Uncle is lucky to marry me

Chapter 964 How Ridiculous
For the past three days, Han Litong has never entered the underground palace.

She has been thinking about the life she has lived in these years, wondering if she likes her self-righteously, if she really likes, if she is really in love with Fengxi, or if she feels more guilty towards him.

She found that she really didn't know.

She thought that after he left, she finally fell in love with him, even more deeply and caringly than falling in love with that person back then.She thought so.

But all these years, she still doesn't have him in her life.

She couldn't help asking herself, what was she doing?

If there is a question of who is the best person in this world to her, then without a doubt, it must be her brother Fengxi.But she never really cherished his affection, until finally, he finally had no affection for her.She has been particularly clear about the words he said before he died, if there is an afterlife, let's not meet again.

If there is an afterlife, let's not meet again.

The moment he closed his eyes and lost his vitality, she felt that her world was dark, and from then on, she was really helpless.

She was so self-righteous and stubborn, and she didn't get anything back.

At the beginning, she thought that she had sacrificed the people she saved, but now no one probably remembers her.

And the person she once loved deeply died long ago.

She felt that she had nothing left, and in the end, her elder brother Feng Xi who loved her the most also died, and she no longer loved her.

In the past few days, she has thought countless times, what is the point of her being immersed in these irreparable pains and feelings?Just like what Han Jing said, what is the point of her not letting him go and not letting go of herself?

No one has harmed her, she has harmed herself.

She is too proud, too self-righteous, she always thinks she can do anything, but in the end she did nothing.

Even her own two daughters have no affection for her, because she has never fulfilled the responsibility of being a mother, and even Qingjue, who grew up beside her, has never hugged her, no Give her the slightest mother's warmth.She is not a qualified mother, she didn't care about these before, but when she saw Han Jing getting along with Su Yaozheng, her heart was really hurt.

She thought she didn't need anything, she was lonely, she was not favored by the heavens, she stayed in her own world to enjoy herself alone, never thought about why she fell to where she is today.

Who is she in love with?She really didn't know.

"I know, even if I apologize to you, even if I admit my mistakes, it doesn't make much sense." Han Litong walked to Fengxi's coffin and stared at Fengxi's face quietly, but what she said It was said to Han Jing.

"I admit that as a mother, I have never loved you or Jue'er. I used to think that all family relationships are like this. They are responsibilities, not feelings. I took my own life and blindfolded myself , didn’t take a serious look at the world.”

"I've been covering all my true emotions with superficial vanity, forgetting that the human heart is the softest thing."

It's like she naively thought that the love between her and Ninth Brother was a love that would be earth-shattering until death, how ridiculous.

(End of this chapter)