I'm waiting for you in my memory

Chapter 47: Behind Time

"Why did you give me this?" Situ turned his wrist and asked Yao Qiyun.

"Because I have nothing else." Yao Qiyun looked around for the bus stop sign to go back to the city. As he walked, he found that she was no longer by his side at some point, so he turned around in panic. It turned out that she was busy playing with the bracelet on her hand and couldn't help He slowed down and fell behind.

Yao Qiyun waited angrily for her to come closer, and pulled down her half-raised hand, "Don't keep looking at it, pay attention to the road. If everyone is lost, what do you need the bracelet for?"

"It's mine if you give it to me. I can look at it however I like." Situ Jue retorted unconvinced.

Yao Qiyun smiled and said: "I gave it to you? It seems that someone can't help but put it on his hands."

"I've sold myself to you, and in exchange for this, I don't owe each other anything."

Situ Jue grinned, as if he had just made a fair deal.Yao Qiyun didn't say anything anymore, just gently put her hand in his palm.

There were only the two of them under the brand-new bus stop sign, and the street lights that had just been turned on made their backs very thin and long, with a lonely warmth, as if they were dependent on each other in a lost world, only each other, irreplaceable.

This feeling was something that Situ Jue had never experienced before.

In the past, she let her own enthusiasm dictate, since she liked to be with Yao Qiyun, then she would be with him. Today's happiness is today's. As for the future, it is as far away as the next life.Just like she was stubbornly seeking Yao Qiyun's promise, all she wanted was the gesture he was willing to give, but she didn't really delve into the meaning behind the promise.However, it was just a cheap bracelet, but now it gave her a feeling of "delivery", as if he had given something to her, and she had tied something to him.Nothing has changed, yet everything is different.The young Situ Jue suddenly felt that if she looked up at this moment and found that Yao Qiyun, who had been holding her hand, had turned into a strange old man with frosty temples, deep nasolabial folds, and a shirt that was still ironed perfectly, it would be a piece of clothing. What a joy.

The few cars passing by in the dust were not going in the direction they were going, and after waiting for a while, Situ Jue lost his patience, so he suggested that instead of waiting, it is better to walk to a lively square in front, where there are many cars You can go directly to your home.

Yao Qiyun looked at her shoes and reminded: "It's been a few stops, don't let me carry you by then."

"Am I that kind of person?" Before Yao Qiyun gave an inevitable answer, she stood on tiptoe and covered his eyes with her hands, signaling him to close them.

"It's your turn to be a blind person, and I'll guide you away."

She solemnly took his arm and walked forward, while comforting Yao Qiyun who was still trying to resist, "I will lead the way, so don't worry."

At first, Situ Jue honestly led Yao Qiyun to walk slowly on the sidewalk. After walking for a while, she began to "do not take the usual path".In the darkness in front of Yao Qiyun, all he could feel was her hand, this involuntary sense of loss made people instinctively feel a little confused and helpless.

He said to himself, it's okay, can't he even trust Ah Jue?Although she loves to play tricks, she always has a sense of proportion.

However, when entering a relatively secluded block, the road began to become a little rough. Sometimes you have to avoid a pool of sewage, sometimes you will step on a few small stones under your feet, and the sound of whistling motorcycles seems to rub against your ears.

Yao Qiyun passed this section of the road a few times, and he vaguely remembered that there was a section of the construction area that was not so flat... If he remembered correctly, when he walked through here, he would encounter a short but steep step.

"Stop playing, shall we?" he said to Situ Jue.

"Why? This section will end soon, and it's easy to go ahead." Situ Jue said, "I'm warning you, don't peek."

Not long after, Yao Qiyun, who had always had a good sense of direction, made a right turn to further confirm his conjecture. He was almost sure that the steps were not far ahead, but Situ Jue's footsteps became more and more urgent.He thought of the little restlessness inherent in her bones, as well as her self-willed temper that never followed the rules, and the feeling of uncertainty began to amplify gradually.Finally, less than one meter away from the steps, Situ Jue's forward momentum remained undiminished, and Yao Qiyun broke away from Situ Jue's hand.

