Did the actress get divorced today?

Chapter 406

Quiet for a few seconds.

You Qian looked at herself in the mirror again, her eyes were very focused, as if she wanted to examine every inch of herself carefully, every strand of her, down to the tiny hairs on her cheeks.

This person gave You Qian the feeling that it was her, but not her.

She still loves acting.

She still loves Song Zhicheng very much.

However, for these two people and things that she cared about, she was not honest enough to herself.

She wants to make many successful film and television dramas, and this has not changed from beginning to end.However, she used to simply like acting, and wanted to make some achievements for the career she loved.But what about now?Because Song Yichang and other elders of the Song Dynasty did not agree with it at the beginning, after the work was released, the audience criticized some flaws in her performance after the work was released, the director's disappointed eyes, the agency's abandonment due to the choice of interests...etc. Wait, because other people's disapproval made her want to grasp something and make her want to work harder. Let Tang Zheng, Zhou Jia, and other people in the studio who followed her choose her because of What she has achieved is nothing short of honor...

However, when she went further and further on this road, in order to gain the approval of most people, she began to gradually forget her original heart.

At first, she simply loved acting.She just wants to use drama to experience more people and things to make her life more exciting and complete.

But this initial love has gradually deteriorated. You Qian has always been aware of this slow fermentation process. She can clearly feel that if this change continues to develop, she will only make her own path narrower and narrower. Gradually lost on this road.

She wants to change.

She wants to regain her original aspirations, but because she is not honest enough with herself, she only needs to think about the disappointed eyes of her manager Tang Zheng, the snobbish eyes of investors, the bad-mouthing of the media, and the disappointment of fans... ...All of this made her dare not seek change.

She thought, why not keep the status quo like this, maybe the bad situation she expected will not happen?

You Qian twitched the corner of his mouth.

But, this kind of thing, how could it not happen if you don't want it to happen?Director Yu Ke's slightly disappointed eyes and his mediocre attitude towards her today are the best way to fight back.

It's strange, seeing other people's disappointed eyes, this moment really came, but You Qian didn't feel panicked, but had a feeling that it finally came.

In the past, she was always tense, so she never saw other people's disappointment in the performance. You Qian looked at the mirror, pursed her lips and smiled, it was time for her to fail in acting. After she was honest enough, the feeling of trying to fail did not make her very uncomfortable, but made her suddenly feel very at ease.

Looking at the mirror, You Qian thought, what kind of eyes are mixed with apprehension, anticipation, and restless admiration?

This feeling.

She has.

In the mirror, You Qian's eyes suddenly had a new change at that moment. This change seemed to make her live again in an instant.The person inside seems to have returned to several years ago, when she first knew that she loved Song Zhicheng, the shame, inferiority, cowardice, but unwillingness to give up...all kinds of complicated thoughts.

Although there are a lot of apprehensions, as long as I think of that person, I can see him and talk to him every day... my heart is always sweet.

From the beginning of love, even after marriage, she always manages her love silently by herself. When Song Zhicheng is not paying attention, she will secretly look at him with admiration. She will try to cook a lot of his favorite dishes every day to feed him. If he likes to eat the food he cooks so much, he will love him too...

This kind of admiration hidden deep in her heart sometimes makes her very tired, but most of the time, she is happy.

What now?
Are you still happy?

You Qian's eyes changed again.

Earlier, she said that she was not honest enough about her career, nor about Song Zhicheng's love.She was always like this, silently trying to change everything about herself for Song Zhicheng, catering to his preferences, but she forgot to trust and be honest with Song Zhicheng.

She never dared to confide her heart to Song Zhicheng honestly, because she was afraid of getting a disappointing answer.

But because of fear, do we have to keep running away?
The fear in her heart has always been there and will never stop, but she will not run away from it in the future.Whether it's her love for Song Zhicheng or her love for acting, she wants to find herself and face herself honestly.

Admiring eyes?
You Qian blinked, a pair of sparkling black eyes immediately brought out that kind of hazy admiration.

Looking at her own performance in the mirror, You Qian tilted her head and looked at it for a while, then suddenly smiled, and began to enjoy the performance again at this moment.

As for Song Zhicheng dating Li Sha again?
After the filming is over, she must call him personally to ask him what's going on. If he really doesn't want to live with her, or if he always messes with her like this, then they can just talk about it and let him stop Always entangle yourself, completely separate!How to arrange for the son, how to arrange for the grandfather... and other details are all negotiated.

All of this, You Qian experienced a long psychological change, but only in a few minutes.

You Qian tidied up her makeup and asked Zhou Jia, "Xiao Zhou, how long has it been?"

Zhou Jia glanced at You Qian, and she suddenly found that at this moment, You Qian seemed to have changed a little, as if the whole person had relieved the heavy burden in his heart, and the whole person became lighter. When Zhou Jia wanted to observe carefully , suddenly found that You Qian had returned to her previous appearance, it seemed that the changes just now were just her illusion.

However, the eyes have changed.

Just recover.

Zhou Jia thought so, and said with a smile, "It's just been 8 minutes."

Director Yu Ke only gave You Qian 10 minutes to tidy up.

You Qian smiled and said, "Let's go, don't make everyone wait."

Zhou Jia smiled immediately and said, "Okay. Qianqian, I believe you will be able to finish the filming smoothly today."

There was a faint smile on You Qian's mouth, and he said, "Are you so confident in me?"

Zhou Jia pushed the frame of the glasses and said solemnly: "Of course. Maybe you haven't realized that every time you face the camera, your eyes seem to sparkle like stars. It gives me the feeling that you are very happy, you are Sincerely love and enjoy acting, so I have always had confidence in you."

Zhou Jia hit the mark.

You smiled hoarsely.

It turns out that others can see better than oneself.

　It suddenly occurred to me that today is Christmas Eve, I wish everyone a Merry Christmas in advance, and then, this year is about to pass suddenly, which is a bit sad.

　　Everyone may have noticed that during this period of time, I was a little tired and a little slow in writing. I tried hard every day to tell myself to write more, but I just couldn't cheer up.This kind of burnout is not only reflected in writing, but also in my life. During this period of time, my emotions have been very repetitive. I know that readers will be disappointed and abandon me. I am afraid in my heart, but I just can’t clean myself up.I have thought about resting for a while to adjust my status, but I am afraid that after the rest, the rhythm of this article will not be able to pick up completely, so I still insist on updating every day.

　　However, I feel that although I have a deep sense of fatigue, I still try to adjust my emotions to the emotions of the protagonists of the article every day. The pace is a bit slow recently, but I really don’t mean to be perfunctory, at least subjectively. I don't want to perfunctory everyone.I love my babies who understand me so much, and also love to criticize my babies, which shows that everyone has expectations for me.This satisfies me.

　　Also recently I have been thinking about life, thinking about ideals, thinking about life, thinking a lot... I am a little depressed, I will adjust it carefully, try to find something to come out, love everyone (づ￣3￣)づ╭?～

　　
　
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