I'm waiting for you in my memory

Chapter 7
After Yao Qiyun left that night, Situ Jue searched every corner of the room, but couldn't find the small pill that Wu Jiang brought her.Frustrated, she fell headlong on the bed, but amazingly fell asleep smoothly and soundly without any medicine.

When he woke up, the light in the room with dense curtains was very dark. Looking at the time, it was already past noon. Situ Jue turned over and got up, faintly feeling that something was wrong. tears.But she didn't remember that there was sadness in the dream she just pulled out of. On the contrary, it was better than many details in the memory.

She dreamed that she and the former Yao Qiyun were playing in an empty room. Both of them were blindfolded, wandering around, groping, reaching out, looking, looking, obviously the other party's laughter was right next to her ears, but they always touched her. less than.Very bright light seeped in from the edge of the blindfold, forming a hazy halo.

She knew he was there, but she couldn't find him in the end because she woke up.

Wu Jiang called her a few times. The phone was in silent mode, so she couldn't notice it.There was another text message from Yao Qiyun.

"I told them you're going home today."

Situ Jue hadn't been used to contacting by text message for a long time, and felt that it was too troublesome, and there was no need to work his fingers if he could speak a few words clearly.Yao Qiyun may not be a leisurely person, Situ Jue believes that it is just the result of his reserved and awkward nature, no matter how sociable he pretends to be, it will be more secure for him to be able to hide behind the rules and cold words.He is a coward. For the humiliation last night, Situ Jue once thought that his anger was enough to kill her, but in the end he just cursed "shameless", and then slammed the door and left. Compared with Huang and violence, he was defeated , the only thing worth mentioning is Ninja Magic.

Wu Jiang's wedding is scheduled for the next day, and the seminar will be later, which means that Situ Jue still has half of the free time today, and it seems inevitable to go back.Before going out, she also specially called Wu Jiang and asked him if he still had time to have dinner together, and handed him the gift she planned to give to Mrs. Wu in the future.Wu Jiang said that there is no problem, but he will come to find the place later.In fact, Situ Jue just hopes that he can have a more sufficient reason to leave quickly after visiting his parents, so as to avoid that possible family dinner.Although it is not impossible to lie, but the fact that Wu Jiang was indeed appointed first can at least reduce the guilt in her heart.What's more, he doesn't need to worry about Wu Jiang's wedding. The relatives and friends around him can overturn the roof of his house, so he doesn't need to worry about it himself. Anyway, he is idle anyway.

From the west of the city to the east of the city, Situ Jue deliberately chose a bus to travel across the entire city. Along the way, he could see many familiar but specious scenery.Seven years is enough to reshape a city, but how can people's hearts be stronger than a city?
When the bus drove to Dongcheng, the gradually deepening sense of familiarity revived the memory a little bit.Situ Jue was born, grew up, and went to school in this area, and the old city has not changed too much. She sadly discovered that every place she feels close to is related to another person.

It was under this stop sign that they had waited for the No. 6 bus together countless times. When the bus was crowded, he would never hold her hand, but he would always stand up reluctantly and give her his seat.

It was still the old department store building, and he was walking in front of her carrying big bags and small bags, and she said, "Yao Qiyun, if you walk slower, will you die?" He turned back and sneered, "Situ Jue, if you take a short stroll, would you die too?" ?”

The next crowded intersection, where they had pretended they had to hold hands to cross the street, then argued, turned, went their separate ways, vowing to never talk to each other again.It won't be long before the two will appear at the same time, repeating those annoying plots.

