I'm waiting for you in my memory

Chapter 12
"Are you going to force me to death?" Yao Qiyun slammed Situ Jue on the toilet lid heavily.Even he was out of breath after the ups and downs of the shocking scene, but Situ Jue, who only showed half of his face under his palm, showed joy and complacency in his eyes.She was clearly saying, what can you do?
He really didn't dare to do anything.Yao Qiyun's anger was getting defeated little by little, he even thought extremely self-abandoning, it's better to just let it go like this, he granted her wish, let her shout, let her humiliate him, at worst he would end up with a reputation of being spurned by others.As long as she is happy, as long as she is happy.

His hands were softening and relaxing along with his heart, but he didn't withdraw immediately, he could feel Situ Jue's breath hot on his palms, and her lips were soft and moist.She opened her mouth, as if she wanted to speak, but she seemed to be kissing his palm.

Yao Qiyun withdrew her hand in embarrassment, thank God, she didn't scream anymore.

Situ Jue's well-groomed hair was disheveled, and his lipstick was muddy, but he still looked nonchalant, leaning against the toilet, as comfortable as sitting in a coffee shop on the corner of the street.

Yao Qiyun gently spread out his hand, there was indeed a faint mark of lipstick on it, enchanting red.

He was wearing a meticulous Canali dark gray coat, a white shirt with straight cuffs.Perhaps because he was afraid of being poor when he was a child, Yao Qiyun was so strict about the details of life as an adult.He likes rules, likes order, likes an orderly life, likes perfection and gorgeousness.And the long-term dependence has taught him to be sensitive, meticulous and cautious.He will put all the things in the house in place, he will sort the garbage, he never eats food on the last day of the expiration date, and he has held a driver's license for ten years but has never violated traffic regulations.He hides himself deeply, and refuses what he clearly wants; in the middle of speaking, he is afraid that it is not the answer he thought of, so he draws his own conclusion; he is too afraid of doing wrong things, and seeks stability in everything. give up.

"Are you here to catch rape?" Situ Jue made up his mind to change the game.

Yao Qiyun was silent, he was indeed, but why should he?
"It's over so soon? It seems that your new love is not very good." After breathing steadily, he chose to retort, which is the way he is used to getting along.

Situ Jue sat up straight and smiled, "Which one of your eyes saw me and someone making a dewy mandarin duck?"

These words hit Yao Qiyun's weakness, his face was also showing embarrassment, and his mouth was still bitter, "What good can you do by hiding here?"

"You really want to know?"

Situ Jue leaned back again, lazily raised one leg, and half-raised it in front of the standing Yao Qiyun, as if waiting for him to review.

Yao Qiyun didn't know what the hell she was doing, but she only knew that she was wearing a skirt that was above her knees today, and the legs that were lifted up by the sitting posture were full of spring.

She has a pair of beautiful and flawless legs, straight and slender, smooth and shapely, with beautiful bare ankles and insteps.

"Did you see it?" Situ Jue asked helplessly, shaking his leg in front of the stunned Yao Qiyun.

"What?" Yao Qiyun only saw Kou Dan on her toenails, which was suffocatingly red.

"What are your eyes for?" She turned her ankle again, and this time he noticed an obvious blood blister on her heel, and he knew it was a "masterpiece" of high heels.

She poked her foot closer to him, "I just cheated on these high heels that I bought as an emergency, do you want to punish them on the spot?"

Yao Qiyun took a step back, quietly put his hands into his trouser pockets, turned his face away without seeing anything, and whispered a few words, "You are really a monster."

Situ Jue withdrew his tired legs, stared at him who was getting more and more uncomfortable, and smiled, "You are a gentleman, and only a gentleman will think of sex when he sees his bare thighs. Yao Qiyun, how dare you take your hands out of your trouser pockets?" Take it out? Don’t think I don’t know your virtues, no matter how shameless I am, I am aboveboard, far stronger than the duplicity you dare to think or do.”

Yao Qiyun's ears were flushed, and he turned his body at an angle, his back almost turned to her, trembling with anger, "Situ Jue, you are simply obscene, don't bully me too much."

Situ Jue immediately stood up.

