his throat.

If God finally let him go after torturing him for so many years, don't take her away!

Come has come, he will not allow her to leave!

As if sensing the familiar aura around her, Chu Qingyan slowly stopped sobbing and fell into a coma again.

The high fever of the body still persists.

An hour later, Cheng Yanluo came in for a checkup and found that the high fever didn't subside, but was showing a tendency to increase, so she immediately changed the supplementary medicine and told Xiao Xu to feed her.

Xiao Xu held that pale little hand and complied.

Before Cheng Yanluo left, she saw Xiao Xu's flat eyes sparkling with pain, and she couldn't help but sigh in her heart, this is also a hard-fated person, forget it, let's write off the resentment towards him before, after all, back then he It's just an indirect factor. If you really want to blame it, you can only blame fate and fate.

She turned around to leave, but saw a man looking at her in the moonlight.

Cheng Yanluo pretended not to see him, and was about to pass him by.

"Xiao Yan, I'm sorry." Kong Ling lowered his head and said.

Cheng Yanluo closed her eyes. She had waited six years for this apology, but it was too late.

Because the heart is already tired.

How to make a heart riddled with holes wait for a relationship that has not blossomed in the past?

She didn't stop, forcing herself not to look back step by step.

Murong Jue, if I could choose, I would rather not have met you.

The moment the cold wind blew past, Kong Ling clenched her hands tightly, wanting to stop her, but she knew it clearly in her heart.

For his hatred, Xiao Yan has already engraved it in her heart, no matter what she says, she will not forgive herself.

However, there is hatred, fortunately, if there is no hatred, it is the most desperate.

On a moonlit night, who is happy and who is sad?
No one knows, who will be pity for the winter wind and cold moon?
After Xiao Xu finished feeding the second bowl of medicine, the temperature on Chu Qingyan's body began to slowly show signs of subsiding.

But he remembered Cheng Yanluo's explanation that she used a strong medicine for this prescription, and she couldn't guarantee whether it would be repeated in the middle of the night, so he must pay attention to it.

Sleeping people don't wake up, time goes by bit by bit, but people wait anxiously.

He suddenly thought, when he has been in a coma these days, does the little guy also worry about him?

He regretted a little, he should confess to her today that he was awake, so that she would not suffer from fear again in her dream.

There was a slight bitterness in the corner of his mouth, Xiao Xu covered her hand, and said slowly, "I remember that you talked with me a lot during the time I fell asleep, this time I will talk with you."

I still remember that when wandering in the dark, it was the little guy who didn't give up, and kept filling the scenery around him with every word. Whenever he was about to leave like this, it was her crying, her reluctance, her The regret, like vines, entangled his limbs tightly, making him unable to leave, and then waiting for the dawn.

"As soon as I was born, my identity was doomed. I was the first prince of Xixuan Kingdom. It also doomed me to live an unequal life."

"I didn't understand it when I was young. I thought that as long as I worked hard and became a talent, he would look at me, but unfortunately I didn't."

"Then I thought, if I become an irreplaceable person, will they also look at me?"

"But in the end," he smiled wryly, "I became a thorn in their eyes, a stumbling block that they wanted to get rid of quickly."

"I don't understand why everything didn't develop as the queen mother said, until the fire ignited, and the people around me were killed one by one in front of me in order to protect me, the blood flowed into the palace, the red fire , when I was ten years old, my eyes were red, red blood, red flames, and then swallowed everything."

"Little guy, in fact, in the past, I was very envious of the children of the people. Although they were not rich, and they didn't have servants to hug and hug them, what they had was family affection that I didn't have. In this regard, they Can easily defeat me."

He caressed her face and smiled slightly, "Little guy, have you already guessed another mission my father entrusted to me? That's why you don't want to leave me in the woods?"

He didn't wait for the answer from the person on the bed, and he was not disappointed, but continued, "Originally, I planned to hand over the remaining military power after I was released from prison, and take you away from the court, but the emperor took a step ahead of me and proposed Even though the goal is the same, what he wants is also my military power, and it is also my departure, but the departure he wants is different from the one I want to leave."

That night of kneeling, his father's injustice, and his mother's disappointment, he pondered for a long time, and suddenly he figured out a lot of things.

He smiled at the corner of his mouth, but there was no sadness, "As a person in power, you must have a heart that is colder than others, even for your own son. The person he wants to support is not me, so I am not surprised, or It is said that I have recognized it ten years ago."

"But little guy, there are many things in this world that you want to avoid, but you can't avoid them anyway. I don't want to fight for power, but the mother and the Liang family need me to fight for it. The mother gave birth to me, and the Liang family raised the mother. I can't abandon them, but all these years, I've only done enough for them to check and balance the Fu family, no matter how much, I can't afford it."

"Because I'm worried that once you give too much, people's hearts will swell, and it will be out of control." He closed his eyes, "In the eyes of others, you are not the best, no matter how hard you fight, you can't change it. If that’s the case, why should I fight for it?”

Father Huang only has four younger brothers in his heart, since it cannot be changed, no matter how hard he tries, it will be useless.

"I know, you must secretly say that I shouldn't be so loyal, I shouldn't agree to these unequal treaties, and I shouldn't take on these tasks."

"But little guy, I am a citizen of Xixuan before I am a prince. If the country needs me, I must dedicate my ability to punish rape and evil, seek justice for the people, and return Xixuan to a peaceful and prosperous world. "

"I have been alone for so many years, and I don't want those children to repeat my mistakes."

"But now, I also know, I still have you, I am no longer alone."

　(Catching: Hugs with big ice cubes!

　　Chu Papa: I'm going to cry!

　　Ann: Me too!

　　Big Ice Cube: Author, are you sure this king said such sensational words?
　　An'an: If it is fake, it will be replaced!
　　Big Ice Cube: Little guy, sharpen your knife, I will help you!

　　Wood spirit count: the fifth update!meet on Monday! )

　　
　
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