perfect hidden marriage

Chapter 214 Which one do you care about more? 2
"Gu Lijun, let's talk..."

Not speaking for a long time made her uncomfortable, and the shadow of death would become heavier and heavier in her heart, which would aggravate the fear in her heart and hit her will to survive.

She wanted to pass the time by talking.

Perhaps, without saying a word, the rescuers arrived.

It's a pity that Gu Lijun refused to speak.

It doesn't matter, she said, it's fine if she said it, there are only the two of them here, she said it, and it's hard for her not to listen.

"I know, you hate me now..."

There she sighed helplessly:
"But the matter has come to this point, no matter how much you apologize, it won't help the matter... If we are doomed to die this time, we will not be lonely if we have someone to accompany us on the road to Huangquan... Let's talk, and we will feel less afraid... ...In the face of death, we are all afraid...Although I have sought death before..."

"Have you tried to die too?"

Gu Lijun, who had been silent all this time, finally answered.

"Yeah... four years ago."

"for what?"

"Because of falling out of love."

"Is that the guy in the photo?"

"Correct."

"He abandoned you?"

"Correct!"

Su Jin said bitterly:
"He married someone else. I couldn't think about it for a while, so I jumped the Qiantang River. I didn't die.

"Because after I fell into the water, I regretted it.

"At that time, I asked myself: Why did I choose such a cold day to jump into the river...it was so cold...

"It's also because my brother jumped down with me. If I don't swim back, he will freeze to death in the river with me.

"From then on, I discovered that in a person's life, besides love, there is also family affection. In addition to family affection, there should be one's own belief in life. How can one ruin one's future for a momentary setback? Abandon one's own life Woolen cloth!
"It's too stupid to do that..."

Gu Lijun stopped answering the call.

Because she also tried to die, and more than once.

Su Jin's words were too silly, like slapping her face, which made her feel depressed.

Over there, Su Jin continued:

"Do you know Yang Jiang?
"The oldest writer on the list of Chinese writers is now over a hundred years old.

"She is a talented woman in the Republic of China, and a century old man who has spanned two centuries of ups and downs.

"During the Cultural Revolution, she was deeply persecuted, but she not only assisted her husband Qian Zhong in writing the magnificent and profound masterpiece "Guan Zhuo", but also taught herself Spanish. After going through many twists and turns, she completed the translation of the satirical novel "Don Quixote". Germany".

"At the age of 92, her lover and only daughter had passed away for many years, and her family and love were gone, but she wrote "The Three of Us" at such an advanced age, and wrote a family of three in the style of memories. Those happy and difficult days, love and pain. At the age of 96, he also released a collection of Weizhen's most beautiful essays, "Walking to the Edge of Life".

"Mr. Yang Jiang, can always endure the suffering of life and preserve his innocence. This kind of suffering not only comes from the torture of life, but also from the spiritual suffering.

"It's not easy for everyone in this world. When encountering a little setback, just give up lightly. There will be no Mr. Yang Jiang in this world.

"Only get more courageous after setbacks, and never shrink back in the face of desperation. After you get through it, you will find that those bastards are actually no big deal...

"Later, I got a deep understanding of Mr. Yang Jiang's life, and since then, I have never given up on myself."

Su Jin spoke very slowly, using enough emotion, that experience with her was unforgettable until death.That can be regarded as a fortune in life.

Gu Lijun curled her lips and asked after a long time: "Who is so smart, use her to enlighten you?"

"My adoptive mother."

"Adoptive mother? Are you an orphan?"

Gu Lijun was slightly surprised.

"Yes, I am an orphan. My whole life has been changed because of my adoptive mother."

Su Jin said softly:

"When I was young, she raised me. When I grew up, when I lost my way, she enlightened me in time. She is a woman who has gone through ups and downs. Mr. Yang Jiangyang is one of my adoptive mother's favorite authors. "

"Surely a nerd!"

Gu Lijun summed it up in an indifferent way.

Su Jin didn't know his life, so he just smiled lightly:
"Yes, my adoptive mother loves reading. If books can guide the direction of life, why not be a nerd?"

Having said that, there was silence between the two of them again.

Because of thirst, because of tiredness...

After an unknown amount of time, the two started talking again, this time it was Gu Lijun who spoke first:

"Su Jin, how many years have you been separated from your boyfriend?"

"Four years."

Su Jinping replied calmly.

"Then do you still love your boyfriend? Now, our lives and deaths are uncertain, Xiao Jingheng or your boyfriend, which one do you care about more?"

This question made Su Jin silent for a while.

"You can't answer?"

"It's not...all concerned!"

"It seems that you don't love Xiao Jingheng..."

Gu Lijun made such a conclusion in a very positive tone.

"I said, in this world, love, family affection, and friendship all exist at the same time."

"You're making excuses."

