perfect hidden marriage

Chapter 218 She Was Forced to Marry and Have Children 2
Su Jin suddenly asked a question that had just occurred to her in her sleep:
"Gu Lijun, if there is an afterlife in this world, do you still want to meet Xiao Jingheng?"

Over there, Gu Lijun thought about the painful, happy, embarrassing, and sweet lives she had lived through. After thinking for a long time, she finally answered:
"forget about it."

After a pause, he said:

"If there is an afterlife, I don't want to be sponsored by Xiao Zhidong when I was 12 years old. I also don't want to get rid of Xiao Zhidong and pester Xiao Jingheng. I want to be simpler, and simpler. Life can be a little bit harder. But I don't want to love so bitterly, and all the fun of life is deprived... It's boring, it's so boring."

She bit the last sentence hard twice.

"Do you think your joy of life was taken away by fate, or by yourself?"

Su Jin asked again gently.

"What do you mean?"

Gu Lijun didn't understand, and frowned.

Su Jin didn't answer and asked again:

"Now, we are all going to die. Do you feel much regret? At the age of 32, you have not realized the value of your life. In the past five years, you have spent all your time trapped in your own tragedy. The pain of your life ...Gu Lijun, have you ever thought about it, maybe you could have avoided such pain..."

"Not so painful? How should I live?"

Gu Lijun was startled, and asked blankly.

"You can go abroad, you can choose to leave, get yourself out of the environment that traps you, let your heart get out of the love that has trapped you, and look at the world from a different perspective, use books, work, and other things. This kind of busyness to enrich myself and make myself look good, instead of frowning, isolating myself from society, and locking myself in a closed cage.

"Love is never the whole of life.

"If a woman can't get everything she wants in marriage and love, she can actually work hard to gain a sense of accomplishment in her career.

"Just like Dong Mingzhu, the female president of Gree Group. She failed in marriage and love, but she achieved great success in her career, which made her the most awe-inspiring strong woman in China today.

"What does this mean: If a person is blindly digging into a dead end, he is not a wise man.

"In terms of love, I am also a loser, and I have also been on the edge of a dead end.

"Of course, compared to your situation, mine seems insignificant.

"What I want to say is that only by letting go will there be a brand new future.

"One has to look forward, instead of taking the past and remembering the bitterness and joy of it all day long.

"In life, there are nine out of ten unsatisfactory things. If you succumb to fate, you have failed. If you overcome all suffering, looking back, those are just a glimpse of life...

"Just now I thought about my past carefully.

"I was suffering when I was young, but I was lucky when I was young. I have known and loved Su Mubai for so many years. Although the love has entered a dead end, the happiness he brought me in those years is indelible. No matter what he betrayed me for, I have no complaints." Yes, and also, meeting Hengyuan is another piece of luck in my life...

"If I die at this moment, I have no regrets; if I still live, it will make me cherish everything I have now..."

Su Jin exhausted all his strength and said everything he wanted to say, and after he finished speaking, his body felt weak for a while.

Gu Lijun fell silent in a daze, feeling the open-mindedness and insight in her words.

After death, there is nothing left. Only weak people want to use death to escape everything.

Thinking back then, when her father committed suicide, how much she hated his irresponsibility.

Now she is following in her father's footsteps.

"And you, if we can still live, what will you do?"

Su Jin asked softly again.

"Is it self-pitying and trapping yourself in Qiyuan, or going out, embracing another life with your heart, and facing a bigger world. Gu Lijun, what was your dream? Have you ever thought about realizing it again? "

"dream?"

Gu Lijun was startled.

What it is?
It seems to have owned it many years ago, but now it sounds so strange.

"Don't you have a dream?"

Su Jin asked suspiciously.

Gu Lijun didn't answer, she seemed to be in deep thought.

Su Jin continued:

"When I was studying, my dream was to be an excellent painter; after graduating from university, my dream was to be an excellent furnishing designer, trying to design each client's home into their favorite appearance... I hope they can live happily in that home and live a sweet and healthy life."

In the future, my dream is to be a qualified wife, a qualified mother, and go gray-haired with the man I love.

She didn't say this.

One is because it looks like empty talk in the current environment.

The second is that she is afraid that the expectation in the words will stimulate her.

So, she only made it up quietly in her heart.

Gu Lijun continued to meditate.

Because, she suddenly discovered that she had abandoned her dream for many years.