"I didn't provoke you when I came back this time. Who forced me here? Who is bullying too much?" She pressed her step by step while talking, Yao Qiyun's back was pressed against the bathroom door, and the two breathed Hearing that, he simply closed his eyes.Situ Jue raised his head, slowed down his speech, and said in a flattering voice, "There is another more serious question. Between you and me, who is more vulgar? What do you care about in your heart, you dare not even look at me? "

As if to deny her judgment, Yao Qiyun suddenly opened his eyes, only to be surprised that her lips were so close.

"Can you swear that your mind is not full of more nasty and nasty thoughts now? You pretend to be so sanctimonious, don't you hide because you are actually hungry and thirsty, and you want to go crazy?"

Yao Qiyun's Adam's apple was sliding rapidly, and his chest rose and fell sharply.She stood on tiptoe, and every time she said a word, her lips gently brushed against his chin, and there was a bang in his mind, and she couldn't even care about what she said, only feeling dry mouth.

Situ Jue still refused to let him go, and provocatively half-closed his eyes, "Yao Qiyun, you can't bear to tease me so much, do you still think of me? Didn't Tan Shaocheng give you that kind of happiness? You feel bad, but what does it have to do with me?" relation?"

Yao Qiyun was heartbroken, and finally stopped dodging, took his hands out of his trouser pockets, pressed them on the back of her head, looked at her squarely, and also revealed his desire, for the first time, he no longer confronted her.

"Ah Jue, what do you want from me?"

No one called her that, except Yao Qiyun.Parents either call her "daughter", or call her "Situ Jue" when they are angry.Friends are used to calling her double surname, only he dare not call it that way.Because there is more than one surnamed "Situ" at home, he must avoid the taboo of Situ Jiu'an, so he called her "A Jue".Situ Jue hated this nasty name the most, and every time he heard it, he thought it was like the girlish tense of "Master Miejue".And he clearly knew that he disgusted her so deliberately until it became a habit.

The only thing she didn't expect was that such an extremely simple address didn't sound like calling herself, but like calling her past life.After only being stunned for a while, he could no longer tolerate her protesting.

Yao Qiyun's mouth stuck to Situ Jue's, in a way that he was about to swallow the other party, and after he didn't sense the resistance, he became even more out of control.

He blew up the embankment like a man who had been suffering for a long time, and saw the flood in a blink of an eye.

They snake like entanglement in a narrow space.Yao Qiyun sat back to the place where she had been before, and Situ Jue sat straddling him. He came here to "catch the traitor", but ended up having an affair with her here.There are few honest people, but there are so many mean and shameless people, just because of happiness.

At the last moment, Yao Qiyun stopped the car, he slightly pushed Situ Jue away, and gasped, "Let's change places and go back to my place... No, I know a hotel, it's very close to here... Well, just Go upstairs, there is a guest room upstairs, it will be ready soon..."

Situ Jue half bit his lip, neither nodded nor said "no".At this time, there was movement outside the compartment, and someone finally broke the temporary secret space.

"Ah, that's bad." Her morality seemed to be revived strangely at this moment, she let out a low cry, and was about to stand up while pressing on his shoulder.Yao Qiyun's original rationality was just lingering, she really wanted to forget it, but how could he let her go, so he gritted his teeth and couldn't help but push her back heavily.Situ Jue gasped suddenly.He himself was not much better at this second, he restrained himself so that he would not sigh because of the long-awaited satisfaction.At the beginning, he didn't even dare to move, just like when he was a poor child, she accidentally threw him a piece of chocolate candy, and he licked it, but he was reluctant to put it in his mouth, for fear that it would melt instantly, and the good taste would never be there again. return.

Situ Jue whispered in his ear, "What should I do? I can't leave even if I want to." She smiled softly, twisting her body restlessly, every movement was about to kill him.Yao Qiyun thought of her naked humiliation in the hotel on the first night of their reunion, and felt angry, eager to prove something, asking her to take back her lies, so every slap was vicious, and Situ Jue couldn't help but exclaim.And the sound of footsteps was separated by a thin wall, Yao Qiyun was very nervous, so he had to cover her mouth tightly again.