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A memory that is too deep is like a disease. Even when Situ Jue first came to a foreign country, there were completely unfamiliar people and scenery in a foreign country, but an occasional silhouette at the corner of the street or a vaguely familiar whisper of a local accent would make her restrain herself. I couldn't stop shaking, and then I was so sad that I couldn't add it.The psychological dependence on drugs probably started at that time, otherwise it would be painful to open and close eyes all night.She couldn't help but think about it, but she couldn't think about it, she couldn't recall it at all, she couldn't take it easy, she thought she would definitely not be able to pass that hurdle.How did it pass?forget.Maybe it's because you're used to it, and you don't need to worry about whether you've crossed over or not.From then on, Situ Jue only associates with foreign men. She likes them as gentlemen, enthusiastic, and honest. She no longer needs to see the damn forbearance, hesitant hesitation, and disgusting duplicity on their faces.

From the outside, the house is still the same house, but the key to go home was thrown away when I left home.Situ Jue stood outside the door and rang the bell. During the days when she was alone abroad, she shed tears many times thinking of the warmth by her parents' side, but when she was really standing a door away from home, she suddenly looked forward to the most It was a bad time, and no one was at home.

This little dark hope was shattered in a rush of footsteps from behind the door.The door opened, and the woman standing in front of Situ Jue was his mother Xue Shaoping.The mother and daughter who haven't met face to face in seven years are so close at hand, looking at each other face to face. Perhaps the delicate girl who left back then has become a fashionable girl who is approaching the age. The mother's initial eyes were full of astonishment, not There is no strangeness, but this feeling is replaced by full of tears after regaining consciousness.

"Mom." Situ Jue choked up and called out.She restrained herself, afraid that she would cry too embarrassingly, and maybe the next second she would throw herself into her mother's arms regardless.

However, in the next second, Xue Shaoping just nodded and said "I'm back...", before the tears fell, she had turned around and walked into the house.

Situ Jue stood outside the door hesitantly.

"Come in, don't you even know the direction of your home?" Xue Shaoping said in the room.She probably forgot that although her daughter always looks like she can stand up for a while when the sky falls, she is a more serious child.When her parents told her to "get out", she did as she said, and "get out" far, far away. Now, before her mother said anything, even if she stood outside the door, she did not dare to step outside the door.

"Oh." Situ Jue entered the room, changed his slippers with his back to his mother, and took the opportunity to wipe off the last trace of tears on his face.The shoe cabinet has changed its location. It seems that the home has been redecorated and given a new look.It's all right now, she doesn't seem to find many traces of her life here.

As soon as mother entered the house, she went into the kitchen. Situ Jue carefully sat on the sofa. It was already dusk. The ceiling of the living room was raised to make it more airy, and the surroundings were more luxurious and luxurious than the home in memory. .She has been abroad for many years, and she doesn't know much about the development of the domestic pharmaceutical industry, and she doesn't have much to talk about on the weekly phone calls. Let your parents down.

There was no one else on the first floor except mom and her. It seemed that dad hadn't come back yet, and he wasn't there either.Although it was somewhat unexpected, Situ Jue felt that this could not be better.In the hotel room last night, I made him understand that she couldn't get any advantage from her, so he must restrain himself a little bit.

Just thinking about this, Xue Shaoping came out and handed a cup of tea to her daughter, "Drink it, the herbal tea I brewed by myself, the weather is dry and hot recently, so let's put it on fire."

Situ Jue was flattered and stood up to pick up the teacup, and quickly took a big sip. She hadn't touched this kind of thing for a long time, and the bitterness was beyond her imagination, and she didn't dare to show it between her eyebrows, so she had to bite the bullet and swallow it.

The mother and daughter both sat down, and Situ Jue recovered from the bitterness, only to realize that the mother on the opposite sofa also seemed very silent and cautious.Time finally created an insurmountable distance between a mother and daughter, and everyone felt the slightly bleak strangeness so clearly.However, this kind of dry sitting is really too embarrassing, so I have to say something.

Situ Jue put down his glass, looked around the hall again symbolically, and praised: "The decoration of the house is beautiful."

Xue Shaoping spoke up, "Your father and I haven't had much effort in these years. It's all about the cloud, and it took a lot of effort."

"Is Dad's business still so busy?"

