Rebirth in a prosperous world

Chapter 50 A World Without Self

She is very smart in many things, she has a quick brain, is eloquent, and has deep and detailed thoughts.Since then, she has always been very outstanding in her daily life, whether it is academics or work, she is a long way beyond the average person.

However, in front of outsiders, she was so perfect that she had no flaws, but now she could only peel a good apple into pits.Half a catty of big apples are only the size of a fist after removing the skin.Not only that, but the originally clean and clean floor was scattered with stains from fruit peels and juices.

However, Gu Yan was still doing this very seriously and with great concentration.

Hearing her mother's voice, Gu Yan just finished peeling the apple, looked the bumpy apple up and down, and hid it directly behind her with some shame.

"Mom, what's wrong?"

Noticing her daughter's childish movements, Gu's mother showed a little smile on her face.

"Xiao Yan, haven't you slept well these days? You don't look well."

Gu's mother said, but she was blaming herself in her heart.From the moment she woke up and saw her weeping daughter, she knew that she had scared her again.Her body is as poor as it is made of parts. Not only does she suffer, but she always hurts the people around her.This matter is also a knot in her heart that she has never told anyone.

"No."

Gu Yan shook her head without thinking, and then asked with a smile: "Mom, do you feel better today?"

Gu's mother also nodded with a smile: "Well, it's better."

Neither of them talked about Qin Hongyang.In fact, Qin Hongyang also appeared several times when Gu Yan was not around.It's just that after that incident, Mama Gu already had a shadow in her heart. When she saw his affectionate style again, the first feeling was not moved, but subconsciously remembered what happened that day, and remembered that like a family of four. Harmony picture.

She knew that she shouldn't doubt her husband, and shouldn't think about this and that because of such a trivial matter. She should trust this man who has been with her for 20 years.But she found that she couldn't do it, even if she still had love in her heart, when she faced it again, she couldn't believe it unreservedly like before.

"Mom, when you get better, how about you go abroad to live for a while?"

Gu Yan finally expressed his long-planned plan.

This proposal surprised Mama Gu.

She stared at her daughter for a long time, and after making sure she was not joking, she frowned and said, "Xiao Yan, what's the matter? Why did you suddenly let me go abroad? Did something happen?"

Don't blame her for thinking too much, the family has always been worried about her health for fear that she might have an accident, so they seldom even go out.Now her daughter actually proposed to let her go abroad, which is no longer such a simple matter of going out.

Gu Yan had long expected her mother to have such a reaction, but Gu Yan was still very calm, without showing any flaws: "It's nothing, I just think that you stay at home every day, mom, I'm with you, and dad is in the company every day and can't be with you." You. You are lonely when you are alone, why not go abroad to travel and see more. This is better for your health than being bored at home every day."

"No, Xiao Yan, you must have something to hide from me, right?"

Mother Gu was not so easily persuaded.She stared at her daughter persistently.

Under such gaze, Gu Yan's performance is still very calm, she can even look at her mother calmly: "No, what can I hide from you? I just heard from the doctor that going out for a walk more is good for you. I thought of it because I am in better health. And A Dong will go abroad soon, and when the time comes, Mom and you will be with A Dong, and you will be taken care of, so I can rest assured."

"really?"

Gu's mother was still worried, and told her again and again: "Xiao Yan, you have to remember that your mother is your closest person, if you have something to do, don't hide it from me."

She wasn't worried that her daughter would do bad things or anything, but she was afraid that she would suffer outside because of her young age.

"Got it, Mom."

Gu Yan still did not give up on her previous plan, and when she saw her mother calm down, she repeated again: "Mom, I mean it, I really think you can go abroad for a trip. For so many years, you have been guarding my mother for my father and me. At home, just so that we can enjoy the warmth of the family. You can’t just think about us all the time. I also want you to be happy and able to relax and do something you like instead of staying all day long Waiting at home for me and Dad to come home."

"If you think about it, you can go to see waterfalls, listen to the world's top concerts, and go to a magnificent opera. Isn't that a wonderful thing?"

Gu Yan was bewitched.

Gu's mother was also somewhat attracted by the picture her daughter drew, and this kind of beautiful description even touched a certain longing in her heart that had been suppressed all along.

She is in poor health and has a quiet temper, so she seldom leaves the house.

When I was young, I went to school around the house.Even college is completed in a school less than 5 minutes away from home.Then grew up and fell in love.When I first started dating, I would hold hands and date like other couples, but only in this city.After getting married, she became a wife who did not leave the house without leaving home.After risking his life to give birth to his daughter, his husband bought land in a suburban village and built the current Jing'an Villa because he was worried about her health.

Since she was a child, less than half an acre around her home has been her whole world.

Looking back on her more than 40 years of life, she has never taken a step out of the city where she was born and raised, let alone to another country.

However, people all have dreams, and they all have instinctive longing for unknown and beautiful things.So does she.

She wants to go to a world-class concert in person, walk in a leisurely foreign country town, and go to museums around the world to feel the precipitation of history...

She has always buried these longings in her heart, and never told anyone about them.

But now, she said it from her 17-year-old daughter.

That kind of shock and comfort is incomparable in all things.

At that moment, she didn't feel any weakness or pain. What flowed in her body was the warm current that inspired and moved her.

She always thought that no one would know about those small thoughts, not even the husband who shared the bed with her and loved her life.However, her daughter felt it.

She didn't know where her daughter noticed this, and she didn't wonder if all this was just a coincidence.Her heart was filled with touch and warmth, and a brand new door seemed to open before her eyes.

"Mom actually has a lot of dreams, but my father and I only care about ourselves, but we never pay attention to it."

(End of this chapter)