This movement seemed to startle the people outside. After the sound of water, footsteps seemed to stop in front of the door where they were hiding.Situ Jue's clothes were all piled up around his waist, his long hair was loose, and one leg was slung over his shoulder, with those abrasive high-heeled shoes hooked on it.Under his hands, she couldn't make too much noise, only groaned and bumped, her hands firmly propped up on the partitions on both sides.Yao Qiyun, who was already extremely excited, couldn't hold back anymore and reached the peak under such psychological and physical stimulation.The moment he came to a standstill, he let go of his hand, brushed away a strand of long hair that fell into her mouth, and with the sound of the door going away, he hugged her tightly, and said in a hoarse voice: "Ah Jue, Can we stop arguing? You come back and we start over."

Situ Jue leaned softly in his arms, and answered after a while: "Can you forget those things?"

"At least I don't care."

Situ Jue slowly raised his head, looking at the man whose passion had not completely receded.If she ever wavered slightly in this embrace, she would gradually cool down into a more stubborn ice under that awareness.

It took him seven full years to decide not to let her go, not because he finally regained his trust in her, but because he succumbed to longing and longing, so he convinced himself not to care.

If you forget the process, only remember the result, and love with a little humility, you will stay together for a lifetime no matter what.After all, this was the only dream that Yao Qiyun and Situ Jue had in common, but Situ Jue's world could not tolerate such a compromise.He may not know that what she wants is not complicated, but a pair of firm hands when she can't argue.

She wanted him to say: I believe you, I understand.Instead of: I want you, I don't care.

She stood up with the support of her hands on the partition, tidied herself up, tidied up every piece of clothing on her body again, combed her hair, took out the makeup mirror, and turned her back to him to fill her face without saying a word residual makeup.

Yao Qiyun didn't recover from the contrast for a while, leaned over to wrap her arms around her waist, and asked in a low voice, "Why don't you speak?"

Situ Jue stopped the hand that had just painted the lipstick, turned around and smiled, "Do you know why I want to be with you today?"

He thought for a while, then shook his head.

Situ Jue raised the corners of his lips as beautiful as he remembered.

"Yao Qiyun, I've never had an orgasm on you, I just wanted to see if you'll be different after seven years, and it turns out, you still haven't."

Yao Qiyun's face paled in an instant, and he slowly let go of his hands.

The more he is in front of her, the more proud he is, the more proud he is, the easier it is to become humble.

What will happen to Yao Qiyun who is pushed to the extreme?Slap her angrily like Situ Jiu'an, and hate her even more to death?Yao Qiyun used all his strength, but the last thing he said was only that sentence, he felt terrified and surprised.

He said, "Ah Jue, actually I... have always loved you."

In the sweetest past, Yao Qiyun never said such a word.At that time, Situ Jue always pestered him and asked him over and over again: "Qiyun, do you love me? How much do you love me?"

He always answered with an awkward and dull voice: "Yes."

She didn't give up, she was so annoying that there was nothing she could do.

"Say you love me, and you'll be mine forever."

But he said emphatically, "I am my own."

Situ Jue was angry, and held his breath, "Then I'm mine too, don't regret it."

He really regretted it.She hated him and wanted to escape from those suffocating past events, but he only wanted to find Ah Jue who belonged to him in his memory.

Situ Jue looked down at Yao Qiyun who finally stopped lying.

"Actually, I know," she said.

Yes, Yao Qiyun actually loved Situ Jue, maybe he only loved her.But so what?

In Situ Jue's script, Shen Lang said to Zhu Qiqi, my heart is not made of iron, Shen Lang loves Zhu Qiqi the most in his life.

However, Zhu Qiqi found that the heart that he once lingered about was as cold as iron in disappointment.

If she could, she would like to travel back in time and space, and tell Situ Jue who was heartbroken back then, did you see it?see it?What a relief!When he took the other hand and abandoned her on the day when she was most helpless, when she cried alone at night in a foreign country, every time, she could only rely on this kind of imagination to comfort herself , She imagined that one day, this man would cry in front of her and regret it.

Only by relying on such imagination can she survive that night after night.

But now everything is no longer just imagination.

Yao Qiyun, you also have today.

(End of this chapter)