"As always, there are always things that can't be finished. If it wasn't for Qiyun to help take care of it, his body might not be able to handle it."

"Well, it's hard for him."

At this point, the topic is terminated again.Situ Jue suddenly remembered that he had brought gifts when he came here. The brand-name handbags he picked for his mother from abroad, and the watch for his father, it took a lot of thought to buy these.Situ Jue earns a lot abroad, but compared to her parents, she is not a problem. She knows that the two elders have everything, but since they haven't seen each other for so long, she is no longer the one who can make her parents feel sorry for her with a smile. It's my little girl, and I only visit once in seven years, so it's hard to be empty-handed.

Sure enough, Xue Shaoping took them and glanced at them lightly, then put them back on the coffee table.

"Thank you."

Situ Jue smiled, although his heart was sour, but he no longer wanted to cry.This is the case with everything, as long as you don't get unrealistic hopes, you will not be disappointed, and there is nothing wrong with it.

"Your father will be back later. It's not Friday, and I don't know if Qiyun will come back for dinner. I'll call him later and ask him. I'll go to the kitchen to see what I need to prepare." Xue Shaoping said, Get up and walk towards the kitchen.

"Uh... No need, Mom, I have an appointment for dinner tonight, and I will leave after Dad comes back and talk for a while, I just want to see you, you are all fine, so I am relieved."

Xue Shaoping's back froze, and continued to move forward, "It's up to you, if you don't eat, we have to eat."

Situ Jue looked at his mother Zhang Luo's dinner, approached, and asked, "Why isn't Aunt Yao helping out at home?"

"I have a bad waist, and now I don't care much about the company's affairs, so I just stay at home. There are only a few people in the house, and I can't do enough housework by myself, so I don't need her to help. Qiyun’s aunt, Qiyun is now like your father’s son and me, and it’s hard for us to send his relatives. Qiyun asked her to go back to her hometown for the elderly, and the family regularly hired hourly workers to do cleaning.” Xue Shaoping said.

Hearing this, Situ Jue thought, his parents are still the same in these matters, they are always so polite and considerate, no matter what their status is or how much wealth they have, they never look down on others.Kindness, kindness, righteousness, self-discipline, these are the qualities they hoped to bestow on Situ Jue in their strict family education since childhood. Although Situ Jue could not reach an understanding with her parents, she was always grateful for these qualities her parents taught her along the way.Even though the parents are tolerant to many people, they are only too strict with their own daughter, but isn't that because of the depth of their love before that they are responsible?Find problems from yourself in everything, the more you treat yourself, the higher the standard, because we can't control others, we can only manage ourselves, this is the principle of their life.

"I'll help you." Thinking of this, the ice in Situ Jue's heart melted a lot. She took the half-washed vegetables from her mother's hands, and Xue Shaoping was no longer polite.

I can't remember the last time the mother and daughter were whispering side by side in the kitchen.In fact, the parents also loved the only daughter very much. Although they repeatedly emphasized that girls should be independent and sensible, they must not develop the bad habit of not touching their fingers, but they are actually reluctant to let her do housework.In the past, Situ Jue was just messing around in the kitchen, just gossiping with his mother by the way.When she was studying in the United States, she had no requirements for food. She usually got away with a sandwich or a hamburger, and occasionally cooked spaghetti bolognese.With the accelerated pace of life after work, there is no time to cook, so even though I just help wash the vegetables at the moment, the water splashes everywhere, which is useless.

Seeing her flustered look, Xue Shaoping quickly turned off the faucet and sighed, "You, I really regret pampering you too much in the past."

Situ Jue lowered his head and picked up the water spinach in the water, one by one, watching them float back and forth.Under an inexplicable impulse, she asked in a hoarse voice: "Mom, do you really believe that what happened back then was my fault? Even if it was, then I was really wrong to the point where you couldn't forgive me for so many years? "

(End of this chapter)