"Ajue, are you crazy? How dangerous it is!" He stopped, opened his uncomfortable eyes, and reproached.

Situ Jue stopped at the edge of the steps, froze for a moment, and said, "Didn't you say you would believe me?"

"It's almost empty, and you are still going forward, how can you tell me to believe you?"

"If you believe me, if you didn't take a peek at all, how would you know that there will be a foot in the air in front of you?"

Yao Qiyun was silent, he did open his eyes slightly after his uneasiness turned into suspicion, otherwise, no matter how good his ability to remember the way is, he would not be able to stop just one step away from the steps, this is his instinct to avoid danger .

But at the same time, he also understood that with Situ Jue's personality, it would be unwise to continue to delve into this issue.

"Okay, it's always right to be careful. Let's go to the front and drink something." He slowed down his tone and stroked her hair with a smile.

Situ Jue turned his head away from his hand, and quickly walked down the steps alone.

Yao Qiyun reluctantly followed behind her, "Okay, do you have to fight over these trivial matters?"

"Yao Qiyun, you don't believe in your heart that I will definitely stop in a dangerous place. Have you forgotten that when you led me away, did I doubt you?"

She was telling the truth.When Situ Jue closed his eyes and let Yao Qiyun lead him away, Yao Qiyun also teased her more than once.He would say "Oops" in a good manner, or deliberately lie to her, "Situ Jue, you're up the steps." Then she would stupidly lift her foot, step on the flat ground, pout her mouth angrily, and pinch his crotch hard. hand.

But no matter how angry she is, as long as he still holds her hand, as long as he doesn't stop, no matter what road ahead, she will still take her steps next time.Yao Qiyun didn't think about it before, no matter how daring she is, has she never felt uneasy?Doesn't she hesitate when she's upset?If she had also hesitated, why did she still trust the person who was holding her so hard?Because she never fell?Because she didn't believe that person would make her fall?Because she never knew that for a wise and prudent person, at the most confused intersection, the most reliable person is always herself?Yao Qiyun also has to admit that Situ Jue, who sometimes looks smart, is just a single-minded fool who admits death.

But he didn't have any sense of superiority in front of this fool.He hated himself inexplicably, why couldn't he be as stupid as this fool?

Yao Qiyun stood at the end of the steps, and said to her back: "Ah Jue, let's start again."

Hearing this, Situ Jue still walked forward without saying a word.

He leaned over to grab her hand, but she shook it off with a sullen face.In desperation, he hesitated, closed his eyes and stood where he was.The familiar darkness rushed towards his face, he heard footsteps passing by, whispering discussions, maybe mixed with the strange eyes of strangers, he didn't care about these.If he knew he couldn't get her back, he could at least wait for her to come back.

The darkness sealed people as if they were isolated from the world, and time also lost its original pace. How long he waited, maybe it was just a moment, but it was as long as a lifetime.Until he felt the warm hands return to his own, although he frowned unceremoniously pinched him, he raised the corners of his mouth.

Situ Jue's voice was resentful, "Don't be happy, the road ahead is still long."

She dragged him back to the avenue, at first she ran all the way, and then simply trotted.The neon lights near and far are interlaced with deep and shallow light and shadow.What could be more exciting than a long road ahead?
Finally, they stopped in the middle of the bustling square. When the lights came on, countless middle-aged and elderly song-and-dance lovers danced joyfully to the accompaniment. The familiar and vulgar tunes were in their ears at this time, giving them a warm sense of fulfillment.

It seemed that Yao Qiyun was brought by Situ Jue to a mobile stall selling cold drinks. When the female stall owner with a foreign accent gave Situ Jue some money, she said with great regret: "You are so upright, why are your eyes..."

