It's hard to love a concubine

Chapter 699

The emperor suddenly came back to his senses, only to realize that he had just fallen asleep again.

How long ago was that?

About when he was 13?At that time, he lived in the harem tremblingly, fearing that the emperor would dislike him and the empress would dislike him, so all he could think about was how to protect himself.

Waiting to come out of the cellar, he suddenly changed his mind. People who have experienced life and death will see through some things.

Afterwards, things were a little strange. He began to care about the daughter of the imperial physician named Qian Xiyao. When she went out shopping or visited temple fairs, she would always watch her secretly.

When he killed someone for the first time after joining the Guard Division, he was calm in front of outsiders, but he was very disturbed inside. He vomited in a place where no one was around, as if he wanted to vomit his stomach out, and left without knowing it. When he arrived at Qian Mansion, the girl no longer knew him.

At that time, Qian Qiubai changed his face for his safety. She happened to go out to buy pastries from the pastry shop facing the street. She was shocked when she saw a young man throwing up in front of her, and asked him if he wanted to go to her family's hospital for medical treatment. .

He looked at this girl, her skin was fair, her eyes were gentle, her red lips were like flames, and she suddenly had an indescribable greed.

It was like suddenly... wanting her.

At that time, his and Qin's marriage was coming soon, but his mind was full of thoughts about how to abduct her to his side. This desire became more and more intense, and he even had a wet dream about her once.

But thinking of Qian Xiyao angrily talking about the three wives and four concubines who hated men, he began to hesitate again. He could not regret the marriage. The Qin family gave him an olive branch when he was in the most difficult time. Repay them... Qin is infertile, if she cannot marry him, she will be ruined for the rest of her life.

In the news of the last thought, he felt that there were two lines between Qian Xiyao and him, they couldn't connect together, and he couldn't give her what she wanted.

But did you really give up?

There is a kind of flame, the more you want to extinguish it, the more vigorous it will burn. Later, he thought about whether he had accepted her without hesitation at that time, so maybe there would not be such a deep bond?
But later, he had no way to investigate, and kept her somewhere deep in his heart. In the dead of night, the quiet aftertaste became a secret of his own.

And then he finally ascended to that throne.

When the empress Qin virtuously sent the list of beautiful women and asked him if he had any favorite women, he suddenly found it difficult to restrain himself.

Let her enter the palace!

get this woman.

That thought was on his mind at the time.But soon rationally denied this point, she is not suitable, she is not willing to come in, there is glory and wealth in the harem, but there is no word "freedom", but there is a voice in my heart saying, don't lie to yourself , you have been guarding yourself like a jade for so many years, don't you just remember what she said, and want to be a couple for the rest of your life, and grow old together?
Get her and let her give birth to their child, so that the two will be dependent on each other in honor and disgrace, and will not be separated.

I was so impulsive and excited when making a decision, as if the wish I had been looking forward to for many years could finally come true, but after seeing her in the harem, seeing her sullen look, and seeing her say goodbye to her parents, the emperor began to hesitate , and even an unspeakable sense of guilt.

He said to himself, when she enters the palace, you give her all the glory you can give her, and love her as much as you can, that's all right, it's better than she randomly finds a man to marry, right?

(End of this chapter)