When she was studying, she studied financial management. Maybe she was afraid of poverty when she was a child. Her ambition is to be a strong woman, earn a lot of money, and live a comfortable life.

The reason why she chose this major was because Xiao Zhidong said that in the future, he could help her find a place in this field and help her play with money in the palm of her hand.

At that time, she had dreamed vigorously that in the future, she would become a female financial tycoon.

After the kidnapping case, this dream was completely shattered.

In the future—if there is a future, what would she want to do most?
Gu Lijun thought about it seriously.

"If I can get out alive, I want to go to the United States, I want to study, I want to go to Wall Street to get back what I lost.

"Go to his Xiao Zhidong, go to his Xiao Jingheng, I don't want them anymore, I want to start again, I want to live a wonderful life... Don't be stuck in Qiyuan, a poor rice worm. Except dawdling and waiting to die , useless.

"Yeah, that's what I should do.

"From childhood to adulthood, I have worked hard to read so many books, how can I just let it go to waste?

"Yes, in this world, except that death can end everything, everything else should not be taken into consideration...

"Success is like this, failure is like this...

"Be brave to endure all hardships, smile at everything, and step on all honor and disgrace, that is the most appropriate attitude in life. It is the attitude of the strong."

She murmured something very meaningful, and her tone was no longer too depressing.

In the deep darkness, Su Jin smiled unconsciously.

Because she sees it through!

OK!

that is really good……

"That's very well said."

She praised it from the bottom of her heart: The female man's anger suddenly exploded...

"That's not what I said."

When she came back to her senses, Gu Lijun gently corrected her.

"Oh, who said that?"

"My mother said so."

A trace of warmth passed through Gu Xiaojun's heart.

"After my father was disabled, our family relied on my mother's optimistic beliefs to support it for so many years. Once my mother left, the family collapsed. My father, like me, met Some difficulties, I chose to escape. This is probably because my dad had such a smooth life in the past [-] years, that when the storm hit, he had no power to resist."

"so what……"

Su Jin followed her tone and asked.

"So, in the future, I will live strong like my mother, and I must not choose death weakly to escape the pain brought by life like my father."

It can be heard that Gu Lijun's mental state at this moment is completely different from before.

"well said."

Su Jin lightly praised.

It's a pity that now they say that these are just an unrealistic vision.

When the passion passes, what they have to face is still the threat of death.

The cruel environment forced them to remain silent again.

At this moment, in their hearts, the desire for water surpasses everything else... The thirsty psychology occupies all the consciousness of the brain...

After sleeping for an unknown amount of time, Su Jin seemed to wake up again. She was getting weaker and weaker, and the surroundings were too quiet, as if the sound of breathing had ceased to exist.

She felt something was wrong, and cried out anxiously:
"Gu Lijun, Gu Lijun..."

The voice was getting quieter.

Throat hurts terribly.

Gu Lijun didn't respond.

"Gu Lijun... Gu Lijun..."

Su Jin cried out anxiously.

There was still no sound.

What's wrong with her?
Did you go?

This thought made Su Jin's heart tighten.

The desire to survive made her move her hands again and again. Although she knew that this kind of struggle was almost meaningless, she still wanted to give it a try.

Unexpectedly, a miracle appeared like this.

For some reason, the rope that bound her was loosened, and her hand was free again.

Yes, she is free.

The next moment, Su Jin sat up, and after recovering her physical strength, she went to untie the rope on her feet. It was very difficult to untie it, but she finally untied it.

She crawled over to the other side.

"Gu Lijun, wake up!"

Gu Lijun still didn't make any sound.

In the darkness, Su Jin groped and touched her exposed skin, which was very hot, probably caused by the wound on her body.

God, how can this be done?

She became anxious and confused, and kept groping around.

must go out.

Must go out.

But all she touched were iron plates, and she couldn't find the exit.

How to do?
How to do?
She bit her lip and searched unwillingly.

Later, at last, she felt something like a button, and when she pressed it, the iron plate went up a bit, and immediately after that, a gust of fresh air came in from the outside.

Su Jin was overjoyed and raised her head and hands.

After a few times of hard work, it slowly opened upwards.

She froze for a while, and after being imprisoned for an unknown amount of time, she was finally able to straighten up and stand up.

However, the light outside was also very dark, as if it was night, with a faint moonlight coming in from a small window in the distance.

(End of this chapter)