"Born, what can I do..." Situ Jue answered the words very smoothly, and dutifully took the "disabled youth" aside.

"What do you want to drink?" Yao Qiyun heard her asking slightly panting.

"What is there to choose?" He felt that he was indeed a little thirsty.

Situ Jue handed the mouth of a drink bottle to Yao Qiyun's lips, and he took a sip, it was cold Coke.

"Is this okay?"

"It's better to have another one."

After taking the second sip, Yao Qiyun still frowned, it was milk tea that only girls like.He doesn't drink these on weekdays, the best thing is a simple bottle of pure water.

Situ Jue seemed to have seen through his pickiness, and asked with a smile, "Do you want to try again?"

Yao Qiyun nodded happily with his eyes closed, "Of course that's good."

He was waiting for the rain to be sent to his lips, but it was her lips that still smelled like milk tea, and they lightly tapped against his lips lightly, it was so sweet.

He thought that even if there were watching eyes around him, they should be able to forgive a blind young man for his occasional gaffes.

But at this moment, Situ Jue broke away his arm in a terrible way, and asked again: "What else, don't you want to try again?"

Yao Qiyun didn't know how many times it would take to get the water he wanted, but he said contentedly, "Thank you, the third one is already very good."

No one disturbed the bustling crowd, it was the long bell in the square that woke up the forgetful people.The bell was too close to them, and when they were caught off guard, not only the ears, but also the trembling echo in the heart.Yao Qiyun opened his eyes, only to realize that they were standing under a huge clock at the end of the square. The iconic clock tower was several floors high, and the hour hand was pointing to eight o'clock at night.

Although they had already called home and said that they would not go back for dinner because they were visiting the book market, but at this point, Yao Qiyun and Situ Jue finally remembered that they should solve the problem of dinner no matter what.The two were planning to find a place nearby to sit down and comfort their stomachs. As soon as they walked around an alley behind the clock tower, they found a small restaurant with a cold blue signboard. The name is very interesting, maybe because it happened to be It is facing the back of the clock tower, so it is called "the back of time".

Yao Qiyun dragged Situ Jue into "the back of time", and unexpectedly found that the seemingly inconspicuous store door had a lot of space inside, but there were not many people dining at this time, most of them ordered drinks and sat in twos and threes small talk.

Under the guidance of the waiter, the two found a quiet place and sat down, then began to look around curiously.The light in the store is very dim, and all the light sources are cold blue like the signboard outside.To be honest, such lighting once made them feel visually difficult to adapt to. In addition, there was no background music playing in the store uncharacteristically. All that could be heard in their ears was the sound of tableware colliding and people whispering. After staying in the environment for a long time, it is easy to have an unreal upside-down illusion.

Yao Qiyun, who had just experienced a long period of darkness, was the first to feel a little overwhelmed by the light. He asked Situ Jue in a low voice, "Why don't we change places?"

Situ Jue was about to nod, when the words printed on the table card caught her attention.That is not a signature dish recommendation, nor is it a wine list, but a simple question.

"Do you believe that time can go back? If you could go back in time, what would you do?"

She tried to hold the table card in her hand to see more clearly, but found that it was firmly fixed on the table, and its base was very special. It was a small opaque square box. It is tightly sealed, except for a small gap at the top, which can only accommodate two coins through, like a piggy bank.Situ Jue craned his neck to look at the next table.Except for the table number, there is no difference.

At this time, the waiter with a long face brought the menu card. During the time between ordering, Situ Jue deliberately asked about the origin of that sentence and the "piggy jar".It was obviously not the first time for the long-faced waiter to face this question. He pointed to the box, "Isn't it written on it? It's up to you to believe it or not." Then, he made another folded and put-out box with his hands. With a sly smile, "You can tell this box your answer, maybe you can find the gate of time and space and realize your wish."

Situ Jue finally grasped some clues from the other party's words. What he said was so complicated and mysterious, but it was just for those fools who believed that people could travel through time at will to write their own messages and put them in the box.