Gu Lijun disagrees.

"I am an orphan, so I cherish everyone who loves me and loves me. In my eyes, they have no priority. They are all important people in my life."

Su Jin didn't speak any more, she was tired after talking too much.

The surroundings returned to the deathlike silence, and their physical strength was exhausted bit by bit as time passed.

Su Jin felt that he had fallen asleep.

Drowsy, dreaming of many people, encouraging her one by one: Su Jin, you must persevere, you must persevere... Hengyuan is on the way to save you, you have to be good, you know?
She promised, and she kept telling herself in her heart: I can definitely survive, I can definitely go back safely... I can definitely grow old with Hengyuan forever.

Later, it was Gu Lijun who woke her up.

"What? What did you say?"

She couldn't hear very clearly and asked very lightly.

"I called you and you had no voice. I thought you..."

Gu Lijun's voice showed fear.

"I just... fell asleep."

"I was afraid that you would fall asleep and go there... Chunyan can't wake up like that..."

Gu Lijun bit her lip and said quietly.

Su Jin continued: "Don't worry, I can't be so dead... I have so many doubts hidden in my heart, and now that I die, I will die with regret."

On the other side, Gu Lijun let out a sigh of relief:

"It is said that death is not terrible. What is terrible is the fear that you have in your heart before you die.

"Six years ago, Chunyan and I were confronted in a fight...During those days, it was really hard... At that time, my only thought was, I want to live, I don't want to die. But when I came back alive, I I think I'd rather die then..."

Su Jin listened quietly, and finally asked softly:
"why?"

Gu Lijun didn't answer, silence was the only echo in the darkness.

Su Jin thought that she didn't want to talk about it.

After a long time, she changed her tone and continued:
"Let me tell you how Xiao Zhidong and I met!"

Regarding the previous inquiry, she still avoided talking about it, and before Su Jin agreed, she admitted the fact:
"You've seen those photos too. From them, you can see such a situation: I knew Xiao Zhidong much earlier than I knew Jing Heng..."

Hearing this, Su Jin's heart skipped a beat.

But at this moment she asked:
"Su Jin, after you saw those photos of me and Xiao Zhidong, what was the first thought in your mind?"

Su Jin didn't say anything.

"It's okay, tell the truth."

Gu Lijun seemed to know what was going on in her heart, so she gently encouraged her.

Su Jin thought for a while, considered his wording, and then expressed his opinion:
"Actually, those photos are not obscene, but due to the particularity of Mr. Xiao Zhidong's identity and the fact that you are husband and wife with him now, it is easy to think that you are being adopted..."

This is the truth.

She doesn't want to hide.

Gu Lijun smiled lightly, with a strong sense of mockery in her laughter:
"Well, I was raised by him for many years, but not as a nuisance. At that time, my relationship with Xiao Zhidong was not bad..."

She slowly talked about her past.

Gu Lijun and Gu Lihua's hometown is in Anshi. Their father, Gu Yuan, is an architect, and their mother, Wan Wan, is a teacher. After marrying Gu Yuan, they became full-time wives because they had to take care of their two children.

Gu Lijun is two years older and is an older sister, and Gu Lihua is two years younger and is a younger brother.

Originally, they had a very warm home, with loving parents, loving siblings, a family of four, relying on their father to have enough food and clothing, and they were happy and harmonious.

Unexpectedly, one day, misfortune fell from the sky. Because of a typhoon, Gu Yuan went to the construction site to ask the workers to stop work and rest.

Unfortunately, on this day, a heavy object was blown off by the strong wind and hit Gu Yuan's leg. The good father just lost his feet and became a cripple.

Because of work-related injuries, Gu Yuan received a sum of compensation, but they lived in a third-tier city, so the compensation was not much.

The crippled Gu Yuan lost his fighting spirit and fell into a depression.

After losing her source of income, Wan Wan had to go out to work to earn a living wage to support her family.

Gu Principle stayed at home, sat in a wheelchair, and did some housework within his ability.

In this way, this family barely survived for a few more years.

In November when Gu Lijun was 11 years old, on a weekend, Wanwan went out to buy vegetables, but never came back. She met a robber on the way, and because of her resistance, she was pushed into the city river and drowned in her life. In the icy and bitter river, the murderer fled.

Unable to bear the blow, Gu Yuan cut an artery on his hind foot and followed after seeing Wan Wan's cold corpse.

In this way, the siblings lost their parents within two days, and their life has no support.

Afterwards, Gu Yuan and Wan Wan's funerals were arranged with the help of Gu Yuan's friends.

After the funeral, how to arrange the two children became a big problem.

Since Gu Yuan was the only son and Wan Wan was the only daughter, both parents of the husband and wife died, so there was no close relative who could take care of them and was willing to take them in.

(End of this chapter)