I heard that the competition in the catering industry is fierce. It seems that it is difficult to gain a foothold without some gimmicks and tricks.Situ Jue smiled and said, "I'm more interested in how you deal with the note written by the customer. What should I do if the small box can't fit? Throw it away? That's someone else's 'dream of time and space'."

The waiter turned his head and pointed in a very natural way, "Here, they are all collected there."

Situ Jue looked in the direction of his fingers, but didn't see anything special. She was startled, and then realized that the row of dark squares he showed her was originally thought to be a space partition in the restaurant. The art decorations I made turned out to be enlarged versions of "savings boxes" one after another.

"This is kind of interesting." She said sincerely.

After ordering, the waiter left a pen for them before leaving, and said by the way: "If you are interested, Miss, you can go over there and have a look. Many people will come back to find their dreams..."

Situ Jue couldn't sit still, and urged Yao Qiyun to walk with her to the side of the row of boxes and look at it.The size of each box is exactly the same, except that different years are engraved on it, and there is no longer a gap on the top of the box, but a round hole that is big enough to put one hand in.

The box closest to them belongs to "1999".

Situ Jue stretched her hand into the box without thinking, Yao Qiyun had no time to dissuade her, she had already pulled out her hand holding a few pieces of paper.

The first one turned out to be a tissue with scrawled words on it—"I want to go back to 1980 and buy a monkey ticket of 2000 yuan. My dear, I can buy you a big house."

The second one is a small half-page torn out of a notebook. The beautiful font can be seen from the hands of a girl-"1996, Dad, if I knew that you would leave that night, after the self-study, I would have go home."

The last one was simply written on the expired one-way ticket - "Tell Fu Jingru at any time before today, if you feel hard, you must force it."

"Anyone who finds it hard is forced." Situ Jue murmured and repeated the content on the last piece of paper.At this moment, Yao Qiyun gently snatched all the notes from her hand and put them back into the big box, "Go back and sit down, the food is here."

Situ Jue reluctantly returned to his seat, took a sip of the hot soup that the waiter had just brought, then stopped and asked Yao Qiyun, "Tell me, if you could turn back time, where would you want to go?"

When Yao Qiyun thought of the past, he couldn't help remembering the hardships of his childhood, his father's sallow face when he was seriously ill, his mother's resolute back when she left home, and his despair when he buried his relatives, which made him shiver from the bottom of his heart.

"This kind of fantasy must first be based on what I believe, but unfortunately I think this proposition itself is quite boring."

"It's not that other people are boring, it's that you are boring!" Situ Jue pouted, "I'm a bit imaginative but I won't die."

"Shouldn't every successful person get used to looking forward?" Of course he didn't say it. If people can really travel through time and space, he definitely doesn't want to go back to the past. future.At that time, when she was leaning against him, he would no longer feel like a thief, and would only have calm happiness.

Situ Jue couldn't care about answering him right now, she was full of thoughts, if she could really go back to the past, what would she want to do the most?There are too many thoughts in chaos, too many wishes, and I don't know how to make a decision for a while.

Did he take back the stamp album given to Wu Jiang when he returned to the first year of junior high school, or did he pay more attention to Yao Qiyun when he met Yao Qiyun in the countryside for the first time?No, if there was only one chance, she should have told Yao Qiyun on the first day he officially came to her house that he would follow her sooner or later, so why not treat her better from the beginning...

Just like that, Situ Jue grasped his pen and thought hard, even eating was like chewing wax.Until Yao Qiyun called the waiter to check out, she didn't think of a result.

It was still the long-faced waiter, he took the money from Yao Qiyun, and he still smiled at Situ Jue: "Miss, don't you really want to go back to any part of the past and do what you want?"

Situ Jue put down his pen dejectedly, but felt relieved the moment he gave up.

Qiyun was staring at her with a smile on the other side of the table.

She thought, maybe what she wants to go most is now.

(End of this chapter)